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Hows it going guys. Recently I just been struggling with a problem.
Im never good at stating thing I think in my head because it rather confusing. But, Ill try to keep it words you understand .
Basically I been depressed as of lately. And not for the reasons you think. I recently been thinking of everything around me(and I mean everything), trying to make since to questions that started to arise from my head.
Whats the point? Of life I mean. This question that not only I am curious about. Why do I get up in the morning? What do I fight for? How do I know that I won? Now before you tell me seek therapy or send me a link to chase´s Purpose of Life article, STOP! IM not suicidal or anything ._.And if your wondering if I read it, I have. I found it really insightful to be honest. But back to life the stuff I seek and desire I wanted I cant really get it to thrive. Of course the desire is still there but it isnt there I had when I was little. Its not the desire that made me obsess over my passions like crazy. The very thing I need to strive and concur.
Before I let things get to heavy, lemme go back to when this started. It started last week when I finally decided that I going to enroll in college. Now im 20. When I graduated High School, my mom suggested that I take a year off so I could get situated then go to college next semester. I missed the first year of school including the year after from constant procrastination and missing deadlines. I worked about year at the local McDonald's, went home,slept, and collected my share and started over again. The two years consited of my me mostly working, maybe a go out with friends every blue moon, not approaching girls, and not furthering my career goals. So can you imagine how much of my time I used wisely? None of it thats what. Finally I got tired of doing the same thing and finally set up a meeting with an advisor at a local college nearby
The advisor set me up in the computer for me to sit don and choose what classes I was going to take. Now first year of college are always standard classes it didnt matter what I choose to major in or what to aim for so early. But like most people I still had my path undecided. This was it! This was the perfect time for me to analyze what I wanted out of life. At last- there was gonna be NO CONFUSION! My desires would stand right before me. No more asking myself what do I decide to do with my life. And it was hard! It was the most unnerving feeling in the word. I had to deeply analyze my strengths, my weaknesses, what Im willing to put up with, etc. Then it hit me. What am I doing this for? Was I chasing something that likely Wouldn't make me happy? How will I feel when I accomplished it? Indifferent ? Worse? Uhhh headache.
Now I know that sums up this article in itself but, thats my point. When does the feeling go away. Something I noticed for many things down to the core I tend to less appreciate. Questions Questions Questions . They arose from all over? What makes me happy? Would I have took this career had I known about Girlschase? Whats the point of having kids. Its been playin the same record since then ....and frankly im tired of it
What helps you in this situation. Whats the best way to deal with flooding emotions
Im never good at stating thing I think in my head because it rather confusing. But, Ill try to keep it words you understand .
Basically I been depressed as of lately. And not for the reasons you think. I recently been thinking of everything around me(and I mean everything), trying to make since to questions that started to arise from my head.
Whats the point? Of life I mean. This question that not only I am curious about. Why do I get up in the morning? What do I fight for? How do I know that I won? Now before you tell me seek therapy or send me a link to chase´s Purpose of Life article, STOP! IM not suicidal or anything ._.And if your wondering if I read it, I have. I found it really insightful to be honest. But back to life the stuff I seek and desire I wanted I cant really get it to thrive. Of course the desire is still there but it isnt there I had when I was little. Its not the desire that made me obsess over my passions like crazy. The very thing I need to strive and concur.
Before I let things get to heavy, lemme go back to when this started. It started last week when I finally decided that I going to enroll in college. Now im 20. When I graduated High School, my mom suggested that I take a year off so I could get situated then go to college next semester. I missed the first year of school including the year after from constant procrastination and missing deadlines. I worked about year at the local McDonald's, went home,slept, and collected my share and started over again. The two years consited of my me mostly working, maybe a go out with friends every blue moon, not approaching girls, and not furthering my career goals. So can you imagine how much of my time I used wisely? None of it thats what. Finally I got tired of doing the same thing and finally set up a meeting with an advisor at a local college nearby
The advisor set me up in the computer for me to sit don and choose what classes I was going to take. Now first year of college are always standard classes it didnt matter what I choose to major in or what to aim for so early. But like most people I still had my path undecided. This was it! This was the perfect time for me to analyze what I wanted out of life. At last- there was gonna be NO CONFUSION! My desires would stand right before me. No more asking myself what do I decide to do with my life. And it was hard! It was the most unnerving feeling in the word. I had to deeply analyze my strengths, my weaknesses, what Im willing to put up with, etc. Then it hit me. What am I doing this for? Was I chasing something that likely Wouldn't make me happy? How will I feel when I accomplished it? Indifferent ? Worse? Uhhh headache.
Now I know that sums up this article in itself but, thats my point. When does the feeling go away. Something I noticed for many things down to the core I tend to less appreciate. Questions Questions Questions . They arose from all over? What makes me happy? Would I have took this career had I known about Girlschase? Whats the point of having kids. Its been playin the same record since then ....and frankly im tired of it
What helps you in this situation. Whats the best way to deal with flooding emotions
