Jumping into the newbie assingment

[feedmeastraycat]

I have a two day weekend coming up and i'm dedicating both days to getting over my anxiety.

Friday I will scout locations and focus on eye contact and saying hello. I'll start conversations with 5 people before calling it a night.

Saturday I will make eye contact with 30 people and say hi to 15. I'll be doing this at a mall or market during the day. Wish me luck friends.

 

[feedmeastraycat]

So I had an interesting weekend...

On friday I hit my first bar around 7 and felt incredibly awkward. Everybody that was there was in a large group and there wasn't any pool or live music or some other social frame for me to be there by myself. I sat for about 30 minutes and took off to find my next bar. I ended up giving in and texting a female friend of mine to hang out. We spent the night with a group of friends and I ended up kissing her. She got on top of me and started grinding against me. I ran my hand up her leg (she was wearing a dress) and she pushed it away and got off me. We went back to the group of friends and hung out for some time before I kissed her a bit more and said goodnight.

I believe she's very attracted to me but I really liked this one so I defaulted to boyfriend mode and framed poorly. I doubt there will be any sex unless I decided to get into a relationship with her.

Today I went to the mall with the goal of saying hi to 15 people. This was incredibly stressful. I ended up doing laps at the mall and it took me 3 hours to work up the nerve to get to 12 before I went home.

I focused on saying hi to women I found attractive and they either totally ignored me or looked in a dismissive manner and smiled. I believe I got one genuine hello back.

But I did it. I got fairly close to my goal and really made strides with my social anxiety. I'll have to do this next weekend and continue to get comfortable with saying hello.