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I say in the beginning that there is some pretty weird logic going through my mind, it makes sense to me though 
So about 3 weeks back I struck up a conversation with a cute older woman in a cocktail bar who invited me back to her table, but as I've written elsewhere we all got absolutely smashed and I dropped the ball. I could only piece it together from what I was told later on but it seems in the 3rd bar we went to, my girl turned away and started flirting with some younger dude sitting on her other side, maybe I wasn't happy about this cos I've apparently commenced a full on makeout at the bar with her friend [M] (the bar girl told me about this when I happened to call into the same place a lot later on)... so cutting a long story short I've ended up at home in bed with [M] having pulled her home with the promise of karaoke hahahaha must have been on GC-autopilot.
Well this makeout didn't go so well partly because [M] is absolutely huge, not my scene at all and I could not get it up despite having dropped several pills of Viagra the instant I arrived home (I was starting to come out of my drunken stupor so I can remember mostly what happened at home). So eventually she left about 5am (I think I had given her several orgasms with the finger so she was not dissatisfied IIRC)... I was a bit disappointed cos I'd been planning on giving her the dick in the morning after sobering up a bit, she was a pretty good kisser, I'll say that for her. In reality I spent the rest of the day throwing up and sitting in the shower with hot water running over my aching head but I digress...
Now the next funny thing that happened is because I'd number closed with the original cute one I decided to try and either set up a booty call or else get them both over for a threesome (cos I didn't want to make [M] jealous now she considered me hers, I'm too nice like that). Well [M] couldn't come so I spent an evening trying to get into the other one's pants but eventually decided I did not really like her that much, she had an inflated idea of her own value and was trying to make me work for it and I wasn't into it. She was also a boring conversationalist.
Now fast forwarding a few weeks [M] had contacted me by text and been proposing several times to meet up, I wasn't really down so I just politely put her off a bit (funny I actually have a perspective on how girls feel when guys pester them for dates now), anyway last night I stayed late working in the office and decided to check out a few bars on the way home.
First bar: knocked back because I was practicing my gunslinger walk and bouncer thought I was intoxicated. Haha
Second bar: very promising, millions of girls sitting around on lounges talking to each other, so I go sit at the bar and wait for one of them to come over to get a drink so I can open her. Unfortunately they soon decide to leave, about a million guys appear from the beer garden at the back and they all fuck off together after settling their bill. Oh well. Now the bar is pretty empty, the bar girl is cute and remembers me so we chat a bit but nothing really happening there so I leave.
Third bar: Good band, lead singer is cute. Everyone else is in groups and looking pretty boyfriended up. I have one drink and leave.
Fourth bar: Where I met the original older cutie... well guess what [M] is there... I have mixed feelings about this but I decide to pull her home. This is because
(i) I feel guilty at not getting it up for her originally
(ii) I'm convinced it's all in the mind and I want to have a shot at better mental control
(iii) I have for years had fantasies about becoming a gigolo and I was researching it recently, the advice is to go out to a bar, pull the ugliest chick there, see if you can give her a sweet time, do this 10 times, if you're OK with this then get to work
(iv) Although I can see a pair of cute girls there, I'm not confident at approaching groups yet, and also it would just be too crushing to [M], I cannot destroy her self esteem...
Even though it's pretty much in the bag I decide to get out some game, I chat with her a bit about her recent trip to US, she buys me a martini and I joke about how I have never finished a martini before, in fact I am a martini virgin, and then get onto a thread about has she corrupted any virgins during her trip and so forth... this sets a nice sexual frame.
When we finish our drink I say let's go. She pays and we leave. She asks where we are going, I say somewhere where we can get a bit more comfortable. She asks where and I say you'll see. But in reality she knows we're going home, she's been there before. We get in my car and she starts asking how long I've lived in [suburb] hehe. She says something about her place and I say I'll take her back there later.
So once we get home I do a few things to make her more comfortable such as mixing her a pina colada and showing her my DJing setup, I get all the different lights going and lasers and smoke machine and so on and she's pretty much lapping it up, I want to get a bit of dancing happening but her choice of music isn't really conducive so eventually I just have her sit on my bed (a mattress on the dancefloor) and take her shoes off. From there it's pretty much plain sailing.
I start to use a technique which has been working for me lately which is basically before I start exploring her body I give her some instructions such as taking my shirt off, pinching my nipples, caressing my chest and so on, this builds compliance and in the case of the really shy girls (not this one) gives them the feeling they are in control. Eventually I start to return the favour and things are going OK but when she starts getting undressed it kinda kills it for me, oh oh, not great body...
Although she does have a cute face and is a good kisser and is following my instructions pretty well I'm not really feeling it so I start to fantasize about various things, I think about the first few times with my Japanese ex GF and start getting harder, skipping ahead a bit I put a condom on and tell her to climb on quickly but I cannot reach my cock to put it in and it's no good and I lose it so she climbs off. Now we rebuild over some time and this time I'm thinking about Anatman's LR with the redhead, how she's up for having her anal virginity taken away and he fills her arse with cum, some of which leaks out and he slaps her around the face with it and so forth... this is good and so I climb onto her (I'm on top this time) but I cannot get it in, unfortunately just her pussy lips is basically a vagina all in itself and I have no idea where I'm located, I'm 90% sure I got it in for a moment before it slipped out and deflated.. Fuck!
In the meantime I've fingered her to an orgasm or two and I've also given her head, I'm getting pretty good at Chase's method but it was difficult going, I ate her lips for some time and eventually committed to the clit (I was not too sure how I was gonna pull the hood back when she started to get close because there was just a lot of flesh, maybe I need to get one of those cameras on an optical fibre that surgeons use?) anyway she seemed to be enjoying this but eventually stopped me to tell me that no-one has ever gotten her off through head before, I told her this was rubbish and went back to it but the rhythm had been killed so when she stopped me again I didn't protest. Oh well. Will have to practice this up a bit.
Also had a conversation with her at this point about how it was all mental and it was the same with my lack of an erection, it was performance anxiety because of what happened last time and we just had to persevere whilst I got comfortable with her, etc and she was pretty cool with this, got me hard again and so some real progress was being made, I nearly came but decided not to, because I was pretty deadset on practicing being more dominant in bed and I wanted to degrade her a bit (without her permission of course), so when I was about to come I got up and ordered her to suck on it, I was planning to come on her face but unfortunately she started spluttering a bit, I think this was because her juices were pretty strong hahahaha not my fault. So she stopped and eventually I just accepted a handjob and produced a shitload of come since it had been a few weeks.... later I made her breakfast and took her home.
Well I think there is a lot of room for improvement in this interaction but I feel happy about the fact that I went from erectile dysfunction to having a relatively satisfying orgasm... I should note I don't usually have ED with hot women, only those I'm a bit ambivalent about, but I'm keen to practice the mental control because it will certainly come in useful with a hotty down the track. I'll probably see [M] again because when I set myself the challenge (of giving her the dick) I DON'T GIVE UP.
cheers, Ray
So about 3 weeks back I struck up a conversation with a cute older woman in a cocktail bar who invited me back to her table, but as I've written elsewhere we all got absolutely smashed and I dropped the ball. I could only piece it together from what I was told later on but it seems in the 3rd bar we went to, my girl turned away and started flirting with some younger dude sitting on her other side, maybe I wasn't happy about this cos I've apparently commenced a full on makeout at the bar with her friend [M] (the bar girl told me about this when I happened to call into the same place a lot later on)... so cutting a long story short I've ended up at home in bed with [M] having pulled her home with the promise of karaoke hahahaha must have been on GC-autopilot.
Well this makeout didn't go so well partly because [M] is absolutely huge, not my scene at all and I could not get it up despite having dropped several pills of Viagra the instant I arrived home (I was starting to come out of my drunken stupor so I can remember mostly what happened at home). So eventually she left about 5am (I think I had given her several orgasms with the finger so she was not dissatisfied IIRC)... I was a bit disappointed cos I'd been planning on giving her the dick in the morning after sobering up a bit, she was a pretty good kisser, I'll say that for her. In reality I spent the rest of the day throwing up and sitting in the shower with hot water running over my aching head but I digress...
Now the next funny thing that happened is because I'd number closed with the original cute one I decided to try and either set up a booty call or else get them both over for a threesome (cos I didn't want to make [M] jealous now she considered me hers, I'm too nice like that). Well [M] couldn't come so I spent an evening trying to get into the other one's pants but eventually decided I did not really like her that much, she had an inflated idea of her own value and was trying to make me work for it and I wasn't into it. She was also a boring conversationalist.
Now fast forwarding a few weeks [M] had contacted me by text and been proposing several times to meet up, I wasn't really down so I just politely put her off a bit (funny I actually have a perspective on how girls feel when guys pester them for dates now), anyway last night I stayed late working in the office and decided to check out a few bars on the way home.
First bar: knocked back because I was practicing my gunslinger walk and bouncer thought I was intoxicated. Haha
Second bar: very promising, millions of girls sitting around on lounges talking to each other, so I go sit at the bar and wait for one of them to come over to get a drink so I can open her. Unfortunately they soon decide to leave, about a million guys appear from the beer garden at the back and they all fuck off together after settling their bill. Oh well. Now the bar is pretty empty, the bar girl is cute and remembers me so we chat a bit but nothing really happening there so I leave.
Third bar: Good band, lead singer is cute. Everyone else is in groups and looking pretty boyfriended up. I have one drink and leave.
Fourth bar: Where I met the original older cutie... well guess what [M] is there... I have mixed feelings about this but I decide to pull her home. This is because
(i) I feel guilty at not getting it up for her originally
(ii) I'm convinced it's all in the mind and I want to have a shot at better mental control
(iii) I have for years had fantasies about becoming a gigolo and I was researching it recently, the advice is to go out to a bar, pull the ugliest chick there, see if you can give her a sweet time, do this 10 times, if you're OK with this then get to work
(iv) Although I can see a pair of cute girls there, I'm not confident at approaching groups yet, and also it would just be too crushing to [M], I cannot destroy her self esteem...
Even though it's pretty much in the bag I decide to get out some game, I chat with her a bit about her recent trip to US, she buys me a martini and I joke about how I have never finished a martini before, in fact I am a martini virgin, and then get onto a thread about has she corrupted any virgins during her trip and so forth... this sets a nice sexual frame.
When we finish our drink I say let's go. She pays and we leave. She asks where we are going, I say somewhere where we can get a bit more comfortable. She asks where and I say you'll see. But in reality she knows we're going home, she's been there before. We get in my car and she starts asking how long I've lived in [suburb] hehe. She says something about her place and I say I'll take her back there later.
So once we get home I do a few things to make her more comfortable such as mixing her a pina colada and showing her my DJing setup, I get all the different lights going and lasers and smoke machine and so on and she's pretty much lapping it up, I want to get a bit of dancing happening but her choice of music isn't really conducive so eventually I just have her sit on my bed (a mattress on the dancefloor) and take her shoes off. From there it's pretty much plain sailing.
I start to use a technique which has been working for me lately which is basically before I start exploring her body I give her some instructions such as taking my shirt off, pinching my nipples, caressing my chest and so on, this builds compliance and in the case of the really shy girls (not this one) gives them the feeling they are in control. Eventually I start to return the favour and things are going OK but when she starts getting undressed it kinda kills it for me, oh oh, not great body...
Although she does have a cute face and is a good kisser and is following my instructions pretty well I'm not really feeling it so I start to fantasize about various things, I think about the first few times with my Japanese ex GF and start getting harder, skipping ahead a bit I put a condom on and tell her to climb on quickly but I cannot reach my cock to put it in and it's no good and I lose it so she climbs off. Now we rebuild over some time and this time I'm thinking about Anatman's LR with the redhead, how she's up for having her anal virginity taken away and he fills her arse with cum, some of which leaks out and he slaps her around the face with it and so forth... this is good and so I climb onto her (I'm on top this time) but I cannot get it in, unfortunately just her pussy lips is basically a vagina all in itself and I have no idea where I'm located, I'm 90% sure I got it in for a moment before it slipped out and deflated.. Fuck!
In the meantime I've fingered her to an orgasm or two and I've also given her head, I'm getting pretty good at Chase's method but it was difficult going, I ate her lips for some time and eventually committed to the clit (I was not too sure how I was gonna pull the hood back when she started to get close because there was just a lot of flesh, maybe I need to get one of those cameras on an optical fibre that surgeons use?) anyway she seemed to be enjoying this but eventually stopped me to tell me that no-one has ever gotten her off through head before, I told her this was rubbish and went back to it but the rhythm had been killed so when she stopped me again I didn't protest. Oh well. Will have to practice this up a bit.
Also had a conversation with her at this point about how it was all mental and it was the same with my lack of an erection, it was performance anxiety because of what happened last time and we just had to persevere whilst I got comfortable with her, etc and she was pretty cool with this, got me hard again and so some real progress was being made, I nearly came but decided not to, because I was pretty deadset on practicing being more dominant in bed and I wanted to degrade her a bit (without her permission of course), so when I was about to come I got up and ordered her to suck on it, I was planning to come on her face but unfortunately she started spluttering a bit, I think this was because her juices were pretty strong hahahaha not my fault. So she stopped and eventually I just accepted a handjob and produced a shitload of come since it had been a few weeks.... later I made her breakfast and took her home.
Well I think there is a lot of room for improvement in this interaction but I feel happy about the fact that I went from erectile dysfunction to having a relatively satisfying orgasm... I should note I don't usually have ED with hot women, only those I'm a bit ambivalent about, but I'm keen to practice the mental control because it will certainly come in useful with a hotty down the track. I'll probably see [M] again because when I set myself the challenge (of giving her the dick) I DON'T GIVE UP.
cheers, Ray
