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Time for yet another new journal. 2024 will bring significant changes.
Relationship
I finally pulled the plug on this relationship with my girl after 2.5 years. It was not easy. She was such a source of constant validation, love, and affection. It was a beautiful connection we had. And yet the relationship was so complex and often painful.
I could not do monogamy, thus we tried to navigate the complex dynamics of an open relationship. That was a source of continuing conflict and instability. I do not wish to get into further details here.
In the end, I decided I could not give her what she truly desired and ended the relationship. She was devastated. We spent one final weekend caressing each other before saying our goodbyes. We left the door open for reconciliation in the future, but I have significant doubts there will ever be reconciliation. Especially if other quality women come into my life...which they will, let's face it.
I am very sad and I miss her. But the logical part of my brain is 100% convinced that this move is for the best. While I loved her company, something was missing from the comfortable life of being in a relationship with her. She sucked away hours and hours of my time every week. Now I have time to fully concentrate on the game, and finding myself again (hobbies, pursuits, and other women) after devoting so much of my time and energy to her and to the relationship.
Career
(Another) new job is bringing new challenges. I've been shifting around in my industry and found myself leaving one shit show start up company...only to join another small company which is a different kind of shit show. What happens in the next few months will be telling - it will be sink or swim time. I will either make good money and solidify my career, fail and have to leave, or potentially the entire company will fail and I will still have to leave.
Nothing like a good challenge to find yourself, but sometimes I find myself questioning why I put myself in these risky situations. I would rather not have to go on the job hunt again in 2024 with my resume in the disheveled state that it is. I will be devoting a lot of efforts to try to prevent that situation.
Fitness
Without my girlfriend to distract me with excess food and alcohol, my goal is to get back to that 10-12% body fat range in 2024 and get shredded. With the sexual market as ruthless as it is in the United States, I need every advantage I can get. I have done it before, just required discipline with food. I now have free reign to get it done again by the summer.
Learning to Fight
Considering Boxing since I am told it doesn't take a long time to get decent at it. Muay Thai is another alternative. I need to learn to fight so I can handle myself in combat situations. That is another goal in 2024.
Moving Apartments
My current place is upping my rent significantly, so I need to move out. I am considering dating logistics in my new place vs. other considerations like finances, work logistics, etc. The ultimate question will be which to prioritize.
The Game
The Game calls to me. The life of the degenerate seducer calls to me. Especially after another recent trip to Latin America and seeing all the hot women just dying to meet attractive men like me (the sexual market is so different than the US). I'll be going back soon.
In the meantime, I will be documenting my approaches and dates on this journal as I get back into the Game.
Relationship
I finally pulled the plug on this relationship with my girl after 2.5 years. It was not easy. She was such a source of constant validation, love, and affection. It was a beautiful connection we had. And yet the relationship was so complex and often painful.
I could not do monogamy, thus we tried to navigate the complex dynamics of an open relationship. That was a source of continuing conflict and instability. I do not wish to get into further details here.
In the end, I decided I could not give her what she truly desired and ended the relationship. She was devastated. We spent one final weekend caressing each other before saying our goodbyes. We left the door open for reconciliation in the future, but I have significant doubts there will ever be reconciliation. Especially if other quality women come into my life...which they will, let's face it.
I am very sad and I miss her. But the logical part of my brain is 100% convinced that this move is for the best. While I loved her company, something was missing from the comfortable life of being in a relationship with her. She sucked away hours and hours of my time every week. Now I have time to fully concentrate on the game, and finding myself again (hobbies, pursuits, and other women) after devoting so much of my time and energy to her and to the relationship.
Career
(Another) new job is bringing new challenges. I've been shifting around in my industry and found myself leaving one shit show start up company...only to join another small company which is a different kind of shit show. What happens in the next few months will be telling - it will be sink or swim time. I will either make good money and solidify my career, fail and have to leave, or potentially the entire company will fail and I will still have to leave.
Nothing like a good challenge to find yourself, but sometimes I find myself questioning why I put myself in these risky situations. I would rather not have to go on the job hunt again in 2024 with my resume in the disheveled state that it is. I will be devoting a lot of efforts to try to prevent that situation.
Fitness
Without my girlfriend to distract me with excess food and alcohol, my goal is to get back to that 10-12% body fat range in 2024 and get shredded. With the sexual market as ruthless as it is in the United States, I need every advantage I can get. I have done it before, just required discipline with food. I now have free reign to get it done again by the summer.
Learning to Fight
Considering Boxing since I am told it doesn't take a long time to get decent at it. Muay Thai is another alternative. I need to learn to fight so I can handle myself in combat situations. That is another goal in 2024.
Moving Apartments
My current place is upping my rent significantly, so I need to move out. I am considering dating logistics in my new place vs. other considerations like finances, work logistics, etc. The ultimate question will be which to prioritize.
The Game
The Game calls to me. The life of the degenerate seducer calls to me. Especially after another recent trip to Latin America and seeing all the hot women just dying to meet attractive men like me (the sexual market is so different than the US). I'll be going back soon.
In the meantime, I will be documenting my approaches and dates on this journal as I get back into the Game.