Sup guys so this OR took place the day of FR 5, it's going to include what happened before and after the interaction.
Before FR 5
So it's a Sunday and I've had only five hours of sleep. My cousin is a broadcaster for ESPN and shes doing that shit for a BU girls basket ball game. My biological father wants to bring me and even tho i'm not too into basket ball i say sure for the experience, and I'm glad I went. I can definitely watch basketball if its only played by women, I fucking love it. I'm a little anxious because I really didn't try to dress up( I mean it's an all girls basket ball team of course I'm not gonna dress to impress, god I'm stupid -_-), I had good fitting jeans, an ill fitting shirt and a nice black cardigan just a bit too big but i still love it. (Side note wherever I go I always feel like I'm gonna get a lot of attention from females even if they aren't looking I know they are watching... I'm just too good looking and working on my fundamentals has helped.) I feel like the girls cheering were actively avoiding my eyes but still checking me out.
Or maybe it's my imagination, and during the game they'd walk by all close but I was too scared to even say anything it was too open and public. I could just tell some girls were open to at least a conversation but i was scared. After the game some walked by and made a bit of eye contact I managed to smile at least, I think I would of done better if I'd had a bit more sleep.
After the game ended up running some errands with my dad to Home depot, flirted with a girl or two that worked there while asking for help. Exchanged some glances with some other customers and was just getting comfortable with being out. Got some free food that was fucking bomb, and met this 82 year old women whose personality I fucking love. Sassy and southern, she was my dad's friend mother and my dad was staying there for the moment. I was flirting with her and complimenting her cooking just because I liked her it was fun.
After eating went home to get my gym shit then my dad dropped me off at the t-station then I walked to my job. Got to my job grabbed my gloves and said hi real quick to the girls at the customer service then I bounced and walked towards the gym.
FR five happens then I begin to notice something
I don't know what it is but after talking to a girl on the street or at least trying to I become a fucking magnet and women are just checking me out and staring me own and guys are also looking too. People just look at me and I'm able to receive it without getting all anxious nd I can just feel way better. So I go to the gym and guys that are even bigger than me treat e with respect move out of my way and stuff and I show them respect as well. I start working out on the mats foam rolling and stretching a women comes and places her mat right next to me. I don't look at her just keep doing my shit there's another girl a bit farther than her and I feel them both checking me out. I go through my exercises and I want to say something to the girl next to me, my anxiety flares up and it's telling me to say something.
I see she's cleaning p and spraying down her mat so I ask her if its mandatory etc, and during this time she doesn't take her eyes off me and stares at me open eyed... maybe that's a bad thing but i felt really calm so i think it was good. I go through an amazing workout still with the feeling of being watched. I exit the gym and head home and on the way I walk really slow. While working on my walk and I just feel like a fucking boss and the effects from before are still there.
I'm gonna start working out more and I have to get my phone so I can at least get some numbers.
Before FR 5
So it's a Sunday and I've had only five hours of sleep. My cousin is a broadcaster for ESPN and shes doing that shit for a BU girls basket ball game. My biological father wants to bring me and even tho i'm not too into basket ball i say sure for the experience, and I'm glad I went. I can definitely watch basketball if its only played by women, I fucking love it. I'm a little anxious because I really didn't try to dress up( I mean it's an all girls basket ball team of course I'm not gonna dress to impress, god I'm stupid -_-), I had good fitting jeans, an ill fitting shirt and a nice black cardigan just a bit too big but i still love it. (Side note wherever I go I always feel like I'm gonna get a lot of attention from females even if they aren't looking I know they are watching... I'm just too good looking and working on my fundamentals has helped.) I feel like the girls cheering were actively avoiding my eyes but still checking me out.
Or maybe it's my imagination, and during the game they'd walk by all close but I was too scared to even say anything it was too open and public. I could just tell some girls were open to at least a conversation but i was scared. After the game some walked by and made a bit of eye contact I managed to smile at least, I think I would of done better if I'd had a bit more sleep.
After the game ended up running some errands with my dad to Home depot, flirted with a girl or two that worked there while asking for help. Exchanged some glances with some other customers and was just getting comfortable with being out. Got some free food that was fucking bomb, and met this 82 year old women whose personality I fucking love. Sassy and southern, she was my dad's friend mother and my dad was staying there for the moment. I was flirting with her and complimenting her cooking just because I liked her it was fun.
After eating went home to get my gym shit then my dad dropped me off at the t-station then I walked to my job. Got to my job grabbed my gloves and said hi real quick to the girls at the customer service then I bounced and walked towards the gym.
FR five happens then I begin to notice something
I don't know what it is but after talking to a girl on the street or at least trying to I become a fucking magnet and women are just checking me out and staring me own and guys are also looking too. People just look at me and I'm able to receive it without getting all anxious nd I can just feel way better. So I go to the gym and guys that are even bigger than me treat e with respect move out of my way and stuff and I show them respect as well. I start working out on the mats foam rolling and stretching a women comes and places her mat right next to me. I don't look at her just keep doing my shit there's another girl a bit farther than her and I feel them both checking me out. I go through my exercises and I want to say something to the girl next to me, my anxiety flares up and it's telling me to say something.
I see she's cleaning p and spraying down her mat so I ask her if its mandatory etc, and during this time she doesn't take her eyes off me and stares at me open eyed... maybe that's a bad thing but i felt really calm so i think it was good. I go through an amazing workout still with the feeling of being watched. I exit the gym and head home and on the way I walk really slow. While working on my walk and I just feel like a fucking boss and the effects from before are still there.
I'm gonna start working out more and I have to get my phone so I can at least get some numbers.
