FR++ Fr++: Blue Balls Are a Fucking Pain

[brandoan95]

This is a Fr from my day approaching girls and then at the end of the day me getting superr close to fucking this girl from my class but LMR fucked that up. Here's how it went

Daygame
So today i went to my school to attend a transfer fair event at my Community College. Basically a whole bunch of schools around the area show up and try to get you to enroll at there school the upcoming fall. Knowing this I assumed there would be plenty of pussy for me to approach. I talk to a few representatives from each school and with most of the girls i'm really flirty. Today i was on my shit. I opened girls around asking them about what shcool they wanted to attend, etc. Then i see this sexy short, petite asian girl. She's wearing a hat with a tanktop and cut of jeans. She has on some black and white shoes and she's just my type. I noticed her locking eyes with me as i'm talking to one of the school representatives. I notice and try to stop the interaction so i can approach and i lose sight of her. I'm thinking fuck where'd she go. Then i spot her and i wait until she's walking towards me. I meet her walk and open

Me: Hey i know this is random but i thought you're super cute
Her: (smiles, blushes) Thanks! But i have a BF!

I grab my chest like she just broke my heart and play it off smoothly. She laughs and walks away.
Later on i saw this sexy ass girl. She was skinny, philipina looking with light brown hair and blond highlights. However, i couldn't get myself to approach and i'm beating myself up over it. Then i see a thick, not as attractive latina walking behind me. I tell myself "she's not that cute or your type" and then i'm like "would you fuck her." I say yeah i would so i open her.

Me: hey i saw you walking and thought you ahd the most gorgeous hair iv'e seen all day
Her: Thanks!
ME: So where are you headed?

We talk abit have some small talk. We're headed in the direction of the library b4 she says she's waiting for a call and stops. I keep walking however, then turn around and suggest we get food sometime. Then she tells me a bullshit excuse about having a bf, I mention that "i'm not looking for a gf right now anyways" but she continues saying how he's not at school right now but he goes here. I could tell she was lying, especially since she mentioned it as soon as i tried setting up a date.
I eventually eject and walk back to the transfer fair event and hang out for a bit. Once i leave and head back to my car i see a black girl gazing at me from my peripheals. I drop a contact card i got from a school, pick it up, and then pull up beside her. I open using Drex's opener.

Hey I know this is random.. But are you good at taking compliments from strangers?
Her: (smiles, and laughs nervously) Sort off?
Me: Well so am i. Why don't you tell me your's first and then i'll go after you.
Her: you're a very outgoing person.
Me: ( start laughing) haha how? because i went up to you and said hi.
Her: Yeah i would've never done that

We have this banter for a bit. i Talk about how many classes she's taking and eventually ask her out. She tests me saying i'm look too young for her. I find out she's 27 and tell her i'm 21, but i push through it. I say, well get food, and i know you want to your just saying im young. I even insist saying im mature for my age since i walked up to her and said hi (even though age has nothing to do with approaching.) She eventually submits and puts her # in my phone.

I then head home and chill for a bit. I go workout then head back to school for my evening class. Once i arrive i chill on a bench and then i notice this cute, burnett walking by. I immediately get up and open

Me: HEy i know this is random but I saw you walking and thought you were super cute and I had to come say hi.
Her: (blushing) thanks.

For this FR we'll call her Miley. We talk abit and she tells me she's waiting for her class. I find out she's a freshman and I ask her if she likes the school. We small talk about it and then i ask if she want to walk with me to the school store. I say sure and we walk. On the way i find out she just turned 18 and i tell her i'm 21. I noticed while talking to her i would give a sheepish grin since i was teasing alot and making fun. I need to work on that. We arrive at the school store and she's standing hella far from me. I tell her to not be a stranger and she walks closer. As we're leaving her friend shows up and they introduce me to her. She says they need to do hw in the library or some shit like that and i'm like damn you ruined it

Me: Awe damn you messed it up for me (teasing tone)
Her friend: well did you get her #?

I'm low key surprised by this comment and then i do exactly that and say we should get food sometime. She give me her # and then they head off. Now here's where shit gets juicy....

Field Report
So i'm chilling on my phone and i'm about to head to my class. I figure along the way i might approach a few girls. I had walked from the store to the original area where I approached Miley. As I leave the hallway guess who's there? Miley and her friend chatting it up. I look over and then look back at my phone as if nothing happened haha. I see them look at me but i didn't care to much. Later on in the night i send Miley an Icebreaker. No response. I'm assuming she either used her friend to flake on me or she thought i was rude for ignoring her. I'm leaning towards the first one. Yeah it's definitely the first one. There's no way those bitches could've "did their hw" in that little amount of time. I'm actually surprised about it really. Miley was compliant, she walked with me to the store, asked me alot of personal questions but idk wtf happened there. Oh well haha.

As i'm walking away from the girls i get a phone call. It's shortstuff. Here's the backstory about her and I. Shortstuff is a girl in my class i wrote in my journal about. I opened her 2 weeks ago while at a vending machine during our class break and set up a date. We were actually supposed to meet up for a date at In-N-Out (burger joint) tomorrow. ME and her are super flirty shy and were always touching and feeling up on each other. She's not my preferred choice but I've lowered my standards since i need as much practice as possible. Originally i hit her up the day after i met her and tried hanging out with her then but she never responded. A week later on the day we had class, she texted me and tried to start some boring as conversation about class. I ignored her until i see her at class later that day. She starts talking to me and we flirt and have kino and what not. I set up the date for next Friday and leave it at that.

So back to today, Shortstuff tells me how class is canceled and asks if i'm on campus yet. So i immediately think OH SHIT this is my chance and i meet up with her. She's dressed kind of bummy haha and we both sit on the ledge. Her BL is pointed straight towards me while mine is facing forward. I nudge her to get closer to me and she does so. We talk abit and i ask if she missed me. She mentioned that when she randomly hit me up in the week. I say we should go to the school store real quick and she obliges. While walking there I'm holding her from behind and occasionally holding her hand. However, i remember to chill on the bf vibes so i stop that. We get there and the store is closed so we head back to where we were. I say we should go sit down somewhere and I lead her to a more quiet area. We talk abit then i get her to sit next to me. I start physically escalating a bit more, feeling her legs, massaging her back, and even grab her ass abit. I use sexual innuendos saying "It's fat back there" shit of that nature haha. Then i say we should go sit on some benches,thinking it would be more secluded from where we're at.
I was dead fucking wrong. There's people walking around every 20 seconds. I notice shit is getting awkward. I build up some sexual tension by looking her deep in the eyes. I'm also not saying much and she's acting more aloof. I build up the tension a bit more slowly bringing her into me and the BOOM we kiss. We start making out more passionately then she says this in a low voice

"We should've just stayed by your car"

I immediately jump on this (Mistake #1).

Hey, I need to go to the bathroom real quick.

I should've waited and played it off more smoothly but i reacted instead of thinking it through. Eventually we go to the bathrooms. She makes a comment about how "she's not following me in there."I piss and then we head back to my car. She's noticeably more quiet and i can tell she has fucking in her mind. Her face is seeming with guilt but i try playing it off and ask about her family. We chill outside for my car for a little then we start making out. We do this for about 2 minutes then i open the back door. I sit down, we talk, then i pull her in and she sits on me. We make out even more and then i lay her on her back. Now we're making out and i can tell she's getting hot and bothered. however the door is open (my car is small as fuck. It's a 1990 Acura Integra and I'm like 6ft tall so it's a tight fit.) We make out and i'm feeling all over her body. Then somebody walks by and goes in there car lol. (mistake #2) She tell's me close the door. I oblige and we continue. Now i move down to her neck while grabbing her tightly and start rubbing towards her pussy. Im feeling her ass and want to take off her bra but that shit fitted on her weird. I honestly had no clue how to take it off so i say fuck it and proceed towards her pussy. I rub around it abit and i kiss her in different areas, moving from her neck to her lips,etc. I rub around her pussy then rub through her pants. She immediately starts to grab me tighter. I do this for awhile then try to reach inside her pants/ She give me forceful Mmm nmmm moan. I stop then rinse and repeat. No go again.
I decide to switch it up and i try fingering her from the back. She lets me get a bit farther but still refuses me. I then start licking on her neck more aggressively. I'm also rubbing the outside of her pussy with one finger and i start playing with her clit with another.I notice she tied her sweatpants close together so i couldn't enter from the back. I smoothly do this by putting her hands behind her head and making out with her then loosening the strings. She's getting really excited. I try to finger her from the back again but the same resistance comes up. I push down her bra and suck on her tits for a bit then move back to her pussy while sucking on her tits and making out with her periodically. I even push a finger into her pussy through her pants slightly and she starts moaning louder. I continue for a bit but dont get anywhere. This continues for like 30-45 minutes and then she stops me. She's putting her hands on her face as if she's disgusted with herself. I try to lighten the mood but she's in her head and keeps telling me "she's thinking negatively." She says she feels like she's too easy and i assure her that is not the case. I try using some yes ladders

Me: your having fun with me right?
Her: yes
Me: and you like kissing me right.
Her: yes
Me: and you think im a cool guy, right?
Her: yes
Me: Ok then so follow your feeling( i kiss her immediately after saying this)

We start making out again and then i flip her over. I put her on top of me and put my head in her shirt(loose fit.) I start sucking on her titty, playing with the other nipple and grabbing her ass with my other hand. I put my hand in her pants and get close r to her pussy. I try to put a finger in but she immediately stops me. FUCK. She stops me and then moves away from me. At this point i know Its over. I try comforting her and getting her to think light of the situation but it's a no go. She eventually tells me she never moved this fast with a guy before and feels "easy." She says she catches feelings fast and i know she really likes me. Eventually she says something and then i say " why is that, you barely even know me", fuck me haha (mistake #3.) She says i made her feel even worse ( trust me baby girl i know i fucked up lol.) Shit dies down, we sit for a bit and my nuts are screeching in pain. FUCkING BLUE BALLS! I tell her i gotta go and we hug and make out abit. I pull away from her lips then get in my car and scidaddle out the parking lot. I text her asking if she got home safe. She says she did with a heart.

Idk what to do with this one. We're supposed to meet up tomorrow but i feel like she might flake on me from feeling like a slut or whatever. On top of that since i fapped of last week my dick wasn't even super hard throughout. I think I still have porn induced ED and that was on the back of my mind the whole time. Even through all that shit, i know i'm getting better with women. That was the first time I chilled with her longer than 10 minutes and it went well. I need to read up on more ways of handling resistance and dealing with the Anti-slut defense. Also, i need to deal with this porn shit. I haven't watched any in like 90 days but I've had minor relapses by masturbating or looking at pics for few minutes and my brain is still linking pleasure to the pics. Shit will get better tho.
You guys let me know what i could've done better tonight. Should i have waited till tomorrow? Should i have tried fucking somewhere with more space ( i live like 20 minutes away and stay with grandparents so the car is the only viable spot i have at the moment. I'm guessing i gave off too much of a Bf vibe but idk yet. I'm starting to learn the balance between not being as much of an asshole while at the same time not building to much comfort or providing for women.

Peace out my dudes-Biz

 

[brandoan95]

Update So i chilled with shortsuff again as I mentioned. I got ready and head to her place at around 8pm. She tells me her parents want to meet me before we go out and I oblige. Feeling pretty confident about going on the date since it's been a minutes since i went out with a girl who i actually was attracted to. (A few weeks ago i chilled with some girl but she was ugly af and i just went along to gain more reference points.) ol. So I get there and meet her stepdad and her lil sister then we head out to In-N-Out.She's wearing ripped jeans, a jeans jacket and she has her hair straightened into a bun with a front bang. She looks good as fuck, nothing like how she does in class. I'm chilling with ripped skinnies of my own along with kobe x's and a White v-neck. I'm just being my normal playful self not thinking too much. I tease her abit and we talk about school and shit like that. For tonight however, i decided i would try to build more rapport consistently throughout the date while mixing in my sexual teasing and sexual framing.
We drive along until we reach the place but then i change my mind and we decide to hit up chick-fil-a instead. As we get in i play with her and have her hold me from behind. She starts tickling me and grazing my skin. We're having a good ass time waiting to order. Then i comment about one of the cashier's and she tires to shush me. I remember Hector's " How to Be a Lovable Dick" and i immediately talk louder fucking with her. She comments how im so irritating but i know what that really means . We order our food but pay separately then i lead her outside. While out there we're having good vibes. She shoes me some pics of her when she was in HS as well as pics of her family and what not. Her body language is pointing towards me the majority of the time and im throwing in some sexual framing. It's staritng to get incorporated in my game more smoothly. For example she's eating yogurt and she comments on how her friend says she uses her tounge. I say "that's cool as long as you dont use your teeth your fine" haha. She catches on to it and hits me then I change the subject
After talking and eating for a while I suggest we go to a park and play on the swings. She's down so we head to my car and drive off. We get to the park but it's super dark and i'm not feeling the vibe too much. There's a good chance a cop may come and see my car as the only one in the parking lot so i think of another spot. We end up heading to this skate park with slides and shit similar to the sorts. We go down a slide and i linger there for a bit. She walks away and notices i haven't moved, then she circles back towards me. I pull her onto me and she sits on my lap. We sit in silence for a couple minutes then i turn her and lightly kiss her. I kiss her and bit then stop, kiss abit then stop, teasing her and creating an escalation ladder. Eventually i get to her nips and start sucking on them and also suck on her neck. She's extremely turned on by this, scratching the shit out my back and even biting me a bit haha. I start rubbing the outside of her pussy, loosen her belt, then put my hand around her ass and rub her pussy a bit. I stick a finger in a little and move around her clit.
She suggests we get to the car but ignore her request and keep going. About 5 minutes later she stops me and says "your car". I grab her hand and we walk back to my car. I open the passenger seat and sit and move her onto my lap. I decided against going to the backseat similar to yesterday, knowing what happened. We sit abit then i physically escalate. I wait abit in between escalation and she's building slowly but intensely. I reach into her pants and rub her pussy, no resistance. I move her to her back and start fingering her and rubbing the outside of her pussy, avoiding the clit specifically. I'll occasionally finger her for a sec, then move away and rub around her pussy lips. Eventually i start finger fucking her while slowly removing clothing. First her belt, then shoes, then pants, then panties.
Shit's getting hot and i proceed to use my mouth following chase's procedure of giving great oral sex. She's all in it moaning, saying "fuck yes", etc. Eventually i start visualizing myself fucking her and getting in her walls and i start to get harder. However i wait till she climaxes from my tongue and finger penetration. She's slowly coming to my senses so i reach for my condom, unzip my pants and try spreading her legs. She gives me the window but i'm struggling to put on the condom with one hand haha. I don't want to put both of my hands to the task b/c she'll realize what i'm trying to do and the moment will die down. I rub my dick against her pussy abit but my inexperience starts showing. It's dark and honestly my dick wasn't that hard. I couldn't force myself in her and she even says "Wrong hole" a few times. Damn rookie mistakes, FUCK!. The same shit happens, she tells me to stop. I try kissing her neck and put my finger in her vagina but then she tells me her pussy hurts. I suggest she give me head but it wasn't dominant and she wasn't up for the idea. After about 5 minutes she says I need to go. Feeling defeated i say fuck it and decide to leave.

On the way back i play music to try and get my mind off my failure to fuck her. As she's putting her clothes back on she places the condom on my leg(Smh.)She tries small talk and we speak abit but the vibe isn't there. Her body language is pointed towards the window in the completely opposite direction from me but she tries grabbing my hand to make me feel better. However, i can read her and i don't really feel like holding her hand at this point. I ask if she came and says yeah, not asking for my validation but just wondering if i did oral right. I know my fuck up and don't see any point trying to save the situation. We get back to her house. It's about 11pm at about this point. I stop by her house and she says "your not going to walk me to the door?" I bust a U turn and stop and walk her to her door. I give her a strong hug but my its from the side and we aren't facing each other. I then proceed to leave and drive back home with blue balls all over again, a burning rage inside me. She texts me saying to text her when I reach home. I do, she texts me goodnight, i don't reply.

FUCK, this night was so frustrating. I'm pretty sure i got the window to penetrate but my dick man... Then when i got relatively hard she wasn't down for it. This LMR shit is no joke. I need to handle my performance anxiety. Idk if it's the old porn history or if i'm just too much in my head to please her. I can get relatively hard thinking about me fucking her but while i'm in the moment kissing her i don't feel much. In order for me to push through this last 5% i need to get this issue handled.

My next focus will be reading more on dealing with performance anxiety and dealing with LMR as well as handling bad logistics. The rage inside me isn't bitterness. It's more of me motivated and focused to get better and get in some pussy. I know i will soon enough and I wont stop till i'm fucking a girl's brains out. I;m leaning towards not talking to her anymore. I don;t think i can save this situation and feel the same shit will happen again. Let me know if you guys have any advice for my problem or if you've been in this situation b4.

Until next time gents- Biz

 

[Inbocca]

Dude, you basically turned an FR into an LR. Maybe it didn't go the way you planned, but it's still fucking awesome. Good for you, man!

Might be a good call to bail on this one, but if you get another opportunity I think you should go for it. It seems like you've gotten closer and closer each time, and it's just those little mistakes that keep ruining it. Maybe third time's the charm? Plus you're learning each time, that's the most important thing to get out of this.

As far as the PIED goes, I know that feel. Obviously, the only solution is to completely cut it out of your routine, which is the hard part. One thing I try to tell myself every time I want to relieve myself via the Internet is that I could be fucking that girl, but I'm not because I'm too busy watching someone else fuck her. That same guy could be in my shoes watching someone else fuck that girl, but he's not because he put the work in and did what it takes to be able to fuck that girl. That, and ever since I started studying the composition of dominant men, I notice their behavior everywhere - even in porn. If you pay attention, you see how they lead the entire interaction and take control, showing the girl what she wants and getting her to do what he wants. It makes it really clear that you could be doing the same thing, so why don't you? And the answer is because it's easier to watch someone else do it. Guys do that for the same reason that we give up half-way through a set while working out, or let approach anxiety win during cold approach, or don't move fast enough when we're in a conversation. It's the easy way. But every time you do it, it's a step backward.

So in short, my solution is to shame the fuck out of myself. It doesn't always work, but it works better than whatever else I've tried. Hope it helps.

 

[brandoan95]

Dude, you basically turned an FR into an LR. Maybe it didn't go the way you planned, but it's still fucking awesome. Good for you, man

Thanks bro. I didn't even think about it that way till u just mentioned it. Yea tbh the dates are easy lol. I have some experience escalating with girls b4 for its not much of a problem. I'm learning so much each day that I'll get it right soon

Might be a good call to bail on this one, but if you get another opportunity I think you should go for it

yeah I'm definitely moving on to the next one. She has my class so it might be awkward but I don't really care lol.

As far as the PIED goes, I know that feel. Obviously, the only solution is to completely cut it out of your routine, which is the hard part. One thing I try to tell myself every time I want to relieve myself via the Internet is that I could be fucking that girl, but I'm not because I'm too busy watching someone else fuck her.

Yeah Pied has fucked me up with so many girls. I was clean for a while but those relapses really fuck up your progress. Now that I know I can get to the point of almost fucking a girl I think im more than motivated to quit for good. I know I will bro and I'm definitely going to use your advice
Thanks for the advice Inbocca, I appreciate it and good luck out there in Az. SLAY MY BRO haha
-Biz