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I write this report with a bittersweet feel in my mouth: yes, i bedded a new girl. Yes, i’ve been wanting to bed this particular girl for some while… but a few unfortunate events prevented me from enjoying the whole process as thoroughly as i usually do. I will try my best to try and explain what happened, but i have to accept that not all seductions are textbook, that the feeling of beauty and gratitude does not always consume you after a new lay.
An old friend:
Miss Nature has long been a regular blowjob friend of mine. We met on instagram around February 2016, went on a date to a cafe, and then she blew me in my car. It is worth noting that she had just turned 17, and is currently 18 and a half, and so conversation had always been difficult with her: she doesn't know how to talk about much other than herself. This is part of why the lay had a bitter taste. But, she was hungry for my cock, and had a generally high sex drive that i decided to keep her. The first few times we went out she was unable to make me cum but soon learned the tricks of the trade. I provided her ample practice.
We stayed in contact throughout much of the year, and it was clear that she valued me highly (attainability woe) and threw a few attempts to pin me down. She felt comfortable telling me about the other men in her life. Whatever, never paid much attention to that part. A few weeks before i left for California in 2017 we had a fight where i dropped her home after she showed up late for our date. She got super angry for a few months, and midway through my stay in cali we made up. She mentioned that she was ready to lose her virginity during prom and wanted me to do the deed as i was well suited but she ended up fucking a random as i wasn't there. I came back to lebanon.
Action:
There isnt much drama or romance here. It was very straightforward (Which actually off balanced me). I texted her announcing im back, she replied by saying she misses me and wants to fuck me next week. Ok, thats a first. We set a date for Tuesday but ended up meeting Sunday, July 23 2017. I picked her up and got home, and we started tearing each other soon. I put a condom on and entered her soon. Here the first of my problems occurs: i have to stop much more often than usual because i get close to cuming sooner than usual, and she makes it worse by asking me to go faster. Oh, fuck. I do my best to manage but feelings of insecurity come up. I notice that part of the insecurity is because she expects me to be a sex god: i taught her most of what she knows, so of course i should blow her mind away with breathtaking sex. The sex itself was good- she was screaming in delight and carving beautiful shapes in my back- but the biggest problem was my mental situation, and my fear that she’ll notice. Another issue was a new one; after some while, she went up and adjusted herself in doggie style position. I’ve never had a girl adjust her sex position, and this wasn't a great idea as i dont last very long in this position. And surely, it was even harder for me to maintain. We did a few other alterations as well, but I cut the sex shorter than usual: went around 20 minutes. Less than a minute later, she asks for round 2. Holy shit this girl means business. We talk for 10 minutes then i start escalation. My second big problem occurs here: i couldnt get an erection. After i noticed this will be an issue, i resorted to cunnilingus, which worked well. After a few minutes of that, i try to penetrate again. No, won't work. She noticed the issue and went down on me to give me some extra help. It worked, i got hard again and started to fuck her brains out some more, but the original problem of having to cum, and her desire to get fucked faster, arised. Position switching also happened. I did last a bit longer, and fuck her a bit stronger, but i was nowhere near my optimal comfort level. We finished, she asked for round 3, i said later, and we moved to my car.
A little interaction which didn't go smoothly is in my memory.
Her: when should we have a threesome blabla
Me: we can go to the bars and you’ll pick a girl for us
Her: I meant with a guy.
Me: well you better find someone else to do this with
Her: ummm ok
I wouldn't say that this type of “snappy” behavior is alien to me: I frequently snap and react when my buttons are pushed (and immediately regret but don’t apologize for it lol), but i was more prone due to the whole situation.
Public sex was on the agenda to start with, but i didnt think its a good idea anymore as i wasnt feeling comfortable emotionally. I mentioned my emotions during the car ride, told her that i am working on feeling my emotions, and she found it sweet that I shared this and was interested in talking about it, which we did briefly. Meanwhile, I planned on taking her to the park where i had a location for sex scouted out but it was closed for an event. We wandered off in my car and then i park, just wanting to walk around with her. A few minutes into our walk, i found a nice little forest overlooking the park. My fucking sensations were tingled, and i led her to come and checkout what was happening in the park. It wasn't a smooth walk : the floor was unstable and there were pesky shrubs everywhere and she was nagging and asking me to take her back. I persisted until we got to a secluded region, which i judged to be safe for sex, and started escalating. She protested a little but gave in soon. After some trial and error to find a good sex position, we fucked for a while, where another problem occurred: my dick wasn't really hard enough, and it sort of bent while inside her, which didn't feel nice. I was saddened again. I continued fucking and stopped mid cumming- i did cum but not completely, so I took out my cock and let her suck me to finish the job. Finally, we started putting our clothes back on, and Miss Nature (first girl i fuck in a fucking forest like that) said she hates me so much for making her do that. We took the hard walk back out the forest and to my car and then i proceeded to drive her home. My energy levels were dropping fast now: part of the reason all this happened was because I was heavily jet lagged and tired, and I am the type of person who really needs to be well rested to perform well. We said our goodbyes, and i drove back home, not feeling very well. I took a picture of my back which was filled with nail marks.
Looking back at the story after a few days, I don't think it’s as bad as i made it out to be. Sure, the sex wasn't the best and sure, i didn't feel the best emotionally, but the standards of an 18 year old could hardly be that high. Looking back at a video i took of her after the forest escapade, i saw that she had been very giggly and acting shy- a showing of feminine energy, which is always a good thing. Also, you could not expect to be in the best mood every time you’re with a girl; you have to make the best of it, and i think i did a good job. It is worth mentioning that she recently (maybe a month ago?) got a boyfriend, who we both avoided talking about until she mentioned that he almost saw our pictures of the date, which was cute: i really hope God doesn't judge us on the number of times we hook up with engaged, married, or otherwise committed females. I would go to hell for sure.
An old friend:
Miss Nature has long been a regular blowjob friend of mine. We met on instagram around February 2016, went on a date to a cafe, and then she blew me in my car. It is worth noting that she had just turned 17, and is currently 18 and a half, and so conversation had always been difficult with her: she doesn't know how to talk about much other than herself. This is part of why the lay had a bitter taste. But, she was hungry for my cock, and had a generally high sex drive that i decided to keep her. The first few times we went out she was unable to make me cum but soon learned the tricks of the trade. I provided her ample practice.
We stayed in contact throughout much of the year, and it was clear that she valued me highly (attainability woe) and threw a few attempts to pin me down. She felt comfortable telling me about the other men in her life. Whatever, never paid much attention to that part. A few weeks before i left for California in 2017 we had a fight where i dropped her home after she showed up late for our date. She got super angry for a few months, and midway through my stay in cali we made up. She mentioned that she was ready to lose her virginity during prom and wanted me to do the deed as i was well suited but she ended up fucking a random as i wasn't there. I came back to lebanon.
Action:
There isnt much drama or romance here. It was very straightforward (Which actually off balanced me). I texted her announcing im back, she replied by saying she misses me and wants to fuck me next week. Ok, thats a first. We set a date for Tuesday but ended up meeting Sunday, July 23 2017. I picked her up and got home, and we started tearing each other soon. I put a condom on and entered her soon. Here the first of my problems occurs: i have to stop much more often than usual because i get close to cuming sooner than usual, and she makes it worse by asking me to go faster. Oh, fuck. I do my best to manage but feelings of insecurity come up. I notice that part of the insecurity is because she expects me to be a sex god: i taught her most of what she knows, so of course i should blow her mind away with breathtaking sex. The sex itself was good- she was screaming in delight and carving beautiful shapes in my back- but the biggest problem was my mental situation, and my fear that she’ll notice. Another issue was a new one; after some while, she went up and adjusted herself in doggie style position. I’ve never had a girl adjust her sex position, and this wasn't a great idea as i dont last very long in this position. And surely, it was even harder for me to maintain. We did a few other alterations as well, but I cut the sex shorter than usual: went around 20 minutes. Less than a minute later, she asks for round 2. Holy shit this girl means business. We talk for 10 minutes then i start escalation. My second big problem occurs here: i couldnt get an erection. After i noticed this will be an issue, i resorted to cunnilingus, which worked well. After a few minutes of that, i try to penetrate again. No, won't work. She noticed the issue and went down on me to give me some extra help. It worked, i got hard again and started to fuck her brains out some more, but the original problem of having to cum, and her desire to get fucked faster, arised. Position switching also happened. I did last a bit longer, and fuck her a bit stronger, but i was nowhere near my optimal comfort level. We finished, she asked for round 3, i said later, and we moved to my car.
A little interaction which didn't go smoothly is in my memory.
Her: when should we have a threesome blabla
Me: we can go to the bars and you’ll pick a girl for us
Her: I meant with a guy.
Me: well you better find someone else to do this with
Her: ummm ok
I wouldn't say that this type of “snappy” behavior is alien to me: I frequently snap and react when my buttons are pushed (and immediately regret but don’t apologize for it lol), but i was more prone due to the whole situation.
Public sex was on the agenda to start with, but i didnt think its a good idea anymore as i wasnt feeling comfortable emotionally. I mentioned my emotions during the car ride, told her that i am working on feeling my emotions, and she found it sweet that I shared this and was interested in talking about it, which we did briefly. Meanwhile, I planned on taking her to the park where i had a location for sex scouted out but it was closed for an event. We wandered off in my car and then i park, just wanting to walk around with her. A few minutes into our walk, i found a nice little forest overlooking the park. My fucking sensations were tingled, and i led her to come and checkout what was happening in the park. It wasn't a smooth walk : the floor was unstable and there were pesky shrubs everywhere and she was nagging and asking me to take her back. I persisted until we got to a secluded region, which i judged to be safe for sex, and started escalating. She protested a little but gave in soon. After some trial and error to find a good sex position, we fucked for a while, where another problem occurred: my dick wasn't really hard enough, and it sort of bent while inside her, which didn't feel nice. I was saddened again. I continued fucking and stopped mid cumming- i did cum but not completely, so I took out my cock and let her suck me to finish the job. Finally, we started putting our clothes back on, and Miss Nature (first girl i fuck in a fucking forest like that) said she hates me so much for making her do that. We took the hard walk back out the forest and to my car and then i proceeded to drive her home. My energy levels were dropping fast now: part of the reason all this happened was because I was heavily jet lagged and tired, and I am the type of person who really needs to be well rested to perform well. We said our goodbyes, and i drove back home, not feeling very well. I took a picture of my back which was filled with nail marks.
Looking back at the story after a few days, I don't think it’s as bad as i made it out to be. Sure, the sex wasn't the best and sure, i didn't feel the best emotionally, but the standards of an 18 year old could hardly be that high. Looking back at a video i took of her after the forest escapade, i saw that she had been very giggly and acting shy- a showing of feminine energy, which is always a good thing. Also, you could not expect to be in the best mood every time you’re with a girl; you have to make the best of it, and i think i did a good job. It is worth mentioning that she recently (maybe a month ago?) got a boyfriend, who we both avoided talking about until she mentioned that he almost saw our pictures of the date, which was cute: i really hope God doesn't judge us on the number of times we hook up with engaged, married, or otherwise committed females. I would go to hell for sure.
