The Pomona Playboy - Gem’s journal

[Rage]

Gonna just pick up journaling and pretend like I haven’t been gone and have been here all this time. Lol

Not sure if I'm gonna do it regularly but wrote it today kind of for the heck of it.

Thursday day (bus)

Talked to this girl on the bus who I had met playing a dodgeball event at our school. Most events are shit at school and a majority engineering school the really good looking girls are a bit uncommon. But this girl was fairly good looking Asian chick and I was surprised that she was there.

Did some push pull when we had played dodgeball a few weeks ago and got her name and got to flirt and banter a bit. I played a trick a bit, where I left for like 5 or 10 minutes and went away to talk on the phone, somewhere where I could see her and she couldn’t see me.

Saw her looking around for me and stuff. But later on she left without me noticing.

Then when with my natural buddy to the gym, because he was looking for a girl he was supposed to hook up with later that night.

I checked out some chick working out from far away and was like “wow that chick is fucking hot”down the stairs a bit later and ran into my dodgeball girl and turned out she was the same girl!!

Didn’t get her number then cause it was incongruent; she told me she was there cause she had to watch her friend’s basketball game.

Went home and looked her up together with my buddy, turns out her “friend” was her boyfriend she didn’t want to tell me about

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Anyway the dodgeball event was a few weeks ago. Saw her on the bus during the day, we got on together talked flirted and deep dived.

I totally fucking pussed out I think getting her number or trying to set up a date.

I rationalized it in my head that she lives in the village and bus was crowded as fuck and someone on there would know she has a boyfriend (who she's been with for a while but was a complete beta, who was at dodgeball and I thought he was jus tfriendzoned by her as she flirted with me hard, right in front of his fucking face!) and so she wouldn’t even be able to give it to me then if she wanted.

But yeah missed that opportunity; though she lives in the village and next see her can try and set up sometime to meet with her, or to hang out in the village. She really actively tried to hide a boyfriend while I was asking her about what she does for fun, and other stuff… hmm so maybe there’s potential if run into this girl one day. Would just wanna fuck her though; reminds me of the Asian mathlete from CHase’s ebook if anyone’s read that.

Wednesday night pool

Or maybe it was Thursday night? .. Hmm, well the last couple of days I hadn’t done approaches but still had run into and talked to a few girls.

Wednesday night played pool with my buddy. We’ll hang out like twice a week, don’t keep many friends nowadays who I hang out with regularly, but he’s like minded, and into self improvement and sleeping with girls and reading books and stuff, so I don’t mind kicking it occasionally (though I like being a loner more).

I’m ok at pool, a little better than my friend if you go by wins and win more games usually…

Not much happens umm… Oh yeah the RA on duty is some whatevers looking black chick (who I wouldn’t do). I’m bending over making a few pool shots in a row, and notice some girls in the rec center checking out my ass).

The RA chick says “oh do you like going hiking”. Because I’m wearing hiking boots, but they’re not even easy to see, and I’m like “bitch you weren’t looking at my shoes”.

I tell her politely “oh no, they’re just comfortable”.

I win a couple of games me and my friend are fucking competitive; but I like to win so win a couple of games and enjoy it and try to not let my ego get to me or anything (or brag or anything… much as I might emotionally want to).

Whenever I miss I get pissed as fuck and curse like a sailor. Part of it is a lot of extra testosterone from quitting porn (which has been a lot more productive and easy than I would have ever thought it would be), makes me so much more aggressive and competitive and carnal and stuff! But also more focused and more easily garnering female attention.

Another black chick walks in some ways away, who I might have had a shot at banging. Who kind of led me on though she has a boyfriend and I told her we could meet sometime anyway maybe. She’s a good looking black chick, I’m not quite sure if I had a shot with her, or if she had been flirting with me beforehand just wanting to flirt but not actually cheat on her boyfriend.

But that didn’t work out earlier because her boyfriend got mad sent me a text telling me to fuck off, and I laughed and told him sorry won’t talk to her and NEXTed this bitch.

I don’t have any hard feelings or care… but did care when she walked in and started watching like my 3rd or 4th game of pool and hitting on me. And playful bantering and stuff. Didn’t get pissed because she was there or flirting… but because I was fucking missing shots!!!! Like she was distracting me and throwing off my game.

I was an ass hole to her told her, “you're ruining my game you're bad luck, maybe you should leave so I can win” some shit like that, kind of sexy asshole way but it worked and she left and I won the other 2 games. Good riddance.

Friday Night

Had an approach at the gym, this Chinese girl who I really wanted to meet and got to. Not gonna comment or discuss it here cause wanted to ask about it practically and in more detail in another post (some old post I remember I had seen… that I might have to dig out of the grave).

Was an approach related to this article https://www.girlschase.com/content/ones- ... who-go-you and this type of girl. Glad Chase wrote this article and I learned this, because never would have went out of my way to meet this girl otherwise.

Saturday Night

Had to go home to family and then go with them to a charity dinner with other Bangladeshi family friends of theirs.

Bangladeshi girls are not incredibly good looking on average.

Nothing went on at the event super significant; but found it interesting I’m oozing with testosterone at this point in the week. And the attention I got from a couple of girls I know was really incredible.

Was at the event with a few guy friends for a while, then went off a bit to the side to sit by myself and think and write on my iPod a bit. One girl at first I know and then a couple more later on came sat with me gave me a lot of fucking attention and banter and stuff.

Didn’t go out of my way to talk or move with them or do anything. But was just interesting see the level of investment and extra attraction and attention I get with all this extra testosterone in my balls.

Was a chill night with family and old friends altogether I suppose.

 

[ocantu1987]

you doing nofap or the 7 day cycle? im experimenting with the 7 day cycle as ive great hits from girls within 7 days of nofap. Like you said,your testosterone shoots up during this period. Some say more testosterone, more pheromones your body produces.

 

[Rage]

you doing nofap or the 7 day cycle? im experimenting with the 7 day cycle as ive great hits from girls within 7 days of nofap. Like you said,your testosterone shoots up during this period. Some say more testosterone, more pheromones your body produces.

I'm doing like 4-5 day cycle.. I feel more focused and stuff its pretty doable. I have a girl I'm seeing casually once or twice a week so that helps too... lol

 

[Rage]

4th of July, Update

I’m not getting back into journaling regularly but I suppose am just writing this to update about my situation and what I’m up to; and to keep my writing chops fresh.

I've moved back to my parents place at the end of the school quarter and likely will be here for a couple more weeks (I’m set with a new lease at the beginning of august, but may move out sooner perhaps). I'm living at home, part to save up a bit of money part to have a calm period and reassess and look at the past and plan for the future about my goals and part to see old friends and because circumstances have it be convenient.

I have no logistics at home, can’t bring any girls home or do anything remotely close to any of that (parents are quite religious and have expectation that I don’t do anything till I get married, so they can keep believing that but in the meantime any girls I do meet I have nowhere to really pull too). I doubt Ill get laid with a new girl in this next month because of this but am quite all right with that too, taking a step back and a calm period with my work with goals with writing and expanding small business, break with seduction or with massively aggressively progressing at powerlifting.

Periods like this help to get mind to calm, give reflection and pause and realizations that you wouldn’t have if were go go go all the time.

If I get the urge to really move out I can really do so any time this month if I chose to (have the abilities to); but just altogether with the impulse control and balancing meditative period of right now I can focus on staying at home for a couple of weeks. My intention and expectation is likely when I pick back up move out again, I can hit the parallel areas of my life and my goals very aggressively and at a faster rate than I had been prior.

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In the meantime while I am here, at times I go to the stores, and go to the gym 4 or 5 times a week. I find that with writing or business or lifting or pickup even in these break periods I still somehow make progress. Like gradual progress, but progress nevertheless.

I go to the gym and the store and will meet girls have some notice me and get in conversation with them, have gotten a number recently and talked to a few girls at the gym who are into me.

I do feel further with women than I had ever been in my life before. But I don’t think of it in that light much; just feel thrilled about the journey wherever I am in it, and eager about progressing further and detachedly curious and sort of patiently, calmly anxious about what may come next, what experience I might have next, and what the future may hold.

Now that I reflect on it and in writing this right now, it occurs to me that I well would have had some pulls and potential lays with some of the women I’ve met in the past weeks (and the past ones who I’ve seen lately after not seeing in a long time, who I haven’t laid, but who seem attracted to me and the changes in my appearance and character). WIth logistics would have attempted them perhaps; have had some interesting interactions at the gym and stuff, and all with girls that are sort of coming my way and I’m not actively approaching.

My goal is to hit the ground running hard at the end of the month, with my own place; and to begin night game and attempting to progress and learn that. Quite likely I will have to change my appearance and facial hair and fashion and hairstyle maybe too to do better at that (from what I had observed and taken notes from, from time out at parties earlier in the school year). This is welcome by me though (don’t like carrying the same look for too long).

Despite terrible logistics and less freedom while being at home, will see if anything comes of my interactions and relations with the women I know and come across in the next few weeks. Will update accordingly.

-Gem