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I love my girlfriend but she's naive and head over heels for me beyond belief. She was a virgin before I met her and very young. She wants to get married, date me for the rest of her life and have kids. I want to become an actor and pursue my full potential, this includes getting a notch count of minimum 100+ before the age of 25.
The truth: She's naive and hasn't experienced what she wants with men yet. I know she's the very curious type, especially in bed, that she will probably at one point start wanting to know how it feels to have sex with other men. If sex with me is terrific she will tell her self it must be like that with other men. How can she say I'm the best she's ever had if I'm the only person she's ever had?
I also have very ambitious goals and will most likely move out of town at one point after graduation. Therefore before or after the two-year drop, I will be leaving town to pursue my dreams. She can't come with me therefore I will also be leaving her if we are still together.
Conclusion: I will have my heart broken yet again, not because her leaving me or me leaving her, but because of the circumstances why. I vowed to never be the reason a girl would leave me. Now the reason is not me, but circumstance and there is literally nothing I can do about it! That's what fucking breaks my heart... Either she leaves me because she really likes the sex and I have sexually awaken her that her curiosity will grow over time that she starts to want to experience what she wants with men in general. Death by curiosity or I make the right decision of breaking things off when I leave town. Regardless I know our relationship wont last either way and my emotions are just born out of knowing that she's my only sex line at the moment (because logistics which I can't do anything about, drug addict mom kicked me out and I'm 17 living with best friend working full-time and trying to graduate) and if I did have sex with multiple women I wouldn't be building her up to me such a wonderful girl. Even tho she really is...
I know, I know, live for the moment. "I see the future, but live for the moment makes sense don't it?" -Mr.Worldwide.
I see my future, I see our future, I know it's not gonna last, but being with her is an amazing feeling. How does one come to terms with the truth? How can I just relax knowing the world gonna end very, very soon and just enjoy the flowers for what they are?
I started getting better with girls and adopted a life mission to never have my heart broken again... It was the most horrible feeling I've ever had in my life. I know I have the strength to get over it, but god I know its gonna hurt, I know ama hurt!
I don't chase them, I replace them... I will say with a million tears across my face, but I will say it none of the less...
The truth: She's naive and hasn't experienced what she wants with men yet. I know she's the very curious type, especially in bed, that she will probably at one point start wanting to know how it feels to have sex with other men. If sex with me is terrific she will tell her self it must be like that with other men. How can she say I'm the best she's ever had if I'm the only person she's ever had?
I also have very ambitious goals and will most likely move out of town at one point after graduation. Therefore before or after the two-year drop, I will be leaving town to pursue my dreams. She can't come with me therefore I will also be leaving her if we are still together.
Conclusion: I will have my heart broken yet again, not because her leaving me or me leaving her, but because of the circumstances why. I vowed to never be the reason a girl would leave me. Now the reason is not me, but circumstance and there is literally nothing I can do about it! That's what fucking breaks my heart... Either she leaves me because she really likes the sex and I have sexually awaken her that her curiosity will grow over time that she starts to want to experience what she wants with men in general. Death by curiosity or I make the right decision of breaking things off when I leave town. Regardless I know our relationship wont last either way and my emotions are just born out of knowing that she's my only sex line at the moment (because logistics which I can't do anything about, drug addict mom kicked me out and I'm 17 living with best friend working full-time and trying to graduate) and if I did have sex with multiple women I wouldn't be building her up to me such a wonderful girl. Even tho she really is...
I know, I know, live for the moment. "I see the future, but live for the moment makes sense don't it?" -Mr.Worldwide.
I see my future, I see our future, I know it's not gonna last, but being with her is an amazing feeling. How does one come to terms with the truth? How can I just relax knowing the world gonna end very, very soon and just enjoy the flowers for what they are?
I started getting better with girls and adopted a life mission to never have my heart broken again... It was the most horrible feeling I've ever had in my life. I know I have the strength to get over it, but god I know its gonna hurt, I know ama hurt!
I don't chase them, I replace them... I will say with a million tears across my face, but I will say it none of the less...