Hey guys,
I' new here, although I've been reading some articles this past month. I'm in bit of a situation(emotional) and not sure how to handle it. Before I knew to separate girls I want to sleep with and to keep only as friends, I had a best friend who I developed feelings towards. I've known her for four years and through that time we've always had many falling out, then a some months later, starting over situations. We've messed around a little and every time we were to have sex I would mess it up, then she would say she's not attracted to me and she wants to be just friends, falling out, some months later it would start over. She's not perfect, she would mess around with other guys while telling me her and I would hangout but she's busy, but whenever I call her out on it she would make me feel guilty. I didn't take the fact that she was sleeping with other guys and lying to me about it too hard since her and I weren't official.
So it's been about 3 months since our last fall out, she said her and I are never messing around and I told her that's not what I wanted cause she treated me better and cared more when we messed around. It's her birthday today and all these crappy emotions stirred up, I'm missing her as a friend and I want to text her, but I don't want to be just friends. Not sure how to get rid of these emotions that come up after some months of no contact.
Thank you for reading
I' new here, although I've been reading some articles this past month. I'm in bit of a situation(emotional) and not sure how to handle it. Before I knew to separate girls I want to sleep with and to keep only as friends, I had a best friend who I developed feelings towards. I've known her for four years and through that time we've always had many falling out, then a some months later, starting over situations. We've messed around a little and every time we were to have sex I would mess it up, then she would say she's not attracted to me and she wants to be just friends, falling out, some months later it would start over. She's not perfect, she would mess around with other guys while telling me her and I would hangout but she's busy, but whenever I call her out on it she would make me feel guilty. I didn't take the fact that she was sleeping with other guys and lying to me about it too hard since her and I weren't official.
So it's been about 3 months since our last fall out, she said her and I are never messing around and I told her that's not what I wanted cause she treated me better and cared more when we messed around. It's her birthday today and all these crappy emotions stirred up, I'm missing her as a friend and I want to text her, but I don't want to be just friends. Not sure how to get rid of these emotions that come up after some months of no contact.
Thank you for reading
rather than trying to keep busting the same empty cartridge over and over again that already shot and missed.