Hello Guys
This is my first post on this forum. In this post I want to share what has been happening lately to me and I would really appreciate if you give me some advices.
Ok, to start I am really inexperienced with girls and had never been in one with my penis (at age 27). And this is driving me mad. However, i believe that girls find me attractive and like to flirt with me, like to talk with me, but every time i got a chance to go further I did things wrong – i wasn't dominant, i got too afraid and so on.
Lately I am also obsessing about one girl and she keeps coming into my head. Let me tell you about it.
This year I was sharing an apartment with one couple and also some other people. During the spring and summer months I got really connected to the girl of that couple as we started to do a lot of things together. And she got connected to me. We also started to share our secrets to each other. She was telling me the problems she had with her boyfriend. They were having a 2-year crisis as I found out spending hours now at girlschase.
However, the sexual tension between us was really high. And we were very emotionally connected. I really wanted to have her and I also felt how horny she was. But couple of times when I wanted to come closer she pushed me away and said she can’t do anything with me because of her boyfriend.
But then one day (when she was seeing me hanging out with other girls) she invited me for a walk. I was stupid and really thought this would be just a walk. But then under some bushes we started kissing and slowly got naked. As I see now she was doing the things the way she wanted and I just followed. This and awkwardness in my head didn’t make my dick hard. At the end she pleased herself.
Then some days later similar situation. But this time were my fingers that pleased her. This time she was very loud when I was grabbing her. However I was soft again and felt pretty bad about it.
Next time I was hard but she was pushing me away. She didn’t want to have a vaginal intercourse because of her boyfriend – like that would be the ultimate end of their relationship. I wasn’t persistent and dominant enough so I didn’t get into her. By the way, she told me she can’t have vaginal orgasms and she had 9 sexual partners.
After couple of days she really wanted my dick, and she gave me a handjob, but she was still refusing to have the real sex. And I wanted only that. I was very angry at her and at myself because I didn’t get what I want. She was lying to her boyfriend and pretended everything is fine. I saw her she has no problems with lying. I also wasn’t satisfied (I am still not).
Ok, then the boyfriend found out about this. And they decided they still want to stay together and have children and that I need to move from that place. Girl turned really cold on me – she didn’t even look at me, she ignored me or was pissed at me for whatever reason. I felt really bad about everything, I fell in love with her, I still keep thinking how I am making love with her. But never made it as I would really want it… I was quite bitter the last two (three?) months. I moved away now but its very close to the place where they live. And she keeps coming into my mind because of all unfulfilled fantasies. I was trying a bit with other girls but it aint working at the moment. Just don’t have the same energy as I had when she was into me.
Tell me what you think about this story. I did a lot of mistakes, ha? You think it would be smart to go to places that girl goes – like social dances, which I also really enjoy, but now I started to avoid them a bit because girl and her boyfriend are also going? It is a great place also to meet girls. Should I try anything if I meet her on the street? I think the girl will be searching for some other guy sooner or later. And I really want to get experience, especially if it is a girl which I really like.
This is my first post on this forum. In this post I want to share what has been happening lately to me and I would really appreciate if you give me some advices.
Ok, to start I am really inexperienced with girls and had never been in one with my penis (at age 27). And this is driving me mad. However, i believe that girls find me attractive and like to flirt with me, like to talk with me, but every time i got a chance to go further I did things wrong – i wasn't dominant, i got too afraid and so on.
Lately I am also obsessing about one girl and she keeps coming into my head. Let me tell you about it.
This year I was sharing an apartment with one couple and also some other people. During the spring and summer months I got really connected to the girl of that couple as we started to do a lot of things together. And she got connected to me. We also started to share our secrets to each other. She was telling me the problems she had with her boyfriend. They were having a 2-year crisis as I found out spending hours now at girlschase.
However, the sexual tension between us was really high. And we were very emotionally connected. I really wanted to have her and I also felt how horny she was. But couple of times when I wanted to come closer she pushed me away and said she can’t do anything with me because of her boyfriend.
But then one day (when she was seeing me hanging out with other girls) she invited me for a walk. I was stupid and really thought this would be just a walk. But then under some bushes we started kissing and slowly got naked. As I see now she was doing the things the way she wanted and I just followed. This and awkwardness in my head didn’t make my dick hard. At the end she pleased herself.
Then some days later similar situation. But this time were my fingers that pleased her. This time she was very loud when I was grabbing her. However I was soft again and felt pretty bad about it.
Next time I was hard but she was pushing me away. She didn’t want to have a vaginal intercourse because of her boyfriend – like that would be the ultimate end of their relationship. I wasn’t persistent and dominant enough so I didn’t get into her. By the way, she told me she can’t have vaginal orgasms and she had 9 sexual partners.
After couple of days she really wanted my dick, and she gave me a handjob, but she was still refusing to have the real sex. And I wanted only that. I was very angry at her and at myself because I didn’t get what I want. She was lying to her boyfriend and pretended everything is fine. I saw her she has no problems with lying. I also wasn’t satisfied (I am still not).
Ok, then the boyfriend found out about this. And they decided they still want to stay together and have children and that I need to move from that place. Girl turned really cold on me – she didn’t even look at me, she ignored me or was pissed at me for whatever reason. I felt really bad about everything, I fell in love with her, I still keep thinking how I am making love with her. But never made it as I would really want it… I was quite bitter the last two (three?) months. I moved away now but its very close to the place where they live. And she keeps coming into my mind because of all unfulfilled fantasies. I was trying a bit with other girls but it aint working at the moment. Just don’t have the same energy as I had when she was into me.
Tell me what you think about this story. I did a lot of mistakes, ha? You think it would be smart to go to places that girl goes – like social dances, which I also really enjoy, but now I started to avoid them a bit because girl and her boyfriend are also going? It is a great place also to meet girls. Should I try anything if I meet her on the street? I think the girl will be searching for some other guy sooner or later. And I really want to get experience, especially if it is a girl which I really like.
