23 April 2026
A rotation is a dopamine hole that sucks you in and drains you of motivation.
I’ve learned this well now.
This year I’ve moved to a new city in a new country. Building a new life from scratch doing something I’ve never done before. So far I’m doing pretty good at it, mainly because I have nothing much else to distract me in this new environment. The girls are harder to game than where I was before, so I actually have to go back to GirlsChase and refine my seduction techniques if I want to get laid.
Then yesterday I came back to Bangkok for a brief trip. Ironically I watched
this video on the plane over about how to get out of a dopamine hole.
And upon landing I walked
right back in to my dopamine hole. Back to my rotation of girls who for some reason still haven't moved on. Back to endless, highly stimulating food. No friction, no challenge, just pure pleasure.
And I feel like SHIT. My motivation to do any of the really important stuff that I have to do now has just dropped off a cliff. Rather than doing the work, I’m looking through my phone to see which girl I can call over.
And now I see pretty clearly how my life went to shit last year. I lost my main source of income because I got too lazy to do the work and offloaded too much of it to AI. And I screwed up my finances because I was too lazy to actively manage my investments.
That was at the peak when I had 4-5 girls in my rotation. I didn’t prioritise work, social life, or even pickup skills. I was just enjoying a different girl each night.
My brain hates my new environment. The food isn’t as stimulating. The girls are hard to game, and results are inconsistent. It’s a life full of challenge, friction, uncertainty and anxiety.
But I’m making a hell of a lot of progress. I’ve built a new profitable scalable business in less than 4 months, and I’m starting to understand what the key to seduction is in this new environment (i.e. many of the insights I wrote about in this journal - stuff I forgot about because I was satiated with my easy rotation) - which I will write about in another post.
Now I’m pretty clear-headed. A rotation of girls gives me just enough novelty to keep me on the hamster wheel, but it does not satisfy me endlessly. What I really crave is the chase and pursuit of higher and higher quality - seducing hot girls, having amazing sex, AND converting them into lovers. That’s the process I must now return to that my cozy rotation distracted me from.
In my last post, I thought I had reached the pinnacle of seduction. Far from it. I am nowhere near my goal, and I don't think I will ever reach it.
And that's okay. I think that's the point of this all