Two months fucking away,lol but got to just get this off my chest, was exposed to sex at very young age didn't even start preschool by then, my parents were big fans of action star jean Claude Van Damme(guy who acted universal soldier,hard target,double impact etc) and all his movies guy just had to bang ,back then Hollywood movies no clear sex scenes I mean no dick no pussy hole seen,but nakedness seen ass tits,all movies was just full make out then sex,(build me up I guess am a dude who likes the deep kissing. While with a bitch ,sex becomes less enjoyable when with a non kisser) saw porn on brothers vhs a couple years still young as fuck,some black guy big dicked railing the pussy of one white maiden,guess this made me at such a young age interested in sex,very badly,was so young but wanted to bang so hard and was so obsessed,to the point started believing I have to one day bang bitches leave them so Mesmerized,so in love they'd would do anything for me,mind you am still young,but was in the back of my mind good thing I was never exposed to porn until getting sent to a boarding school had this guy,our age ranged in the13- 14 year guy had the biggest dick for kids our ages,dude was watching porn as fuck before even getting sent to boarding school,guess that's where the world started getting fucked thats when I learned about masturbation from this guy,I was like doing it in the hostel bathrooms , every time in the morning and the evening,weird shit but felt good as fuck, rubbing on it weird thing was that ,I didn't cum so never got the release ,guess had no sperm at that age and shit,only thing that made me stop was some weird day used this one kind of soap which did some strong burn on my skin,never did it again after that until finishing school,when I was exposed to porn again,one time I remember I was so turned on masturbated till some blood came as pre cum,shit was young but realized this was a red flag, stopped engaging in that shit until started having wet dreams where I cummed ,then started again masturbating this time with upgrade to ability to cum,no one knew but damn I used to masturbate as hell thousand of times always envisioning myself as the sex God I always thought I could be ,I knew I was ready to get that pussy conquest,that I always so wanted, the same year I found out girlschase 2014,that's when I was eye opened on the world the world seemed to open the endless opportunities ,I knew this was the real shit,read girlschase articles as a fat kid taking his meal excited as Fuck,tried all those stuff at school I was ,going direct on every girl I knew,started even keeping a diary ,the girls were excited at first but then the novelty I guess was dying off I didn't mind( I girls were interested but I seemed like more games than being serious) ,I knew plenty of fish even my buddies thought I was getting laid a lot because of just being ballsy how I interacted,shit just dawned on me once I realized damn I was a fucking jester, doing all the dancing no nothing no results,hear guys saying getting laid,even my best buddy said lost his virginity which was weird, I thought I was the one actively working ,shit I went into panic mode,started throwing I love you to every girl I saw,or ever interacted with ,, beginning of a waterfall of rejections ,became pretty small after that,lost all my jizz thought was invisible but damn just some guy, realized reactions ≠results,
Thank God I passed through that phase ,got my first girlfriend lied about my experience she also lied about being a virgin , didn't realize at the time since was first time , didn't take a while to cum by repeated attempts of masturbating I already knew knew the pullout just few seconds,was still hard but was scared to get a bitch pregnant,so just left it at that , didn't fuck again even though dick was on 110% LOL,never get to lay that bitch again sadly,we breakup soon after that,first breakup painful but moved on,in between meet some dudes was studying who talked about a whore house,said they wanna try it I acted coy but , listened after I got some info and I went for myself,meet some whores and fucked ,made it my usual habit telling myself (lying to myself was learning how to control myself get better experience with women through whores)did that a lot (my second lay was from this girl who I seduced and just worked lucky in my book bitch was acting all not into sex pretending to be angry knew she was horny sex invited her over ,) got laid sex was good cum once didn't think would go again but bitch gave me the most amazing blowjob I was up in milliseconds sex was so worth it,
Meet her again for a second lay was good but this was when I started to see that am diminishing but didn't see it as much since it was taking longer to get it up following ejaculation, weird thought was a sex God this shit shouldn't happen,( third lay was with a girl from cold approach was skeptical when I approached,(but got things right through texting first meet up bitch flaked on me and was distant drive ,good thing I already read chase article on situations like that handling flakes so I didn't mind got another chance and banged her ,(noticing weaker erections but no where to compare so thought was just me)
4th lay a neighborhood older girl older than me ,weird flirting she had her own apartment,just jokingly said I should come over to sleep ,and she just asked when, said I will come tonight ,she said sure don't lie to me ,I said I never lie,(sneaked out of house nailed cummed pretty fast pulled out ,but I put it in and continued fucking dick didn't go soft didn't cum second time(thought I finally found the grail for greatness)next time I tried that shit I cummed once and it didn't get up again I got so embarrassed I literally left I panicked,(5th lay also a lucky lay just like that performed amazing started calling me endlessly always wanting me every night to come over ,one day went drunk as fuck,tried to get with this one bitch failed so returned to one who was currently on the radar,I didn't get up sadly to say, another day when I went to nail,tried to do the cum pull insert trick shit failed bitch told me I am going soft within we should just wait until I was hard for round two,I did go for round two success ,6th lay (was a little sister of a girl I failed to lay,she was already horny big tits (love them),had this friend who advised Viagra to me pumping it up like crazy took it and laid the girl,did only one round when she was called to return home had to fare her goodbye(thought Viagra was just shit at that point)(she didn't orgasm )so bye bye second chance, 7th lay, this girl just came to live on our apartment single mother who was always busy working nurse seduced her two days started nailing ,mother was most always not around doing night shifts at hospital,so become like a father of house I was clapping for three days straight when I noticed it when I cum I went completely soft and couldn't continue bitch was just next to me watching me when I was go for next round and was done couldn't get up, embarrassed as fuck,tried it again on the next day shit just cummed once nothing happened ,started feeling self conscious,bitch also started looking mad when we would see each other at apartments, I started doing exercises pushups squats jogging did that for three days it was time for me to go ,to college by now so wanted to get that one last fuck,tried it girl was on period didn't want to give me the pussy I was determined I persisted and outframed the bitch she Gave it up,damn one round I was down shit I never saw her pissed but she was that pissed,failed now was starting to fear sex,,went to college met this guy ,on first glance dude looks like a con artist talks fast ,knew should stay away from the dude we got ,turns out a master seducer ,luckily I was in the same room with that guy ,since I could trust the guy we started talking our sexcapades that's when I found out am just a fucking noob compared to him,had to open up to the guy,the condition I faced,was literally scared to go home and face the condition with that bitch on our apartment,dude adviced on using Viagra ,told me it's some normal condition stress,life has become draining on our psyche social media fucks our mind still,porn ,never believed just the mind could fuck up to take me to that stage,but I took his advice dude even brought me Viagra 50mg two of them,when I returned(due to corona) as usual bitch was so happy to see me offered to cook for me ,I ate but had no appetite just thinking,shit will fail and I will look like a wimp some part of me told me to get the fuck outta there ,in panic I took two pills total of 100mg ,not even caring for the side effects,shit the drug worked I fucked as a stallion bitch was screaming like crazy I thought I finally found a way to actually give the bitches the time of their lives, this continued for like a month daily Viagra taking,from that point I always had the blue pill handy,8 th lay used the pill fucked like a stallion,9th lay fucked like a stallion, loved the 9th lay decided I would stick with her ,still doing the 8th lay girl, now the Viagra sometimes failed once maybe twice,but like soccer if your 7 goals up receiving 1 goal back is no big deal,had it long with 9th lay,decided to ditch the 8th lay,10th lay was my first bathroom pull,banged then ditch at this time I could feel the Viagra getting weaker ,was just changing brand names ,Vega ,novagra,kamagra some work better than others, but refractory period was getting longer and longer ,the con artist guy then introduced me to the cream,said if you want to fuck well not worrying about losing erections,then don't cum,tried that desensitization cream + Viagra, become a beast multiple ,11th lay fucked that bitch started confronting me why I don't cum,had to pull strong mental thoughts to actually finish, sometimes even that doesn't work ,12th lay was a crier banged that bitch until was crying with delight(I failed to lay the first chance I got ,missed a window but fixed and got laid)13th lay was starting to reduce dose of Viagra and the dosage of cream,just a bit of sensation to get the grease rolling,14th lay went in with just cream no pill hardness was retained sex was good 15th lay,used Viagra and cream didn't want mess this one up lol social circle girl,16th lay was little awkward put weird resistance,banged tasty pussy but bedwise woman was a nuisance,18th lay good sex hit woman back wall after sex pain oops lol 19th lay cream didn't work,guess lots of time passed before usage ,pills didn't work stood weakly mediocre foreplay shit was just fucked,blocked in the end ,this was my post block sex thread on begginers
Now we're here ,there's another bitch who seems attainable and already seems to open to sex but to scared to go through with it shits just getting worse
, advice well received tool bearing hominid,
