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Swati

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This note is for myself currently and my future self and for whoever can benefit from it.

I've been fucking up recently, not going out like I'm supposed to, letting my laziness get the better of me. This laziness usually brews out during winter times I could recall from last year when I was feeling like a shit bag too, total vibe killer.

No battleground is ever fair so find ways to overcome it.

Sure I can use the excuses of

winter, cold weather (wear warmer cloth)
low volume of girls (approach the ones available mix day game too)
bad financial situation (working on it)
annoying ass wing (found solution)
started watching porn again (but still on retention)
bad sleeping schedule (cut caffeine and nap more)
etc

These things listed can all be overcome with my WILL to play

I'm not here to sensationalize, do not like inner game. I'm feeling a bit frustrated with my behaviors as of late, need to overcome the barriers. During these times, having a structure in the schedule is key. Compared to before a lot of my time revolved around the game.

I will take full responsibility for shortcomings slacking off.

Some things I didn't come to self-internalize.

I felt like I was dying inside after realizing I missed a weekend at the game.

Entropy will destroy you if you are not careful.

2022 December
 

Wick

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This note is for myself currently and my future self and for whoever can benefit from it.

I've been fucking up recently, not going out like I'm supposed to, letting my laziness get the better of me. This laziness usually brews out during winter times I could recall from last year when I was feeling like a shit bag too, total vibe killer.

No battleground is ever fair so find ways to overcome it.

Sure I can use the excuses of

winter, cold weather (wear warmer cloth)
low volume of girls (approach the ones available mix day game too)
bad financial situation (working on it)
annoying ass wing (found solution)
started watching porn again (but still on retention)
bad sleeping schedule (cut caffeine and nap more)
etc

These things listed can all be overcome with my WILL to play

I'm not here to sensationalize, do not like inner game. I'm feeling a bit frustrated with my behaviors as of late, need to overcome the barriers. During these times, having a structure in the schedule is key. Compared to before a lot of my time revolved around the game.

I will take full responsibility for shortcomings slacking off.

Some things I didn't come to self-internalize.

I felt like I was dying inside after realizing I missed a weekend at the game.

Entropy will destroy you if you are not careful.

2022 December

I found that when I have low motivation to game, it's because I'm disconnected to my purpose in life, a mission, a big goal that gets me out of bed. When I have that big thing going on, it helps me to avoid slacking off and jerking off, and I'm much more sharp and motivated to game, especially because I'm excited about life and inviting girls into my adventure is more energizing than just hitting the streets to grind away at building the skill.
 

Swati

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I found that when I have low motivation to game, it's because I'm disconnected to my purpose in life, a mission, a big goal that gets me out of bed. When I have that big thing going on, it helps me to avoid slacking off and jerking off, and I'm much more sharp and motivated to game, especially because I'm excited about life and inviting girls into my adventure is more energizing than just hitting the streets to grind away at building the skill.
yes you are right. In regards to business I'm making leap moves, as well as a layer of added stress in addition to other things. I say more uncertainty added to the mix, doesn't make me as excited either. But I enjoy myself either way when i go out.

how do you reconnect with your purpose?
 
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Wick

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how do you reconnect with your purpose?

I don't think the answer is simple.

I was once told that you find your purpose overtime, it unfolds, and it's not unusual to only start to understand your purpose in your mid 30s/40s.

I also think that clearing away emotional baggage, doing what's called "shadow work", and getting your basic needs met is important. Purpose is highest on the hierarchy of needs. Meaning you handle the other things first.

I also think being engaged with life helps. Explore, adventure, and try new things, don't forget to smell the roses. And the things that like to do, aim to be skilled in them, don't just sit on your hands. Become a master or connoisseur, not just an observer or casual dilettante.

I would also say, avoid the junk foods of life. Don't numb yourself with distractions and empty pleasures.
 

mist

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how do you reconnect with your purpose?

action

if the first action is writing all your thoughts down and seeing what they are telling you do that

no one is truly unmotivated…you have desires, motives, options

the unmotivated are dead

are you dead

even if all you want to do is sleep and live like a robot you have motivation under that (haha yes i’m saying npcs are motivated)

I don't think the answer is simple.

1. action

2.follow your desire

3.start getting some winner effect going

4.write thoughts down

your purpose could be as simple as getting up to take a shit

the only people disconnected from their purpose are dead

you have a better idea about your desires than I though so all I can say is

action

(update: the basics never hurt either. are you full, are you thirsty, are you sexually satisfied, how's your energy...we get the privilege of getting to consider our deeper meaning and access to tools that can dramatically flip our life trajectory, but never forget under that you are a monkey who's emotions/states are impacted by similar base as curious george)
 
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Swati

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action

if the first action is writing all your thoughts down and seeing what they are telling you do that

no one is truly unmotivated…you have desires, motives, options

the unmotivated are dead

are you dead

even if all you want to do is sleep and live like a robot you have motivation under that (haha yes i’m saying npcs are motivated)



1. action

2.follow your desire

3.start getting some winner effect going

4.write thoughts down

your purpose could be as simple as getting up to take a shit

the only people disconnected from their purpose are dead

you have a better idea about your desires than I though so all I can say is

action

(update: the basics never hurt either. are you full, are you thirsty, are you sexually satisfied, how's your energy...we get the privilege of getting to consider our deeper meaning and access to tools that can dramatically flip our life trajectory, but never forget under that you are a monkey who's emotions/states are impacted by similar base as curious george)
@trashcan appreciate the reading recommendations and your words, it's a transition phase

these 2 underappreciated hidden articles are helpful thanks @Chase
 
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