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Hey guys,
So today at tutoring I finally gave in to getting to know one of my tutors cos I think she has a cute personality (hb6) and I can tell she is really interested in me (I've just been ignoring her cos of anxiety). She is certainly inexperienced like me cos she doesn't conceal her interest well or test me. But later on these two girls came in to the room to get help and one of them was a really cute, punky, blonde and was interested in me cos she kept glancing over and trying to jump into things I'd say from time to time between me and the tutor. At a certain point, I was just like, "Do I hurt this girl who I've been talking with by going straight over to the other girl?" Then I just sat there, cooled things off by focusing back on work and was morally conflicted with my thoughts. Does anyone ever get that guilty feeling? Cos if I did go for the blonde hb8, then the tutor would prolly be pissed at me EVERYTIME i'd see her after that moment cos I totally changed directions with her for the other girl, who i wanted to talk to more so because that was the first time I've seen her there and was conflicted with the "You may never see her again" dilemma, while the tutor would be there on a consistent basis. In the end, I have nothing, as usual, but that's okay! I've realized a lot of girls have been checking me out, I just keep letting opportunities pass cos they are usually in groups, which is something I need to get pass (I already know the process for a girl in a group, I just need to apply and get results).
So today at tutoring I finally gave in to getting to know one of my tutors cos I think she has a cute personality (hb6) and I can tell she is really interested in me (I've just been ignoring her cos of anxiety). She is certainly inexperienced like me cos she doesn't conceal her interest well or test me. But later on these two girls came in to the room to get help and one of them was a really cute, punky, blonde and was interested in me cos she kept glancing over and trying to jump into things I'd say from time to time between me and the tutor. At a certain point, I was just like, "Do I hurt this girl who I've been talking with by going straight over to the other girl?" Then I just sat there, cooled things off by focusing back on work and was morally conflicted with my thoughts. Does anyone ever get that guilty feeling? Cos if I did go for the blonde hb8, then the tutor would prolly be pissed at me EVERYTIME i'd see her after that moment cos I totally changed directions with her for the other girl, who i wanted to talk to more so because that was the first time I've seen her there and was conflicted with the "You may never see her again" dilemma, while the tutor would be there on a consistent basis. In the end, I have nothing, as usual, but that's okay! I've realized a lot of girls have been checking me out, I just keep letting opportunities pass cos they are usually in groups, which is something I need to get pass (I already know the process for a girl in a group, I just need to apply and get results).
