Hey guys,
Haven't been on the forum a long time. This year I've been dating this girl, we've went on many dates but we've never had sex.
From the get go, I knew that she liked me, but I wasn't as keen as her. There was once on a date, that was few months ago, she asked me "what are we," that was the moment I realized I haven't been forward with my intention, I told her that I don't want to be her friend. That was when I hold her hands, she reciprocated by holding my hands tight. We dated for a long time, she started calling me her boyfriend and she told her friends about me.
Fast forward to yesterday, she came to my house to hang out. We cooked some food and after finish eating, I showed her my place. While showing my bedroom, I turned to her, kissed her and we started making out. We made out a lot before I undress her, slowly the bra and panties came of. At this point only my boxers was on but she was naked. We made out more, I spanked her, touch her everywhere. Throughout the whole thing I would guide her hand to my cock and she would rub it over my boxes but when I take it off she would never touch it, closed off and resisted when I tried. This happened even when I backed of and tried again. Also, I tried fingering her, she seems to be enjoying it but when I push my finger into her vagina, she resisted as well said it was painful, similar as touching my dick, I tried it a few times but failed. The last effort I tried was going down on her, which she enjoyed a lot, she was shaking and moaning. However when I tried to push my tongue in, same thing happened. It was mentally exhausting. After almost 2 hours we lied in bed. I asked her how was the experience, after some probing she told me she didn't enjoy the whole thing. What she didn't like was I was too fast, and when I kiss her boob. I also asked her if she has anything against dicks. She laughingly said no but she was uncomfortable with touching it bare.
Some background on her: she is from a religious christian family and she is a virgin. I was the first person she dated before, and let only be naked in bed with. She also told me she was scared. There were a few times over skype and in person she told me 'I love you' but I haven't said it back to her. Also there was once she told me in that she would never have sex before marriage. However, I could tell that she really likes me, and even want me.
After yesterdays experience, I'm having doubts if she really wants me even though she was in bed with me. Maybe her attraction is expiring? But why was she there with me? Is there anyway to turn this around, get her to have sex with me? There were time in the bedroom where I would have just grab her hand and force it on my bare dick, but I didn't want to be accused of rape or anything.
Any feedback or thoughts would be appreciate.
Haven't been on the forum a long time. This year I've been dating this girl, we've went on many dates but we've never had sex.
From the get go, I knew that she liked me, but I wasn't as keen as her. There was once on a date, that was few months ago, she asked me "what are we," that was the moment I realized I haven't been forward with my intention, I told her that I don't want to be her friend. That was when I hold her hands, she reciprocated by holding my hands tight. We dated for a long time, she started calling me her boyfriend and she told her friends about me.
Fast forward to yesterday, she came to my house to hang out. We cooked some food and after finish eating, I showed her my place. While showing my bedroom, I turned to her, kissed her and we started making out. We made out a lot before I undress her, slowly the bra and panties came of. At this point only my boxers was on but she was naked. We made out more, I spanked her, touch her everywhere. Throughout the whole thing I would guide her hand to my cock and she would rub it over my boxes but when I take it off she would never touch it, closed off and resisted when I tried. This happened even when I backed of and tried again. Also, I tried fingering her, she seems to be enjoying it but when I push my finger into her vagina, she resisted as well said it was painful, similar as touching my dick, I tried it a few times but failed. The last effort I tried was going down on her, which she enjoyed a lot, she was shaking and moaning. However when I tried to push my tongue in, same thing happened. It was mentally exhausting. After almost 2 hours we lied in bed. I asked her how was the experience, after some probing she told me she didn't enjoy the whole thing. What she didn't like was I was too fast, and when I kiss her boob. I also asked her if she has anything against dicks. She laughingly said no but she was uncomfortable with touching it bare.
Some background on her: she is from a religious christian family and she is a virgin. I was the first person she dated before, and let only be naked in bed with. She also told me she was scared. There were a few times over skype and in person she told me 'I love you' but I haven't said it back to her. Also there was once she told me in that she would never have sex before marriage. However, I could tell that she really likes me, and even want me.
After yesterdays experience, I'm having doubts if she really wants me even though she was in bed with me. Maybe her attraction is expiring? But why was she there with me? Is there anyway to turn this around, get her to have sex with me? There were time in the bedroom where I would have just grab her hand and force it on my bare dick, but I didn't want to be accused of rape or anything.
Any feedback or thoughts would be appreciate.