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hello playas,
OK, Im back. Im gonna learn some techniques and get the ball rolling. OK, you know, i object to the "game" term thrown about, but, it's ok, whatever, I need to do these things, you have to put aside your reservations. Alright. I should try to type coherently here.
So, in my last post, I was worried about some skin condition on my member. Well, I finally went to the doctor, and it is nothing. I just have an ugly, but healthy dick, and there's nothing that can be done, apparently, aside from circumcision. I seriously considered it. It's not the first time. I had a Jewish girlfriend (who was a real mental case), who wanted me to get circumcised for aesthetic reasons. I kinda agree, and I have always had excessive foreskin and all the problems that go along with that like you wouldn't believe. When I was a tennager I also seriously looked into it for the hygiene reasons, but didn't feel like it. So I was thinking about it for aesthetic and hygiene reason. Which would be a no-brainer. But then I thought about the sensitivity and I imagine it must really ruin the sensitivity. So I'm not really considering it anymore. But, I would like to hear of anyone's experience if they went through it in adulthood.
So anyway, back to the field report. So I felt much better when I found out I was healthy. So far no-one has even noticed the bumps. Before i found out I did have protected sex with a heavyset girl and she blew me and she knew about the risks but she obviously needed dick. Well, that was a mistake giving it to her, I thought she was chill but she wasn't. Sleeping with this kind of girl is something I've done to get back on track. It's far from ideal and I wash i hadn't done it, you know i learned it on GC, i think and it's a good technique but should be avoided. but it probably helped. I did it once already so I knew it would be ok. But, it's sad, and embarrasing, and it made me realize I really have to raise my standards again.
So I have gone out with some others in the meantime, the timeline is fuzzy. One chick, pilgrim chick, is the main one on my radar rn. Becuase I'm busy and they always seem to flake on me and I'm disorganized, I can't seem to see these girls when I should. Like I haven't seen her in months. OK, focus, i can't spend forver on this. I'll get back to writing about her after the next time i see her. I got this other girl who I kinda liked in highschool, she looks the same 10 years later, i saw her once to make a painting and although it was flirty I hardly made a move at all, but we are looking to play tennis together soon. I got some others. But like I said, very hard to get girls actually to meet, so busy, tired, unmotivated, unconfident, recently got depressed for a few days after about 2 straight weeks of losing my cool and had some anger that was overwheling and turned into sadness. probably shoudlnt get into it.
So to get to the point. the one proper lay I had was this half-asian chick lets call her Baby. So, OK, I'm trying out my pick up line, "Could I make a painting of you?" This is on Tinder. She's a cute & sexy half Vietnamese, half G.I. Joe, is the best way to describe her. You could see from her pic she's got saggy tits but she wears them well, she's a bra-wearer. I hate it when girls don't wear a bra. She's sexy. Definitely. She's arches her back and shows off her tits. Some cleavage photo, smokey eye makeup, eyebrows done, Looks super cute when smiling but her serious face pics were pretty ugly. She's got "dick sucking lips" as she so proudly called them. Didn't notice at first but she's with the same 2 ugly girls in her pics who turn out to be her roomates. Her bio said Men are trash or something with a wacky emoji face.
So, I that night I got really high and drunk and was just about at wits end trying to get laid, messaging girls on my phone and chilling on my couch. I did my pickup line. She goes Excuse me. I go its art, she goes
OK
Are you good
so- so
*my instagram handle*
Looks like you've got plenty of models (oh god i hope she doesnt read this online, not in a million years, right?)
No, i need you
You don't
Hahaha
I need to feel special
You would be special but only if you modeled for me really aka the painting sells
It would be ur fault if it didn't work out not mine
I'm kidding. Your super special. I need u tonight
Alright, so that sealed the deal and she came over that night. She calls me first to check if I'm a weirdo, and I say, well, I hope I'm kindof weird, and so passed the test.
She comes over, and I'm super high and it's awkward and I'm acting weird. I look like a weirdo wearing a crazy suit I have, I'm pretty weird. But she like it, she was saying it was giving her old man vibes, Larry David vibes, which apparently, I found out, is a good thing.
I awkwardly go unlock the lower door and and go back up and leave my apartment door open so she can just waltz in, but then I change my mind and awkwardly intercept her at the top of the stairs. She's wearing the bullshit mask and she goes, why are you standing so close to me? I thought I would start really physical like I did with my last tinder girl, pilgrim girl, but right away this was a bit cold. OK, so we chat, in the kitchen, pour her a drink I think, go to the couch, she sits in reading chair by herself. Couldn't convice her to sit with me. I don't have time to type all this but it's interesting. OK, blah blah, I try to paint her, she's too fidgety and I'm not painting well, I get her to take her sweater off and I look at her in her bra and leggings, which is like, my kink, if I had one. I flop onto my bed which is in my studio and say something like wanna hang out with me? ( A line I used on pilgrim girl). So we lie on the bed together. Get some art books to look at. One has some explicit sex in it and I don't know if that was a good thing. It wasn't planned but it comes up a lot with girls over. Probably good. Its a photo of a penis halfway in a vagina just a close up.
OK, so eventually she comes up with the idea of painting my cock. We probably made out and i probably took off her bra by now, I can't remember. It;s not heading toward sex, i can't remember much. So, whatever, I protest but then I stand for her with my dick out and she makes a painting of it. It's funny and somethin that some rt school kids would do, so it was nice to get that experience. But I was barely hard and I was half-jokingly embarrased that I couldn't stay hard with a beautiful girl making a painting of my dick. OK, cool story, Fast Forward.
So, eventually, I end up fucking her real good, probably second date. Oh yeah, we went to the bar, had a drink with her roomate (she whispered in my ear, don't even think about a threesome), which was kindof a test to see If i was cool and normal. I wasn't at the start of the night, I was stressed, but by the time the roomate got there I was cool and friendly. Baby girl was super horny, whispering in my ear about cock, we talked in a more normal way then the other night ( think this was the very next night.) I fuck her real good, But, the crazy thing is, I havent had proper sex in so long, My goddamn foreskin actually tears. So, listen to this: I got this girl totally hooked. She was a-"DICK"-ted. after just one night. We saw each other every day that week until Saturday, which, surprise, was her birthday. So the probalem here, I really am thinking this was the problem, so I can't really feel bad about it, was that we didn't really have sex after the first two times. The second time was nice and gentle and she let me go raw, but it just made my foreskin worse so I had to lay off. So, Saturday rolls around and I meet all her roomate/friends (3 girls one guy) and we go to the casino all dressed up and I spend a bunch of money on her and its good fun, but then at the end of the night, she's undressing and I stupidly start taking a candid photo of her (I was joking around about photography earlier when she made me take pictures of the 3 girls dressed up. and I took another candid photo when she was being cute.) I let her catch me, and she gets pissed and takes my phone and starts going through it. I've had a long day, because I'd been lately playing it real cool, and these kids were not cool, and it was getting weary. Plus the whole courtship she was going on about how I'm a hot guy and she seemed very insecure. I could go into it but I gotta wrap this up. It got real serious real fast... OK, well, it was right where I wanted it, a little fast, but whatever, OK, there's a lot to get into and I gotta go but basically she was upset that I tried to take a pic of her undressing and then she saw screenshots of hudred of girls in my phone (i screenshot when they put their socials in the bio.) I was tired and druck and so was she so she just told me to leave. I was acting all flustered at her reaction and she got pissed at that, so the next day I was thinking I would act like it was no big deal, But I went too far and didn't even acknowledge that we had a relationship one bit, just asked to get leftovers from the fridge and some other favor. Stupid. Didn't apologize. Tried to get her to come over for a talk and she couldn't because it was late(this was days later) and then I never did, I figured I would move on. Oh yeah, because she seemed to always come over in a bad mood and I didn't feel like putting up with it.
But inretrospect I miss her. She cooked for me, stocked my fridge with beers, wanted to be serious, but I wanted to maintain my goal of having many women and didn't handle it well. OK, I'll go into that. She said, So are we going to stop seeing other people, And i said, well, since you asked, and I'm making up the rule, the rule is that I can but you can't. And she agreed to it but the next day demanded that we could both still see other people. Then she was looking at Tinder right in front of me. Rude. Oh, and then, after things fell apart, I saw her new Tinder pic was the one I took of her and her friends! The nerve!
So , I dont know what to think. Maybe she was playing me, maybe she gets guys to take her to the casino every weekend.
Oh, well, I cant type no more but I'm thinking should give her a ring, I haven't tried that yet. She leaves my town sometime in June.
And, I have't gotten laid in like a month. She was my last.
OK, Im back. Im gonna learn some techniques and get the ball rolling. OK, you know, i object to the "game" term thrown about, but, it's ok, whatever, I need to do these things, you have to put aside your reservations. Alright. I should try to type coherently here.
So, in my last post, I was worried about some skin condition on my member. Well, I finally went to the doctor, and it is nothing. I just have an ugly, but healthy dick, and there's nothing that can be done, apparently, aside from circumcision. I seriously considered it. It's not the first time. I had a Jewish girlfriend (who was a real mental case), who wanted me to get circumcised for aesthetic reasons. I kinda agree, and I have always had excessive foreskin and all the problems that go along with that like you wouldn't believe. When I was a tennager I also seriously looked into it for the hygiene reasons, but didn't feel like it. So I was thinking about it for aesthetic and hygiene reason. Which would be a no-brainer. But then I thought about the sensitivity and I imagine it must really ruin the sensitivity. So I'm not really considering it anymore. But, I would like to hear of anyone's experience if they went through it in adulthood.
So anyway, back to the field report. So I felt much better when I found out I was healthy. So far no-one has even noticed the bumps. Before i found out I did have protected sex with a heavyset girl and she blew me and she knew about the risks but she obviously needed dick. Well, that was a mistake giving it to her, I thought she was chill but she wasn't. Sleeping with this kind of girl is something I've done to get back on track. It's far from ideal and I wash i hadn't done it, you know i learned it on GC, i think and it's a good technique but should be avoided. but it probably helped. I did it once already so I knew it would be ok. But, it's sad, and embarrasing, and it made me realize I really have to raise my standards again.
So I have gone out with some others in the meantime, the timeline is fuzzy. One chick, pilgrim chick, is the main one on my radar rn. Becuase I'm busy and they always seem to flake on me and I'm disorganized, I can't seem to see these girls when I should. Like I haven't seen her in months. OK, focus, i can't spend forver on this. I'll get back to writing about her after the next time i see her. I got this other girl who I kinda liked in highschool, she looks the same 10 years later, i saw her once to make a painting and although it was flirty I hardly made a move at all, but we are looking to play tennis together soon. I got some others. But like I said, very hard to get girls actually to meet, so busy, tired, unmotivated, unconfident, recently got depressed for a few days after about 2 straight weeks of losing my cool and had some anger that was overwheling and turned into sadness. probably shoudlnt get into it.
So to get to the point. the one proper lay I had was this half-asian chick lets call her Baby. So, OK, I'm trying out my pick up line, "Could I make a painting of you?" This is on Tinder. She's a cute & sexy half Vietnamese, half G.I. Joe, is the best way to describe her. You could see from her pic she's got saggy tits but she wears them well, she's a bra-wearer. I hate it when girls don't wear a bra. She's sexy. Definitely. She's arches her back and shows off her tits. Some cleavage photo, smokey eye makeup, eyebrows done, Looks super cute when smiling but her serious face pics were pretty ugly. She's got "dick sucking lips" as she so proudly called them. Didn't notice at first but she's with the same 2 ugly girls in her pics who turn out to be her roomates. Her bio said Men are trash or something with a wacky emoji face.
So, I that night I got really high and drunk and was just about at wits end trying to get laid, messaging girls on my phone and chilling on my couch. I did my pickup line. She goes Excuse me. I go its art, she goes
OK
Are you good
so- so
*my instagram handle*
Looks like you've got plenty of models (oh god i hope she doesnt read this online, not in a million years, right?)
No, i need you
You don't
Hahaha
I need to feel special
You would be special but only if you modeled for me really aka the painting sells
It would be ur fault if it didn't work out not mine
I'm kidding. Your super special. I need u tonight
Alright, so that sealed the deal and she came over that night. She calls me first to check if I'm a weirdo, and I say, well, I hope I'm kindof weird, and so passed the test.
She comes over, and I'm super high and it's awkward and I'm acting weird. I look like a weirdo wearing a crazy suit I have, I'm pretty weird. But she like it, she was saying it was giving her old man vibes, Larry David vibes, which apparently, I found out, is a good thing.
I awkwardly go unlock the lower door and and go back up and leave my apartment door open so she can just waltz in, but then I change my mind and awkwardly intercept her at the top of the stairs. She's wearing the bullshit mask and she goes, why are you standing so close to me? I thought I would start really physical like I did with my last tinder girl, pilgrim girl, but right away this was a bit cold. OK, so we chat, in the kitchen, pour her a drink I think, go to the couch, she sits in reading chair by herself. Couldn't convice her to sit with me. I don't have time to type all this but it's interesting. OK, blah blah, I try to paint her, she's too fidgety and I'm not painting well, I get her to take her sweater off and I look at her in her bra and leggings, which is like, my kink, if I had one. I flop onto my bed which is in my studio and say something like wanna hang out with me? ( A line I used on pilgrim girl). So we lie on the bed together. Get some art books to look at. One has some explicit sex in it and I don't know if that was a good thing. It wasn't planned but it comes up a lot with girls over. Probably good. Its a photo of a penis halfway in a vagina just a close up.
OK, so eventually she comes up with the idea of painting my cock. We probably made out and i probably took off her bra by now, I can't remember. It;s not heading toward sex, i can't remember much. So, whatever, I protest but then I stand for her with my dick out and she makes a painting of it. It's funny and somethin that some rt school kids would do, so it was nice to get that experience. But I was barely hard and I was half-jokingly embarrased that I couldn't stay hard with a beautiful girl making a painting of my dick. OK, cool story, Fast Forward.
So, eventually, I end up fucking her real good, probably second date. Oh yeah, we went to the bar, had a drink with her roomate (she whispered in my ear, don't even think about a threesome), which was kindof a test to see If i was cool and normal. I wasn't at the start of the night, I was stressed, but by the time the roomate got there I was cool and friendly. Baby girl was super horny, whispering in my ear about cock, we talked in a more normal way then the other night ( think this was the very next night.) I fuck her real good, But, the crazy thing is, I havent had proper sex in so long, My goddamn foreskin actually tears. So, listen to this: I got this girl totally hooked. She was a-"DICK"-ted. after just one night. We saw each other every day that week until Saturday, which, surprise, was her birthday. So the probalem here, I really am thinking this was the problem, so I can't really feel bad about it, was that we didn't really have sex after the first two times. The second time was nice and gentle and she let me go raw, but it just made my foreskin worse so I had to lay off. So, Saturday rolls around and I meet all her roomate/friends (3 girls one guy) and we go to the casino all dressed up and I spend a bunch of money on her and its good fun, but then at the end of the night, she's undressing and I stupidly start taking a candid photo of her (I was joking around about photography earlier when she made me take pictures of the 3 girls dressed up. and I took another candid photo when she was being cute.) I let her catch me, and she gets pissed and takes my phone and starts going through it. I've had a long day, because I'd been lately playing it real cool, and these kids were not cool, and it was getting weary. Plus the whole courtship she was going on about how I'm a hot guy and she seemed very insecure. I could go into it but I gotta wrap this up. It got real serious real fast... OK, well, it was right where I wanted it, a little fast, but whatever, OK, there's a lot to get into and I gotta go but basically she was upset that I tried to take a pic of her undressing and then she saw screenshots of hudred of girls in my phone (i screenshot when they put their socials in the bio.) I was tired and druck and so was she so she just told me to leave. I was acting all flustered at her reaction and she got pissed at that, so the next day I was thinking I would act like it was no big deal, But I went too far and didn't even acknowledge that we had a relationship one bit, just asked to get leftovers from the fridge and some other favor. Stupid. Didn't apologize. Tried to get her to come over for a talk and she couldn't because it was late(this was days later) and then I never did, I figured I would move on. Oh yeah, because she seemed to always come over in a bad mood and I didn't feel like putting up with it.
But inretrospect I miss her. She cooked for me, stocked my fridge with beers, wanted to be serious, but I wanted to maintain my goal of having many women and didn't handle it well. OK, I'll go into that. She said, So are we going to stop seeing other people, And i said, well, since you asked, and I'm making up the rule, the rule is that I can but you can't. And she agreed to it but the next day demanded that we could both still see other people. Then she was looking at Tinder right in front of me. Rude. Oh, and then, after things fell apart, I saw her new Tinder pic was the one I took of her and her friends! The nerve!
So , I dont know what to think. Maybe she was playing me, maybe she gets guys to take her to the casino every weekend.
Oh, well, I cant type no more but I'm thinking should give her a ring, I haven't tried that yet. She leaves my town sometime in June.
And, I have't gotten laid in like a month. She was my last.
