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I feel like there is a lot of wasted potential that is stopping me from making the most out of my journey with game. After having some photos done and such, I am in a situation where I have over 50 matches on Tinder after selectively swiping and 25 matches on Bumble. A few women have given me their numbers and we have texted back and forth but I have not had the drive to really go out and meet them. Most of all, my will and boldness to approach women is now mostly gone and it was there a couple years ago.
Then I thought about what led me down this path and it was cynical thinking.
So I got a bad start to life, grew up poor in a rural area and was one of few kids to go off to college. In college, I was a social misfit and never really made the quality friends either so not one of the cool kids. Every time I go out I kind of feel cynical now and here is why.
It just feels like the guy who has that hot girl by his arm, a lot of awesome friends and stellar social life (where I want to be myself) got it because he was born into. I slowly feel like so much of the situations in your adolescence and college years determine your path for social life and dating hot girls for life.
Its like if you wanted the cool friends to hang out with and hot girls to party with, you had to get it all in college as a last shot and then build from that.
I am in a whirlpool of cynicism and dreams that I wonder are unrealistic. On one hand I want to make it happen but then I keep wondering if it is too late now that everyone is older and no longer wants to have fun in life.
Its just killing my drive because I am playing a game where I don't even know what score I have to get to win and if I am playing a game that ended a while ago.
I fucking hate it because I feel like I'll never have the social life and friendships as well as a cute girlfriend or a few women to sleep around with because I wonder if I missed to boat and it is killing the potential I do have.
I feel like at this point I could get the empty hookups but really I just want a social life and the occasional lay here and there.
Then I thought about what led me down this path and it was cynical thinking.
So I got a bad start to life, grew up poor in a rural area and was one of few kids to go off to college. In college, I was a social misfit and never really made the quality friends either so not one of the cool kids. Every time I go out I kind of feel cynical now and here is why.
It just feels like the guy who has that hot girl by his arm, a lot of awesome friends and stellar social life (where I want to be myself) got it because he was born into. I slowly feel like so much of the situations in your adolescence and college years determine your path for social life and dating hot girls for life.
Its like if you wanted the cool friends to hang out with and hot girls to party with, you had to get it all in college as a last shot and then build from that.
I am in a whirlpool of cynicism and dreams that I wonder are unrealistic. On one hand I want to make it happen but then I keep wondering if it is too late now that everyone is older and no longer wants to have fun in life.
Its just killing my drive because I am playing a game where I don't even know what score I have to get to win and if I am playing a game that ended a while ago.
I fucking hate it because I feel like I'll never have the social life and friendships as well as a cute girlfriend or a few women to sleep around with because I wonder if I missed to boat and it is killing the potential I do have.
I feel like at this point I could get the empty hookups but really I just want a social life and the occasional lay here and there.
