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Hey guys, so this was a 9 hour date. And a lot if was irrelevant. So for the sake of not taking an entire day to write this, I omitted some details. But everything you need to know is still here.
As I write this, I'm in Bulgaria for a few weeks visiting friends and family. I don't know anyone there, so I pretty much spend most my time sitting around doing nothing. So I decided to log on to Tinder. To be honest, I'm not very good at reading/writing in Bulgarian, so I originally intended to just swipe, not actually talk to anyone. To my surprise, one of my matches turned out to also be visiting Bulgaria. Her primary launguage is English. So we chatted for a while, I mentioned that I don't know Sofia very well. She asked me out saying she'd be down to show me around. I originally intended this to just be a reference point because I had no idea where she was going to take me, I didn't know the city well enough to plan out a date myself, and I live in a small apartment with three other people. So basically, I had no logistics.
The next day, I met up with her. She ended up being a solid twenty minutes late. But w.e, its nbd. She honestly wasn't as cute as I'd hoped (she looked a lot better in her profile pics), but she was still cute enough to fuck if I lower my standards (something I recommend everyone who hasn't yet mastered this stuff do). She also had this really weird sense of style. She was literally wearing paper clips for earrings.
Anyways, we met up and took the metro to the city center.I did some standard deep diving+teasing both to which she responded pretty well. We did a few more activities in the city center, but nothing of real importance occurred till we ended up at one of her favorite bars. We were sitting across from each other. She was telling me about how she really loves her family and her dad and how she's going to miss them when she goes off to college. To which I replied "Oh poor you" as I grabbed her by the shoulders and pulled her into me. At this point, she was snuggled up against me, my face touching hers. After holding it like that for about 15 seconds, I kissed her. Normally, I would have made sure to pull away first, but since I was just using this as a reference point, I figured there's no reason why I shouldn't go into full makeout mode. I just kept going till she eventually pulled away. We talked for a little while longer after that. Eventually, she asked me:
Her: What's the most exciting thing you've ever done?
Me: Depends on how you define "exciting" [Sly Smile] <----This was just meant to deflect the question because A. I don't know the answer to it and B. I wanted to build intrigue.
She pressed on asking me how I define exciting more and more. I kept deflecting it. Each time I refused to reply, she moved closer to me, she used a sexier voice, and she gave me a pouty facial expression. Eventually, she got so close our lips were millimeters apart. So I started making out with her again. This time, she was REALLY into it. She straight up attacked my mouth. After 30 seconds of doing this, I broke the kiss, took her hand and lead her into the bathroom and continue making out with her there. This time, I thrust her against the wall, kissing her passionately as I could. I then attempted to start fingering her. She moved my hand away. So I put my hands up her shirt and started carassing her breasts as I kissed her. Eventually, I moved down to kissing her breasts instead of her. I tried to put my hand down her pants several more times. Each time, she deflected my hand and said "Are you ok?" (I was really drunk, and I guess she assumed that's why I was doing it?). After attempting to persist several more times, she eventually broke away and said that we should go back to the bar. So we did.
Up until now, she had been very submissive. I was clearly the dominant one. But after this, she started to throw a million shit tests at me. Most of them implying that I like her, and that I want to have sex with her. I successfully passed all of them.
After 15 more mins or so, we left the bar and started walking around. We sat down on the grass in a park and started relaxing. Keep in mind this was in the middle of the city center and there were other people within 10 feet of us. Eventually, she ended up putting her head in my lap, my arm around her, and she carassing my arm. After that, for the next 2 hours or so, we just made out in said park. Here are the important deets of those two hours.
I put my hand underneath her shirt and started massaging her nipple. After doing this for a while, she requested that I pull her shirt up and use my mouth on her tits. Keep in mind there are still people literally 10 feet away from us. I obliged. She started to moan and breath heavily, clawing at my back as I sucked on her tits. Eventually, I stopped.
After that, we switched posetions several more times. One of them being basically a reverse spoon (i.e. spooning except that we were facing each other). We continued kissing, but I also put my hand down her ass, which she seemed to be ok with. Eventually, I started digging deep and making my way to the front of her crotch. Just as I started to feel something made of some sort of fabric, she stopped me. I realized now that she wanted to fuck me all along, but she was on her period.
After that, we switched to cowgirl. Keep in mind, we're still in public. Eventually, we started dry humping as we made out. Finally, at one point she said:
Her: I want you so bad. When are you coming back from the seashore (I was leaving for the beach the next day).
Me: A week from now
Her: Damn, that's when I'm leaving for the seashore.
Me: Ok, then I guess tonight's our night.
Her: I wish tonight's our night. But it can't be.
After making out for a little while longer, she once again said:
Her: I want you inside me so bad.
Me: I do too.
After making out for a little while longer, I finally decided to be vulnerable and straight up confront her about it:
Me: You know, I think I know the problem. I'm ok with doing it the way you are now.
Her: What do you think is the problem?
Me: I'm guessing a tampon.
Her: You'd be guessing correctly. But I'm ok doing it like this if you are.
Me: Yeah, of course I am.
We madeout for a little while longer. After a while, I finally said:
Me: Let's go.
Her: I'm trying to think of where we can go.
Me: Let's just go to a more secluded area
Her: I'd prefer an actual place.
Eventually, she decided that we can go to her grandmas place (she was out of town for the week). Once we arrived, some problems started to come up on my end:
1. I was really really nervous for some reason. Also, I wasn't "in the mood" anymore. It's like I was spellbroken.
2. The first thing I did was start going down on her. She started giving me instructions which I was having a hard time following (DEEPLY tonguing a girl's clit without using teeth is really hard).
At this point, I started to feel straight up panicky. And I wasn't enjoying myself at all. Like, it didn't even feel like sex. It felt more like a chore. Eventually, I had her suck my dick. She was actually REALLY good which was helpful because I was having an extremely hard time getting hard due to this newfound anxiety. Eventually, I got a semi-hardon. I quickly put on a condom and started fucking her. But after like, 10 seconds, I got soft again and my dick kept falling out. She gave me a bj several more times to get me hard again, but I kept running into the same problem over and over again. Additionally, I was feeling more and more frustrated each time it happened, so getting my dick hard again via blowjobs was getting evermore difficult. After the third of fourth time, I got soft, I couldn't get it back up again no matter how much/good of a blowjob it was.
She was actually really supportive the whole time. She sincerely seemed to be ok with all this. Eventually, we just put our clothes on and left. She walked me to a taxi and asked me to text her when I get back from the beach.
Overall, it felt kinda uncomfortable in that apartment for some reason. Like, I felt completely turned on back when we were in the bar bathroom and at the park. But once I actually got to the apartment, I lost all my passion for her. It was instead replaced with anxiety.
Having said that, even though it was for a very short period of time, I still did fuck her a few times. So I'd say this still counts as an LR.
Any ideas as to why this anxiety came over me all of us sudden, and why I felt "spellbroken" so to say? The instructions which I was failing to follow definitely contributed to my anxiety, hence my ED. But even before than, I had this sense of anxiety and nervousness. It started as soon as we got up and left the park. And it followed me all the way till after we left the apartment.
As I write this, I'm in Bulgaria for a few weeks visiting friends and family. I don't know anyone there, so I pretty much spend most my time sitting around doing nothing. So I decided to log on to Tinder. To be honest, I'm not very good at reading/writing in Bulgarian, so I originally intended to just swipe, not actually talk to anyone. To my surprise, one of my matches turned out to also be visiting Bulgaria. Her primary launguage is English. So we chatted for a while, I mentioned that I don't know Sofia very well. She asked me out saying she'd be down to show me around. I originally intended this to just be a reference point because I had no idea where she was going to take me, I didn't know the city well enough to plan out a date myself, and I live in a small apartment with three other people. So basically, I had no logistics.
The next day, I met up with her. She ended up being a solid twenty minutes late. But w.e, its nbd. She honestly wasn't as cute as I'd hoped (she looked a lot better in her profile pics), but she was still cute enough to fuck if I lower my standards (something I recommend everyone who hasn't yet mastered this stuff do). She also had this really weird sense of style. She was literally wearing paper clips for earrings.
Anyways, we met up and took the metro to the city center.I did some standard deep diving+teasing both to which she responded pretty well. We did a few more activities in the city center, but nothing of real importance occurred till we ended up at one of her favorite bars. We were sitting across from each other. She was telling me about how she really loves her family and her dad and how she's going to miss them when she goes off to college. To which I replied "Oh poor you" as I grabbed her by the shoulders and pulled her into me. At this point, she was snuggled up against me, my face touching hers. After holding it like that for about 15 seconds, I kissed her. Normally, I would have made sure to pull away first, but since I was just using this as a reference point, I figured there's no reason why I shouldn't go into full makeout mode. I just kept going till she eventually pulled away. We talked for a little while longer after that. Eventually, she asked me:
Her: What's the most exciting thing you've ever done?
Me: Depends on how you define "exciting" [Sly Smile] <----This was just meant to deflect the question because A. I don't know the answer to it and B. I wanted to build intrigue.
She pressed on asking me how I define exciting more and more. I kept deflecting it. Each time I refused to reply, she moved closer to me, she used a sexier voice, and she gave me a pouty facial expression. Eventually, she got so close our lips were millimeters apart. So I started making out with her again. This time, she was REALLY into it. She straight up attacked my mouth. After 30 seconds of doing this, I broke the kiss, took her hand and lead her into the bathroom and continue making out with her there. This time, I thrust her against the wall, kissing her passionately as I could. I then attempted to start fingering her. She moved my hand away. So I put my hands up her shirt and started carassing her breasts as I kissed her. Eventually, I moved down to kissing her breasts instead of her. I tried to put my hand down her pants several more times. Each time, she deflected my hand and said "Are you ok?" (I was really drunk, and I guess she assumed that's why I was doing it?). After attempting to persist several more times, she eventually broke away and said that we should go back to the bar. So we did.
Up until now, she had been very submissive. I was clearly the dominant one. But after this, she started to throw a million shit tests at me. Most of them implying that I like her, and that I want to have sex with her. I successfully passed all of them.
After 15 more mins or so, we left the bar and started walking around. We sat down on the grass in a park and started relaxing. Keep in mind this was in the middle of the city center and there were other people within 10 feet of us. Eventually, she ended up putting her head in my lap, my arm around her, and she carassing my arm. After that, for the next 2 hours or so, we just made out in said park. Here are the important deets of those two hours.
I put my hand underneath her shirt and started massaging her nipple. After doing this for a while, she requested that I pull her shirt up and use my mouth on her tits. Keep in mind there are still people literally 10 feet away from us. I obliged. She started to moan and breath heavily, clawing at my back as I sucked on her tits. Eventually, I stopped.
After that, we switched posetions several more times. One of them being basically a reverse spoon (i.e. spooning except that we were facing each other). We continued kissing, but I also put my hand down her ass, which she seemed to be ok with. Eventually, I started digging deep and making my way to the front of her crotch. Just as I started to feel something made of some sort of fabric, she stopped me. I realized now that she wanted to fuck me all along, but she was on her period.
After that, we switched to cowgirl. Keep in mind, we're still in public. Eventually, we started dry humping as we made out. Finally, at one point she said:
Her: I want you so bad. When are you coming back from the seashore (I was leaving for the beach the next day).
Me: A week from now
Her: Damn, that's when I'm leaving for the seashore.
Me: Ok, then I guess tonight's our night.
Her: I wish tonight's our night. But it can't be.
After making out for a little while longer, she once again said:
Her: I want you inside me so bad.
Me: I do too.
After making out for a little while longer, I finally decided to be vulnerable and straight up confront her about it:
Me: You know, I think I know the problem. I'm ok with doing it the way you are now.
Her: What do you think is the problem?
Me: I'm guessing a tampon.
Her: You'd be guessing correctly. But I'm ok doing it like this if you are.
Me: Yeah, of course I am.
We madeout for a little while longer. After a while, I finally said:
Me: Let's go.
Her: I'm trying to think of where we can go.
Me: Let's just go to a more secluded area
Her: I'd prefer an actual place.
Eventually, she decided that we can go to her grandmas place (she was out of town for the week). Once we arrived, some problems started to come up on my end:
1. I was really really nervous for some reason. Also, I wasn't "in the mood" anymore. It's like I was spellbroken.
2. The first thing I did was start going down on her. She started giving me instructions which I was having a hard time following (DEEPLY tonguing a girl's clit without using teeth is really hard).
At this point, I started to feel straight up panicky. And I wasn't enjoying myself at all. Like, it didn't even feel like sex. It felt more like a chore. Eventually, I had her suck my dick. She was actually REALLY good which was helpful because I was having an extremely hard time getting hard due to this newfound anxiety. Eventually, I got a semi-hardon. I quickly put on a condom and started fucking her. But after like, 10 seconds, I got soft again and my dick kept falling out. She gave me a bj several more times to get me hard again, but I kept running into the same problem over and over again. Additionally, I was feeling more and more frustrated each time it happened, so getting my dick hard again via blowjobs was getting evermore difficult. After the third of fourth time, I got soft, I couldn't get it back up again no matter how much/good of a blowjob it was.
She was actually really supportive the whole time. She sincerely seemed to be ok with all this. Eventually, we just put our clothes on and left. She walked me to a taxi and asked me to text her when I get back from the beach.
Overall, it felt kinda uncomfortable in that apartment for some reason. Like, I felt completely turned on back when we were in the bar bathroom and at the park. But once I actually got to the apartment, I lost all my passion for her. It was instead replaced with anxiety.
Having said that, even though it was for a very short period of time, I still did fuck her a few times. So I'd say this still counts as an LR.
Any ideas as to why this anxiety came over me all of us sudden, and why I felt "spellbroken" so to say? The instructions which I was failing to follow definitely contributed to my anxiety, hence my ED. But even before than, I had this sense of anxiety and nervousness. It started as soon as we got up and left the park. And it followed me all the way till after we left the apartment.
