Hey guys, i am here again. So i made some progress, so to speak. I was in the speed dating party, things went pretty good, my talking was very good, i got lot's of attention, girls were laughing, touching, asking for a name again and again. But i did one mistake. I went to this party with a girl, with which before i was in a few dates. So i basically stayed with her, even though i got tons of attention from fucking hot girls. What happened? Ok, shit, she passed me ant that's all. She basically said that she isn't ready for relationship and she wants to be alone. Well, i would think that she was bullshiting me, but i heard the same thing from her good friend. He told me the same. Oh, there was one nice girl, which like after 10 minutes of conversation told me "that she likes me and she wants to meet me tommorow". She basically said that she never knew a guy "that was so easy to talk". I was holding her hand for 10 minutes. I was impressed by myself, so i said "yeah, no problem". We met. After few days she invited me for tea. 
I came, nothing happened, because i wasn't in the mood. She invited me once again, i didn't respond yet. Ok. I am not that bad as i thought. I registered on tinder like a day ago. Got many matches. I have awful lot's of dates planned. And i fear it. I mean, fuck, sometimes i just loose my confidence and it seems that i don't know what to talk, even though i did something before. Maybe it's discomfort from not sealing the deal? I don't know, i'am little weathered.
I came, nothing happened, because i wasn't in the mood. She invited me once again, i didn't respond yet. Ok. I am not that bad as i thought. I registered on tinder like a day ago. Got many matches. I have awful lot's of dates planned. And i fear it. I mean, fuck, sometimes i just loose my confidence and it seems that i don't know what to talk, even though i did something before. Maybe it's discomfort from not sealing the deal? I don't know, i'am little weathered.