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I have posted a brief intro about myself in the journal section, so I won't waste time re-introducing myself but there is this girl who has me completely and utterly baffled, and I am wondering if I have completely screwed up my chances of being with her.
A little background
I met her about 6 years ago in a mental health group *she's bi-polar* and she was in a serious committed relationship with her bf, but was not currently living with him because he was in jail. I was immediately attracted to her
Fastforward to the beginning of January of this year, and her boyfriend had started to live with her again, they were engaged to be married, but he died from an overdose of pills.
We have always been close as freinds, even when she was with her bf she didn't seem to mind if I playfully grabbed her ass.
But lately we have grown even closer. She lets me give her massages, and cuddles with me but she still will absolutely not let me kiss her. She says she is not ready for dating or relationships yet, but she still dresses like.. well let's call it what it is - slutty. I mean if she accidentally bent over in one of the skirts she usually wears, you could prolly see her pussy just because of the kind of thongs she wears.
PLus she subconciously flirts when we are at karaoke. I honestly believe she isn't even aware that she's doing it.
In any case, to get to the point/situation I am consfused about.
We were at my place watching a movie, like we normally do and she seemed really focused on the movie so I started to massage her feet. She told me that she really like that, so I kept working on her feet, and then on her shoulders, and I started to work on her back while playing with her hair.. She really seemed to enjoy it so I started to work on her legs, which sometimes she doesn't like me touching. At this point she complained of a stomach ache, and she went into the washroom and puked. But when she got back, she asked me to keep going. So I started working on her legs again.. a little while later, she excused herself and went to the washroom. But again when she came back, insisted that I continued. After getting to her inner thighs, which she has never let me touch before, she seemed to start to enjoy it more and relax.. In fact, she actually spread her legs apart a bit.. I started to move closer.. she didn't stop me.. I started to tentatively touch around her pussy, and after getting no resistence started to finger her lightly over her shorts.. still nothing, so then I started rubbing her in earnest until i think I gave her a small orgasm *well at the very least, she seemed to enjoy it immensely*
Now i know this is where I screwed up by stopping.. All sorts of weird thoughts like "if i keep going she's going to accuse me of raping her" were going thru my head.. so I totally wussed out.
Fourty minutes later, she seemed a little upset saying that she was a 'good girl' and I said that I knew she was, but that I felt that what had happened was neither good nor bad, just something that she needed at that particular moment.. She seemed to accept this and I drove her home.
The next day I called her to thank her for such a special evening.. she said that she had fun too.
But lately, every time I bring up something serious she COMPLTELY ignores me, as if she never got my message at all. And if i try to bring up that night, she just changes the subject.
would love some input on whether i can fix this, or whether i completely blew my chances
-Vinny
A little background
I met her about 6 years ago in a mental health group *she's bi-polar* and she was in a serious committed relationship with her bf, but was not currently living with him because he was in jail. I was immediately attracted to her
Fastforward to the beginning of January of this year, and her boyfriend had started to live with her again, they were engaged to be married, but he died from an overdose of pills.
We have always been close as freinds, even when she was with her bf she didn't seem to mind if I playfully grabbed her ass.
But lately we have grown even closer. She lets me give her massages, and cuddles with me but she still will absolutely not let me kiss her. She says she is not ready for dating or relationships yet, but she still dresses like.. well let's call it what it is - slutty. I mean if she accidentally bent over in one of the skirts she usually wears, you could prolly see her pussy just because of the kind of thongs she wears.
PLus she subconciously flirts when we are at karaoke. I honestly believe she isn't even aware that she's doing it.
In any case, to get to the point/situation I am consfused about.
We were at my place watching a movie, like we normally do and she seemed really focused on the movie so I started to massage her feet. She told me that she really like that, so I kept working on her feet, and then on her shoulders, and I started to work on her back while playing with her hair.. She really seemed to enjoy it so I started to work on her legs, which sometimes she doesn't like me touching. At this point she complained of a stomach ache, and she went into the washroom and puked. But when she got back, she asked me to keep going. So I started working on her legs again.. a little while later, she excused herself and went to the washroom. But again when she came back, insisted that I continued. After getting to her inner thighs, which she has never let me touch before, she seemed to start to enjoy it more and relax.. In fact, she actually spread her legs apart a bit.. I started to move closer.. she didn't stop me.. I started to tentatively touch around her pussy, and after getting no resistence started to finger her lightly over her shorts.. still nothing, so then I started rubbing her in earnest until i think I gave her a small orgasm *well at the very least, she seemed to enjoy it immensely*
Now i know this is where I screwed up by stopping.. All sorts of weird thoughts like "if i keep going she's going to accuse me of raping her" were going thru my head.. so I totally wussed out.
Fourty minutes later, she seemed a little upset saying that she was a 'good girl' and I said that I knew she was, but that I felt that what had happened was neither good nor bad, just something that she needed at that particular moment.. She seemed to accept this and I drove her home.
The next day I called her to thank her for such a special evening.. she said that she had fun too.
But lately, every time I bring up something serious she COMPLTELY ignores me, as if she never got my message at all. And if i try to bring up that night, she just changes the subject.
would love some input on whether i can fix this, or whether i completely blew my chances
-Vinny
