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alright usaly my policy on chasing is that if I think it's chasing, its probobly chasing.
but today I have hit a gray area and have had a clouded mental state because of this situation.
my goal is reversing bad, very bad precedent
I used to be a stupid creepy kid at the start of my highschool year.
i watched dumb pop culture shows, hoping they would give me some insight on romance
but I ended up hurting myself by doing this.
As a freshman in highschool I had a lack of social awareness.
i read girlschase, but thought of it more like my religion than actualy doing things like I am today.
i encounterd this girl I thought was realy cute . she was sitting next to an aquantince, and I had him introduce me to her
we talked about some stupid stuff. from my skill at the time I probobly would have deep dived her, but that was my routine, after that I would usaly drag myself into the friendzone and kill all intruige.
we were in an assembly and she left to go talk to her friends.
I saw her so I kept waving nervously, anxiously.
later on that day I went onfacebook grabbed her number
and called her number while I was in the mall
i probobly engaged in some light banter
and hung up.
the following weeks were even more gruleing to write about.
she didnt awnser her phone so my one itis said
even though chase says to not call her more than once , I can call her as much as I want because she is the one I'll marry in the future , settle down with. ect
i called like 7 times
she didn't awnser
some time later that month I texted her
she told me she was mad at me
that I should stop texing her for a while
this was the time I started to question what I did wrong
after that all Ive felt was guilt and the pain that I must have put her through
that summer I planed to apologize to her, but I can't remember if I ever did that.
ever since then we've had some akward stares at each other in class
we had to sit together in class once, she didn't seem to make big deal that I did.
mabey the shit has disapeared over time
so now this has notbeen a problem, I dont hang out with her friends, and in extended circle, she's pretty cool, and dosen't bring it up.
but now I feel that I have romantic interest in two of her friends.
as I'm writing this Ive figured out that I am only worrying if she will cockblock
and I need to stop the paralyisis and not hide the bannana when I'm with her friend
if they fall for her cockblock it dosen't mattter.
I would not have wanted aa girl that cant make her own decisons on who she likes
so Imma just handle my fundementals
be persistant
and hope for the best
until next time
but today I have hit a gray area and have had a clouded mental state because of this situation.
my goal is reversing bad, very bad precedent
I used to be a stupid creepy kid at the start of my highschool year.
i watched dumb pop culture shows, hoping they would give me some insight on romance
but I ended up hurting myself by doing this.
As a freshman in highschool I had a lack of social awareness.
i read girlschase, but thought of it more like my religion than actualy doing things like I am today.
i encounterd this girl I thought was realy cute . she was sitting next to an aquantince, and I had him introduce me to her
we talked about some stupid stuff. from my skill at the time I probobly would have deep dived her, but that was my routine, after that I would usaly drag myself into the friendzone and kill all intruige.
we were in an assembly and she left to go talk to her friends.
I saw her so I kept waving nervously, anxiously.
later on that day I went onfacebook grabbed her number
and called her number while I was in the mall
i probobly engaged in some light banter
and hung up.
the following weeks were even more gruleing to write about.
she didnt awnser her phone so my one itis said
even though chase says to not call her more than once , I can call her as much as I want because she is the one I'll marry in the future , settle down with. ect
i called like 7 times
she didn't awnser
some time later that month I texted her
she told me she was mad at me
that I should stop texing her for a while
this was the time I started to question what I did wrong
after that all Ive felt was guilt and the pain that I must have put her through
that summer I planed to apologize to her, but I can't remember if I ever did that.
ever since then we've had some akward stares at each other in class
we had to sit together in class once, she didn't seem to make big deal that I did.
mabey the shit has disapeared over time
so now this has notbeen a problem, I dont hang out with her friends, and in extended circle, she's pretty cool, and dosen't bring it up.
but now I feel that I have romantic interest in two of her friends.
as I'm writing this Ive figured out that I am only worrying if she will cockblock
and I need to stop the paralyisis and not hide the bannana when I'm with her friend
if they fall for her cockblock it dosen't mattter.
I would not have wanted aa girl that cant make her own decisons on who she likes
so Imma just handle my fundementals
be persistant
and hope for the best
until next time
