From a beginner:
The decision was made. I was ready, I thought to myself. I began scouting....BUT once the selection was done things escalated to a level even I could not imagine. I froze, "should I ?", " No, I shouldn't", " It isn't the right time" and the window passed. I got really down after that, because before scouting I was excited....really excited. I never thought about rejection, but once things got serious. Rejection-embarrassment-humiliation (more of these 2) ALL AT ONCE came and swooped me away.
I had posted earlier and had got a few replies about not taking rejection too hard. Sadly, I was not rejected, how would I be,I never tried ! But even before rejection it was more of embarrassment and humiliation that kicked my enthusiasm out of me. I couldn't get myself to ask anyone else after that.
What the hell am I supposed to do ?
Anyone ???
The decision was made. I was ready, I thought to myself. I began scouting....BUT once the selection was done things escalated to a level even I could not imagine. I froze, "should I ?", " No, I shouldn't", " It isn't the right time" and the window passed. I got really down after that, because before scouting I was excited....really excited. I never thought about rejection, but once things got serious. Rejection-embarrassment-humiliation (more of these 2) ALL AT ONCE came and swooped me away.
I had posted earlier and had got a few replies about not taking rejection too hard. Sadly, I was not rejected, how would I be,I never tried ! But even before rejection it was more of embarrassment and humiliation that kicked my enthusiasm out of me. I couldn't get myself to ask anyone else after that.
What the hell am I supposed to do ?
Anyone ???