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Field report 24/30 - Underlying anxiety, bad quality sleep, good non-verbals
Met 3 sets
Feeling weird underlying anxiety on todays outing. Could be because of last nights pull adventure, drinking a coke after, resulting in bad quality sleep.
I couldn’t stay present to the moment on my outing. I was like in a limbo between thinking and being in the present moment. A feeling of relaxedness but also a mind spinning and judging. I was being controlled by my mind today.
Anyway, I noticed lots of cute girls noticed me tonight and they were mostly in mixed bigger sets, so body language has been on good point.
Despite only meeting 3 sets tonight, I noticed a 8-9 hottie look at my crotch in a mixed set of 6 girls and 3 guys. Something must have been right.
But when I opened sets, it was disaster coming out of me.
It felt so forced to say things. I didn’t even want to be there. I was pushing to make conversation although I didn’t want to and I would say things judgmental things. That could be a good thing to have less filters but the girls couldn’t relate to it and I was in a I don’t give a fvck mood.
I just felt really relaxed and chill tonight but at the same time underlying anxiety. It’s crazy what bad quality sleep can do to your psyche.
Anyway..
Three things I did well:
Three things that I will do better next time:
Because the girls were smiling at first seeing me about to approach them, they were open. Until I started blabbering. Open without words and play with body language and gestures.
Leeeeeeeet’s fvcking gooooooooo!
Met 3 sets
Feeling weird underlying anxiety on todays outing. Could be because of last nights pull adventure, drinking a coke after, resulting in bad quality sleep.
I couldn’t stay present to the moment on my outing. I was like in a limbo between thinking and being in the present moment. A feeling of relaxedness but also a mind spinning and judging. I was being controlled by my mind today.
Anyway, I noticed lots of cute girls noticed me tonight and they were mostly in mixed bigger sets, so body language has been on good point.
Despite only meeting 3 sets tonight, I noticed a 8-9 hottie look at my crotch in a mixed set of 6 girls and 3 guys. Something must have been right.
But when I opened sets, it was disaster coming out of me.
It felt so forced to say things. I didn’t even want to be there. I was pushing to make conversation although I didn’t want to and I would say things judgmental things. That could be a good thing to have less filters but the girls couldn’t relate to it and I was in a I don’t give a fvck mood.
I just felt really relaxed and chill tonight but at the same time underlying anxiety. It’s crazy what bad quality sleep can do to your psyche.
Anyway..
Three things I did well:
- Was a little hangover from last night, bad q. sleep and everything told me to just skip today as we finished dinner at my place and I felt like just going to sleep. Went out anyway.
- Was ok standing or sitting by myself. That’s when I realised I wasn’t present to the moment. My mind was racing, my body was exhausted/relaxed. I tried to be more present to the moment but could only maintain it for a half minute before automatically going back to being a little zoned out. Although people were in groups around me, I was fine by myself.
- Pushed myself to open despite not wanting to do it at all today.
Three things that I will do better next time:
- Never drink a coke before sleep again. Minimise doing stupid things I can control that could damage next days productivity, like drinking a caffeinated drink before bed.
- Open without saying things next time I feel like this. Use body language and gestures.
Because the girls were smiling at first seeing me about to approach them, they were open. Until I started blabbering. Open without words and play with body language and gestures.
- Be harsher on myself. I was giving myself things before opening sets. Habits of being too soft. Gotta be harsher on myself to push myself more even when I feel like this.
Leeeeeeeet’s fvcking gooooooooo!
