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Hey all, first post here..glad to join ya. Wish I didn't have to be here NOW but at the same time really glad I am as my eyes opened up to a new world after finding this website 
In July I met a 18yo half-Russian girl(I'm 10+y older-from Southern EU)through a friend.Spent lots of group time daily together,there was mutual flirting/interest,a nice connection.Love her but got rejected,I was slow,got the Friend/Early Boyfriend/Boyfriend/Butler label and invested too much-too early without her equally reciprocating.She is bold,very social,a Big Flirt.but also young,inexperienced & hurt.Seemed she liked me from the start(my friends commented how much she seemed to like me too) but interest levels dropped as I wasn't making a move.I'd tried few times to 'move her',get her alone but she flaked..my ways/timing reeaally sucked though.I came off kinda creepy and too bold.Was not very direct and maybe manipulative and clingy.Not very playfull and quite serious. She played 'hot & cold'.I was also acting nervous/without balls or showing real interest by moving things forward and missed escalation/attraction windows.When I finally shared my feelings,Summer and her were gone-Started Uni in Sept/Oct at a different closeby city.
I had chased her there & after few unsuccessful attempts to meet up(uninterested/indifferent and flakey)I texted her "I miss you beautiful,want to see you,I've something to tell u but only face to face".She was intrigued then went flight mode and persisted I tell her by text what I wanted as it would'nt happen that we'll meet.After a long poem-love confession sms letter where I came weak,fearfull of loosing her,clingy/needy/too emotional,I got a text from her number from 'her boyfriend'(although I am/was certain she was single),'He' wrote "stop calling/harassing her and sending such texts" as it bothers him but in an apologetic tone('he' realized it only happened twice)and no mention of her wishes.I thought it was her on auto-rejection mode,feeling violated/caught off-guard.BTW she was still emotionally attached to her old crush/BF when we hanged out.I didn't reply.Next day I got missed/drop calls from her.I called back,she denied calling,or knowing about the text(lies). She said what you say/ask will never happen,We can't be together.I replied she could have just explained things/let me know and I'd have understood,instead of such a BF reply.She said she inteeented to reply herself..then as she thought I needed/asked for explanations,she said we can't be together due to the Age gap as it shows a lot with us two(though she always said age doesn't matter in love,her parents & a common close friends' couple have same age gap)and also due to the different cosmotheories plus she wants to be free atm..She angrily/nervously asked me to forget her,bury all hopes and to erase some of her photos I had edited and kept in my laptop and shared with her in a USBstick just before she left for Uni.Asked we cease ALL contact,I replied I respect her opinions/wishes,though added "let me have a different opinion"(re:age gap/different cosmotheories)and added I really meant what I'd written I feel.She said "kill your hope its not gonna happen",I replied "its my own business what I'll do with myself".She insisted and I replied I'll still hope we meet accidentally someday again said Ciao & ended the conversation.Next 3days she gave me missed calls/drop calls.I didn't call back,went into no-contact/ignore mode.Hadn't seen her for 1 month,hadn't talked for 2+weeks..then she posts a FB cover photo of her,I had shot,with wierd comments(possible mixed signals about me).4days later I gave her a missedcall/dropcall,she called back angry,said:"didn't I tell you to stop all contact",I weakly replied "I called accidentally,really sorry"(auto-defence-reaction).She angrily said delete my number,don't contact again.Next morning I texted her "I never really called accidentally".That night she called and same old story but following night she called again and even though again same story..now she suggested to meet up next week at our common vacations place(a coastal village),to make sure I had deleted her number and those photos.Asked me not to call-she would.A Week later,no news so I traveled there and texted her a plain "goodmorning" with a panoramic photo from 'our' beach.Again she called,angrily saying she shouldn't be the one to be calling and to stop,asking why I hadn't delete her number.I said I did but I had memorized it,she kept saying stop contacting or she'd take some more serious action.I thought its over.After 3hrs she called again!Said she'd actually come tomorrow for a 'cold' meeting to check my phone/laptop something which she now admitted might sound a stupid request.I didn't make a definite date,instead got dragged into a conversation and blew it,being apologetic,letting her diminish me,calling me immature/acting like a child cause I keep contacting and for having 'such' edited photos of her in my PC(just cropped/color corrected photos).I didn't want to argue,said "you're right".(generally she has lots of anger issues and admits it)She said she was not for me/my standards and "what did you think? That I'm in love with you?".I stupidly replied "I obviously misinterpreted some things",and confronted her and asked about the missed/drop calls of her after her initial rejection.She didn't give explanations,minced her words,changed the subject back to me.She asked again to stop contacting,I promised I would,said "I am sorry if I hurt you,didn't mean to" and she replied "I know that.You can't hurt me,you are indifferent to me!".That hurt as I know she at least liked me at some point.(btw a common friend had seen a recent Fb photo comment by a female BestFriend of her naming me 'her husband').I never told her I love her in person or via phonecall,was waiting for a meeting.She didn't come next day like she'd said,so I left.
Days passed and I was checking her and her best friend's facebook profile/pics,with a friend's old fb account.After 2 days she AND her friend changed privacy settings! Fb users-'stalkers' beware!The fb 'People you may know' suggestions box can/may show you who is watching your profile.Others noticed this too.I was shocked if that wasn't a coincidence but after researching online seems I may have indeed popped up in their 'People you may know' fb box(though we never interacted in fb or have common/are friends).Without being certain,thought to act as if she does knows I was watching her profile and hoped she'd check 'mine'/my friend's profile too.A liveshow was coming up in her city,with a singer she knew I love,so few days later I posted an 'read-between-the-lines' invitation 'for her' to join/ be there . Coincidence or not next day(late Oct)the phone rang.It was her #.She kept calling 3 times,I didn't answer the calls.I went to her city and called her when I arrived.Her best friend answered,asked what I wanted her friend for and said she was away with her at our summer place.Caught off guard I stupidly said I wanted her to go out together,she jumped on the phone and was angry for bothering/calling her again. Speaking nonstop,I replied I don't wanna argue over the phone,tomorrow I'll come over to meet,she declined,said "what makes you think we'll meet?"(so I never went-big mistake I guess).I said I only called her cause she'd been calling.She denied having called(lies) and went on diminishing me for persisting/calling her.She was also bit sympathetic,said she knew herself how it is to be in love,but then said again stop bothering me or I'll have to resolve to 'other' solutions,"you know what I mean".I again said I know I'd promised to not contact again and had kept my word and I only called now cause I saw her # calling me.She was mad and in denial and me at a loss for words but tried to be calm/focused and avoid her words affecting me.I said if it wasn't her calling from her #,then it was her friends and if she didn't have anything to actually say to please stop calling me.Also told her I again must have misunderstood some things but..OK life moves on.After a bit of further arguing she admitted there was something (a connection) between us at some point but after she "saw some things,we broke it".At some point she also said "you 'll even tell me that it wasn't even you that wrote me those text msgs",I replied of course it was me!Maybe she was still uncertain about my feelings/intentions/honesty,my ways must've caused her insecurity.She mentioned that she'll still be talking to me next summer when we meet.I think she said that as a reply to my fears for losing her completely if I couldn't have her mine,that I had communicated in my needy/weak love letter.Also said she'd thought I was a serious guy(in the good sense)in the beginning but now I was making myself look disgusting and that its almost child harassment,to which I tried to laugh back at(I felt very insulted,hurt,embarrassed-her best friends were there listening too),I know she knew I may feel 'insecure' about the age gap myself so I tried to be indifferent with a ironic-grin-chocked-laughter.Anyway at some point I thought enough is enough and told her it was her to be ashamed just as much as me (re: playing games).At some point she was shouting and I told her since it wasn't her that had called,OK there's nothing to discuss and I said bye as hanged up the phone on her quickly. She called back angry saying nobody hangs up on me..then started yelling at me about my very personal love letter again.Said she hadn't given me such right to write so personal things to her(eg "wanna touch you,kiss you" etc)and even pointed out that she was not feminine at all with me and on her masculine talking like a man to me so why I don't just get the msg.Also said something that made things even worse before hanging up the phone on me,she said that I implied that I wanted to have a baby with her in my letter(not true and something she either honestly misinterpreted herself from something specific I'd written to her(don't think so)or said on purpose in front of her friends to create drama and/or make me look even worse),she said go to hell & ended the conversation before I could reply.I didn't call back(I regret it, I should have persisted then), was frustrated and confused. Next day or so her best friend's fb cover pic got updated and it was all her best friends and a comment"the strong ones".Maybe she genuinely felt violated and played scarred..dunno..
Went on with my life and funnily won a free ticket for that live show and went and had a great time.After few days I updated the fb profile with the live show's pics/videos/reviews and posted how great fun it was and too bad some people missed it and all the fun.Don't really know if she even got to know about that live show fb 'invitation' and even about my fb updates,even existence on fb but probably,but few days later(Mid Nov)I started receiving anonymous silent calls(from her)late at night/early morning.She kept calling without speaking even after me hanging the phone.She called again anonymously last week at 3:30am lol.What does she want?I get neither closure nor pussy lol!ha ha this girl will turn me nuts.Help.Couple days ago she updated her profile pic with one with a boy sitting next to her..
Its 3 months since I confessed my love and haven't even got to see her since with all the text/phone drama.Maybe she just calls anonymously/silently to hear my voice,check her feelings.Or trying to tell me to keep going-act 'serendipity-style',without her being exposed-security policy-as I'd confronted her about the calls from her #.Or maybe testing me if I'll react to the anonymous calls and keep bothering her personally.We both know there is more to this as things ended weird.Or she's just playing,,but calling someone every 5 days at 2-4am even on working days tells me she's at least thinking of me.Maybe genuinely got scarred of me/my ways(acting like a weak emotional clingy stalker and now plays games for revenge.Or hates my guts for my ways/approach,plays it hard due to me being slow,weak,clingly/chased her plus attraction levels being low,maybe me just being kept as a backup option and/or for next summer's friendzone.Maybe she kinda likes me and is shy deep down,really
insecure and hurt before.I'm confused.She might still be uncertain about my feelings/intentions as I never communicated to ascertain things again over the phone.Maybe she even genuinely misinterpreted things re the child/baby issue.I know she likes babies and had tested me on this early and I believe I'd rather failed,had said some people are almost born parents and I didn't feel I was like that but would love to have family if life brought things that way.I know she likes babies/children a lot and also that she hates child abuse and often mentioned such topics etc(maybe a victim).Maybe she wasn't ready and I simply drove her away?I may be deluded but I believe she still thinks about me based on her calls/actions and that is was my approaches that sucked and drove her away.All I want is regain her trust,see her,meet up,clear things up and if there is zero real interest to end things on 'good terms'.Not sure if she wants me to act or not with those last 'bugging' anonymous calls.I kinda fear to act as she may get infuriated and even react unpredictably now.I know she's been hurt before but I also want to at least clear things up(at least about the baby thing).We have no contact whatsoever so I 'm not sure how more waiting/ignoring her can do really.I know the ball is still in her court but is there a way to contact her to speak,without hurting her further or make her go all-angry mode again ,to proceed or to get 'a closure' on this so no awkwardness next Summer when we'll see each other often.I fear ignoring her now could cause her to completely 'give up',thats if she gives the silent calls to try to get me to act and if she had auto rejected me for being slow/my game sucked.It all ended abruptly and awkward with the last call and I didn't get to even leave the door open.Its been a month + since we last spoke via phone.Also there may be conflict between her heart & mind plus with what she wants vs what will choose under the guidelines of society's norms and her friends advice/wants.I know I Wasn't enough fun/relaxed/cool,I was slow/not very sexy/boyfriend material/showed high platonic value,came off too bold but also too fearfull too.Was thinking maybe txt msg her,call her bluff-Tell her I will knock off the games and to step up or step out,in order to get free of the BS and the back and forth-ie "Look, we can hang out, or we can not hang out, but if we're not going to hang out I don't wan't to keep spending time on this,it's purposeless".I think we're both inexperienced and got into a fucked up situation where insecurity and games reign. I m afraid to call her and she is afraid to talk to me when she calls..It would be a shame if we both want each other but we can't get out of a stupip ego game play. Or maybe tell her that I see she was right and what was I thinking,I stil have feelings and love her but yeah it would never happen between us and I wish I knew how to forget her.Btw read somewhere that Mean girls=horny could it be her being horny/want sex and not getting it.I really need advise on how to contact her and get her to meet up. If I manage to contact/meet her again, what would be best way to act, should I try to disqualify myself as 'BF' material..or keep the BF courtship route but correct things and avoid future mistakes.
I know I need to try to move on as its obviously a difficult one but don't want to quit , and always something happens and I can't get closure..I have been keeping my eyes open for other women but she makes it hard for me to forget her and stop thinking of her.In the meantime I educate myself on relationships,try to learn from my many mistakes, eat well,work out etc .
Help Brothers! thanks in advance!
In July I met a 18yo half-Russian girl(I'm 10+y older-from Southern EU)through a friend.Spent lots of group time daily together,there was mutual flirting/interest,a nice connection.Love her but got rejected,I was slow,got the Friend/Early Boyfriend/Boyfriend/Butler label and invested too much-too early without her equally reciprocating.She is bold,very social,a Big Flirt.but also young,inexperienced & hurt.Seemed she liked me from the start(my friends commented how much she seemed to like me too) but interest levels dropped as I wasn't making a move.I'd tried few times to 'move her',get her alone but she flaked..my ways/timing reeaally sucked though.I came off kinda creepy and too bold.Was not very direct and maybe manipulative and clingy.Not very playfull and quite serious. She played 'hot & cold'.I was also acting nervous/without balls or showing real interest by moving things forward and missed escalation/attraction windows.When I finally shared my feelings,Summer and her were gone-Started Uni in Sept/Oct at a different closeby city.
I had chased her there & after few unsuccessful attempts to meet up(uninterested/indifferent and flakey)I texted her "I miss you beautiful,want to see you,I've something to tell u but only face to face".She was intrigued then went flight mode and persisted I tell her by text what I wanted as it would'nt happen that we'll meet.After a long poem-love confession sms letter where I came weak,fearfull of loosing her,clingy/needy/too emotional,I got a text from her number from 'her boyfriend'(although I am/was certain she was single),'He' wrote "stop calling/harassing her and sending such texts" as it bothers him but in an apologetic tone('he' realized it only happened twice)and no mention of her wishes.I thought it was her on auto-rejection mode,feeling violated/caught off-guard.BTW she was still emotionally attached to her old crush/BF when we hanged out.I didn't reply.Next day I got missed/drop calls from her.I called back,she denied calling,or knowing about the text(lies). She said what you say/ask will never happen,We can't be together.I replied she could have just explained things/let me know and I'd have understood,instead of such a BF reply.She said she inteeented to reply herself..then as she thought I needed/asked for explanations,she said we can't be together due to the Age gap as it shows a lot with us two(though she always said age doesn't matter in love,her parents & a common close friends' couple have same age gap)and also due to the different cosmotheories plus she wants to be free atm..She angrily/nervously asked me to forget her,bury all hopes and to erase some of her photos I had edited and kept in my laptop and shared with her in a USBstick just before she left for Uni.Asked we cease ALL contact,I replied I respect her opinions/wishes,though added "let me have a different opinion"(re:age gap/different cosmotheories)and added I really meant what I'd written I feel.She said "kill your hope its not gonna happen",I replied "its my own business what I'll do with myself".She insisted and I replied I'll still hope we meet accidentally someday again said Ciao & ended the conversation.Next 3days she gave me missed calls/drop calls.I didn't call back,went into no-contact/ignore mode.Hadn't seen her for 1 month,hadn't talked for 2+weeks..then she posts a FB cover photo of her,I had shot,with wierd comments(possible mixed signals about me).4days later I gave her a missedcall/dropcall,she called back angry,said:"didn't I tell you to stop all contact",I weakly replied "I called accidentally,really sorry"(auto-defence-reaction).She angrily said delete my number,don't contact again.Next morning I texted her "I never really called accidentally".That night she called and same old story but following night she called again and even though again same story..now she suggested to meet up next week at our common vacations place(a coastal village),to make sure I had deleted her number and those photos.Asked me not to call-she would.A Week later,no news so I traveled there and texted her a plain "goodmorning" with a panoramic photo from 'our' beach.Again she called,angrily saying she shouldn't be the one to be calling and to stop,asking why I hadn't delete her number.I said I did but I had memorized it,she kept saying stop contacting or she'd take some more serious action.I thought its over.After 3hrs she called again!Said she'd actually come tomorrow for a 'cold' meeting to check my phone/laptop something which she now admitted might sound a stupid request.I didn't make a definite date,instead got dragged into a conversation and blew it,being apologetic,letting her diminish me,calling me immature/acting like a child cause I keep contacting and for having 'such' edited photos of her in my PC(just cropped/color corrected photos).I didn't want to argue,said "you're right".(generally she has lots of anger issues and admits it)She said she was not for me/my standards and "what did you think? That I'm in love with you?".I stupidly replied "I obviously misinterpreted some things",and confronted her and asked about the missed/drop calls of her after her initial rejection.She didn't give explanations,minced her words,changed the subject back to me.She asked again to stop contacting,I promised I would,said "I am sorry if I hurt you,didn't mean to" and she replied "I know that.You can't hurt me,you are indifferent to me!".That hurt as I know she at least liked me at some point.(btw a common friend had seen a recent Fb photo comment by a female BestFriend of her naming me 'her husband').I never told her I love her in person or via phonecall,was waiting for a meeting.She didn't come next day like she'd said,so I left.
Days passed and I was checking her and her best friend's facebook profile/pics,with a friend's old fb account.After 2 days she AND her friend changed privacy settings! Fb users-'stalkers' beware!The fb 'People you may know' suggestions box can/may show you who is watching your profile.Others noticed this too.I was shocked if that wasn't a coincidence but after researching online seems I may have indeed popped up in their 'People you may know' fb box(though we never interacted in fb or have common/are friends).Without being certain,thought to act as if she does knows I was watching her profile and hoped she'd check 'mine'/my friend's profile too.A liveshow was coming up in her city,with a singer she knew I love,so few days later I posted an 'read-between-the-lines' invitation 'for her' to join/ be there . Coincidence or not next day(late Oct)the phone rang.It was her #.She kept calling 3 times,I didn't answer the calls.I went to her city and called her when I arrived.Her best friend answered,asked what I wanted her friend for and said she was away with her at our summer place.Caught off guard I stupidly said I wanted her to go out together,she jumped on the phone and was angry for bothering/calling her again. Speaking nonstop,I replied I don't wanna argue over the phone,tomorrow I'll come over to meet,she declined,said "what makes you think we'll meet?"(so I never went-big mistake I guess).I said I only called her cause she'd been calling.She denied having called(lies) and went on diminishing me for persisting/calling her.She was also bit sympathetic,said she knew herself how it is to be in love,but then said again stop bothering me or I'll have to resolve to 'other' solutions,"you know what I mean".I again said I know I'd promised to not contact again and had kept my word and I only called now cause I saw her # calling me.She was mad and in denial and me at a loss for words but tried to be calm/focused and avoid her words affecting me.I said if it wasn't her calling from her #,then it was her friends and if she didn't have anything to actually say to please stop calling me.Also told her I again must have misunderstood some things but..OK life moves on.After a bit of further arguing she admitted there was something (a connection) between us at some point but after she "saw some things,we broke it".At some point she also said "you 'll even tell me that it wasn't even you that wrote me those text msgs",I replied of course it was me!Maybe she was still uncertain about my feelings/intentions/honesty,my ways must've caused her insecurity.She mentioned that she'll still be talking to me next summer when we meet.I think she said that as a reply to my fears for losing her completely if I couldn't have her mine,that I had communicated in my needy/weak love letter.Also said she'd thought I was a serious guy(in the good sense)in the beginning but now I was making myself look disgusting and that its almost child harassment,to which I tried to laugh back at(I felt very insulted,hurt,embarrassed-her best friends were there listening too),I know she knew I may feel 'insecure' about the age gap myself so I tried to be indifferent with a ironic-grin-chocked-laughter.Anyway at some point I thought enough is enough and told her it was her to be ashamed just as much as me (re: playing games).At some point she was shouting and I told her since it wasn't her that had called,OK there's nothing to discuss and I said bye as hanged up the phone on her quickly. She called back angry saying nobody hangs up on me..then started yelling at me about my very personal love letter again.Said she hadn't given me such right to write so personal things to her(eg "wanna touch you,kiss you" etc)and even pointed out that she was not feminine at all with me and on her masculine talking like a man to me so why I don't just get the msg.Also said something that made things even worse before hanging up the phone on me,she said that I implied that I wanted to have a baby with her in my letter(not true and something she either honestly misinterpreted herself from something specific I'd written to her(don't think so)or said on purpose in front of her friends to create drama and/or make me look even worse),she said go to hell & ended the conversation before I could reply.I didn't call back(I regret it, I should have persisted then), was frustrated and confused. Next day or so her best friend's fb cover pic got updated and it was all her best friends and a comment"the strong ones".Maybe she genuinely felt violated and played scarred..dunno..
Went on with my life and funnily won a free ticket for that live show and went and had a great time.After few days I updated the fb profile with the live show's pics/videos/reviews and posted how great fun it was and too bad some people missed it and all the fun.Don't really know if she even got to know about that live show fb 'invitation' and even about my fb updates,even existence on fb but probably,but few days later(Mid Nov)I started receiving anonymous silent calls(from her)late at night/early morning.She kept calling without speaking even after me hanging the phone.She called again anonymously last week at 3:30am lol.What does she want?I get neither closure nor pussy lol!ha ha this girl will turn me nuts.Help.Couple days ago she updated her profile pic with one with a boy sitting next to her..
Its 3 months since I confessed my love and haven't even got to see her since with all the text/phone drama.Maybe she just calls anonymously/silently to hear my voice,check her feelings.Or trying to tell me to keep going-act 'serendipity-style',without her being exposed-security policy-as I'd confronted her about the calls from her #.Or maybe testing me if I'll react to the anonymous calls and keep bothering her personally.We both know there is more to this as things ended weird.Or she's just playing,,but calling someone every 5 days at 2-4am even on working days tells me she's at least thinking of me.Maybe genuinely got scarred of me/my ways(acting like a weak emotional clingy stalker and now plays games for revenge.Or hates my guts for my ways/approach,plays it hard due to me being slow,weak,clingly/chased her plus attraction levels being low,maybe me just being kept as a backup option and/or for next summer's friendzone.Maybe she kinda likes me and is shy deep down,really
insecure and hurt before.I'm confused.She might still be uncertain about my feelings/intentions as I never communicated to ascertain things again over the phone.Maybe she even genuinely misinterpreted things re the child/baby issue.I know she likes babies and had tested me on this early and I believe I'd rather failed,had said some people are almost born parents and I didn't feel I was like that but would love to have family if life brought things that way.I know she likes babies/children a lot and also that she hates child abuse and often mentioned such topics etc(maybe a victim).Maybe she wasn't ready and I simply drove her away?I may be deluded but I believe she still thinks about me based on her calls/actions and that is was my approaches that sucked and drove her away.All I want is regain her trust,see her,meet up,clear things up and if there is zero real interest to end things on 'good terms'.Not sure if she wants me to act or not with those last 'bugging' anonymous calls.I kinda fear to act as she may get infuriated and even react unpredictably now.I know she's been hurt before but I also want to at least clear things up(at least about the baby thing).We have no contact whatsoever so I 'm not sure how more waiting/ignoring her can do really.I know the ball is still in her court but is there a way to contact her to speak,without hurting her further or make her go all-angry mode again ,to proceed or to get 'a closure' on this so no awkwardness next Summer when we'll see each other often.I fear ignoring her now could cause her to completely 'give up',thats if she gives the silent calls to try to get me to act and if she had auto rejected me for being slow/my game sucked.It all ended abruptly and awkward with the last call and I didn't get to even leave the door open.Its been a month + since we last spoke via phone.Also there may be conflict between her heart & mind plus with what she wants vs what will choose under the guidelines of society's norms and her friends advice/wants.I know I Wasn't enough fun/relaxed/cool,I was slow/not very sexy/boyfriend material/showed high platonic value,came off too bold but also too fearfull too.Was thinking maybe txt msg her,call her bluff-Tell her I will knock off the games and to step up or step out,in order to get free of the BS and the back and forth-ie "Look, we can hang out, or we can not hang out, but if we're not going to hang out I don't wan't to keep spending time on this,it's purposeless".I think we're both inexperienced and got into a fucked up situation where insecurity and games reign. I m afraid to call her and she is afraid to talk to me when she calls..It would be a shame if we both want each other but we can't get out of a stupip ego game play. Or maybe tell her that I see she was right and what was I thinking,I stil have feelings and love her but yeah it would never happen between us and I wish I knew how to forget her.Btw read somewhere that Mean girls=horny could it be her being horny/want sex and not getting it.I really need advise on how to contact her and get her to meet up. If I manage to contact/meet her again, what would be best way to act, should I try to disqualify myself as 'BF' material..or keep the BF courtship route but correct things and avoid future mistakes.
I know I need to try to move on as its obviously a difficult one but don't want to quit , and always something happens and I can't get closure..I have been keeping my eyes open for other women but she makes it hard for me to forget her and stop thinking of her.In the meantime I educate myself on relationships,try to learn from my many mistakes, eat well,work out etc .
Help Brothers! thanks in advance!
