Need info, Self Search: Dreamt that i kill somebody to saved someone

[trashKENNUT]

Hi Guys,

I had a dream. That i kill somebody i don't know, to saved someone i don't really know either. The person was on a streak killing people off, and that i needed to kill her when i saw the gun pointing and that she will kill him.

It's dramatic, but i search the web and it's kind of a healing process of a tainted past, bad experiences. Some say it's me growing as a person. Some say it's me and religion dying off.

Zac

 

[Tim Iron]

ZacAdam you talk of religion a lot, what is/was your religion?

 

[trashKENNUT]

Tayo,

ZacAdam you talk of religion a lot, what is/was your religion?

I need to clear this up. I only talk about religion recently. and i am not a Christian in my identification card. SO you should know what my religion is on my identification card.

I like philosophy, and I haven't talk to Chase yet, on why i did those search on "God". Actually it will be bothersome to him because he doesn't need those kind of things. In my opinion, Religion of today has so far deviate from what the original teachers, taught. Unfortunately, religion has flaws as well, once you look at it from a rational standpoint.

To be honest, i don't know if "God" or whoever it is up there, purposely created flaws in religion. For me, from what i have studied, I can conclude that Faith is a decision of you choose what you choose to see in the world. and that itself is jarring to me, because "God" or whatever it is up there, purposely made "flaws" like poor people or poor countries, to make us have rationality or pray for a better place. (like the movie, Bruce Almighty)

whether he exist or not, i have no answer. and preachers today only do selective reasoning. Perhaps i made the point again. He does exist and He does not. I choose what i choose to see in the world, even if the other (other means the polar opposite, hate = love, poor = rich, day = night) needs to exist.

Honestly, i don't know, and i dislike people thinking that they know.

Zac

 

[Drck]

Hi Zac,

There was this boy, good and honest, nice, and he liked girls a lot. But the girls just didn't get it, no matter what he tried he was always rejected. It always felt as if the girls had power over him while he was helpless. It always felt as if she was pointing gun at him and was ready to shoot down any of his intent to get close to her, that is how much power she had. But this guy is good, nice, he would not use gun to protect himself.

And then there was this another boy, he learned how to understand girls, how to talk to them, how to seduce them. This guy grew a lot in his knowledge. He understood most of it but somewhere inside he remained this Nice, too good guy. So this guy now has a power, it is as if he had power over that girl, it feels as if he was pointing gun at her, that is how much power he has. And this guy, he doesn't like the fact that she has so much power over that good boy, that she can threaten him, reject the goodness in him.

So there is a lot of frustration in this guy, he has some power but is hesitant to use it. Who knows, maybe both of these guys are the same person?

Perhaps there is just an inner conflict, the need for change and at the same time resistance to to change... The change from good guy who can't get girls to not so good guy who can get plenty...

Just a thought...

 

[trashKENNUT]

Drck,

There was this boy, good and honest, nice, and he liked girls a lot. But the girls just didn't get it, no matter what he tried he was always rejected. It always felt as if the girls had power over him while he was helpless. It always felt as if she was pointing gun at him and was ready to shoot down any of his intent to get close to her, that is how much power she had. But this guy is good, nice, he would not use gun to protect himself.

And then there was this another boy, he learned how to understand girls, how to talk to them, how to seduce them. This guy grew a lot in his knowledge. He understood most of it but somewhere inside he remained this Nice, too good guy. So this guy now has a power, it is as if he had power over that girl, it feels as if he was pointing gun at her, that is how much power he has. And this guy, he doesn't like the fact that she has so much power over that good boy, that she can threaten him, reject the goodness in him.

I know exactly where you going. I am that guy. I am stuck, even i did thought i have move past it.

So there is a lot of frustration in this guy, he has some power but is hesitant to use it. Who knows, maybe both of these guys are the same person?

Perhaps there is just an inner conflict, the need for change and at the same time resistance to to change... The change from good guy who can't get girls to not so good guy who can get plenty...

It seems like i am Tiger Woods (on the lowest of scale, of course) and that i needed to apologize for my actions, at least here, i am apologizing to my former self. But because religion has conditioned humanity to be so pathetic and that being rich is a bad thing, or that abundance is a bad thing, or that everything is "this" and everything is "that". It has screwed up my mentality.

There's an old quote. "The rich can't get sick enough to help the poor."

and i find that quote resounding now. Only because if you look at the rich trying to help the poor, The poor, for most of them are still in delusion, still thinks that the rich owe them a living. So no matter how much the rich help or that in dating terms, if Chase even help you as much, he cannot be doing enough because one has to do it, himself.

Whatever it is, don't worry guys. I am fine. I needed to search the "God" thing. and i am living a "double life". Just enough to show people that i am "not so religious" but enough to butter society's balls, even if that itself is an illusion, that they are so proud of. (Sorry, feeling annoyed for the whole week)

Zac