Distorted Reality, People can't decide who i am.

[trashKENNUT]

So recently,

i got a job to work short term and i was with a few of others (i don't know them) needed to work here for a short period of time. So what actually happen down here was that, we were "othered" right from the start of the job duration.

Not exactly a welcoming party, but then i don't know the other temporary staffs that were here. So might as well build allies first right? So yea i made friends and the full time staffs were as i expected, putting lots of work on me. I handle well. Manager girl gets mad at me for no apparent reason, (Chase, she's attacking me when she's been cool all along. lolx). That's one point. I understand all those things happening.

Towards the end of the duration of work, day by day as it nears, all the staffs are cool towards me with exception to some, and the supervisor who check me out and give me a smile when i caught her, and went auto rejection because she ask me to work there longer and i was hesitant, and she went back to "working mode" later on.

The thing that caught up with me is that, you can't be "worker mode" and "be yourself mode" at the same time. I came there, i and the rest got "othered". Decided to be neutral, hold my ground, do my work, people start respecting me, and then when i start wanting to do work for them, they feel like it's weird. Then i realize, i need to decide who i am, even in a work place. Even if it means, i be doing lesser work once everyone is cool with me, unless got commissions, i be pushing my a$$ off.

Zac

 

[Chase]

Zac-

the supervisor who check me out and give me a smile when i caught her, and went auto rejection because she ask me to work there longer and i was hesitant, and she went back to "working mode" later on.

Back in my working days, I used to be on lots of different projects with lots of different supervisors, and they would all think I was doing excellent work and they'd all want me to stay on and keep doing the work... often work that I thought was terribly boring and unchallenging and I was glad to only be doing it for a few days or a week or so. But when they'd say, "Maybe we can keep you on here and you can stay on this project!" while my insides would be going, "Dear GOD no!" outside I'd smile and say, "Cool, thanks for the offer!" or, "Hmm!" with a nod, or, "Oh really?" Just try to make it an ambiguous response that SOUNDS vaguely positive, so as not to hurt their pride. No one wants to think she has someone working for her who's "too good" for her department or division. Then just tell you real boss later that they were talking about keeping you there but you'd really rather not be there, and let him handle the politics of it - that's his job and it's what he does all day.

The thing that caught up with me is that, you can't be "worker mode" and "be yourself mode" at the same time.

Right. At work, it's better to be, "Cool good worker guy," at least until you get enough authority and autonomy that you can strut around being your badass self and that's fine because everybody knows you're a hotshot who gets the job done better than most. Even then, you still want to be agreeable enough that you're not forming enemies left and right...

Chase

 

[trashKENNUT]

Chase,

Right. At work, it's better to be, "Cool good worker guy," at least until you get enough authority and autonomy that you can strut around being your badass self and that's fine because everybody knows you're a hotshot who gets the job done better than most. Even then, you still want to be agreeable enough that you're not forming enemies left and right...

Love this. Be agreeable enough. People can turn on you at workplace like a switch, if not careful.

Zac

 

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