Hey guys,
I found myself in a shit position.
I went on a date with a girl 3 times over the span of a month and didn’t do anything. We had a great time on our dates but I didn’t escalate and kiss her. I really like this girl. Usually I’m very chill with women and don’t give a fuck but when it comes to her I’am like a teenager. I get butterflies in my stomach. I got scared will she accept my dates when i asked her for them. And when i needed to call her i was shitting myself. Then she was out of town for 2 months and we agreed to see each other when she comes back. This dynamic is bulshit, and if I played my game and did my thing the way I should’ve everything would be different. But sometimes rough stuff hits you and you get in your head and do stuff opposite of what you should. Before we set up the 3d date (which I thought wouldn’t happen since I didn’t do anything on the first 2) I was at a house party of a friend. The social circle there is big and one of the girls there is BFF with the girl I went on dates with. The other notable person there was probably the only single other girl there. She is not my type and Isn’t anything special. But the beast mode from before kicked in. And i flirted with her there and we setup a date for tomorrow because she got drunk and I said I didn’t want to use her in that state. Tomorrow on the date I closed, we kissed but bad logistics prevented me to bed her so we setup another date in a couple of days. Then in 3 days I arranged a date with the first girl the final one. Again I got in my head and didn’t do nothing. Then comes her 2 months away which is actually closer to 2 and a half. Day after the date with the main (1st girl) after my gym session I run into a milf cold approach her and get her number. Her husband passed away she has a 4 y old kid. 17 years old than me. After a month of texting and 2 dates we arrange to meet in a little apartment she rented for us and I fuck her. Sex is nothing special but as an experience I am more than delighted to have it. During that month I saw the girl from the social circle party once or twice sometime every week. Coffee dates with kisses nothing special. She fell for me a lot started bringing me small gifts and giving me some of her books to read. We connected on that. Second week third or 4th date not sure to be exact. I asked her to come over. She was a mess. And pissed at me i tried to escalate she wouldn’t have it so I said I’m gonna grab my jacket lets go for a coffee. After that next 3/4 times we saw each other it was so platonic and no touching kissing nothing. No kiss in 2 plus weeks. I had enough and we arranged to meet. I told her how I’m seeing her more as a friend now and she wouldn’t have it. We agreed that we will try more. And the next date I was okay lets go again and I kissed her again and after that next month i had some dark stuff and again was a bit cold with her but better than before we kissed and petted… nearing the
end of the month i bedded the MILF and day after the girl I was seeing she was celebrating
her birthday. I was all over her and the social circle was watching. Tomorrow I went to her place of work and started playing with her boobs and pussy and she jerked me off. And next day again i come and we have fun but I brought a condom. And she says she is a virgin. Then I figured some stuff out from before it all clicked. Now comes the moment when the first girl (unsuccessful dates) comes back and I call her no answer, text her if she came back, she responds she did, I ask to meet no response in a day so I say thats it. A couple of days after me and the girl I fingered on her job now
go see a movie and I’m fingering her again and she is playing with me. After the social circle invites me to join them for a party. And i get the text from the first girl: Of course we can see each other but we need to define the relation between us. I really like you, and (her best friend) told me you have a girlfriend. But i think we can be friends, and I would think that is why you called me 
My head goes boom.
So now me and the girl I fingered in the job go to the social circle gathering. I would’ve preference to go alone but I couldn’t. And in the bar we met everyone was saying his girlfriend bla bla they are together. We never talked abkut our relationship and never defined it. I’m torn I don’t know what to do.
I don’t want to hurt her feelings especially since I got to know her and I don’t want bas blood in the social circle since she is a long time Very close friend with two of them from the circle. On the other hand I really like the other one and can’t stop thinking about her.
I found myself in a shit position.
I went on a date with a girl 3 times over the span of a month and didn’t do anything. We had a great time on our dates but I didn’t escalate and kiss her. I really like this girl. Usually I’m very chill with women and don’t give a fuck but when it comes to her I’am like a teenager. I get butterflies in my stomach. I got scared will she accept my dates when i asked her for them. And when i needed to call her i was shitting myself. Then she was out of town for 2 months and we agreed to see each other when she comes back. This dynamic is bulshit, and if I played my game and did my thing the way I should’ve everything would be different. But sometimes rough stuff hits you and you get in your head and do stuff opposite of what you should. Before we set up the 3d date (which I thought wouldn’t happen since I didn’t do anything on the first 2) I was at a house party of a friend. The social circle there is big and one of the girls there is BFF with the girl I went on dates with. The other notable person there was probably the only single other girl there. She is not my type and Isn’t anything special. But the beast mode from before kicked in. And i flirted with her there and we setup a date for tomorrow because she got drunk and I said I didn’t want to use her in that state. Tomorrow on the date I closed, we kissed but bad logistics prevented me to bed her so we setup another date in a couple of days. Then in 3 days I arranged a date with the first girl the final one. Again I got in my head and didn’t do nothing. Then comes her 2 months away which is actually closer to 2 and a half. Day after the date with the main (1st girl) after my gym session I run into a milf cold approach her and get her number. Her husband passed away she has a 4 y old kid. 17 years old than me. After a month of texting and 2 dates we arrange to meet in a little apartment she rented for us and I fuck her. Sex is nothing special but as an experience I am more than delighted to have it. During that month I saw the girl from the social circle party once or twice sometime every week. Coffee dates with kisses nothing special. She fell for me a lot started bringing me small gifts and giving me some of her books to read. We connected on that. Second week third or 4th date not sure to be exact. I asked her to come over. She was a mess. And pissed at me i tried to escalate she wouldn’t have it so I said I’m gonna grab my jacket lets go for a coffee. After that next 3/4 times we saw each other it was so platonic and no touching kissing nothing. No kiss in 2 plus weeks. I had enough and we arranged to meet. I told her how I’m seeing her more as a friend now and she wouldn’t have it. We agreed that we will try more. And the next date I was okay lets go again and I kissed her again and after that next month i had some dark stuff and again was a bit cold with her but better than before we kissed and petted… nearing the
end of the month i bedded the MILF and day after the girl I was seeing she was celebrating
her birthday. I was all over her and the social circle was watching. Tomorrow I went to her place of work and started playing with her boobs and pussy and she jerked me off. And next day again i come and we have fun but I brought a condom. And she says she is a virgin. Then I figured some stuff out from before it all clicked. Now comes the moment when the first girl (unsuccessful dates) comes back and I call her no answer, text her if she came back, she responds she did, I ask to meet no response in a day so I say thats it. A couple of days after me and the girl I fingered on her job now
go see a movie and I’m fingering her again and she is playing with me. After the social circle invites me to join them for a party. And i get the text from the first girl: Of course we can see each other but we need to define the relation between us. I really like you, and (her best friend) told me you have a girlfriend. But i think we can be friends, and I would think that is why you called me My head goes boom.
So now me and the girl I fingered in the job go to the social circle gathering. I would’ve preference to go alone but I couldn’t. And in the bar we met everyone was saying his girlfriend bla bla they are together. We never talked abkut our relationship and never defined it. I’m torn I don’t know what to do.
I don’t want to hurt her feelings especially since I got to know her and I don’t want bas blood in the social circle since she is a long time Very close friend with two of them from the circle. On the other hand I really like the other one and can’t stop thinking about her.
