Courage in the Face of

[Zoro]

GAME PLAN!

I have a new chapter unfolding in this life I call my own.

To organize my thoughts I want to lay out my plans to clear my head and also get feedback from the GC community! Double whammy baby!

So I just joined a band that is made up of talented experienced musicians whom all are fired up and determined to make something big happen. We know the business, we write some killer songs and we are just crazy enough to pull it off. Planning a tour this summer and potentially one with a national act soon! Very exciting stuff.

Also I just got a job working at a bar in the coolest part of my lame city. It pays awesome and the work is easy as well as flexible scheduling. I am debating on moving to the city center. I want to move away badly but have yet to explore this city's center thoroughly. Working behind the bar gives me some status and being able to walk to do errands as well as meeting girls on the streets sounds awesome.

Once I have money situated I am going to start yoga and acupuncture to keep me n tip top shape. Also I'll be starting up language lessons and maybe even some auto apprenticeship which has been an interesting of mine for a very long time.

I plan on taking some trips with the money I make (as well as try out travel hacking perhaps) to satisfy my hunger to travel!

My time frame is this, live in the city center working at the bar until about fall and gauge the bands success and potential. If it looks very good I'll keep riding it out in the city I want so badly to move away from. If its looking stale or that it just isn't fulfilling, I will move down south with mom or save up and kick off my nomadic adventure.

I know I have a lot on my plate, good thing I am skilled at time and stress management.

Ps. Also should get a more solid plan for "nomadic adventure" thats a little too vague even for my taste. Though perhaps thats its strength, in being very very flexible and allowing for opportunities to arise and be taken.

 

[Zoro]

Frustration.


I think its time I start journaling again.

I have a lot on my mind and this is a great place with people who are looking for similar answers ("How can I better myself and my life")

Today, I am frustrated and I think its because I haven't been eating so well. I usually get this way when I have a few days of not so good food. Normally I'd be pretty calm, but I'm frustrated at the moment.

I am finally motivated to get off my butt, but I feel like I'm planning a life I will be unsatisfied with. I am lacking adventure severely. I have wanderlust like a madman. At least that is what it feels like.

I have been saying this for a while, but I am confused.

On a positive note, I still am growing. I have made lots of progress since I started my journey. Looking back at my first post, I have a more attractive body, overall fundamentals improved, I have improved my approaching (still needs work but progress is progress), among other things.

Don't have much time, but I wanted to get the ball rolling on this journaling.

 

[Zoro]

A victory with low odds, is a victory still at hand.

Well boys, it seems the answers are sometimes (probably most times) out of your comfort zone, or at least in a place you must strive to reach.

Despite feeling out of sorts yesterday, I refused to let myself sink into a hole of retreat. I was not planning on staying long at band practice and spending new years resting my thoughts. Glad I maned up and stayed the whole practice, then went to the studio. After that I partied with friends until about 3am.

The party was a great experience and being New Years it was much more than the usual parties this circle throws (which I really dislike going to). I saw old friends and hot girls and was humbled (much needed humbling) when I was not received so well by most of the girls here. I was show how much I really need to grow still.

The other important part of the night was meeting an old friend who has been traveling a lot. He looks and feels alive and is a natural with women (perhaps one of the best I have met in person). As him I were talking I told him how badly I want to travel and he drove through my bullshit and grabbed my fucking heart and said what is stopping you? This man is alive with passion and I used to be like that. He told me to reignite my flames just go.

I want to see if I can spend more time with this guy, he is an awesome dude, I can learn a lot of important game from him and need more inspiring people in my life.

 

[Zoro]

General Goals
-Obtain steady income from a job(s) I like (enough to move downtown)
-Do well in school
-keep up and improve my good health and fundamentals

Backburner General Goals
-travel (Europe, Japan, cool cities near home)
-passive income
-get back into arts/ living creatively/improve creativity in general (drawing, painting, poetry, dance, music, cooking, all that good shit I used to do and how it felt like I could be creative in all aspects of life)
-continue to grow and push myself
-live in a place I actually like (walkable, lots of attractive girls, nature, etc.)
-live adventurously
-week long tour with band in may
-improve drumming and further band ($$$ and more awesome tours and songs)

Current "game" goals (keep focus to 3)

-drop ego (stop limiting myself because of what people might think)
-start direct approaching
-get dates/numbers/instant-dates from girls I like met through cold approach

Backburner "game" goals
-approach girls I want to meet in those "scary" less than ideal situations. (stop letting good chances slip away, so many times it feels right yet I didn't go for it.)
-communicate better in general (deep diving, sexual/dirty talk)
- continue to grow and push myself
-be more playfully sexy/be adventurous

My goal lists tend to be fluid and change, yet I tend to cross off goals as accomplished more often when I make lists

 

[Zoro]

The Stuff-

I've been torn between two paths for awhile now. One of travel and going by the seat of my pants and taking opportunities that I may find to live out a life of adventure while building a career. This path is vague and scary I guess is a good word. The other path is basically the same thing just focus on school and other things in the mean time and THEN go travel and grab opportunties/explore whats out there in the big ol world AFTER I have a degree and get that out of the way.

I'm taking the latter path. I've been torn between these two for so long that I've been half assing a lot of things because I was desperately trying to find out how to have a life of travel/adventure instead of doing things a little less exciting but more stable and getting closer.

Made some indirect approaches today and was over all social. It all started with building some momentum with other people and then opening the cute girls. Works like a charm. I did pass up talking to a couple other cute girls, but I have to remember the wins I get. I'm making progress whether I like the speed or not. In my mind I'm making bold direct approaches to girls I have to chase down and maintain a solid frame that this is totally normal and I'm a man that is sexy, experienced, and interesting and unsure if the girl is cool enough. Honestly I feel I understand the process very well just HAVE NO EXPERIENCE/GOTTA BREAK OUT OF THE COMFORT OF MY EGO. For now I will do my best to make a habit of venturing out of my comfort zone in small ways and work my way up.

The girl I did open was cute, warm, and if I would have lead the conversation further it would have been some good feedback, instead of just an exercise in leaving my comfort zone. Like I said, progress is progress and if I keep my cool and awareness about, there are many lessons in everything!

cheerio.

 

[Zoro]

Today I talked to one girl. Progress. haha

And I passed up about 6 others. The others were either far away or employees so that was enough to curb my enthusiasm. I need to take risks, have fun with this and have some BALLS. I WANTED to tell the cashier she had a cute smile, why didn't I?

I really should be getting social. Building up momentum is so key in my experience. I remember Franco's advice to someone on the boards that it would yield more and better results to open 20 girls on a saturday night than 2-3 girls everyday all week, just because the difference in social momentum.

Perhaps that comes with relaxing a bit. I noticed I hold tension in my body. It is only a low buzz of tension but now I think learning how to relax and ease that away will really allow me to let loose.

Yesterday when I talked to more girls I was much more relaxed, more relaxed than I have been in a long time. I had smoked some weed; I find it therapeutic when using it right. Think I'll use it to ease my tension, in addition to the other things I have in mind. (healing my gut, and stress relieving exercise/yoga/dance, meditation.)

 

[Zoro]

After approaching more lately I'm feeling that this is a lot of work. I approach so many girls, put myself out there and resolve to keep it up and I have little tangible rewards for it.

Yet, there are certainly rich rewards from it. Every experience was a little step further into what feels like a new realm. Freedom in places I've already been, but where I was only chained down by myself in the past.

So many things from good conversation and social momentum to experiencing your own flaws and taking action in your masculinity. My already decent posture seems to have improved too!

I started this post as a reminder of the asymmetrical returns going out to meet women yields. Yet, in writing this I realized the returns are bountiful in terms of growth.

Really this website teaches you how to be a man. That is the foremost important aspect. And that is why the growth is vital.

Girls are silly and cute and you will find one, a great one (or dozens :} ), if you keep pushing yourself. And you will grow along your journey, your true journey.

Learn some game, yes, but number one is that purpose in life, thats where the passion comes from.

Girls want to be along for THAT ride anyway.

 

[Zoro]

I'm feeling a rush of conflict internally. As the days grow longer and warmer, the part of my soul that thrives on sunshine and fresh air is thawing out and wants to reclaim its rightful place. The weak fearful, comfort loving side took control this winter and now its got hell coming its way. I'm feeling a rush of forgotten emotions, ones that have more power that any ideas or knowledge; emotions like invigoration, fervor, and vehemence.

Last night I was talked into attending an all night bike ride. Basically a lawless, social gathering of people looking for some unordinary fun. I kept close to my friends (the weak side still has a strong hold) but I was reminded how much of a lone wolf I really am. At times I felt compelled to wander off in areas, almost being attracted like a magnet to them. I indulged in this a bit, but not to the extent that felt right. I still have some work to do, to really let go of my ego and open up to the possibilities of life.

I'm too hesitant. I'm a bit closed off, closed minded even. And passive.

There was a cute girl sitting nearby at one point in the night. I was picking up on boat loads of interest in me. She was there with a guy, but the real me loves to be a little wild. The probable boyfriend was away for what seemed like 10 mins. Plenty of time to do something interesting in the dark corner. Maybe she would have turned that down, but if I am open to these types of opportunities and take chances often, there will be times when amazing things can happen. I know this from experience already!

The real me is a wild man, dirty from fun, and unusual in an intriguing way.

There is work to be done, but I feel the tide pulling away. The real me is waking up.

 

[Zoro]

Note to self,

Viturally all of the women whom I had satisfying relationships with were at some degree introduced to me through creative activities. Music being the number one (it helps to be in a band (; ), but also poetry, and I imagine that if I spend more time dancing, acting, learning languages, cooking, drawing, etc and being social within these contexts, that I will come across more high quality women (not to mention high quality people in general). These activities are fulfilling and challenging so people involved in these things tend to be positive, happy people leading interesting lives.

It's little wonder that during the times I met these wonderful women I was deep into my creative projects, experiencing ( or about to) great success with those projects and also enjoying life and meaningful experiences. I tend to look at these creative projects as hobbies and denying them their very real worth as career choices. Having many positive experiences again and again with these, I should take them seriously!