Had a little fun writing this, also I could use some advice

[ozzyfrogs]

I recently Invested much into a new ship, she was gorgeous, fast and glorious to behold. I foolhardily thought I could hang on to her wild lists and stubborn refusal to be guided. We sailed off onto the unknown hoping for adventure.
As with all great things, struggles soon followed. I pushed her too hard for too long and eventually she broke, I knew I was supposed to push her fast to begin with to gain speed and catch the wind, then it would be smooth sailing, but I slowed down and pushed her hard to speed up again. My chance lost I kept at it until the inevitable happened, I know now that's when I should have returned to port.

After a herculean effort to fix the problem I had a great sense of achievement, this was it I thought we can keep going and eventually I'll catch that wind. I should of seen the bad leadership decisions I was about to make. My lack of experience struck again, Not knowing what I should do now I crashed her straight into an unseen Iceberg. I became depressed, how could I have treated such a gorgeous ship so badly. I tested her to see if she would still move forward but she became unresponsive.

Now I face a choice, do I get in the lifeboat and brave the potentially rough and angry waters with only a paddle, or do I attempt to patch the hole I created and hope we sail again! If I leave she may well stay intact and be salvaged by a better captain than me but possibly leaving her to be ravaged by sea and pirates. It would be leaving her to her own fate and whatever that may entail, good or bad. Or do I stay the course, attempt to fix the damage I've done, I could very well end up taking her down with me into the deep.

My last thoughts before I decide, there will always be other ships to sail, I can learn from this experience and do better, I also feel she wants to be free of me, I'm not the first bad captain she's let onboard. Am I responsible for her well being now or do I accept that I can only bring her more pain? Does she respect the fact that I tried my best to lead her, does she want me to still be her captain?

 

[Drck]

Sail and paddle in the direction of North Pole where coldness awaits you, engulf that desire of yours in ice waters, and do not patch those holes. Avoid rough waters, leave things and people sailing along their ways, and leave those waves to their own fate. You have no power over that wind, and you can never catch its waves.

When the time comes, and the wind of hers will be blowing again, only then your course may change. Believe firmly that you could sail that boat again, but only in reflection of falling North Star, only reflection of that Star in deep waters should navigate your way. Seek those Celestial ways in peaceful Ocean, seek them along your waves.

You can never catch the wind of hers, yet you could truly sail far beyond that Horizon. So sail, sail when her wind blows again but do not chase that hurricane brother. Avoid those rough and angry waters, avoid them as they are deep, much deeper than ocean floor...

Are you asking Captain, what will the future be, what will it be? Perhaps only depts of that Ocean will let you know...


Oh fuck it, I will never be poet. I think you still have a chance, just pull back, let things cool off, give her some time and then see how she's reacting. Many times when you hit on a girl quite hard she may run away at first, but then she will come back. Don't chase, and don't appologize, or you will loose her forewer. Sometimes the best way is not to fix anything; all things always have amazing ways of fixing themselves, over some time....