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I will give a bit of background and context here. ( Btw my former name was.
Spyce d)
Since childhood my life was filled with lot of experiences but generally it aligned more with the negative. Middle school days were filled with bullying, abuse ( verbal , physical and even sexual ) , humiliation and all those things had lead me in a weird mindset. And that also lead me into all my vices like compulsive internet usage, porn usage etc. in that time and all that had fucked up my inner self.
You know that how some posts of mine used to be just about trying to overcome fear, anxiety, and all those weird things. And how I was never able to take action and also got hooked to smoking and drinking.
But right now, I am all healed up.
I no longer have any anxiety or panic that used to have back in the past. Nor do I feel any emotional reaction when such thoughts come up.
I am more cool headed than i have ever been in my life. I don't even have my daily evening anxiety that I had for many years.
Even, in career .... I no longer feel that I will fail and my mind automatically thinks of confronting problems rather than running away from it.
I do feel like my life has gotten too peaceful to the point where I feel that it's something that I had never experienced. Cuz even though i have all the material luxuries in life but never had peace of mind.
My identity feels more masculine, now.
All the past fears and trauma based arousal symptoms that had been causing me anxiety ha e vanished or are not making me react emotionally.
I would just say that all this is making me a bit lazy tho and like what do I do now. Lol.
I will definitely write what I did to solve all issues in detail in future.
But as for now. I can say that girlschase and the gents of this forum had a big role in helping me. I got to know about this website when I first searched for how to get out of depression on Google many years ago.
So, thank you so much. And other than that I would say that daily journaling, meditation, taking action in different fields ( even though i would end up failing in lot of them cuz of my inner issues), traveling, learning pickup, dating, mma , living in different city, talking with close friends and even to psychologists ( they werent much of help but it gave me new experiences in life).
I feel like my life has just started.
Spyce d)
Since childhood my life was filled with lot of experiences but generally it aligned more with the negative. Middle school days were filled with bullying, abuse ( verbal , physical and even sexual ) , humiliation and all those things had lead me in a weird mindset. And that also lead me into all my vices like compulsive internet usage, porn usage etc. in that time and all that had fucked up my inner self.
You know that how some posts of mine used to be just about trying to overcome fear, anxiety, and all those weird things. And how I was never able to take action and also got hooked to smoking and drinking.
But right now, I am all healed up.
I no longer have any anxiety or panic that used to have back in the past. Nor do I feel any emotional reaction when such thoughts come up.
I am more cool headed than i have ever been in my life. I don't even have my daily evening anxiety that I had for many years.
Even, in career .... I no longer feel that I will fail and my mind automatically thinks of confronting problems rather than running away from it.
I do feel like my life has gotten too peaceful to the point where I feel that it's something that I had never experienced. Cuz even though i have all the material luxuries in life but never had peace of mind.
My identity feels more masculine, now.
All the past fears and trauma based arousal symptoms that had been causing me anxiety ha e vanished or are not making me react emotionally.
I would just say that all this is making me a bit lazy tho and like what do I do now. Lol.
I will definitely write what I did to solve all issues in detail in future.
But as for now. I can say that girlschase and the gents of this forum had a big role in helping me. I got to know about this website when I first searched for how to get out of depression on Google many years ago.
So, thank you so much. And other than that I would say that daily journaling, meditation, taking action in different fields ( even though i would end up failing in lot of them cuz of my inner issues), traveling, learning pickup, dating, mma , living in different city, talking with close friends and even to psychologists ( they werent much of help but it gave me new experiences in life).
I feel like my life has just started.
