Climbing up from the bottom

[climbingup]

31 years old.
I think objectively I am a 3 or 4 out of 10. Average height.
I look young so that's an advantage and I am somewhat funny.
Slept with 3 women without using money.
Apart from that slept with only hookers and quasi escorts.
Had my worst experience today, got truly played by a quasi hooker and sent her basically $350 dollars for a 30 min convo.

I just want to get laid regularly and not pay for it. I will do whatever it takes, right now my mindset is "get laid or die trying". I masturbate twice a day and it really hurts not being able to get laid for free and seeing other people with girlfriends. No worries, I will just outwork them. I will do whatever it takes to get laid regularly, I have straight up reached rock bottom. I don't do nightgame so it's going to be exclusively daygame.

Goal for the rest of the year is to spend 3 hours a day practicing pickup and approaching 10 girls a day.
I have some pickup tapes to listen to. I will spend 2 hours a day, listening to them and making notes.

I read Tony D's article on daygame, my goal right now is to have at least 3 five minute or more convo's with girls, that would be a win.

I have set my alarm for 8am tomorrow.

Edit:
Stuff I am avoiding:
No reddit.
No music.
No movies or anime.

Stuff I am doing:
4 hours meditation.
I need to find a way to go gym. I will start going from next week when I get my next paycheck.
10 girls a day.
Goals morning.
Goals evening.
2 hours pickup tapes.

 

[climbingup]

Left it late to get good at this. Wasted my 20s tbh. Just going to use it as motivation to go even harder.

 

[climbingup]

Hey guys, couldn't really sleep. I went to the club by myself and sober.

I have never done this before and I was scared that I would get shamed, kicked out and maybe even beaten up.
I went anyway. When I went up the bouncer asked me "What am I doing here", I said my friends were inside.
He let me in and I walked around, it was so packed and a bit intimidating. It was actually ok.
I didn't really do anything, I just walked around.
I went to the toilet and tried to relax/calm down for a bit. I didn't do no approaches but I am pleased I actually left my house.

I am pleased with myself because I actually did something outside of my comfort zone.
I did it sober as well.

Thanks all

 

[Starboy]

Hey guys, couldn't really sleep. I went to the club by myself and sober.

I have never done this before and I was scared that I would get shamed, kicked out and maybe even beaten up.
I went anyway. When I went up the bouncer asked me "What am I doing here", I said my friends were inside.
He let me in and I walked around, it was so packed and a bit intimidating. It was actually ok.
I didn't really do anything, I just walked around.
I went to the toilet and tried to relax/calm down for a bit. I didn't do no approaches but I am pleased I actually left my house.

I am pleased with myself because I actually did something outside of my comfort zone.
I did it sober as well.

Thanks all

I remember I was very nervous and uncomfortable with going out to bars by myself worried that people would think i'm a weirdo or loser for being alone and by myself,but the couple times I did suprisingly (or maybe not) nobody gave a shit. Everyone is worried about themselves and how they look. I'd also worried that i'd get in a fight,but that's actually pretty rare you'd have to provoke some guy. Once you just make the effort to go out at night you drastically reduce the resistance you felt before.

 

[climbingup]

Hey guys, I am going to eat then go out.
Today I am going to focus on talking slowly and clearly.
I am a bit sleepy. One thing I have learnt about myself, is that if I make an excuse once. I will keep making excuses. I won't get better and my life will never change. That's a scary thought.
I take my phone with me so I can record my audio and listen back to it.

 

[climbingup]

Did 5 approaches all pretty short, came home and passed out I was so tired.
I'm gonna do some meditation.

I'm removing the word try from my dictionary - do or do not, there is no try

Edit:
Did 40 mins meditation, going to use 30 mins now to see if I fall asleep. If not, I'll do an hour of meditation.