I have a date who is also my coworker. We obviously attracted to each other, we bonded emotionally, but we called each other "friends". She always did anything to me, dressed with clothes I mentioned I liked on her, she gifted me some snacks often, etc. She is older than me.
I had a childhood trauma that I hinted her in the past but couldn't ready to tell her, she kept asking me a lot after that she was distant to me, then I asked her what's wrong, she told nothing was wrong but she was still cold.
After I finally broke the barrier, she started emotionally crying and told she couldn't take it anymore that I didn't opened up and told her, so I did. She was really eager to know me in that time, also mentioned she had nobody that she cared this much.
When she asked me when we had wine, that "what I want from her, a relationship?" I answered with a really strong no, and I cleared my intentions that we would have sexual relationship only without emotions but caring each other (ofc. that was the best idea in that time as we are colleagues). We went after that a party that she saw me speaking with another girls. My friend told me she was really checking me a lot at this moment, kinda jealous. After these, the spark, the vibe had gone, the whole thing went really downhill. She went cold, didn't want to date. ( I think she marked me as a player/womanizer)
After that I have some complications in my personal life and I was too aloof and jerk in the workplace, totally ghosted her, had mood swings, and I hurt her with my actions. She went totally cold and distant. I tried to speak with her and make things right, but she told me she is bored and tired with these mood swings, that when I have the right mood I only speak to her and care about her. Also said that in a little crying voice. I told her I'm really sorry and will not happen again.
She said from now on can't believe me, if I will have again a bad mood she afraid I ghost her again. I really hurt her bad, she felt I was disgusted with her. Obviously these bad things in my life are closed, mood swings are gone, but now I screwed these things up at that level she totally aloof and can't believe me.
Do you think she has feelings for me? I mean is that more than plain attraction? Also how can I make this right?
I had a childhood trauma that I hinted her in the past but couldn't ready to tell her, she kept asking me a lot after that she was distant to me, then I asked her what's wrong, she told nothing was wrong but she was still cold.
After I finally broke the barrier, she started emotionally crying and told she couldn't take it anymore that I didn't opened up and told her, so I did. She was really eager to know me in that time, also mentioned she had nobody that she cared this much.
When she asked me when we had wine, that "what I want from her, a relationship?" I answered with a really strong no, and I cleared my intentions that we would have sexual relationship only without emotions but caring each other (ofc. that was the best idea in that time as we are colleagues). We went after that a party that she saw me speaking with another girls. My friend told me she was really checking me a lot at this moment, kinda jealous. After these, the spark, the vibe had gone, the whole thing went really downhill. She went cold, didn't want to date. ( I think she marked me as a player/womanizer)
After that I have some complications in my personal life and I was too aloof and jerk in the workplace, totally ghosted her, had mood swings, and I hurt her with my actions. She went totally cold and distant. I tried to speak with her and make things right, but she told me she is bored and tired with these mood swings, that when I have the right mood I only speak to her and care about her. Also said that in a little crying voice. I told her I'm really sorry and will not happen again.
She said from now on can't believe me, if I will have again a bad mood she afraid I ghost her again. I really hurt her bad, she felt I was disgusted with her. Obviously these bad things in my life are closed, mood swings are gone, but now I screwed these things up at that level she totally aloof and can't believe me.
Do you think she has feelings for me? I mean is that more than plain attraction? Also how can I make this right?
