Tonight, I decided I was going out to a popular nightclub around here. It wasn't actually my first time in such a place, I actually went in a similar place when I turned 18, got drunk and high on drugs, had some fun with friends, and often stayed in the corner, and eventually just quit that after a few months.
Now I am a 32 years old with no experience with woman and I would like to solve my problem. So since it was Friday night, I decided to go this nightclub. I was actually quite scared just to go... but my fears turned out to be quite justified. I took a nap and then went there, I was energetic and looking forward to it, even though I was anxious. When I arrived there, I noticed the place was crowded and I started to feel uneasy. I waited a few minutes and paid for the coat check... and then I tried to take a tour of the place, but it turned out to be a pain in the ass, it was extremely hard to move around, they were people everywhere.
They were many hot chicks and lot of taller guys, some of them just seemed to impose themselves by pushing you, I tried to stay cool, but I felt angry, there was a total lack of personal space. I became sweaty and my good mood was killed, I couldn't even smile at all, I wasn't having any fun at all. I watched people on the dance floor and then decided to go to the bar to get myself a beer. It took a long time before one of the barmaids asked what I wanted... I asked for a certain brand of beer, but she couldn't hear me out even thought I repeated it. She handed me down the alcohol menu... but by then I got quite pissed, throwed it on the counter and left.
I then went to the WC... and the place wasn't clean at all, it was nasty, there was even what seemed like pee on the toilet button. After that, I tried to explore the second floor and then I figured nothing good was going to come out of this. My objectives were to at least engage three girls... but I just don't see how I could have done that if I coudn't even be heard. I also didn't see how I could get such an opportunity.
I took my coat and I left. As I walked, I just felt sad and depress. I don't want to give up too fast, because I really want to meet woman, this is what I desire the most. But I am far from being an extroverted person and this kind of experience just made me felt like a looser, no wonder I was afraid to go there. I must also tell that I am deaf from one side, my hearing is still good, but it doesn't help, when it becomes noisy, I have trouble understanding. I also went there alone as I had no one that would come with me.
Now I am wondering what should I do... I think nightclubs aren't for me, maybe some more relax bars could be fine (do such places even exists?)... and day game would probably be much better. Am I just really dumb and clueless? I would really appreciate some advices.
Now I am a 32 years old with no experience with woman and I would like to solve my problem. So since it was Friday night, I decided to go this nightclub. I was actually quite scared just to go... but my fears turned out to be quite justified. I took a nap and then went there, I was energetic and looking forward to it, even though I was anxious. When I arrived there, I noticed the place was crowded and I started to feel uneasy. I waited a few minutes and paid for the coat check... and then I tried to take a tour of the place, but it turned out to be a pain in the ass, it was extremely hard to move around, they were people everywhere.
They were many hot chicks and lot of taller guys, some of them just seemed to impose themselves by pushing you, I tried to stay cool, but I felt angry, there was a total lack of personal space. I became sweaty and my good mood was killed, I couldn't even smile at all, I wasn't having any fun at all. I watched people on the dance floor and then decided to go to the bar to get myself a beer. It took a long time before one of the barmaids asked what I wanted... I asked for a certain brand of beer, but she couldn't hear me out even thought I repeated it. She handed me down the alcohol menu... but by then I got quite pissed, throwed it on the counter and left.
I then went to the WC... and the place wasn't clean at all, it was nasty, there was even what seemed like pee on the toilet button. After that, I tried to explore the second floor and then I figured nothing good was going to come out of this. My objectives were to at least engage three girls... but I just don't see how I could have done that if I coudn't even be heard. I also didn't see how I could get such an opportunity.
I took my coat and I left. As I walked, I just felt sad and depress. I don't want to give up too fast, because I really want to meet woman, this is what I desire the most. But I am far from being an extroverted person and this kind of experience just made me felt like a looser, no wonder I was afraid to go there. I must also tell that I am deaf from one side, my hearing is still good, but it doesn't help, when it becomes noisy, I have trouble understanding. I also went there alone as I had no one that would come with me.
Now I am wondering what should I do... I think nightclubs aren't for me, maybe some more relax bars could be fine (do such places even exists?)... and day game would probably be much better. Am I just really dumb and clueless? I would really appreciate some advices.
