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I'm not into hyperbole-- not that much. None of this will be hyperbole.
I have several mini reports in this one but the big field report i want to say is not at all what i expected. I live in minneapolis and i've been sick to death of it. It feels like it's been a slow burn- great in so many ways still but a slow burn socially over almost a decade. I have learned about irony and it is thick here. People told me i would like Austin TX so i planned and plan to go there. I imagine going there now and being impressed and thinking- gosh golly this place is so much better than my city. And I hate to blame and be critical so i hate to call people out that i'm not sure about. All I know is it just feels shitty and static. But this is fucking crazy what i'm about to share.
I found a coffee shop. I like to work and be around people, not holed up in my house and coffee shops and places are alright but nothing special but i found on and it turns out its in this district of the city- north loop. I knew about the North Loop Warehouse District as a place but holy shit I had no idea. first the coffee shop drew me in for its aesthetics and space and size so I am working remote there- and being WAY more productive. It increased my work satisfaction and productivity 75 % at least i sweare, maybe 125 or even more. Or even more. But what's amazing is the district around it and the people there. First it is so clean, so spacious, the streets are clean. The people co-working with me-- they just have a much better vibe. All that irony is gone. People aren't really overweight-- a few might be a little but they still have a good vibe. They all dress so much nicer. the girls have style. This is a different type of people here- this is my people. They are on point. They are non dramatic. It is actually so easy to get into a conversation with them. I sat next to this girl at a table over and i asked her to watch my computer when i went to the bathroom. People always do that but with her i only did it as a ploy. I got back and started talking. She had had her feet up on the opposite chair and she was bouncing them. I felt like we had a hot and good conversation. she was an internal medicine doctor person- but you'd never know, she could have been on only fans and she legit seemed to be jiving. I kinda ejected when maybe i could have pushed more. See--- i have regrets but also no regrets since there is a risk both ways. There are real risks. I don't like polluting space and i plan to be in this space but there is the risk of not continuing. I need a tried and true system that saves face and creates the possibility of meeting, but i ejected gracefully after 4 or 5 minutes i think. Maybe it wasn't that long. I don't know actually if the mind distorts sense of time in these moments. I am sure it does but i don't know if it contracts or expands it but it was a subjective 4 or 5 minutes. she was hot and i knew she was vibing and i also knew it was a high point that i felt i couldn't hold and if i was on vacation in a foreign country maybe i would push it. I talked to other people, guys and other girls in line. Note I am not even there to pick up but to do my thing, and if i meet someone make connections but it is just so much easier. It exactly confirms my theory- environment theory or people type theory.
IF I would have gone to Austin and got this vibe, i would have thought it didn't exist here. it is crazy. outside there is also a nice venue. I can sit on lawn chairs, get some sun and natural light for an eye break and people are chilling. it is legit like a vacation and i hate pure vacations in many ways just like i hate pure grinding. I like always being productive, always moving forward-- and this place hits. Jesus christ i had a colleague once from my out of state university work downtown and i rememeber now he rented a place there while working where i worked, and we didn't get paid a lot and i remember he was paying more than my mortgage- which he could have gotten. he could have gotten a house- not to mention house hack like i did. i made a smart first real estate move for sure but he was soaking up this vibe. There are so many cute women --- WHO are not cynical and jaded and ironic AND who dress nice AND are approachable in good faith. it's like wtf. WTF!!!
I had a good day at the practice dance party- but they have a wall of irony. it is hard to pull through this, out of this bubble or simulated environment. there does feel like real connection but real connection in an unescapable bubble and the key is to get outside that. I can't force. I wouldn't know how so i keep spinning, trying to not be insane -- by expecting something different while doing the same. I try to enjoy myself. that is the key and not get attached or deceived-- and only dance with who i want to so i'm not a dancing monkey but a sovereign individual. it is very fun dancing with beautiful women. that's who i want, and some older women are elegant and fun - it does not always have to be a prospect but it is so easy to become a dancing monkey and that is a hit to the ego, and that's what i want to avoid because i think the key to strong masculine power is to only do things that validate you and grow you- wins. i think challenge is overrated. challenge should happen on your border, and then you should win. you only grow from winning challenges and expanding, not simply being challenged. that is your empire shrinking or being limited. I did dance with this new girl there and there was just fucking chemistry. straight away- she was younger, and needed my help, i sensed the "she wants me to kiss her" vibe or we want to kiss each other. Honestly you can't make that up. it was intense. There are so many feelings to be had with women. the key is to hold them--- and not break in the mind. I want to lead and win from erotic core- authenticity. i know there are games and frames and tricks and tips and principles to know and that's well and good and there's a place to perform but i only want to perform if there is some authenticity and chemistry. I also have to learn how to fit women into my life as funny as it sounds. I don't think this is the only thing holding me back but i sense subconscious nervousness and confusion of how to fit a woman into my life without destroying or disrupting it that i actually get, that i actually pull. not that i haven't pulled before at times but that's how i feel.
There was a third i think but it doesn't matter. So the doctor girl, the dance girl chemistry.
The fucking reality of place. it was amazing. north loop. everything is better. EVERYTHING. There is none of that suffocating IRONY-- which AI got me into but now i got some books on it. It is a think that has been heavily studied- i think under literary criticism or maybe English- you know the stuff we all avoid. there may actually be some good useful stuff in those fields. Anyway there was none of that. just i guess what you can call a pleasure and production blend. just a healthy mix of being alive. And they dress fashionably but not ostentatiously AND they are approachable. Oh i realize right now suddenly how designer things with name brands on them, as women is a turn off. I didn't realize that. these people wear unique items--cool summer stuff. I didn't know how refreshing something silly like this would be. I didn't know I cared so much. The baristas are friendly all around but here they also have that dimension. I don't need or necessarily want to travel everywhere, to get satisfied. i want to be free to be able to but if i can find what i want locally it's better. it's so crazy how this exists in this few square mile district and nowhere else i have found. It's like wtf. My tenant in the next unit said this is how uptown used to be. Da fuck. This matters so much to me. the vibe is refreshing and uplifting. it does not change my life overnight. it's not that it gives me any big dopamine hit. It starts out more as a cognitive thing. i as walking around after work the other day and i felt the sense of wonder about the city that i felt when i first saw this place as a young 20 year old and things were possible. everything depends on angle, and environment. i still have more work to do-- to get ahead and progress. I have puzzles to solve, like how to fit a good girl in my life and then get one into it... outside of the church frame ideally, although those women are quality in their way. maybe i can get one from that frame, and maybe they are even like me, just in it for the future relationships. I am open minded to that but this would not require it.
God damn how can place make so much of a difference? How and why are people so congregated and silod? Why can't more people just be happier and cooler? What is wrong with people in general? how do i fit in, network and become part of something. a man, or anyone needs to be part of networks. the networking challenge is real. Ideally I would create something someday but that is .. hard i guess. that would be the platinum or gold level of being. it is hard to win in the wrong field and this is also about enjoyment and pleasure. winning is about enjoying one's life and relationships, more than a status thing, to me anyway and in some environments it is so hard to win, and in others you win even if you didn't get a hook up. you just enjoy being there. i am trying to not idealise it or blow it out of proportion but it already wins by contrast. Not everyone is like uptown people -- they can be chill and more down to earth but they are still reserved. here they are positively open and shiny/radiant. why and how? Why there? I don't get it. There may be more yuppies but there are both men and women and the men with women don't seem paranoid and jealous. it is insane.
So i both take back what i've been saying about minneapolis having nothing or having a hard environment- because it does have a nice place-- but also i don't take it back. this confirms by contrast what i was saying before and it confirms to me, like a thermocline, like two masses of water that should blend but they are of such different type they stay separate.. and for whatever reason i am and have been a floater type. i go anywhere in the world and try to blend or adapt and thrive but only some places give back. i was right but i did not see a place like that existed. Maybe there are even better places in the world. who knows. it's not that i want to be urban forever even, necessarily. there are so many places to be, so many things to do. Maybe some day i will have a hobby farm homestead on the outskirts of a metro, and raise a family with ducks. There are many things to be and be a part of but for right now this place is hot and easy. it is insane how it can be so different and easy and good and i can't measure my value as a man on how much i pull. i think that is toxic but i do want to get some but I think that is toxic, especially for how my mind works but i will stop there because i could go on forever and ever and ever. the environment can be your enemy or your friend, not just in how you regard it but which environment you are part of. Different environments can be evil, frankly- as evil as anything, or ubel- in german. That sense of evil and different environments can be good and that's frankly what it comes down to. I'm not a good versus evil thinker generally but i have to be because that's how it is. It's almost like bad environments hate- hate the man, hate freedom, hate success and love and i'm not talking about anything overt, nothing you would find in the news. it's just that people don't give in some environments, and they give a lot, naturally in others. What the literal heck. I've been there this past whole week and every day is a win.
I have several mini reports in this one but the big field report i want to say is not at all what i expected. I live in minneapolis and i've been sick to death of it. It feels like it's been a slow burn- great in so many ways still but a slow burn socially over almost a decade. I have learned about irony and it is thick here. People told me i would like Austin TX so i planned and plan to go there. I imagine going there now and being impressed and thinking- gosh golly this place is so much better than my city. And I hate to blame and be critical so i hate to call people out that i'm not sure about. All I know is it just feels shitty and static. But this is fucking crazy what i'm about to share.
I found a coffee shop. I like to work and be around people, not holed up in my house and coffee shops and places are alright but nothing special but i found on and it turns out its in this district of the city- north loop. I knew about the North Loop Warehouse District as a place but holy shit I had no idea. first the coffee shop drew me in for its aesthetics and space and size so I am working remote there- and being WAY more productive. It increased my work satisfaction and productivity 75 % at least i sweare, maybe 125 or even more. Or even more. But what's amazing is the district around it and the people there. First it is so clean, so spacious, the streets are clean. The people co-working with me-- they just have a much better vibe. All that irony is gone. People aren't really overweight-- a few might be a little but they still have a good vibe. They all dress so much nicer. the girls have style. This is a different type of people here- this is my people. They are on point. They are non dramatic. It is actually so easy to get into a conversation with them. I sat next to this girl at a table over and i asked her to watch my computer when i went to the bathroom. People always do that but with her i only did it as a ploy. I got back and started talking. She had had her feet up on the opposite chair and she was bouncing them. I felt like we had a hot and good conversation. she was an internal medicine doctor person- but you'd never know, she could have been on only fans and she legit seemed to be jiving. I kinda ejected when maybe i could have pushed more. See--- i have regrets but also no regrets since there is a risk both ways. There are real risks. I don't like polluting space and i plan to be in this space but there is the risk of not continuing. I need a tried and true system that saves face and creates the possibility of meeting, but i ejected gracefully after 4 or 5 minutes i think. Maybe it wasn't that long. I don't know actually if the mind distorts sense of time in these moments. I am sure it does but i don't know if it contracts or expands it but it was a subjective 4 or 5 minutes. she was hot and i knew she was vibing and i also knew it was a high point that i felt i couldn't hold and if i was on vacation in a foreign country maybe i would push it. I talked to other people, guys and other girls in line. Note I am not even there to pick up but to do my thing, and if i meet someone make connections but it is just so much easier. It exactly confirms my theory- environment theory or people type theory.
IF I would have gone to Austin and got this vibe, i would have thought it didn't exist here. it is crazy. outside there is also a nice venue. I can sit on lawn chairs, get some sun and natural light for an eye break and people are chilling. it is legit like a vacation and i hate pure vacations in many ways just like i hate pure grinding. I like always being productive, always moving forward-- and this place hits. Jesus christ i had a colleague once from my out of state university work downtown and i rememeber now he rented a place there while working where i worked, and we didn't get paid a lot and i remember he was paying more than my mortgage- which he could have gotten. he could have gotten a house- not to mention house hack like i did. i made a smart first real estate move for sure but he was soaking up this vibe. There are so many cute women --- WHO are not cynical and jaded and ironic AND who dress nice AND are approachable in good faith. it's like wtf. WTF!!!
I had a good day at the practice dance party- but they have a wall of irony. it is hard to pull through this, out of this bubble or simulated environment. there does feel like real connection but real connection in an unescapable bubble and the key is to get outside that. I can't force. I wouldn't know how so i keep spinning, trying to not be insane -- by expecting something different while doing the same. I try to enjoy myself. that is the key and not get attached or deceived-- and only dance with who i want to so i'm not a dancing monkey but a sovereign individual. it is very fun dancing with beautiful women. that's who i want, and some older women are elegant and fun - it does not always have to be a prospect but it is so easy to become a dancing monkey and that is a hit to the ego, and that's what i want to avoid because i think the key to strong masculine power is to only do things that validate you and grow you- wins. i think challenge is overrated. challenge should happen on your border, and then you should win. you only grow from winning challenges and expanding, not simply being challenged. that is your empire shrinking or being limited. I did dance with this new girl there and there was just fucking chemistry. straight away- she was younger, and needed my help, i sensed the "she wants me to kiss her" vibe or we want to kiss each other. Honestly you can't make that up. it was intense. There are so many feelings to be had with women. the key is to hold them--- and not break in the mind. I want to lead and win from erotic core- authenticity. i know there are games and frames and tricks and tips and principles to know and that's well and good and there's a place to perform but i only want to perform if there is some authenticity and chemistry. I also have to learn how to fit women into my life as funny as it sounds. I don't think this is the only thing holding me back but i sense subconscious nervousness and confusion of how to fit a woman into my life without destroying or disrupting it that i actually get, that i actually pull. not that i haven't pulled before at times but that's how i feel.
There was a third i think but it doesn't matter. So the doctor girl, the dance girl chemistry.
The fucking reality of place. it was amazing. north loop. everything is better. EVERYTHING. There is none of that suffocating IRONY-- which AI got me into but now i got some books on it. It is a think that has been heavily studied- i think under literary criticism or maybe English- you know the stuff we all avoid. there may actually be some good useful stuff in those fields. Anyway there was none of that. just i guess what you can call a pleasure and production blend. just a healthy mix of being alive. And they dress fashionably but not ostentatiously AND they are approachable. Oh i realize right now suddenly how designer things with name brands on them, as women is a turn off. I didn't realize that. these people wear unique items--cool summer stuff. I didn't know how refreshing something silly like this would be. I didn't know I cared so much. The baristas are friendly all around but here they also have that dimension. I don't need or necessarily want to travel everywhere, to get satisfied. i want to be free to be able to but if i can find what i want locally it's better. it's so crazy how this exists in this few square mile district and nowhere else i have found. It's like wtf. My tenant in the next unit said this is how uptown used to be. Da fuck. This matters so much to me. the vibe is refreshing and uplifting. it does not change my life overnight. it's not that it gives me any big dopamine hit. It starts out more as a cognitive thing. i as walking around after work the other day and i felt the sense of wonder about the city that i felt when i first saw this place as a young 20 year old and things were possible. everything depends on angle, and environment. i still have more work to do-- to get ahead and progress. I have puzzles to solve, like how to fit a good girl in my life and then get one into it... outside of the church frame ideally, although those women are quality in their way. maybe i can get one from that frame, and maybe they are even like me, just in it for the future relationships. I am open minded to that but this would not require it.
God damn how can place make so much of a difference? How and why are people so congregated and silod? Why can't more people just be happier and cooler? What is wrong with people in general? how do i fit in, network and become part of something. a man, or anyone needs to be part of networks. the networking challenge is real. Ideally I would create something someday but that is .. hard i guess. that would be the platinum or gold level of being. it is hard to win in the wrong field and this is also about enjoyment and pleasure. winning is about enjoying one's life and relationships, more than a status thing, to me anyway and in some environments it is so hard to win, and in others you win even if you didn't get a hook up. you just enjoy being there. i am trying to not idealise it or blow it out of proportion but it already wins by contrast. Not everyone is like uptown people -- they can be chill and more down to earth but they are still reserved. here they are positively open and shiny/radiant. why and how? Why there? I don't get it. There may be more yuppies but there are both men and women and the men with women don't seem paranoid and jealous. it is insane.
So i both take back what i've been saying about minneapolis having nothing or having a hard environment- because it does have a nice place-- but also i don't take it back. this confirms by contrast what i was saying before and it confirms to me, like a thermocline, like two masses of water that should blend but they are of such different type they stay separate.. and for whatever reason i am and have been a floater type. i go anywhere in the world and try to blend or adapt and thrive but only some places give back. i was right but i did not see a place like that existed. Maybe there are even better places in the world. who knows. it's not that i want to be urban forever even, necessarily. there are so many places to be, so many things to do. Maybe some day i will have a hobby farm homestead on the outskirts of a metro, and raise a family with ducks. There are many things to be and be a part of but for right now this place is hot and easy. it is insane how it can be so different and easy and good and i can't measure my value as a man on how much i pull. i think that is toxic but i do want to get some but I think that is toxic, especially for how my mind works but i will stop there because i could go on forever and ever and ever. the environment can be your enemy or your friend, not just in how you regard it but which environment you are part of. Different environments can be evil, frankly- as evil as anything, or ubel- in german. That sense of evil and different environments can be good and that's frankly what it comes down to. I'm not a good versus evil thinker generally but i have to be because that's how it is. It's almost like bad environments hate- hate the man, hate freedom, hate success and love and i'm not talking about anything overt, nothing you would find in the news. it's just that people don't give in some environments, and they give a lot, naturally in others. What the literal heck. I've been there this past whole week and every day is a win.
