I am hungry for drama and controversy from sex and relationships....

[Indian Race Troll (IRT)]

Maybe this is a symptom of not getting laid in high school or even much of college but I realized that I am hungry for the drama, mess, controversy, power games and those things that come from relationships than the actual sex itself.

Like to me, the dream scenario would be to date a hot girl, sleep with her friends behind her back, somehow find an indirect way to let her find out, and then just enjoy the shitshow that is to come. The more people know about it, the better. And I know I am fucked up for it, but I really want this....

Maybe I had too many drinks but sometimes, we tend to let too much of our real selves out when we drink.

Like I fantasize about dating a hot girl, cheating on her and her walking in to me cheating on her.

Its like because of all the shit I missed out growing up when people where going through this hot blooded drama shit with relationships, I can't get to a stage where I am maturing and having "healthy" views of women and sex.

Like it would be a dream to me to actually get into a relationship with a woman, cheat on her and have everyone know about it because that would fuel my ego so much.

It would be my dream to fuck a married woman just for the confidence I would get knowing she cheated on her guy with me.

All this because I feel like relationships get boring and lack excitement after you get a certain age. I feel like relationships are supposed to be boring and stale after your teenage or maybe college years.

Maybe my toxic views on relationships as an adult need to be fixed but I somehow got in my head that relationships are supposed to be boring, sucky and not fun as you get older.

 

[Seppuku]

Oh man I'm tired.

I divorced and found myself alone at age 45 in a very conservative Muslim country. Did I flagellate myself all day long and cry about how life is hard and unfair? Did I decide it was the end of the world and hanged myself? Did I complain all around how it is hard to be alone and how life is over after 30?

No man. I didn't. I moved my damn ass and made things happen. 3 years later I was sitting on top of 120 dates and 50 new lays. In case you question that, my journey is completely documented here.

So why can't you do the same, twenty years younger that me? You have no damn excuse.

Stop theorizing about how you're hungry for this and that. Stop writing about "dating hot girls" or your "dream scenario" or other fantasies. Stop writing what you "feel" relationships are like.

Stop saying you don't like black girls. Have you ever fucked one? Challenge your thinking! Go and try. After you've had one, come back and say if you liked or not. If you're in Atlanta and keep telling yourself you can't do black girls, you're doing yourself a disservice.

Stop writing about what you think relationships are. Go and get yourself one. Then come back and talk about it.

Stop all fucking excuses. You have none.

Kick your ass, go out, make things happen. Don't date a "hot girl", date *a* girl to begin with. Why do you think you will all of a sudden be with hot girls out of the blue? Work your way up! Hint: hot girls do not fantasize about whining guys.

Don't come back to this Boards with another piece of whining. This place is not a place of whining guys. It's a place where guys are actively taking action to make themselves better! Go out, and come back with a Field Report. Or don't come back at all.

But frankly I doubt you will do any of this. You posted a lot of stuff, and got plenty of very useful answers, but didn't seem to act on any of them. Heck, did you even read them.

Seppuku