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I used to be very creative, and had a much richer love for life. A zest for it. If you have ever seen Vicky, Christina, Barcelona, I was a lot like Juan Antonio. (recommend this movie for his fundamentals!)
Lately, though I spend a lot of time waiting for opportunities rather than making shit happen. I think my lost of great interest in life has fed these bad habits.
The environment I live in (suburb far from city full of people who do not have the same values) receives most of my reason for inaction. I want to leave this mentality behind. I really do want to move or at least be able to travel extensively/often but sitting on my ass is not getting me any closer.
I am constantly thinking of travel and moving away. I really have zero desire to stay in this city.
How much weight should I give to this desire to move? At times I am tempted to couch surf just to get away. I have traveled all over the US and some other countries so I know the types of places I look for exist. The northwest coast is my favorite in USA.
Here's what my ruminating sounds like.... A place where I can just walk to get some good healthy (organic) food and meet women along the way is the bare minimum. My city has only 1 health food store. Virtually all the people I meet here have no care about the things I deeply care about. I'm not sure if I should move to the one street that I see attractive women on near by the health food store to give it an honest try (which I cannot afford at the moment) or follow my gut that crys out daily to GTFO. Where and how to GTFO I'm not sure. I have a band here with good network connections and already gave me a 50 city national tour that is giving me some hope and productivity which is making things harder to leave.
Goals
-self employed/passive income/"mobile job"
-creative juices reflowing and revitalize zest for life
-cultivate my already good song writing skills and make money
-improve in social arts
I'm at a confused part of my life and I'm looking to figure something out before I let myself fall into a hole. I loved life and have lived fully. Going through the motions is not my style. Just trying to get back on the horse.
I tried to clean this up best I could another goal I have is to clear up my explanations!
Main Questions
To move or not to move?
How to revive my love for life?
How to improve my posts for clarity?
Lately, though I spend a lot of time waiting for opportunities rather than making shit happen. I think my lost of great interest in life has fed these bad habits.
The environment I live in (suburb far from city full of people who do not have the same values) receives most of my reason for inaction. I want to leave this mentality behind. I really do want to move or at least be able to travel extensively/often but sitting on my ass is not getting me any closer.
I am constantly thinking of travel and moving away. I really have zero desire to stay in this city.
How much weight should I give to this desire to move? At times I am tempted to couch surf just to get away. I have traveled all over the US and some other countries so I know the types of places I look for exist. The northwest coast is my favorite in USA.
Here's what my ruminating sounds like.... A place where I can just walk to get some good healthy (organic) food and meet women along the way is the bare minimum. My city has only 1 health food store. Virtually all the people I meet here have no care about the things I deeply care about. I'm not sure if I should move to the one street that I see attractive women on near by the health food store to give it an honest try (which I cannot afford at the moment) or follow my gut that crys out daily to GTFO. Where and how to GTFO I'm not sure. I have a band here with good network connections and already gave me a 50 city national tour that is giving me some hope and productivity which is making things harder to leave.
Goals
-self employed/passive income/"mobile job"
-creative juices reflowing and revitalize zest for life
-cultivate my already good song writing skills and make money
-improve in social arts
I'm at a confused part of my life and I'm looking to figure something out before I let myself fall into a hole. I loved life and have lived fully. Going through the motions is not my style. Just trying to get back on the horse.
I tried to clean this up best I could another goal I have is to clear up my explanations!
Main Questions
To move or not to move?
How to revive my love for life?
How to improve my posts for clarity?