Hey guys,
SHORT VERSION
Has anyone here ever gone on any medication or seen some sort of therapist? I have anxiety like symptoms, could also be irritable bowel syndrome as well. I've also read about people , rarely, getting misdiagnosed with anxiety when they actually have epilepsy or someone on dysautonomia forums trying to workout the difference between panic attack/anxiety and adrenaline surge. My symptoms are yeah, feel sick and/or bowel movement needed, the thing is, everything seems fine then out of the blue, soft bowel movement feeling, then usually after having using the bathroom the anxiety goes away within 5mins. Not always. So I wonder if I have something physiological as well, eg inflamed intestine, or just too much stress, have tried different diets, some have reduced that symptom but not 100%. When this happens I also cannot fall asleep, even if super tired. Once I 'calm down' less agitated and 'normal' then yeah, can fall asleep very easily.
It's very difficult to describe, but when in the anxious mood, any thoughts that come into my mind that I could normally handle, get blown out of proportion. Even positive thoughts[eg woman on my bed nice legs we both want to hookup but cannot because of my mood until I calm down] create a 'more nervous energy'. It can happen without needing a bowel movement, its not painful, but my stomach gets very tight, I get tense, agitated, feel sick. Cannot eat as appetite is down. I guess I'm worried a therapist would say [which I did see one a few years ago] that 'love gurus eg PUA' may not work, as those pua could just be anyone without any qualifications, and 'you can't do much about your looks'. I've had those things.
LONG VERSION
I guess I don't like the idea of medication because it may control you, and the stigma, and also maybe I judge myself as much as I judge others, and I do judge others. I may also have too much sympathy/empathy and/or be too intelligent for my own good... eg see old people and think who would want them? I have a friend who is similar approach anxiety and we are each other wingman, and when I'm in anxious mood, he is skinny like me, and I think 'he not good enough' because he is skinny. I guess that means I'm not good enough too? But I don't stare at the mirror thinking about it , necessarily. If i feel sad that's ok I guess, I'd rather be sad then anxious. So basically, if I have a woman, I see flaws, but if they pull away, I see attractive parts to them. Could be lack of abundance too... I have not been with 8s or 9s very much, if at all, but some 6 or 7 have been legit interested and a couple of them interest back, and I've felt a connection eg I could maybe be with them long term, but then I walk into supermarket and there's an 8 or 9 and its like why am I with a 6 or 7. Its an instant value change. On the other hand, I do imagine 'settling down' with an 8 or 9 and still get anxious/weirded out feelings. Logically, everyone has value, even unattractive, so logically I 'get it', but on some other level, emotionally? or what other levels are there? I get anxious, I get tense agitated very easily, I take things personally easy.
Also, I do notice that with women, I do tend to chase ones that got away so to speak, and be most attracted in those circumstances as opposed to in the moment. Being exclusive scares the crap out of me, I don't know why.
Other things that 'calm me down' is that, if I have a friend I have known for years and years come over, or if i went to see my mum[can't do that these days], that would also calm me down. But if I call a help support line, they say do this exercise do that exercise, it breaks the mood for about 5seconds only and then the agitation energy comes back. Perhaps it's also worrying about feeling sick and dying[live alone] and having someone helps, or is it the emotional that you trust this person eg mum, long term friend? No one is giving me antidepressant when I calm down, it just goes away.
Good news is that I have approach anxiety shyness so only did online, but in the last 12months have gotten over that a bit, still a way to go, but at least I've asked some out without using online. However that is totally different to what I'm describing here... with that I can 'walk away' eg not approach, and I would be annoyed angry, where as with this anxiety problem irritable bowel syndrome, I don't have that type of control over it, I can't "walk away" from it or just turn it off.
SHORT VERSION
Has anyone here ever gone on any medication or seen some sort of therapist? I have anxiety like symptoms, could also be irritable bowel syndrome as well. I've also read about people , rarely, getting misdiagnosed with anxiety when they actually have epilepsy or someone on dysautonomia forums trying to workout the difference between panic attack/anxiety and adrenaline surge. My symptoms are yeah, feel sick and/or bowel movement needed, the thing is, everything seems fine then out of the blue, soft bowel movement feeling, then usually after having using the bathroom the anxiety goes away within 5mins. Not always. So I wonder if I have something physiological as well, eg inflamed intestine, or just too much stress, have tried different diets, some have reduced that symptom but not 100%. When this happens I also cannot fall asleep, even if super tired. Once I 'calm down' less agitated and 'normal' then yeah, can fall asleep very easily.
It's very difficult to describe, but when in the anxious mood, any thoughts that come into my mind that I could normally handle, get blown out of proportion. Even positive thoughts[eg woman on my bed nice legs we both want to hookup but cannot because of my mood until I calm down] create a 'more nervous energy'. It can happen without needing a bowel movement, its not painful, but my stomach gets very tight, I get tense, agitated, feel sick. Cannot eat as appetite is down. I guess I'm worried a therapist would say [which I did see one a few years ago] that 'love gurus eg PUA' may not work, as those pua could just be anyone without any qualifications, and 'you can't do much about your looks'. I've had those things.
LONG VERSION
I guess I don't like the idea of medication because it may control you, and the stigma, and also maybe I judge myself as much as I judge others, and I do judge others. I may also have too much sympathy/empathy and/or be too intelligent for my own good... eg see old people and think who would want them? I have a friend who is similar approach anxiety and we are each other wingman, and when I'm in anxious mood, he is skinny like me, and I think 'he not good enough' because he is skinny. I guess that means I'm not good enough too? But I don't stare at the mirror thinking about it , necessarily. If i feel sad that's ok I guess, I'd rather be sad then anxious. So basically, if I have a woman, I see flaws, but if they pull away, I see attractive parts to them. Could be lack of abundance too... I have not been with 8s or 9s very much, if at all, but some 6 or 7 have been legit interested and a couple of them interest back, and I've felt a connection eg I could maybe be with them long term, but then I walk into supermarket and there's an 8 or 9 and its like why am I with a 6 or 7. Its an instant value change. On the other hand, I do imagine 'settling down' with an 8 or 9 and still get anxious/weirded out feelings. Logically, everyone has value, even unattractive, so logically I 'get it', but on some other level, emotionally? or what other levels are there? I get anxious, I get tense agitated very easily, I take things personally easy.
Also, I do notice that with women, I do tend to chase ones that got away so to speak, and be most attracted in those circumstances as opposed to in the moment. Being exclusive scares the crap out of me, I don't know why.
Other things that 'calm me down' is that, if I have a friend I have known for years and years come over, or if i went to see my mum[can't do that these days], that would also calm me down. But if I call a help support line, they say do this exercise do that exercise, it breaks the mood for about 5seconds only and then the agitation energy comes back. Perhaps it's also worrying about feeling sick and dying[live alone] and having someone helps, or is it the emotional that you trust this person eg mum, long term friend? No one is giving me antidepressant when I calm down, it just goes away.
Good news is that I have approach anxiety shyness so only did online, but in the last 12months have gotten over that a bit, still a way to go, but at least I've asked some out without using online. However that is totally different to what I'm describing here... with that I can 'walk away' eg not approach, and I would be annoyed angry, where as with this anxiety problem irritable bowel syndrome, I don't have that type of control over it, I can't "walk away" from it or just turn it off.