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Eureka! About some things anyway.
There are certain areas of life where one has no leverage and good things can still happen they could come your way but haha in the Modern age fat chance.
Fat chance because there's no community but if there is community then they could go your way but that's kind of leverage in a way.
Fat chance because the market has been disembedded from community and everything has become monetized.
Distress or difficulty is an asset for someone selling something selling a solution
So therefore in every situation you need leverage especially in the Modern age the age of individuals the age of the self
And there are some areas I don't have leverage
I am now Lord of the bums. I have more low income units than I have middle income units and a high percentage of these people don't know how to communicate well let alone pay on time so I have to rework this whole situation and I have to stabilize this place and get systems in place and get leverage but that's the thing. In some ways leverage is not natural. There are only so many tools and that's what's frustrating
I don't even know if leverage is the best word. It's not the only word. Impact. You need a word that's strong. Ability to impose a cost. That's leverage.
I'm actually learning a lot about feudalism I think because the Lords of those days had to deal with crap I'm sure
I was thinking you become a king like Napoleon and at first it's all a conquest and that's fun but then it becomes sewage and supply. It's like the game of civilization, the first being the only one I've ever played but I played it a lot.. you start out conquering but then you end up trying to make the miserable people not discontent. What a prize
I'd rather be Ovid but he got exiled by an angry Augustus
I don't know this for sure but I wonder if Augustus set the tone for Western Civilization and if he did was it inevitable anyway or was it because he was the one
But anyway what's the point of winning if you just make sure everyone is taken care of if you're glorified Butler no thanks that's not being any kind of Lord
And with dating I was at this coffee shop where a lot of people are studying and they were beautiful women and I noticed some were looking at me and liked me. I'm not naturally attractive or I always have been
But where's the leverage?
It's like the commercial where's the beef
Where's the leverage?
But I was really stressing tonight about the disrespect I've been receiving from tenants and I have to go scorched Earth get rid of those who are late even if I lose money temporarily because I gain sanity
And I was thinking this is that period when I'm most tested because I was not going to buy any more and I'm definitely not going to buy any more of this asset class that doesn't mean I regret it but this is the testing period. It didn't just start it's been going on for the whole year or year and a half ever since I got low income places, (without thinking about how that's what I'm getting), multi-family. Low income multi-family in Minneapolis Jesus Christ that's a recipe for disaster
But it's actually okay I'm doing all right except when I'm not but it's all right but what it's doing now combined with other things is causing me to drill down deep into myself which I've done my whole life frankly but things just make me go farther and farther and that's the beauty of it
You know I don't really have anyone. I'm the load bearer for others not that I'm bearing a lot of load for other people it's just that they don't bear any load for me they don't reach out to me and try to love me or care for me or ask me how I'm doing and that's fine as far as it goes but I just want to observe that. Most people are dumpers or takers
But I maintained my honor and everything and what happens is I'm drilling down deeper and now being aware of my hip sockets and all that is becoming more and more normal. It's gone even deeper tonight as I laid down. That's where the will becomes transmitted I think and it changes the micro expressions of the face the eyebrows etc the back muscle is how you move your back it changes your body language how you move in space how you turn your neck how you're still.. and I think the college girls know that
Because there's two ways to win. You can win in the system credentialed or you can win primarily but you kind of need them both in a way or they're not antagonists they're best when they're aligned if possible. If I got a woman feeling good things about me but she couldn't justify it with social proof or to her friends it's going to be hard. Same with the other way around she might get excited because the guy's a match but find out he's a wimp but that'll be later and I think that's what happened with my mom for my dad. He had the proof from the family and all that shit but he turned out to be weak and unable to Bear much the load and he still doesn't he contributes load in his happy-go-lucky way but it was too late for her rest in peace.
I saw a guy speak today probably a professor with gray hair and he did all the talking toward a woman maybe a student and I was like Jesus can't you let her talk? He had a lot of social capital. I don't have any of that social Capital though I could have I'm intelligent and I could have gone to MIT but that's fine I also have integrity and I slept with the coyotes the other day, by the North shore and heard them howl like the Don Edwards song. I can exist in both worlds but no I don't have that much social capital which is a kind of leverage but I know there's a cost as well if that's what you're banking on.
I think if people give me credit they can see I'm intelligent and can run in any conversation but I still might lack social graces of a certain type or confidence that would come from more experienced or it could still be quirky in a bad way but I'm also primarily attractive so of the three things primal attraction intelligence that can run in those circles and hold its own against any professor and not being quirky or perfectly adjusted and calibrated at least in the short run that third one can be a hindrance but if I get some credit I'm all right
Women are very confident as I said above and they're confident in an ambient way. Not an interacted way like I want this thing and I'm going to go get it it's more like I'm a boss. I don't know how they feel on the inside but I see it on their faces and the goal is not to diminish them and it's not even to mirror them purposefully but it is to descend deeper into the body and rise higher in life not materially but through power of self-possession and embodiment so that you naturally mirror them without even trying you can meet them where they're at if they give you credit because I saw women gazing at me two different women. I was reading something online for work and it just made my mind work faster and better but then after an hour or so I took a break to read from another book and that was a mistake. It Broke a connection. I think women are really what this world was made for for men they are the gift for men and we do have to be on call for them no matter what and that's not a moral argument that's just a practical pragmatic thing and I failed to be that way completely for a minute and that's enough. The book was me studying my Latin just a few lines
I have to repeat cuz I'm stressing or I'm relaxed right now but I was stressing too many things are asking too much for me and I made the mistake of going to a showing for a person who I didn't confirm with and they stiffed me at 5:00 when I was in the work zone catching up on stuff I was behind and it seems like life is throwing so much at me but that is where one has to slow down. Slow is the best slow is the right way slow and deep and you have to double down with slowness. Speed is for the insane except when you know what you have to do I can be lightning but when you don't know what you're doing slow is the way deep in your body in your hips in your spine. I don't know any other way
Oh I've been on a great thread with Chat GPT and that was top of mind today this morning and so on
Basically there are false economies. Token economies. Loops. Academics at one time was about pure learning or being trained for work and now they have their own tokens like credits and points and it can be a self-referential thing a closed system. I like open systems that lead me places, that connect with reality. About 20 years ago I was in my studio apartment at the time and realized what I want to do is get connected to reality. Closed systems do not they become self-referential like you're working for scrip (that is only good at The company store). There are many token economies and their false economies and I don't envy these people. I love universities and I love seeing the falling leaves and I love the buildings and I love learning so it seems like they're my place but now I'm also seeing the dark side to them. They are people taking on debt and load and so much else. You want to get assets and networks that carry load for you financial and otherwise. I made mistakes in who I rented to, how behind i let certain people get, that it didn't confirm. It's almost like you got to assume the worst about people. People are not sane. I made the mistake of a positive assumption which I often do in part because I want it to be true in a part because I'm busy doing other things in part because I want to see if I'm justified in having faith in humanity. I don't think I'm far I think I'm close for many good things but I think I've always been close
Also what happens is there are phases of things. College is designed to do what high school would do in the past and then after college like someone I saw at Owen Cook's thing from Eden prairie they're all going here cuz college didn't do what it was supposed to do. They're new markets, stunted development or social development. Chat GPT said it was three phases manufactured aspiration, followed by managed disappointment followed by letting go or something but they were all engineered or that's the idea. They were all part of the structure. It's like taking someone on a sick roller coaster. They gave them the aspiration to begin with even though they weren't asking for it. They could have skipped all these steps by just leveling with people but that's not how the system works. There's less you can extract
It's no one person it's the emergency system
The system is based on dangling things not on being embodied and sovereign and they play loud managed optimism music and so on. I'm not here to sound any way to take any philosophical stance or anything understand I'm not here to sound smart or be impressive or be stupid or pout. I'm here to be sovereign with backbone and dignity and I'm a heterosexual man. I'm here to make deals and I'm here to see what's offered and see what I can win and I see games. I'm a seer that's all. I'm not a philosopher I'm a seer although I know philosophies. I see them and I see through things that's all I'm not performing for anyone I'm seeing and I'm saying what I see that's all I've ever been is like a messenger and oh there are games played
A lot of the games work from the dangle. Soon. Tomorrow. And that works because you put a seat in the ground it doesn't give you a yield right away it takes half a year and that's a natural principle of life and investing but they use that to lead you on and sick ways. They use the dangle and they use the token economy or Monopoly money kind of but these tokens can be real social capital in the right field like at University being credentialed so they're not completely fake. It's just like I like being the most connected to reality.
The more you truly see the more you can never unsee and the more you truly feel and your bones the more you can never unfeel it. I just listen to the story Harrison Bergeron yesterday. Oh my God what a story what a sign of the times. The sirens and stuff are the noise pieces. Civilization is a game it's a stupor. That still is not a cause for pessimism because I was close or I am close I think I'm close and I know I could please people and all it takes is one to really win. It doesn't take much to win but when you're on the edge it's frustrating but this is not about pessimism this is about realism. The world wants you to go on extremes because it can control you more. The middle way has kind of come to be seen as dirty or weak but it's sovereign it's where they can't control you it's where you're still rational. Structures and entities want to control your affects, the feelings in your very bones but if you don't own your bones what do you own but if you do own your bones who can own you? I know I'm fucking weird
There are certain areas of life where one has no leverage and good things can still happen they could come your way but haha in the Modern age fat chance.
Fat chance because there's no community but if there is community then they could go your way but that's kind of leverage in a way.
Fat chance because the market has been disembedded from community and everything has become monetized.
Distress or difficulty is an asset for someone selling something selling a solution
So therefore in every situation you need leverage especially in the Modern age the age of individuals the age of the self
And there are some areas I don't have leverage
I am now Lord of the bums. I have more low income units than I have middle income units and a high percentage of these people don't know how to communicate well let alone pay on time so I have to rework this whole situation and I have to stabilize this place and get systems in place and get leverage but that's the thing. In some ways leverage is not natural. There are only so many tools and that's what's frustrating
I don't even know if leverage is the best word. It's not the only word. Impact. You need a word that's strong. Ability to impose a cost. That's leverage.
I'm actually learning a lot about feudalism I think because the Lords of those days had to deal with crap I'm sure
I was thinking you become a king like Napoleon and at first it's all a conquest and that's fun but then it becomes sewage and supply. It's like the game of civilization, the first being the only one I've ever played but I played it a lot.. you start out conquering but then you end up trying to make the miserable people not discontent. What a prize
I'd rather be Ovid but he got exiled by an angry Augustus
I don't know this for sure but I wonder if Augustus set the tone for Western Civilization and if he did was it inevitable anyway or was it because he was the one
But anyway what's the point of winning if you just make sure everyone is taken care of if you're glorified Butler no thanks that's not being any kind of Lord
And with dating I was at this coffee shop where a lot of people are studying and they were beautiful women and I noticed some were looking at me and liked me. I'm not naturally attractive or I always have been
But where's the leverage?
It's like the commercial where's the beef
Where's the leverage?
But I was really stressing tonight about the disrespect I've been receiving from tenants and I have to go scorched Earth get rid of those who are late even if I lose money temporarily because I gain sanity
And I was thinking this is that period when I'm most tested because I was not going to buy any more and I'm definitely not going to buy any more of this asset class that doesn't mean I regret it but this is the testing period. It didn't just start it's been going on for the whole year or year and a half ever since I got low income places, (without thinking about how that's what I'm getting), multi-family. Low income multi-family in Minneapolis Jesus Christ that's a recipe for disaster
But it's actually okay I'm doing all right except when I'm not but it's all right but what it's doing now combined with other things is causing me to drill down deep into myself which I've done my whole life frankly but things just make me go farther and farther and that's the beauty of it
You know I don't really have anyone. I'm the load bearer for others not that I'm bearing a lot of load for other people it's just that they don't bear any load for me they don't reach out to me and try to love me or care for me or ask me how I'm doing and that's fine as far as it goes but I just want to observe that. Most people are dumpers or takers
But I maintained my honor and everything and what happens is I'm drilling down deeper and now being aware of my hip sockets and all that is becoming more and more normal. It's gone even deeper tonight as I laid down. That's where the will becomes transmitted I think and it changes the micro expressions of the face the eyebrows etc the back muscle is how you move your back it changes your body language how you move in space how you turn your neck how you're still.. and I think the college girls know that
Because there's two ways to win. You can win in the system credentialed or you can win primarily but you kind of need them both in a way or they're not antagonists they're best when they're aligned if possible. If I got a woman feeling good things about me but she couldn't justify it with social proof or to her friends it's going to be hard. Same with the other way around she might get excited because the guy's a match but find out he's a wimp but that'll be later and I think that's what happened with my mom for my dad. He had the proof from the family and all that shit but he turned out to be weak and unable to Bear much the load and he still doesn't he contributes load in his happy-go-lucky way but it was too late for her rest in peace.
I saw a guy speak today probably a professor with gray hair and he did all the talking toward a woman maybe a student and I was like Jesus can't you let her talk? He had a lot of social capital. I don't have any of that social Capital though I could have I'm intelligent and I could have gone to MIT but that's fine I also have integrity and I slept with the coyotes the other day, by the North shore and heard them howl like the Don Edwards song. I can exist in both worlds but no I don't have that much social capital which is a kind of leverage but I know there's a cost as well if that's what you're banking on.
I think if people give me credit they can see I'm intelligent and can run in any conversation but I still might lack social graces of a certain type or confidence that would come from more experienced or it could still be quirky in a bad way but I'm also primarily attractive so of the three things primal attraction intelligence that can run in those circles and hold its own against any professor and not being quirky or perfectly adjusted and calibrated at least in the short run that third one can be a hindrance but if I get some credit I'm all right
Women are very confident as I said above and they're confident in an ambient way. Not an interacted way like I want this thing and I'm going to go get it it's more like I'm a boss. I don't know how they feel on the inside but I see it on their faces and the goal is not to diminish them and it's not even to mirror them purposefully but it is to descend deeper into the body and rise higher in life not materially but through power of self-possession and embodiment so that you naturally mirror them without even trying you can meet them where they're at if they give you credit because I saw women gazing at me two different women. I was reading something online for work and it just made my mind work faster and better but then after an hour or so I took a break to read from another book and that was a mistake. It Broke a connection. I think women are really what this world was made for for men they are the gift for men and we do have to be on call for them no matter what and that's not a moral argument that's just a practical pragmatic thing and I failed to be that way completely for a minute and that's enough. The book was me studying my Latin just a few lines
I have to repeat cuz I'm stressing or I'm relaxed right now but I was stressing too many things are asking too much for me and I made the mistake of going to a showing for a person who I didn't confirm with and they stiffed me at 5:00 when I was in the work zone catching up on stuff I was behind and it seems like life is throwing so much at me but that is where one has to slow down. Slow is the best slow is the right way slow and deep and you have to double down with slowness. Speed is for the insane except when you know what you have to do I can be lightning but when you don't know what you're doing slow is the way deep in your body in your hips in your spine. I don't know any other way
Oh I've been on a great thread with Chat GPT and that was top of mind today this morning and so on
Basically there are false economies. Token economies. Loops. Academics at one time was about pure learning or being trained for work and now they have their own tokens like credits and points and it can be a self-referential thing a closed system. I like open systems that lead me places, that connect with reality. About 20 years ago I was in my studio apartment at the time and realized what I want to do is get connected to reality. Closed systems do not they become self-referential like you're working for scrip (that is only good at The company store). There are many token economies and their false economies and I don't envy these people. I love universities and I love seeing the falling leaves and I love the buildings and I love learning so it seems like they're my place but now I'm also seeing the dark side to them. They are people taking on debt and load and so much else. You want to get assets and networks that carry load for you financial and otherwise. I made mistakes in who I rented to, how behind i let certain people get, that it didn't confirm. It's almost like you got to assume the worst about people. People are not sane. I made the mistake of a positive assumption which I often do in part because I want it to be true in a part because I'm busy doing other things in part because I want to see if I'm justified in having faith in humanity. I don't think I'm far I think I'm close for many good things but I think I've always been close
Also what happens is there are phases of things. College is designed to do what high school would do in the past and then after college like someone I saw at Owen Cook's thing from Eden prairie they're all going here cuz college didn't do what it was supposed to do. They're new markets, stunted development or social development. Chat GPT said it was three phases manufactured aspiration, followed by managed disappointment followed by letting go or something but they were all engineered or that's the idea. They were all part of the structure. It's like taking someone on a sick roller coaster. They gave them the aspiration to begin with even though they weren't asking for it. They could have skipped all these steps by just leveling with people but that's not how the system works. There's less you can extract
It's no one person it's the emergency system
The system is based on dangling things not on being embodied and sovereign and they play loud managed optimism music and so on. I'm not here to sound any way to take any philosophical stance or anything understand I'm not here to sound smart or be impressive or be stupid or pout. I'm here to be sovereign with backbone and dignity and I'm a heterosexual man. I'm here to make deals and I'm here to see what's offered and see what I can win and I see games. I'm a seer that's all. I'm not a philosopher I'm a seer although I know philosophies. I see them and I see through things that's all I'm not performing for anyone I'm seeing and I'm saying what I see that's all I've ever been is like a messenger and oh there are games played
A lot of the games work from the dangle. Soon. Tomorrow. And that works because you put a seat in the ground it doesn't give you a yield right away it takes half a year and that's a natural principle of life and investing but they use that to lead you on and sick ways. They use the dangle and they use the token economy or Monopoly money kind of but these tokens can be real social capital in the right field like at University being credentialed so they're not completely fake. It's just like I like being the most connected to reality.
The more you truly see the more you can never unsee and the more you truly feel and your bones the more you can never unfeel it. I just listen to the story Harrison Bergeron yesterday. Oh my God what a story what a sign of the times. The sirens and stuff are the noise pieces. Civilization is a game it's a stupor. That still is not a cause for pessimism because I was close or I am close I think I'm close and I know I could please people and all it takes is one to really win. It doesn't take much to win but when you're on the edge it's frustrating but this is not about pessimism this is about realism. The world wants you to go on extremes because it can control you more. The middle way has kind of come to be seen as dirty or weak but it's sovereign it's where they can't control you it's where you're still rational. Structures and entities want to control your affects, the feelings in your very bones but if you don't own your bones what do you own but if you do own your bones who can own you? I know I'm fucking weird
