LR  Lost my virginity, oh god what have i done

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This is kind of a weird report and a weird story, but it might be useful to some so screw it, imma post it.

Background
Just to give a lil background about me, I turned 19 last week, and started college this semester. I discovered Girlschase about 3 years ago and got super into seduction. I definitely could have lost my virginity back then, but I didn’t have a phone at the time, and messed up the few opportunities I did have anyway.

The peak of my attractiveness (game, charisma, fundamentals, everything) was about 2 years ago. I had just about every attractive girl in my year crushing on me, including the girl many would say was the outright hottest in my school. I also had the social ability to talk to and befriend pretty much everyone (I always kinda had this, but gc amplified and calibrated it). Anyway that peak ended when I rediscovered art and I was like screw all this socializing shiz, I just wanna draw.

Getting back into art put me in a vulnerable mindset for women, and last year in September some stuff happened with a girl that completely deleted my confidence (I had put all my focus on her like a fool), and so I took a break from “the game” because it stopped being fun for me. I had hoped I would bounce back soon, but instead I just became a really mediocre version of myself. My fundamentals got worse, my game became nonexistent, and I just straight up wasn’t having a very pleasant time, yo. I even lost my motivation for art.

This last summer was probably the most depressed/mediocre I’ve been in my life, but I forced myself to slowly bounce back. Part of my issue was that I felt disassociated with reality, so I wanted to get with an older woman who had her life together and who could make me feel things, someone who could ground me. Covid also over complicates things (and I live in a really small town), so I joined freaking match.com.

Meetup
Long story short I met this 37 year old woman who’s decently attractive. I think the line I first sent was "hi. Looking for a good time?". If anyone wants to use that online, you have my permission. At first she gave me shit saying stuff like “I don’t want to give lessons on fucking”, but I just persisted and about a month later I finally got her to come over to my town (this was all through text).

One of the issues that led to my downfall last year was the fact I was a virgin. Like how could I keep pretending I was good at sex when I’d never had sex? So really my goal in all of this was just to smash a girl and get some experience (keep in mind that my ability to provide a girl with an emotional experience and turn them on and make them want me was already really damn good at my peak, relatively speaking).

So this 37 y/o gets to my town and we go driving around the country for like an hour trying to find a place to get intimate. I’m mostly on autopilot as we converse and I find out more about her, but she enjoys the conversation. Eventually we find a place, get in the back of her car, and she starts giving me head. Something interesting is that this girl actually banned me from kissing her, cause it’s “too intimate”.

Anyway, my goal is to give her the best experience I can using all I know. A couple years ago, I played a little game called Rhythm Heaven in order to improve my rhythm, so my rhythm is already really good. I re-read a few Girlschase articles on sex in preparation.

SEX
I start fingering her while she gives me head. After, she gets on her back, grabs my mini-me and commences the love-making. Boom. Virginity lost. I’m going to go into gross detail now, so be prepared. I am in adapted missionary, and I start giving it to her slowly and gently at first, then I start going harder (keeping the rhythm of course). I think she came once or twice in this position, then I pulled out and she said “are you done?” and I said “no. turn around” and entered her in doggy style. Doggy style is not suited for car sex people, don’t do it. But I still make her come again here.

Then we stop doggy-style and she says “you haven’t come yet, have you?” and I say “nuh-uh” and she starts giving me another bj. I don’t feel much, and I ask her if she wants to ride. She complies, and it’s good, but I still don’t climax. I did do that one thing from the Ricardus article where I lifted my pelvis while she was on top, and she really liked that. Then I grab her ass so she stops moving and start fucking her from underneath really hard. She definitely would’ve climaxed (maybe she did), but I get too tired and stop :’(

Eventually we get back into adapted missionary. I start fucking her slowly and romantically, while kissing her neck and breathing on it. At the perfect moment I give her a simple kiss on the cheek. The timing and context made it feel so.. oomph, ya know? I don’t know how to describe it lol, it was just perfect, and one of my favorite things I did to her. Soon after this I start fucking her really hard, and getting much more passionate, and she starts getting LOUD. This was like the climax of the whole encounter.

Remember how she banned me from kissing her? Well at some point I just put my hands around her face and kiss the shiz out of her, and she just freaking ate that up. She starts kissing me back super good and immediately starts trying to tongue me down, but I don’t let her at first. Then we start french kissing and she puts her tongue deep into my mouth. So much for the no kissing rule. Then we stop kissing and I fuck her even harder than before, basically giving my max, and she is loving it. She’s got her arms around me, kissing my neck and shoulders, and then at some point she just wraps her arms and legs around me and gets super tight. As she hits her orgasm, I enter her as far as I can and hold it while I hold her tight. She's holding on really tight to me as well. Then we just stay still for a couple minutes, kind of catching our breaths. Eventually I get up and I just say “wow”.

Then I find out she likes anime (I do too). At some point she says “wow, you’re good at sex AND you like anime?”. I guess I’m good at sex and I like anime. Also, when I told her that I didn’t tell my parents when I left my house earlier that day, she said “for real? Wow, you’re bad at this. Well I mean, not at that [pointing to the back of the car]”.

So I guess I’m at the very least kinda good at sex. I know this girl has had a decent amount of lovers (she literally got with her supervisor just to get a promotion), although she did say something like two people should like each other for who they are or some shiz, so maybe she’s not super experienced. Who knows?

Epilogue
Anyway, I don't really know what to think of all this. To give more context on my mind, that girl who played me last year was one of the most genuine friends I've ever had. She chased me for a while, told me she loved me and then slept with another guy. I confronted her about it through text (I was sad yo) and found out she was pregnant the whole time. One of the last things she told me was that I was "disgusting", and that my perception of her was "evil".

That, plus the fact that she basically cucked me, kinda broke my masculinity. It also gave me this horrible paranoia, cause I didn't know if she had ruined my reputation at school.

To describe how I felt, when I first started getting better with women, I had to pretend I was confident. Then, I had great times with multiple attractive women and got real confidence. But after the shiz described above, it felt like I was faking unconfidence. Logically, I knew women were attracted to me, but emotionally I was like na

I guess I've lost touch with what women are attracted to. Is it unconfidence? Just my brain doing weird stuff? idk chiefs.

I never thought I would be one of the guys who is good (decent) in bed but bad at convincing women of it, but that's where I'm at right now. I used to be the opposite (or at least didn't know for sure if I was good in bed or not. Actually, I probably would've been better before since I was so much more dominant). I'll figure everything out eventually. I need to get good at cold-approaching, and get way better at sex, too.

For now tho im gonna whoop some ass online with Enderman in smash bros >>>>:^)
 

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Props on getting yourself some juicy milf ass. And on getting all those sex skill compliments on your first bang sesh, lol.

Regarding that girl in school who got pregnant with another guy after telling you she loved you and chasing you...I think you're overthinking everything. It was most likely a case of a girl you lost your window of opportunity with who moved onto another dude...If you'd played your cards right she'd have done you.

The good news is you're still really young, have your life ahead of you, and are now entering college in the US, which is basically an Ancient Roman orgy that lasts 4 years. With practice, you'll learn to miss fewer and fewer WoOs ;)
 

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Nice lay bud. Not sure why you thought the report and story was weird. These types of posts are weird to the outside world because you're describing a sexual encounter in great detail with a person who isn't aware you're writing about them. They question why you over think or analyze things while they remain oblivious and ignorant of their own behaviors.

I will assume that when you said that you were at your peak in attractiveness and fundamentals a couple of years you were in high school since you're just now going into college. Just keep in mind college is far different from high school so what you may have experienced in hs may not carry over to college. Whether that's attention,attraction from girls,ease of socialization etc. Some things may come easier and some may be harder. Covid may also alter your college experience.

Also when you said "oh god what have I done" in your title something drastic happened like you got a std or her pregnant or something along those lines lol. Little clickbait there.
 

ElChe

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Props on getting yourself some juicy milf ass. And on getting all those sex skill compliments on your first bang sesh, lol.

Regarding that girl in school who got pregnant with another guy after telling you she loved you and chasing you...I think you're overthinking everything. It was most likely a case of a girl you lost your window of opportunity with who moved onto another dude...If you'd played your cards right she'd have done you.

The good news is you're still really young, have your life ahead of you, and are now entering college in the US, which is basically an Ancient Roman orgy that lasts 4 years. With practice, you'll learn to miss fewer and fewer WoOs ;)
Thanks for the encouraging words man. You're right about that pregnant chick. I think because it affected me so much at the time, I've been like wanting to discover some deeper meaning behind the whole thing, but really it's just simple. I messed up some things, but as the woman from the LR told me, life's a series of mistakes, and we use those mistakes to learn valuable lessons. I think. it was something like that i dont really remember
 

ElChe

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Nice lay bud. Not sure why you thought the report and story was weird. These types of posts are weird to the outside world because you're describing a sexual encounter in great detail with a person who isn't aware you're writing about them. They question why you over think or analyze things while they remain oblivious and ignorant of their own behaviors.

I will assume that when you said that you were at your peak in attractiveness and fundamentals a couple of years you were in high school since you're just now going into college. Just keep in mind college is far different from high school so what you may have experienced in hs may not carry over to college. Whether that's attention,attraction from girls,ease of socialization etc. Some things may come easier and some may be harder. Covid may also alter your college experience.

Also when you said "oh god what have I done" in your title something drastic happened like you got a std or her pregnant or something along those lines lol. Little clickbait there.
Thanks dude. Honestly, right now I am one of those people who are oblivious to their own behavior (at least in comparison to the intense meta view that I used to try to have). I definitely could've gone way more in-depth in the LR, but I think the guys who might read it who are virgins get the message at least-- do your girlschase homework, play Rhythm Heaven and you'll be fine on your first time. I also literally had only ever kissed one girl before the encounter and never fingered a girl or anything, so no excuses friendos. Get fuckin. or dont idc

Yea my "peak" was during highschool, but it wasn't specifically in highschool. It's more just like I was more intense about every way I could be attractive/ better at socializing. College is kinda scary right now for me since I've been so out of it socially, but hopefully I'll get it together by the time I move out for 4-year.

I actually wasn't trying to be clickbaity, I was going for more like "oh god I've lost my virginity:eek:". Oops. Might put a disclaimer lol
 

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Congrats bro! Are we like virginity twins? Lmao

Lost my virginity to a pro shortly after 21, I'm 22 now. BUT last weekend was my first real lay (to a 42 y/o).

I didn't read that you came anywhere. Did you cum?
I don't cum easily either. A pro once told me it was cuz I masturbated too hard.

I could keep writing, but I don't know if you came or not. Or are interested in resolving that. So I'm not going on a masturbation rant in your thread.
 

ElChe

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Congrats bro! Are we like virginity twins? Lmao

Lost my virginity to a pro shortly after 21, I'm 22 now. BUT last weekend was my first real lay (to a 42 y/o).

I didn't read that you came anywhere. Did you cum?
I don't cum easily either. A pro once told me it was cuz I masturbated too hard.

I could keep writing, but I don't know if you came or not. Or are interested in resolving that. So I'm not going on a masturbation rant in your thread.
thanks brudder. Nah didn't nut during the encounter, though I got pretty close at the end. I think it was for 2 primary reasons-

1. I masturbated twice earlier that day like a horny fool, kind of due to the fact I knew I could be getting laid later but I also ran into this girl the day before who really turned me on.

2. while we were fucking I couldn't see my partner, cause it was night and she turned the lights off in her car. She isn't unattractive-- before we started fuckin I watched her as she walked into a gas station; she's got some killer hips and ass, and she has an extremely sexy walk. Her boobs are also really nice. I wanted to see all this while I was smashing her, but I couldn't see shiz >:T

I don't think it's an issue for me, but hey if you've got a masturbation rant I'd be down to read it.
 

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Nice. I'm more interested and curious in how you got her to bang
Long story short I met this 37 year old woman who’s decently attractive. I think the line I first sent was "hi. Looking for a good time?".
Did you meet her on social media? In person and text her on social media? And how did you bring the whole thing around, "looking for a good time" is kinda rude, or am I too pure? Haha.
 

ElChe

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Nice. I'm more interested and curious in how you got her to bang

Did you meet her on social media? In person and text her on social media? And how did you bring the whole thing around, "looking for a good time" is kinda rude, or am I too pure? Haha.
I met her on match.com. What she responded to "hi. Looking for a good time?" was "sure! have your dad hit me up ". I think I sent a broken heart emoji, and she sent a shrug emoji. Then I said something like 'maybe you should give a young guy like me a try. Who knows, It could become a new addiction". Then that's when she said "I'm just not trying to give lessons on fucking".

I said some dumb stuff like if I can't make you come I'll make a sandwich out of my own nutsack and give it to you as a gift (stolen from Etika. Rest in peace Etika ). Anyway this conversation went nowhere and I stopped texting her and using the "good time" line. The line did kinda work, a lot of girls responded and looked at my profile, but they didn't respond favorably. There's obviously better lines; I was going for sexually direct but idk if slightly indirect is better. It's fudging match.com so girls aren't getting hit up by that many dude's with super good photos, so if someone does have super good photos they might do way better with more indirect. Anyway I'm probably done with online dating forever because it was really frustrating and not fun.

Back to the women from the LR, maybe a week later after that initial interaction I texted her something like "Hey Jacquelyn!(not her real name) How's it going? Taking some good dick these days? ". She said "I don't kiss and tell". I sent "I'll interpret that as 'no dick '. But it's okay beautiful, because I'm here for you. Just say the word". She responded "you turn 21 yet?" (cause she previously gave me shit because I wasn't old enough to drink). I said "babe. Why you gotta bring that up babe." (inspired by Dave Chappelle's pre-mature ejaculation joke).

We went back and forth a bit again and I realized that if she was still responding to me, it probably meant she was interested. I kind of pointed this out too after she said something particularly harsh (forgot what it was). Eventually I gave her an ultimatum and she said "ok honey, how about I give you my number and I'll hit you up when I wanna get laid. That's about all I can do for you now". She basically tried to turn my ultimatum around, but she was still investing, and when I texted her number if you read between the lines you could tell she was interested.

So I just kept persisting and asking her out. I built a lil bit of rapport over text at one point, and passed a few tests-- "why are you going for an older woman?", "how do I know you're gonna be worth my time?". I just sent a shrug emoji at the latter, and explained that younger women play too many games to the former. This girl is very sexually open, and she outright said she was going to fuck me, but I never said anything as overt. When we finally met up in person she told me if I hadn't been so persistent she wouldn't have met up with me, although I didn't inquire more about what made her agree to smash me after we slept together (I didn't really care tbh).
 

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thanks brudder. Nah didn't nut during the encounter, though I got pretty close at the end. I think it was for 2 primary reasons-

I don't think it's an issue for me, but hey if you've got a masturbation rant I'd be down to read it.

Haha, ya! Cumming twice will do that to you

I fucked a dime -- dog raw -- recently (pro loved my dickin), and still couldn't cum after she tried everything in her playbook. So I can def tell you what to avoid when jerking off, and what I'm doing to remedy this.

Your sensitivity goes to shit when you masturbate too hard & fast. I tightly glide my foreskin over my head at fucking light speed, stop breathing, and tighten my leg muscles. This is fucking horrible. Especially if you mix porn into it (doesn't matter if it's 2D or 3D; hentai or real; video game or video). I've been using a lighter touch and less/no porn, but it didn't help when it came time to explode. I did feel her pussy, unlike previous times where I barely felt a thing.

So short of buying a toy pussy or going all no nut november brazy. Use lube, touch your whole penis, and don't go any rougher than what you normally would with a girl. Them niggas at no fap say going 90 days no sex or masturbation will cure it. lol they trippin, bruh That's literally against our biology, but if you can do it; more power to ya bruh.

Seems like your sensitivity is better than mine, though.

It's part mental, part physical. I used to masturbate a lot sitting on a toilet. So I tried masturbating in a couch then at the hotel's toilet. Got a harder erection at the toilet.

Make of that what you will.
 

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Them niggas at no fap say going 90 days no sex or masturbation will cure it. lol they trippin, bruh That's literally against our biology, but if you can do it; more power to ya bruh.

Seems like your sensitivity is better than mine, though.

It's part mental, part physical. I used to masturbate a lot sitting on a toilet. So I tried masturbating in a couch then at the hotel's toilet. Got a harder erection at the toilet.

Make of that what you will.
Yeah I be reading crazy shit at nofap like they on day 180 of no pmo just to "reboot" and i'm like there's no way i'm going that long without jerking off lol. Sure it will help,but I think you can be good by not jerking off for a shorter amount of time like 30 days.

Eating fruits and vegetables and lifting weights will help you get wood. If you get wood you should think of women you see or know IRL. It helps to sexualize women that you see with your own eyes. Makes you appreciate them more and not look to replace them with porn. Fuck all that "your objectifying women" bullshit. It's healthy to lust for women and you should do it.

Btw how did your experience with a pro feel? Did you regret it afterwards and think damn I had to pay just to get some pu$$y? You got a real lay afterwards so not like you only had that.
 

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It's healthy to lust for women and you should do it.
Agreed

Btw how did your experience with a pro feel? Did you regret it afterwards and think damn I had to pay just to get some pu$$y? You got a real lay afterwards so not like you only had that.
It's an expensive hobby. I did both. Got a real lay 1 1/2 years later, and have had many fake lays. Then fucked a pro so well, I fucked her fr fr. Timing played a big role in both.

I can't tell you how it will feel; I don't know you. Bad things can happen. And that's on you. A friend was robbed and I've had some less-than-pleasant experiences. Every working woman is different and has her own reasons why she got into that line of work.

Are you a virgin?

What I can say is that my first time I didn't care because I finally had sex. It also helped that the girl was relatively new and we clicked. Your experience will vary by the girl you pick. Your game will determine the quality of said experience. At least where I'm at, you could party 5 - 7 nights vs 1 session with a pro. I don't have much free time between my normal work and my business; in addition to life stuff like working out, cooking, and other shit.

In the end I fucked the 42 year old once more before kicking her out of my life. She got too needy.

If you're still curious PM me or make a new thread we'll continue there. I don't want to derail this thread with pro talk
 

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I turned 19 last week
The peak of my attractiveness (game, charisma, fundamentals, everything) was about 2 years ago.
Lol what? How can your peak of attractiveness be as 17 as a man? I know that maybe you just mean you're in a bit of a slump, but hey.

Covid also over complicates things (and I live in a really small town)
Tell me about it, props to you for managing to lose your V-card in this shitstorm we living in!
"hi. Looking for a good time?"
Not a bad opener tbh, I've been trying to improve my Tinder game lately, which was literally non-existent (the only girl I slept with before was because I got lucky that she saw me in person at the mall randomly lol, and I have great fundies).

I think she came once or twice in this position, then I pulled out and she said “are you done?” and I said “no.
Lol my first time went a bit like this as well, I also was reading Girls Chase for a while and had good game, but living with my parents deff fucked up a lot of lays for me. Now that I'm fully independant and have my own place, guess what, this whole Corona shit starts.
Don't forget to enjoy the sex yourself too, some girls get weird if you only give (believe it or not, even after cumming hard they might feel devalued after sex if you don't cum and you don't handle their emotions properly after). But well done mate.

Taking some good dick these days? ". She said "I don't kiss and tell". I sent "I'll interpret that as 'no dick '. But it's okay beautiful, because I'm here for you.
Lol kid you're fucking savage, I wish I was more like you, tbh. But I already got "shadowbanned" on Tinder, and I've read people avoid being overly sexual because it will easily get you reported and banned. But maybe I should risk it, this crap isn't giving me much return anyways (I match with a few hotties, but girls rarely ever respond to my texts).
 

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Lol what? How can your peak of attractiveness be as 17 as a man? I know that maybe you just mean you're in a bit of a slump, but hey.


Tell me about it, props to you for managing to lose your V-card in this shitstorm we living in!

Not a bad opener tbh, I've been trying to improve my Tinder game lately, which was literally non-existent (the only girl I slept with before was because I got lucky that she saw me in person at the mall randomly lol, and I have great fundies).


Lol my first time went a bit like this as well, I also was reading Girls Chase for a while and had good game, but living with my parents deff fucked up a lot of lays for me. Now that I'm fully independant and have my own place, guess what, this whole Corona shit starts.
Don't forget to enjoy the sex yourself too, some girls get weird if you only give (believe it or not, even after cumming hard they might feel devalued after sex if you don't cum and you don't handle their emotions properly after). But well done mate.


Lol kid you're fucking savage, I wish I was more like you, tbh. But I already got "shadowbanned" on Tinder, and I've read people avoid being overly sexual because it will easily get you reported and banned. But maybe I should risk it, this crap isn't giving me much return anyways (I match with a few hotties, but girls rarely ever respond to my texts).
damn dude you're honestly right. I was way more focused before but I guess at my core, being older and more experienced means I'm more attractive. That's definitely a more positive way to view things. >:^) thanks

when it comes to online game, I feel like it just ain't worth it, at least for me. Online all your fundamentals and charisma aren't worth shiz, and you instead have to invest in good pictures and just send tons and tons of texts. It's like.. is that even a skill? It's like a video game that requires you to mindlessly grind a bunch of levels, and once you do you get results but then feel completely empty inside afterwards. That's why I kinda felt bad about losing my V-card through online, even tho I'm glad I don't have to worry about it anymore.
 

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It's like.. is that even a skill? It's like a video game that requires you to mindlessly grind a bunch of levels, and once you do you get results but then feel completely empty inside afterwards.
Lol I know what you mean, the girl I slept on Tinder lately also was a very... empty experience, dare I say. It's not like she was a bad person, I actually liked her, but the fact that the online persona (photos, communication style, etc) don't quite match the real person is a bit of a jarring feeling, at first. I had sex with her, because I was like, ok, I can get it, but afterwards I was like "what was the point of that, really".

I have a friend that's kinda cleaning up on Tinder (he's sleeping with like 5 girls at the same time, some he slept before, but most new girls from online), but he's got a great body (he practices judo and keep his weight low for competitions) and he's just the stereotypical hetero guy, you know, like girls tell me I'm hotter, but still he seems to have an easier time with girls on those situations (like how guys approach "7s and 8s" way more than "9s and 10s"), so I'm kinda frustrated with the situation.
I always wanted to learn daygame, and I think the time is now, even with the environment as weird as it is.

But don't feel too bad about it, more girls are to come, good luck on your journey man!
 
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