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It's been a while since I've posted anything here, and for good reason. It's a long story but I'll save us all the trouble of having to read a book's worth of a story to answer my question and just list the basics of what happened in order in a list below. (First, it's important to know I'm seventeen with just four months until I turn eighteen and am not currently attending any school while working towards a GED)
*EDIT: It's a bit of a long list, if you want the simple, bare boned question: skip to the bottom paragraph.
-Started high school, met numerous girls and was doing well.
-Eventually got tired of going from one girl to the next (wasn't sleeping with any of them but was getting closer each time) and decided to get back in touch with
the most recently girl who had recently called things off after an uneventful date (completely struck out, we became friends)
-I ended up chasing this girl hard for a solid year while still meeting new girls (This includes summer)
-Switched schools to go to a private school which was extremely small during this time (there were 10 people in my grade, including me)
-About midway through that school year (about a month or two ago), a girl who had been abroad came back and we hit it off. We ended up sleeping with each other
within the first three days of meeting each other (the sex happened on school grounds). The next day I came into school to find I was facing false rape accusations
with the school (never went to court). This whole problem ended up resolving itself when my parents got protective and the school backed off after realizing they
had a lame case.
-Remember that girl I was chasing? yeah, that was still happening. One of my ex's (who I was a text away from sleeping with, dammit) finds out about this and uses
it to toy with me by threatening to fuck shit up between us (more so than us being just friends already was).
-The girl I was chasing finds out about this and resolves it by having a three way text chat.
-The school calls up again just after I told them I was dropping out, saying someone else came forward with a false claim and that they were questioning people.
-dropped out of school to pursue GED
-Girl I was chasing agrees to meet with me to put an end to our courtship (I was planning on asking one last time before walking away) but she ends up showing up
with a group of our friends and ignores me. She texts me back apologizing, trying to set things up again only to flake again in the same day. I went out to run some
errands only to find she wasn't actually busy at all and ended up going home, not sure of how to continue. (suppose I should've taken that as a no, but I was in a
little shock that she did that twice after setting this up for a week).
-That night I decided to hang myself. Failed to go through with it and ran away. About three hours in, concerned friends were able to convince me to turn around
but police picked me up first and sent me to the hospital. The hospital sent me to a mental hospital, where I stayed at for six days.
-During this time, I had a lot of attention from ALL the girls there (I practiced indirect game a lot but hadn't made an actual approach for about two months at the
time).
-One girl who was younger but very experienced started chasing (even though her boyfriend was all she talked about to anybody else and she sometimes brought
him up) and eventually asked me out, slipping me her number after three days. I slipped her mine after. We both smuggled each others numbers out. She was
discharged first, I was discharged about three days later. (This girl was head over heels for me, she always called me cute, gave me nicknames, sat really close,
broke rules for no touching, and said I was a lot like her boyfriend).
-I texted her a day after getting out (I had to readjust to being home again). She replied a minute later claiming she didn't know who I am and that it was the wrong
number but my phone uses facebook messenger as a texting platform and it connected the number to her profile which had her picture. I sent her back another
message clarifying where she knew me from, but never got a response.
-I only just decided to let her go, she helped me stop chasing the other girl and helped a little with getting out of the hospital but her boyfriend sounded pretty
good to her and they seemed close from how she spoke about him (not to mention they're much closer in age than us). I find it safe to assume she went running
home to him.
Now, I'm at home with only one option: start rebuilding my life from scratch again. I've always been good with everything accept social skills, it's why I'm here. So, the million dollar questions: Firstly, how do I meet or start a social circle/group to hang out and have a hell of a good time with? (I had one in the hospital, but I'm fairly sure that's over now). And lastly: I've been from girl to girl a lot over the past two years, I'm getting pretty tired of it and really just want something that'll stick. (I've got to admit, it's starting become awfully lonesome and it's probably worth mentioning, i'm absolute garbage with relationships)
But I wouldn't be asking you guys for help if I weren't open to any other suggestions, where else do you guys think I should start? I realize that, yet again, this may be long (I'm working on that) but I wanted to clarify all the insane shit I've had to go through lately since I'm a little traumatized now and have to start over while readjusting to the real world (yes, it was very different. Imagine going to wonderland from new york city for about six years before going back to new york city again, pretty different culture, right?). Thanks in advance for any feedback.
*EDIT: It's a bit of a long list, if you want the simple, bare boned question: skip to the bottom paragraph.
-Started high school, met numerous girls and was doing well.
-Eventually got tired of going from one girl to the next (wasn't sleeping with any of them but was getting closer each time) and decided to get back in touch with
the most recently girl who had recently called things off after an uneventful date (completely struck out, we became friends)
-I ended up chasing this girl hard for a solid year while still meeting new girls (This includes summer)
-Switched schools to go to a private school which was extremely small during this time (there were 10 people in my grade, including me)
-About midway through that school year (about a month or two ago), a girl who had been abroad came back and we hit it off. We ended up sleeping with each other
within the first three days of meeting each other (the sex happened on school grounds). The next day I came into school to find I was facing false rape accusations
with the school (never went to court). This whole problem ended up resolving itself when my parents got protective and the school backed off after realizing they
had a lame case.
-Remember that girl I was chasing? yeah, that was still happening. One of my ex's (who I was a text away from sleeping with, dammit) finds out about this and uses
it to toy with me by threatening to fuck shit up between us (more so than us being just friends already was).
-The girl I was chasing finds out about this and resolves it by having a three way text chat.
-The school calls up again just after I told them I was dropping out, saying someone else came forward with a false claim and that they were questioning people.
-dropped out of school to pursue GED
-Girl I was chasing agrees to meet with me to put an end to our courtship (I was planning on asking one last time before walking away) but she ends up showing up
with a group of our friends and ignores me. She texts me back apologizing, trying to set things up again only to flake again in the same day. I went out to run some
errands only to find she wasn't actually busy at all and ended up going home, not sure of how to continue. (suppose I should've taken that as a no, but I was in a
little shock that she did that twice after setting this up for a week).
-That night I decided to hang myself. Failed to go through with it and ran away. About three hours in, concerned friends were able to convince me to turn around
but police picked me up first and sent me to the hospital. The hospital sent me to a mental hospital, where I stayed at for six days.
-During this time, I had a lot of attention from ALL the girls there (I practiced indirect game a lot but hadn't made an actual approach for about two months at the
time).
-One girl who was younger but very experienced started chasing (even though her boyfriend was all she talked about to anybody else and she sometimes brought
him up) and eventually asked me out, slipping me her number after three days. I slipped her mine after. We both smuggled each others numbers out. She was
discharged first, I was discharged about three days later. (This girl was head over heels for me, she always called me cute, gave me nicknames, sat really close,
broke rules for no touching, and said I was a lot like her boyfriend).
-I texted her a day after getting out (I had to readjust to being home again). She replied a minute later claiming she didn't know who I am and that it was the wrong
number but my phone uses facebook messenger as a texting platform and it connected the number to her profile which had her picture. I sent her back another
message clarifying where she knew me from, but never got a response.
-I only just decided to let her go, she helped me stop chasing the other girl and helped a little with getting out of the hospital but her boyfriend sounded pretty
good to her and they seemed close from how she spoke about him (not to mention they're much closer in age than us). I find it safe to assume she went running
home to him.
Now, I'm at home with only one option: start rebuilding my life from scratch again. I've always been good with everything accept social skills, it's why I'm here. So, the million dollar questions: Firstly, how do I meet or start a social circle/group to hang out and have a hell of a good time with? (I had one in the hospital, but I'm fairly sure that's over now). And lastly: I've been from girl to girl a lot over the past two years, I'm getting pretty tired of it and really just want something that'll stick. (I've got to admit, it's starting become awfully lonesome and it's probably worth mentioning, i'm absolute garbage with relationships)
But I wouldn't be asking you guys for help if I weren't open to any other suggestions, where else do you guys think I should start? I realize that, yet again, this may be long (I'm working on that) but I wanted to clarify all the insane shit I've had to go through lately since I'm a little traumatized now and have to start over while readjusting to the real world (yes, it was very different. Imagine going to wonderland from new york city for about six years before going back to new york city again, pretty different culture, right?). Thanks in advance for any feedback.
