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2026-03-14 - Parked at a food co-op and saw a weird tall girl crossing the street. Inside she bought like four packages of prunes. On the way out I saw she had a straight up bushy neck beard. Looked like hormone replacement. Saw her (them?) sitting at a bus stop later scarfing the prunes down.
In a coffee shop I saw this older girl with awesome hair, so asked her what products she uses. I think she was married. She was not super smiley, but was feeling herself (not literally) about the work she puts into her hair. She wrote the products on a napkin for me with my pen. I got her name and did the handclasp but didn't get a high compliance read. Same with the eyes. Again, I'm pretty sure she had a ring so there was skepticism there. The barista guy was smiling. I got a tiny cookie so I could hit a better coffee shop after. I thanked her again and touched her arm on the way out. She said you're welcome. Then I saw a cute young girl was right behind us. I was already moving out. Not sure how I could have opened in that moment.
Later on I walked by a coffee shop window not intending to go in that one. There was a really cute young curly redhead wearing a very dainty little spaghetti strap top. She was working on her iPad with a pen. I spun the block and decided to try their coffee. So I got a cortado and sat a chair away from her. She moved her purse down. I said you can leave it and she said sorry. She had headphones so I don't think she heard me. A cortado is small so I nursed it looking out the window relaxing. It's an ok length of time without reading on a phone, just people watching out the window. Then I got up and slowly did my coat up so she could get a sense I was on the way out.
I waved a hand up and she took her headphone out. I said I'm about to leave and see you're studying, but could I bother you for a favor quick... Could you tell me what the time is? She complied. I pointed to her iPad chemistry diagrams and said it looks like you're working on a cure for cancer. She said she had an organic chemistry exam. I asked what she wants to do if not cure cancer. She said childhood neurological development, but she hadn't declared a major yet. She was probably 19 or 20.
I told her about this brain study I knew of and she said it was exactly the kind of thing she's interested in, but I completely missed this opportunity to take it anywhere. I said I didn't want to take her away from studying (pacing her reality, but false!), and said I really liked her style, with the nice little watch and ring and everything. I ejected here.
Unfortunately I really dropped the ball on arousal. I could have asked to see the jewelry and broke the touch barrier, teased her for reading the time on her device instead of her watch, or asked why she's studying for something so important here instead of at the library... Maybe hoping she'd meet a handsome stranger who would force her to take a much needed break?
Sexual chase framing is missing from my habits, but that is the point of recapping like this. It was extremely crowded. She kept really good eye contact the whole time. I was clean shaven, button up, wool coat. She looked like a girl who dressed a little nicer on the regular. Such a shame. I passed by again later and thought of tapping on the window to get her to give me the updated time with her fingers, then doing some sort of calling hand signal or point like you and me and mimic drinking something. Maybe one day I'll be so bold. Need to deadlift. I think testosterone's a risk taking chemical after all.
One Asian was about to cross a red light with me after I started, but a car came. I said oh we're about to get hit. She smiled and soon after brushed her hair back on both sides. Seemed pretty shy. Dropped the ball again. She had pinstripe dress pants. Should have asked if she was a gangster.
On the sidewalk I saw this girl come at me with an undone jacket and a blouse with her tits popping out. I licked my lips and she looked at me smiling. What am I supposed to say when she is barreling past like that, even with a little eye contact looking open... "You can't look at me like that and not say hi" (Cajun)?. It reminded me of seeing a girl in a bright red skimpy top on the way to class once. Some girls are signalling they want to meet a mate.
And then I stopped a girl to ask about her coat because I legit was interested in getting a similar one. So I got the brand. She was really pretty and appreciative! Compliance/compliment. Blonde, no makeup. Again I didn't take it anywhere.
What the fuck.
***
At least I'm feeling like a different person.
Onwards and... Oh yeah I switched from joints to gummies. That's why I can approach now. It removed all the self consciousness of having fucked up sinuses, and also all the burnout sensation that takes you off your game. Maybe I'll ease off over time and get even more presence. It would probably give me more vitality too.
Just need a little more testosterone.
In a coffee shop I saw this older girl with awesome hair, so asked her what products she uses. I think she was married. She was not super smiley, but was feeling herself (not literally) about the work she puts into her hair. She wrote the products on a napkin for me with my pen. I got her name and did the handclasp but didn't get a high compliance read. Same with the eyes. Again, I'm pretty sure she had a ring so there was skepticism there. The barista guy was smiling. I got a tiny cookie so I could hit a better coffee shop after. I thanked her again and touched her arm on the way out. She said you're welcome. Then I saw a cute young girl was right behind us. I was already moving out. Not sure how I could have opened in that moment.
Later on I walked by a coffee shop window not intending to go in that one. There was a really cute young curly redhead wearing a very dainty little spaghetti strap top. She was working on her iPad with a pen. I spun the block and decided to try their coffee. So I got a cortado and sat a chair away from her. She moved her purse down. I said you can leave it and she said sorry. She had headphones so I don't think she heard me. A cortado is small so I nursed it looking out the window relaxing. It's an ok length of time without reading on a phone, just people watching out the window. Then I got up and slowly did my coat up so she could get a sense I was on the way out.
I waved a hand up and she took her headphone out. I said I'm about to leave and see you're studying, but could I bother you for a favor quick... Could you tell me what the time is? She complied. I pointed to her iPad chemistry diagrams and said it looks like you're working on a cure for cancer. She said she had an organic chemistry exam. I asked what she wants to do if not cure cancer. She said childhood neurological development, but she hadn't declared a major yet. She was probably 19 or 20.
I told her about this brain study I knew of and she said it was exactly the kind of thing she's interested in, but I completely missed this opportunity to take it anywhere. I said I didn't want to take her away from studying (pacing her reality, but false!), and said I really liked her style, with the nice little watch and ring and everything. I ejected here.
Unfortunately I really dropped the ball on arousal. I could have asked to see the jewelry and broke the touch barrier, teased her for reading the time on her device instead of her watch, or asked why she's studying for something so important here instead of at the library... Maybe hoping she'd meet a handsome stranger who would force her to take a much needed break?
Sexual chase framing is missing from my habits, but that is the point of recapping like this. It was extremely crowded. She kept really good eye contact the whole time. I was clean shaven, button up, wool coat. She looked like a girl who dressed a little nicer on the regular. Such a shame. I passed by again later and thought of tapping on the window to get her to give me the updated time with her fingers, then doing some sort of calling hand signal or point like you and me and mimic drinking something. Maybe one day I'll be so bold. Need to deadlift. I think testosterone's a risk taking chemical after all.
One Asian was about to cross a red light with me after I started, but a car came. I said oh we're about to get hit. She smiled and soon after brushed her hair back on both sides. Seemed pretty shy. Dropped the ball again. She had pinstripe dress pants. Should have asked if she was a gangster.
On the sidewalk I saw this girl come at me with an undone jacket and a blouse with her tits popping out. I licked my lips and she looked at me smiling. What am I supposed to say when she is barreling past like that, even with a little eye contact looking open... "You can't look at me like that and not say hi" (Cajun)?. It reminded me of seeing a girl in a bright red skimpy top on the way to class once. Some girls are signalling they want to meet a mate.
And then I stopped a girl to ask about her coat because I legit was interested in getting a similar one. So I got the brand. She was really pretty and appreciative! Compliance/compliment. Blonde, no makeup. Again I didn't take it anywhere.
What the fuck.
***
At least I'm feeling like a different person.
Onwards and... Oh yeah I switched from joints to gummies. That's why I can approach now. It removed all the self consciousness of having fucked up sinuses, and also all the burnout sensation that takes you off your game. Maybe I'll ease off over time and get even more presence. It would probably give me more vitality too.
Just need a little more testosterone.
