I was wandering if I'm the only one or if there are others like this.
I decided to write this post since a week ago i was in an accident.
I was riding my motorcycle going double the speed limit in the city and trying to catch the last second of green light. There was sth spilled on the road and I was hard to see so my bike slipped and I lost control of it and crashed. Didn't hit anyone. My bike was sliding and crashed into a concrete sth(not sure how they're called) and I was sliding a bit. I was wearing my helmet, motorcycle jacked and pants. So no burns or missing flesh.
Nothing too serious. Just torn knee and ankle ligaments, a few bruises and scratches and a bit of pain when I sit or lie down. My bike thought is badly crashed and not in any condition to be ridden before replacing a bunch of parts and such.
A friend of mine got really mad at me and we had an argument saying things like "what if next time you kill yourself or someone else"
The thing is that I do lots of stupid thing with no regard of my well-being and really don't give a sh#t what happens to me.
Not saying I'm suicidal or such. I just don't care if I get hurt or get killed doing something. You might call it complete lack of fear, I call it not giving a sh#t about a thing. Just not caring of I live or die, if I'm okay or in a hospital after a crash. Literally it doesn't make a difference if I live 60 years or die tomorrow.
Even after the crash my only thought was if my bike is okay.
It's not only that I don't care. It's like I do stupid things on purpose so I'll get hurt or killed. Like going at 100 km/h on a light that is going red. It was't cause I was in a hurry. I did it because I knew it was dangerous and was a possibility for a crash.
My friend even told told me to go to a psychiatrist cause I need treatment. But it's not like I want to die or like I'm suicidal. I just don't care what happens.
So I was wandering if there are other people like this. And what did they do if there is someone like this.
I decided to write this post since a week ago i was in an accident.
I was riding my motorcycle going double the speed limit in the city and trying to catch the last second of green light. There was sth spilled on the road and I was hard to see so my bike slipped and I lost control of it and crashed. Didn't hit anyone. My bike was sliding and crashed into a concrete sth(not sure how they're called) and I was sliding a bit. I was wearing my helmet, motorcycle jacked and pants. So no burns or missing flesh.
Nothing too serious. Just torn knee and ankle ligaments, a few bruises and scratches and a bit of pain when I sit or lie down. My bike thought is badly crashed and not in any condition to be ridden before replacing a bunch of parts and such.
A friend of mine got really mad at me and we had an argument saying things like "what if next time you kill yourself or someone else"
The thing is that I do lots of stupid thing with no regard of my well-being and really don't give a sh#t what happens to me.
Not saying I'm suicidal or such. I just don't care if I get hurt or get killed doing something. You might call it complete lack of fear, I call it not giving a sh#t about a thing. Just not caring of I live or die, if I'm okay or in a hospital after a crash. Literally it doesn't make a difference if I live 60 years or die tomorrow.
Even after the crash my only thought was if my bike is okay.
It's not only that I don't care. It's like I do stupid things on purpose so I'll get hurt or killed. Like going at 100 km/h on a light that is going red. It was't cause I was in a hurry. I did it because I knew it was dangerous and was a possibility for a crash.
My friend even told told me to go to a psychiatrist cause I need treatment. But it's not like I want to die or like I'm suicidal. I just don't care what happens.
So I was wandering if there are other people like this. And what did they do if there is someone like this.
