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Background
I first met this girl (let’s call her Kentucky) about a month ago at one of my fraternity parties. She's good friends with one of my fraternity brothers (Logan) and they used to bang a decent amount and have somehow managed to stay good friends. They're both from Kentucky and started banging when they were teenagers (my buddy told me this). This first night I met her I could tell she had some pretty strong interest. We were outside talking in a small group and she asked me "where my girlfriend was." I told her I was too busy for a relationship right now with everything going on in my life. She responded by saying she thought one of my friends (there was 5 of us talking in a group, 2 were fraternity brothers and then Kentucky and another female friend of my other frat bro) and she jokingly played it off by saying to not listen to what comes out of her mouth or whatever). She kept popping up on my radar a couple times throughout the night but didn't really find the opportunity to pull the trigger. Also, we were throwing a party for Logan cuz it was his b-day, and he’s the one who invited Kentucky and they were expecting to smash at the end of the night. I talked to him about it and he said they're definitely banging so that was that.
Texting and Setting Up the Date
Fast forward to last Tues. and I get a text out of the blue from Logan asking me if I remembered Kentucky from the party. I told him yeah and he said she's been asking him a lot of questions about me. Bingo! I knew that girl was interested in me that night but him telling me this just confirmed it. He asked for my snapchat and told him I don't do social media like that. I told him he can give her my #, or that I’ll take hers. He ended up giving her my # and she texted me not long after. She said that this might be weird and random but she asked if I remembered her. I told her yeah and whatnot. We texted back and forth and told her we should grab a bite to eat, and asked for her schedule. She said she works every day of the week and that she’s free on weekends.
I suggested Sat. night. and she texted me a long message saying she’d like that, but also went on about how I kept commenting that she was making vulgar remarks that night at the party, and she said she hadn't stopped thinking about that ever since (so for a whole month). Kentucky said that she consumed a lot of alcohol that night, and that it was the alcohol talking and that she's not like that blah blah. Didn't dwell on it and took that as typical female behavior. I simply said “people say silly things when they’re drunk
” and that I’d see her Sat. She asked if we were gonna meet up in my town (which is over an hour away from her) and I told her I’d let her know later in the week, as I had a midterm coming up before spring break and didn’t want to get bogged down by details at that moment.
Finalizing the Date and Setting Up Logistics the Day Of
I hadn’t texted her the entire week as I was really busy with school and preparing for my midterm. At almost 2:30 in the afternoon I send her a brief check-in text telling her I’ve been slammed this past week and asking her if she was still free to hang. She replies about 15 min. later and says “yeah, where??” She lives over an hour away and I was thinking of logistics. She lives alone with another roommate (whom I later found is a guy btw and who is NOT gay to my knowledge), so I was debating driving up to her, but eventually decided against it since I didn’t know the area and would be at a disadvantage. Plus, I really didn’t want to drive that far so I thought I’d take a risk and make her come to me. She’s been to my town before a few times in the past to party at my fraternity via. our mutual friend (who invited her last time), so I figured I could leverage that should she give me a hard time.
I decide to go for it and test her compliance/interest and finally text her to come to me. Without hesitation, she texts back asking when and what the place was. I told her 8pm and gave her the name of the place, and presented the option of meeting me at the date location or parking her car at my place and heading together since the place is like 2 mins from my house. She asked if she could park at my place and head together to which I said yeah. Just what I was hoping she’d say. I told her to let me know when she was on her way.
I had about 3 hours to spare and I planned on doing some cleaning to prep the place. However, upon scrolling through Facebook I find out that a girl I met at a party a few years ago, (through mutual friends) is now a pornstar lmao. So I lost a bit more time than I had anticipated looking into that and ended up running around like a monkey with its head cut off cleaning up the house, and trying to hide my archive of GirlsChase articles because I didn’t want her to find them and think I’m some loser who needs a website to learn about females. The cleaning kind of put me on edge and made me feel extremely rushed, which was not an ideal way for me to start the night.
8PM- The Arrival
Anyways, it’s about 8pm and I'm outside organizing some stuff in my car, when Kentucky pulls in and parks in the street. I shit you not this girl was right on time, I was hoping she would be a little late so it would give me some more time to organize a few things and chill out for a bit. We say what’s up I tell her let's go inside for a minute cuz I need to put a shirt on (I was in a wife-beater). We go inside and she takes her shoes off without me having to tell her and we go upstairs to the living room. I offer her something to drink, and she decides on having a beer with me before we head out. We’re making small talk in the kitchen and she comments on if this is my parents’ house. I tell her “yeah” and she asks who all lives here. I tell her it’s me, my parents, and little brother. We exchange a bit more dialogue while I open the beers, and then I move us to the couch.
We’re sitting on the couch and start getting into deeper conversation. One thing I noticed is that she decided to sit next to me on the couch, despite there being a chair next to it and another couch nearby. She sat right next to me and her body language was pointed towards me, a good sign. We start talking about a variety of topics like her family, her hobbies, her work, etc. On the topic of her work, she mentioned how all the guys hit on her and are creepy, and how one co-worker went as far to say “I’d give my whole paycheck to get in that.” Lmao she seems to be framing herself as very desirable and “the prize” and I just laugh at all this and say it’s prob cuz she’s the only younger girl there and that these guys see a girl and their composure falls apart. She mentioned reading as one of her hobbies and I complimented her on that, saying not too many people read nowadays and that she must be intelligent. I ask Kentucky what she likes to read and she mentions how she’s a sucker for a good romance story. I mention “50 Shades of Gray” and she goes on about how she loves it. I plead ignorance and she starts telling me about how the story goes, and she’s using words like “submissives” and terms like that.
We finish our beers and she asks if we're still going to get fro-yo but I say the place closes in 20-30 min and that we're already having a good convo so we might as well just stay here. During our conversation, I got a few phone calls and text messages from my buddies to which she commented on how “popular” I am. I sort of play it off and ask her about her friends. She says she doesn’t really have friends here in the northeast because most them are back home in Kentucky. My buddy also mentioned to me earlier in the week how this girl lives alone (minus her male roommate), so I didn’t act surprised here. I don’t remember when but she did ask me where my family was and if they were coming home anytime soon. I told her my mom was at work and that my dad and little bro are “out and about.” I read this as a sign that she was thinking about sex since she was inquiring about logistics.
At one point, she asks me where the bathroom is and direct her while I respond to a few texts. She comes back and sits on the couch a little bit closer to me than where she was before she got up. I can tell she's getting ready cuz there were some frequent silences in our conversation and her face was also a little flushed. I try to break the touch barrier a little by having her show me her class ring and her necklace. Also, at one point she mentioned how there was a fuzz on my face and how it was “bothering her” and she attempted to get it off herself but I ended up getting it just before she actually touched my face. This was another good sign for me.
While we’re talking and the silences get more frequent, I can sense it’s an escalation window and I’m trying to find my opening. Meanwhile, she re-engages a time or two all the while I keep giving her seductive eye contact. I finally say “you’re an interesting girl” and she looks at me while I place my hand on her chin. I command her “come here” with a sly grin on my face, and she leans into me without hesitation and we start kissing.
I get on top of her on the couch and we start making out hard. I stop and get on my back trying to prep for some head and she gets on top and starts kissing me. I tell her to “take your shirt off” and she gets topless without any resistance. We continue kissing and then I pick her up and we go to the floor. I get on top and start dry humping her and making out, then start kissing her body and start sucking on her tits. Kentucky makes a comment on if my family is gonna be coming home soon and I say nah. I ask her if she's afraid of getting caught in a playful way to which she responds “no.” We start kissing and I suck on her tits for another min or so and tell her “let’s go upstairs to my room.” We both get up (she’s still topless) and tells me “lead the way.”
We get to my room and I start sucking on her tits and take her pants off. She told me earlier that she just got a tat and had another "down there" that I couldn't see. Well, I start kissing her body and get down to her pubic area and start licking/kissing everywhere around her vagina. I look at her seductively and ask her where her tat is. She looks at me seductively, smiles and tells me "find it." Haha my kind of girl. I grin and take her panties off and start kissing everywhere but her clit. Her breathing gets real heavy and she starts to moan quietly. Finally, I start going ham on her clittie. She starts moaning and whatnot then she finally tells me to fuck her.
I go in raw for like a minute or two just to make sure my dick already went in, before I grabbed a condom, and risked her giving me resistance. We go at it briefly in adapted missionary, while I keep talking dirty to her saying stuff like “your pussy feels so good on my dick”, “you’re sexy”, etc. After a few minutes of fucking, I tell her to go down on me. I get on my back and she gets on top, and starts kissing/caressing my body all the way down to my pubic area. Finally, she starts sucking me off. After a few minutes of that, I tell her to get up and that I'm getting a condom. I tell her to lay down and spread her legs for me while I walk over to the cubby holes in my desk and grab one. I put a condom on and start fucking her hard. My dick get popping out a few times and we had to re-inserting a few times.
I tell her to get up and get in doggystyle position for me. I try to put my dick in but I had some trouble. It was a little embarrassing actually haha I felt like a virgin all over again. We had some trouble getting it in, so I just started fingering her while she was in doggy. She starts moaning and was really wet by this point. I tell her to roll over and then I ask her if she can squirt. She says “no”. I start fingering her g-spot and she really starts breathing heavier and heavier, and starts moaning louder. I start fingering harder and harder and my god was her pussy wet. You could just hear it upon my fingers entering her vagina. I got her to gush a little bit.
I grab the towel from my floor and put it underneath her. I finger her some more and this time she starts squirting a decent amount. Some of it went on her thigh and there was a nice wet spot on the towel haha. As I keep fingering her, I notice her legs start coming closer together. I figured it was due to the pleasure and that maybe she was gonna cum soon, but she flat out says “stop.” I take my fingers out smiling mischievously at how wet they are and whisper “what’s wrong?” while I put my fingers in my mouth, and make her lick her juices. At first I was a bit concerned cuz I wanted to make sure I wasn't overstepping any boundaries but she straight up says “I want you to fuck me.” I laugh and get ready to stick it in again, but I decide to tease her by asking her if she wants. She says "yeah." I tell her “how bad do you want it?” She says "I really want your dick in me." So, I put it in and start pounding her hard again. Her pussy was really wet and she starts moaning harder and starts grabbing my sheets with her head back and eyes closed in pleasure. I keep talking to dirty to her and start licking/kissing her neck. I honestly got a bit tired and had to slow down a few times which may have fucked up the rhythm but I couldn't help it haha. I gotta get back in the gym lol.
Anyways, we keep going at it, but I kept hearing cars whiz through the neighborhood and heard what sounded like someone pulling in, and then heard some car doors slam. We thought someone came home, so I stopped pumping with my dick still inside. She asked if anyone came home and I said “I think someone’s home” so we start putting our clothes on, while I peek outside the window and turns out it was a false alarm. Kentucky didn’t seem fazed at all, like she almost couldn’t care less. I wonder if she’s had experience getting caught before.
We strip fully naked again and we go at it for another few minutes until I ask her “what’s the craziest thing you’ve ever done in public?” She smiles and says “nothing really.” I ask her if she's ever doen something adventurous like having sex in public. She says no but that sounds pretty wild. Kentucky seemed intrigued at the idea, but also not like she was fully sold on the idea. I didn't want to risk a member of my family coming home and catching us in the act, plus I was irritated at having to keep on lookout and pausing during sex. I suggested that we get out of my house and head down to a park down the street from my house. We get dressed and she uses the bathroom briefly. We grab our things and I mention how I wanted to smoke a cig real quick before we go. We go downstairs and out the door to my patio.
This is the part where I believe I fucked it up. I light up my cig and she comments on how it’s a beautiful night, since she lives right on the lake and the weather is a lot colder up where she lives. We make some chit-chat but I notice she crosses her arms. I’m sitting on an old mini-fridge and she’s sitting on a chair perpendicular to me, with her legs crossed and pointed towards me, yet her arms are crossed too. There were some silences while we were out here, but she did keep reengaging and asking me some questions while I was smoking. I believe this is the point where she asked me what my plans were after college. I tell her I’m most likely getting out of my state and trying to move to the big city, but that I’m not 100% sure what my plans are and that I still have a year to figure things out. We kiss a few times in between talking and to make sure she’s still receptive to my advances. I finish my cig and we head inside to go through the front door. We have a futon downstairs and I was debating just fucking her there, but she was already up the stairs and I wanted to commit to my decision and not make myself seem indecisive.
Transition to The Park
I lock the door and we get in my car, and drive to the park down the street. We keep making chit-chat and we pull in to the park. We get out and start walking towards the trail in the woods. I know that this prob seemed sketchy but I didn't want to do it in the middle of the field and risk getting caught by a park ranger, cuz that happened to a buddy of mine before at this park a few years ago. She made a joke casually about if this is the part where I take her in the woods and kill her. I kind of expected a comment along those lines, but still didn’t like it. I kept my cool and told her “c’mon you should’ve picked up on that I’m not that type of guy by now and that this is spontaneous and adventurous.” Kentucky says “I don’t know, this may be a little too adventurous for me.” I told her what she thought about me so far and said that our friend Logan said I was the genuine deal. I asked her if she thought that was true and she said “yeah” and I told her I thought that she was down-to-earth and genuine as well.
We go into the opening of the trail and start walking the trail for 30 feet or so, and I stop her and we start making out in the middle of the trail. It was dark out and after 10 pm at this point. She stops me with a huge smile on her face and starts trying to push me backwards towards the woods. She says “just go here, just go over here.” I tell her no let's go over here and lead her to the opposite side, contrary to where she wanted us to go just so it didn't seem like I was allowing her to control and lead the interaction.
We end up against a tree and start making out. I start grabbing her ass and slip my hands under her pants and continue to grab. I gradually move my fingers around to her pubic area and start fingering her. She started getting really wet and she kept losing her balance from the pleasure. I kept telling her I got her while I kept fingering her. Meanwhile I put her hand on my cock over my pants, and she slips her hand through and starts playing with it. Eventually she tells me "your turn." I take my hand out of her pants, while she starts unzipping my shorts. She gets on her knees and starts blowing me. She’s going at it for a few minutes and I'm looking around to make sure the coast is clear. I see some lights in the distance, and it appeared what looked like a car pulling into the park. I heard what sounded like people talking way in the distance, and thought it might be a park ranger.
I tell her to stop and get up, and then we start walking. While we’re walking, I keep slapping her ass and she smiled every time. We walk like 20 feet and then we go by another tree off the trail, and slightly into the woods. She made a comment about there being snakes in the woods and how there’s trees/branches as I almost tripped over one. This was the second time she mentioned something about snakes, as if she was trying to justify why the woods aren’t a good place for us to be fooling around. I laughed it off and said nah we’re good, there's no snakes here. She said “snakes are in every woods and so are trees/branches, etc.” In hindsight, I should’ve calibrated properly and got us out of there but Idk why I didn’t. By this point I started picking up that she really wasn't ready for sex in this environment.
We start making out against another tree and I put her hand on my dick and whip it out through my pants. She starts playing with it while we're making out and I start to go for her vag, trying to pull her pants down slightly so I could stick it in aaaaand BAM! Resistance for the first time tonight, even though I already penetrated her earlier. I pull back and say stop but as soon as I got close to her face, she kept initiating kissing. I prob. shouldn't have rewarded her "bad" behavior but I don't know what I was thinking. We kept kissing and what not and I tried to go for it again and she said "uhh uhh uhh." Great. At this point I was kicking myself in disbelief at how I stubbornly got myself into this situation. I told her to whip out her tits just to get some compliance, which she did without questioning. We kept kissing some more and I started sucking on her tits to suck me off and she said she just was while we were over there previously, but I said "yeah, but we had to move."
She starts sucking me off again and I keep telling her how mouth feels really good, how she looks so sexy sucking my dick, etc. I tell her straight up I want to fuck her and she flat out says “no.” I let her blow me for another minute while I’m trying to come up with a way to lead this towards sex. She kept blowing me for a little and then I grabbed her underneath her armpits and raised her up and we somehow got into kissing. I backed off but she kept initiating kissing. I don't remember all the details but at some point I tried one last time to go for it (within reason, I started caressing her first and started grabbing her ass under her pants and tried to make my way to her vagina, but she wouldn't let me.
She kept kissing me though as soon as my face got close to hers, even though I was just trying to talk. I must admit my game started getting sloppy after all this resistance and then she says that we should get going back to my house because she has a long drive home (hour and ten minutes) and that she has a lot of stuff to do tomorrow. She was really calm about it though, not abruptly like she was in fear that something bad was gonna happen. I asked her what time and she said she has to be somewhere by noon. Okay? We started kissing again and I told her to let me know if she doesn’t feel comfortable and she tells me “I don’t feel comfortable.” My thought process was to show that I genuinely was concerned for her and wanted her to feel safe, but I'm thinking I shouldn't have verbally said anything but whatever. Better be safe than risk any slightest potential legal trouble. I must admit I was kinda fazed by her saying she feels uncomfortable and was kinda silent for a few seconds after she said it. I finally said “come on let's get out of here.”
We start walking back to the opening of the trail by the field and she starts asking me if I come to this park a lot to exercise and walk the trail, etc. I told her we used to a decent amount as kids to play football, kickball, and other active type stuff, but that I haven’t been here very often lately. On our way to the cars there’s some bathrooms up there and I tell her that I’m thirsty and I wanted to go see if there’s a drinking fountain, which was true. I also noticed that she was eyeing the bathrooms too. We keep walking and there’s a light on in the women’s bathroom. I thought maybe someone went in there and she made a comment about how those lights were on ever since we got there. I walk over to the men’s which was right next to it and see if it’s open, but it’s locked. While I was checking, I glanced over at her and she seemed like she wanted them to be unlocked by the face she made.
We made our way to my car and I turned it on and said I need to let it warm up for a minute or two. I just put my hand on her face and she leans in towards me and starts kissing me. I expose my neck and she starts kissing it while I rub her leg. I gradually make my way up and start rubbing my hand up and down her vag outside her pants for a few strokes, and I’m watching her legs gradually close together and she finally says “let’s head back.” I say “how about we get in the back and talk while the car warms up.” She says “I really ought to be going” but I attempt to persist and say “the car needs to warm up first, let’s head in the back just for a minute or two and talk while it’s warming up” and then says “okay” and we head to the backseat.
So, we get in the back and she’s leaning with her back against the door and we exchanged a few words, but I did notice her crossing her arms and read that as a bad sign. I grab her leg and put it across my lap and kind of held it there. I ask her to flex her leg and she flexes and I made some comment about how her legs feel strong or something idk the exact words. She makes a comment about how she’s always had thunder thighs and I laugh. We somehow get into kissing again and I get on top of her attempting to go for sex in the backseat and she says “ok we should get going.” We start to sit up and I tell her “the car’s still warming up it’ll just be another minute or two” when she says “just kiss me” said in a way that she didn’t want us to go beyond kissing, not that she wanted me to kiss her to restart the escalation process.
I started to tell her that she doesn’t need to worry about me judging her as a slut because I think it’s unfair society expects girls to behave all ladylike, and that everybody loves sex. She said that’s true it is unfair and she completely agrees with me, but that she’s not worried about me judging her because first off she’s not a slut (doesn’t every girl say that? haha), and second that she “just met me.” Lmao really?? We already hooked up and went a round in the sack and she’s throwing this classic shit-test at me.
It’s clear to me now that I officially fucked up somewhere along the way, but I couldn’t decipher when and what the mistake(s) made was, nor what I needed to do to correct it. I started thinking about how I had this girl in my bed and was balls deep in her, but stupidly decided to do a logistics change and how I couldn’t believe how it led to this. I was chill and told her in a playful way that “no we met at the party a month back and this is our second time seeing each other.” She said yeah but that she’s still getting to know me and she doesn’t just do that. I laughed and told her we already hooked up and started to talk about how people aren’t real with each other before sex, because they have that hanging over their heads and both sides usually hide a lot of their true selves to try and impress the opposite sex (not the exact words but something along those lines). She said that that’s true and that she absolutely agreed with me. I think at this point I told her “Come sit up closer cuz I feel like there’s an ocean between us.” She laughed and sat up next to me.
I don’t remember the dialogue exactly and how our conversation led to this part, but at one point I tried a hail-mary and attempted to use the suggestion from Ricardus’s “How to Get Laid Every Time” series about telling her we should just be friends. Except, I did it sort of clumsily and didn’t have the frame to back it up. I go “you know, maybe we should just stay friends” and she says “I never said I wanted to be more than friends.” I say “yeah, it’s just that I feel if we don’t have the kind of chemistry where we can’t keep our hands off of each other, then it’s probably better off if we stay friends. You’re a cool, genuine girl and everything and I can introduce you to some of the guys in my fraternity.” She doesn’t seem fazed and goes like “ok” then leans back against the car door. I must admit she played me pretty well here.
We started talking some more and she asked me why my friends in my fraternity call me “the narc.” I told her to give me head and I’d tell her, she says “tell me first”. I say I’ll tell her while she’s going down on me and she giggles. I tell her it’s a long story and she says “I got time” (hmmm… thought she had to go cuz she has a lot of stuff to do tomorrow starting sooo early at noon haha). I call her on it and say “oh I thought you had to go because you had a lot of stuff to do tomorrow.” She laughs and goes “I do.” I told her not to worry about it and that she’ll hear the story another time. I’m a little fuzzy on some details of the dialogue exchange but I remember we got into kissing again and I stopped and go “we shouldn’t be doing this, we just met” and she starts laughing and says “I hate you so much right now.” She goes on to say “I feel like you’re throwing shade at me.” I ask her what that means and she says she can’t get a read on me, and that I’m very mysterious.
I look at the clock and kind of zone out. She asks me why I’m zoning and I tell her I had a few things on my mind from earlier today. I started to go into telling her then decide against while she says “ok” and laughs a little. I say I’m getting pretty hungry and that I need to grab a snack when we get back to my place and I ask her if she would be down to grab a little snack to eat and she says “sure.” We get back in the front and we drive back to my place down the road. We’re driving and I believe she mentions something about how the whole time she was under the impression that we were just gonna be getting ice cream. I laugh and say “yeah it’s funny how one thing led to another.” I also say that she drove over an hour to come visit me and that she must’ve liked something about me. I ask her why she was curious and asking my buddy (Logan) questions about me. She says “I thought you were cute and I like to say yes to opportunities.” She said if she didn’t come out and visit me she would be at home staying in, watching Netflix or reading a book.
Back at My Place
We pull in and I notice that none of my family came home yet. That’s when I really kicked myself because the whole reason I suggested we leave in the first place was because I didn’t want to risk my little brother or my mom coming home. I told my dad earlier that I had a girl coming over so I wasn’t worried about him.
We get out of the car and she goes “actually, I think I’m just gonna go.” I say “are you sure? I thought we were gonna kick it and talk for a few minutes.” She says “we were just talking and hanging in the car.” I laugh and say “that doesn’t count, we were cramped in a car that’s not very comfortable conversation. Just come in for a few minutes and the you can leave whenever you want. Don’t let me hold you against your will.” She smiles and says “oh no no no, I’m a big independent girl who makes her own decisions. If I didn’t want to go inside I would just leave.” I laugh and say “okay sounds good miss independent girl.” There was some dialogue earlier in the night where she said how she's an independent, big girl and knows how to take care of herself.
We go inside and take off our shoes and head upstairs to the kitchen. I offer her a snack and point out that we have a variety of fruit on the table and if she eats fruit. She says “yeah” and whatnot, but politely declines and food or drink. I grab a pear and we start chatting about my nickname. I said I’ll finally tell her since she’s been patient. I tell her the story and ask her if she has any nicknames. She says “no, not really” but proceeds to tell me a story about how in middle school some kids would poke fun at her and this guy that liked each other but weren’t officially a couple. She said they called her “jizzabella” and “jizzy” for short. I started laughing and she did too as her face got red. I lightly teased her about it and suggested we head to the couch in the living room, but as we head out of the kitchen I make a comment on how she’s an interesting/cool girl and that she has a charming personality. She says “thank you” and we take a seat on the couch.
We talk for a few minutes while her legs are across my lap and my hands on her thigh, while the other one is clasped with her hand. I start swaying her hand/arm back and forth and it’s brought up again how she thought this whole time we were gonna get ice cream. I respond by saying “yeah, here we were hanging out supposed to get ice cream, and it’s funny how one thing led to another” and she nods in agreement. She starts closing her eyes and mentions how she feels like she’s gonna fall asleep on the couch. I prob shouldn’t have said this, but kinda tried to throw a hail-mary out there and tell she could prob spend the night if she wanted to, so she doesn’t risk falling asleep behind the wheel. She laughs a little and says that she wouldn’t be comfortable meeting my family so soon and whatnot. I tell her yeah that’s how a lot of our generation feels nowadays about that kind of stuff.
I glance at the clock and it’s slightly after 11pm and make a comment on how she has quite a drive back home. She says “yeah, I should really get going” and I say “alright let’s go.” She gets up and we go downstairs by the door and I make a comment on how I’m glad our paths crossed and how our buddy introduced us. I forget what she says exactly but I escort her outside and we kiss goodbye a few times. Our arms are around each other's’ waists and I mention how we should hang again next weekend and how she’s a pretty cool gal. She giggles and says “thanks, you’re a pretty cool girl too.” Idk what that was supposed to mean but it was sad in kind of a sarcastic/joking tone.
She starts walking to her car (parked in my street) and we say goodbye. I tell her to have a safe drive home and tell her to text me when she gets home. She makes some sort of statement but I couldn’t hear her and said a final goodbye, then turned around and went inside. I stepped out back on the patio and smoked a cg as I reflected on the night’s events. This is where my blood started to boil as I couldn’t believe that I was impulsive enough do a location change due to unnecessary paranoia that didn’t even come to fruition. We were at the park for about an hour and nobody had still come home. I start thinking about what to text her to assure her she wasn’t just some hook-up and that I wanted to see her again. Also, part of me was concerned about possible legal trouble just because it seemed sketchy that we went to a park and slightly into the woods, so I wanted to do my best to prevent sex regret. I'll admit, I am slightly neurotic about false rape accusations. I'm calibrated enough to know where to draw the line, but honestly I feel like a guy can be accused of sexual assault for the slightest escalation nowadays. This is prob. not healthy of me to think in this manner, but I am working on it.
About 50 mins after she leaves I text her the following:
About 25 mins later my message says “read” and she texts me:
Not sure what to think about her not wanting me to tell anyone. I didn’t plan it to begin with and truly don’t like to reveal details about my escapades, at least not to my frat buddies since a lot of them are freshman/sophomores and have pretty big mouths, because they’re still kinda immature. Also, I don’t know if she said that because she was afraid I was gonna tell our mutual friend (Logan) who hooked us up, and whom she’s slept with before. We did talk about frat biys earlier in the night and she says how most of the ones she’s met have been immature and ignorant, but that I and my fraternity did not fit that bill. I started busting her stones when she said this earlier in the night, and turned on her saying “oh so that means I’m ignorant and what not” and she got defensive saying “no no no I don’t think that of you at all blah blah blah.” So, maybe she thought I was the type to kiss and tell and she wanted to reassurance that I wasn’t going to.
Anyways, I was really hoping to turn this girl into my first fuckbuddy but I doubt if I’ll see her again. I think I really fucked it up tonight judging by how things went. I haven’t texted her since late Saturday night and am hoping she’ll text me first this week, but we’ll see.
Regardless of how the night eventually turned out, I’m really proud of myself for this lay. I feel like I did a lot wrong, but also a decent amount right (at least in the beginning). This was my first time having a girl meet me at my place to go on a “date” and also my first official daytime and fully sober lay. Honestly, the last date I’ve been on was over 3 years ago with a girl I got fro-yo with ironically enough. The fact that I got this girl to comply in driving over an hour to come straight to my place, and then undressing her and being balls deep in her within the hour makes me realize that I have a knack for fast sex. Literally, all my lays so far have been fast sex and same day/night, even though this is only lay #3 for me. This really helped me shatter some limiting beliefs about myself and I can’t wait for the next lay.This really did a lot for my confidence and I can sense my inner pimp starting to rise to the surface, although I still have much, much to learn.
I first met this girl (let’s call her Kentucky) about a month ago at one of my fraternity parties. She's good friends with one of my fraternity brothers (Logan) and they used to bang a decent amount and have somehow managed to stay good friends. They're both from Kentucky and started banging when they were teenagers (my buddy told me this). This first night I met her I could tell she had some pretty strong interest. We were outside talking in a small group and she asked me "where my girlfriend was." I told her I was too busy for a relationship right now with everything going on in my life. She responded by saying she thought one of my friends (there was 5 of us talking in a group, 2 were fraternity brothers and then Kentucky and another female friend of my other frat bro) and she jokingly played it off by saying to not listen to what comes out of her mouth or whatever). She kept popping up on my radar a couple times throughout the night but didn't really find the opportunity to pull the trigger. Also, we were throwing a party for Logan cuz it was his b-day, and he’s the one who invited Kentucky and they were expecting to smash at the end of the night. I talked to him about it and he said they're definitely banging so that was that.
Texting and Setting Up the Date
Fast forward to last Tues. and I get a text out of the blue from Logan asking me if I remembered Kentucky from the party. I told him yeah and he said she's been asking him a lot of questions about me. Bingo! I knew that girl was interested in me that night but him telling me this just confirmed it. He asked for my snapchat and told him I don't do social media like that. I told him he can give her my #, or that I’ll take hers. He ended up giving her my # and she texted me not long after. She said that this might be weird and random but she asked if I remembered her. I told her yeah and whatnot. We texted back and forth and told her we should grab a bite to eat, and asked for her schedule. She said she works every day of the week and that she’s free on weekends.
I suggested Sat. night. and she texted me a long message saying she’d like that, but also went on about how I kept commenting that she was making vulgar remarks that night at the party, and she said she hadn't stopped thinking about that ever since (so for a whole month). Kentucky said that she consumed a lot of alcohol that night, and that it was the alcohol talking and that she's not like that blah blah. Didn't dwell on it and took that as typical female behavior. I simply said “people say silly things when they’re drunk
” and that I’d see her Sat. She asked if we were gonna meet up in my town (which is over an hour away from her) and I told her I’d let her know later in the week, as I had a midterm coming up before spring break and didn’t want to get bogged down by details at that moment.Finalizing the Date and Setting Up Logistics the Day Of
I hadn’t texted her the entire week as I was really busy with school and preparing for my midterm. At almost 2:30 in the afternoon I send her a brief check-in text telling her I’ve been slammed this past week and asking her if she was still free to hang. She replies about 15 min. later and says “yeah, where??” She lives over an hour away and I was thinking of logistics. She lives alone with another roommate (whom I later found is a guy btw and who is NOT gay to my knowledge), so I was debating driving up to her, but eventually decided against it since I didn’t know the area and would be at a disadvantage. Plus, I really didn’t want to drive that far so I thought I’d take a risk and make her come to me. She’s been to my town before a few times in the past to party at my fraternity via. our mutual friend (who invited her last time), so I figured I could leverage that should she give me a hard time.
I decide to go for it and test her compliance/interest and finally text her to come to me. Without hesitation, she texts back asking when and what the place was. I told her 8pm and gave her the name of the place, and presented the option of meeting me at the date location or parking her car at my place and heading together since the place is like 2 mins from my house. She asked if she could park at my place and head together to which I said yeah. Just what I was hoping she’d say
. I told her to let me know when she was on her way.I had about 3 hours to spare and I planned on doing some cleaning to prep the place. However, upon scrolling through Facebook I find out that a girl I met at a party a few years ago, (through mutual friends) is now a pornstar lmao. So I lost a bit more time than I had anticipated looking into that and ended up running around like a monkey with its head cut off cleaning up the house, and trying to hide my archive of GirlsChase articles because I didn’t want her to find them and think I’m some loser who needs a website to learn about females
. The cleaning kind of put me on edge and made me feel extremely rushed, which was not an ideal way for me to start the night.8PM- The Arrival
Anyways, it’s about 8pm and I'm outside organizing some stuff in my car, when Kentucky pulls in and parks in the street. I shit you not this girl was right on time, I was hoping she would be a little late so it would give me some more time to organize a few things and chill out for a bit. We say what’s up I tell her let's go inside for a minute cuz I need to put a shirt on (I was in a wife-beater). We go inside and she takes her shoes off without me having to tell her and we go upstairs to the living room. I offer her something to drink, and she decides on having a beer with me before we head out. We’re making small talk in the kitchen and she comments on if this is my parents’ house. I tell her “yeah” and she asks who all lives here. I tell her it’s me, my parents, and little brother. We exchange a bit more dialogue while I open the beers, and then I move us to the couch.
We’re sitting on the couch and start getting into deeper conversation. One thing I noticed is that she decided to sit next to me on the couch, despite there being a chair next to it and another couch nearby. She sat right next to me and her body language was pointed towards me, a good sign. We start talking about a variety of topics like her family, her hobbies, her work, etc. On the topic of her work, she mentioned how all the guys hit on her and are creepy, and how one co-worker went as far to say “I’d give my whole paycheck to get in that.” Lmao she seems to be framing herself as very desirable and “the prize” and I just laugh at all this and say it’s prob cuz she’s the only younger girl there and that these guys see a girl and their composure falls apart. She mentioned reading as one of her hobbies and I complimented her on that, saying not too many people read nowadays and that she must be intelligent. I ask Kentucky what she likes to read and she mentions how she’s a sucker for a good romance story. I mention “50 Shades of Gray” and she goes on about how she loves it. I plead ignorance and she starts telling me about how the story goes, and she’s using words like “submissives” and terms like that.
We finish our beers and she asks if we're still going to get fro-yo but I say the place closes in 20-30 min and that we're already having a good convo so we might as well just stay here. During our conversation, I got a few phone calls and text messages from my buddies to which she commented on how “popular” I am. I sort of play it off and ask her about her friends. She says she doesn’t really have friends here in the northeast because most them are back home in Kentucky. My buddy also mentioned to me earlier in the week how this girl lives alone (minus her male roommate), so I didn’t act surprised here. I don’t remember when but she did ask me where my family was and if they were coming home anytime soon. I told her my mom was at work and that my dad and little bro are “out and about.” I read this as a sign that she was thinking about sex since she was inquiring about logistics.
At one point, she asks me where the bathroom is and direct her while I respond to a few texts. She comes back and sits on the couch a little bit closer to me than where she was before she got up. I can tell she's getting ready cuz there were some frequent silences in our conversation and her face was also a little flushed. I try to break the touch barrier a little by having her show me her class ring and her necklace. Also, at one point she mentioned how there was a fuzz on my face and how it was “bothering her” and she attempted to get it off herself but I ended up getting it just before she actually touched my face. This was another good sign for me.
While we’re talking and the silences get more frequent, I can sense it’s an escalation window and I’m trying to find my opening. Meanwhile, she re-engages a time or two all the while I keep giving her seductive eye contact. I finally say “you’re an interesting girl” and she looks at me while I place my hand on her chin. I command her “come here” with a sly grin on my face, and she leans into me without hesitation and we start kissing.
I get on top of her on the couch and we start making out hard. I stop and get on my back trying to prep for some head and she gets on top and starts kissing me. I tell her to “take your shirt off” and she gets topless without any resistance. We continue kissing and then I pick her up and we go to the floor. I get on top and start dry humping her and making out, then start kissing her body and start sucking on her tits. Kentucky makes a comment on if my family is gonna be coming home soon and I say nah. I ask her if she's afraid of getting caught in a playful way to which she responds “no.” We start kissing and I suck on her tits for another min or so and tell her “let’s go upstairs to my room.” We both get up (she’s still topless) and tells me “lead the way.”
We get to my room and I start sucking on her tits and take her pants off. She told me earlier that she just got a tat and had another "down there" that I couldn't see. Well, I start kissing her body and get down to her pubic area and start licking/kissing everywhere around her vagina. I look at her seductively and ask her where her tat is. She looks at me seductively, smiles and tells me "find it." Haha my kind of girl. I grin and take her panties off and start kissing everywhere but her clit. Her breathing gets real heavy and she starts to moan quietly. Finally, I start going ham on her clittie. She starts moaning and whatnot then she finally tells me to fuck her.
I go in raw for like a minute or two just to make sure my dick already went in, before I grabbed a condom, and risked her giving me resistance. We go at it briefly in adapted missionary, while I keep talking dirty to her saying stuff like “your pussy feels so good on my dick”, “you’re sexy”, etc. After a few minutes of fucking, I tell her to go down on me. I get on my back and she gets on top, and starts kissing/caressing my body all the way down to my pubic area. Finally, she starts sucking me off. After a few minutes of that, I tell her to get up and that I'm getting a condom. I tell her to lay down and spread her legs for me while I walk over to the cubby holes in my desk and grab one. I put a condom on and start fucking her hard. My dick get popping out a few times and we had to re-inserting a few times.
I tell her to get up and get in doggystyle position for me. I try to put my dick in but I had some trouble. It was a little embarrassing actually haha I felt like a virgin all over again. We had some trouble getting it in, so I just started fingering her while she was in doggy. She starts moaning and was really wet by this point. I tell her to roll over and then I ask her if she can squirt. She says “no”. I start fingering her g-spot and she really starts breathing heavier and heavier, and starts moaning louder. I start fingering harder and harder and my god was her pussy wet. You could just hear it upon my fingers entering her vagina. I got her to gush a little bit.
I grab the towel from my floor and put it underneath her. I finger her some more and this time she starts squirting a decent amount. Some of it went on her thigh and there was a nice wet spot on the towel haha. As I keep fingering her, I notice her legs start coming closer together. I figured it was due to the pleasure and that maybe she was gonna cum soon, but she flat out says “stop.” I take my fingers out smiling mischievously at how wet they are and whisper “what’s wrong?” while I put my fingers in my mouth, and make her lick her juices. At first I was a bit concerned cuz I wanted to make sure I wasn't overstepping any boundaries but she straight up says “I want you to fuck me.” I laugh and get ready to stick it in again, but I decide to tease her by asking her if she wants. She says "yeah." I tell her “how bad do you want it?” She says "I really want your dick in me." So, I put it in and start pounding her hard again. Her pussy was really wet and she starts moaning harder and starts grabbing my sheets with her head back and eyes closed in pleasure. I keep talking to dirty to her and start licking/kissing her neck. I honestly got a bit tired and had to slow down a few times which may have fucked up the rhythm but I couldn't help it haha. I gotta get back in the gym lol.
Anyways, we keep going at it, but I kept hearing cars whiz through the neighborhood and heard what sounded like someone pulling in, and then heard some car doors slam. We thought someone came home, so I stopped pumping with my dick still inside. She asked if anyone came home and I said “I think someone’s home” so we start putting our clothes on, while I peek outside the window and turns out it was a false alarm. Kentucky didn’t seem fazed at all, like she almost couldn’t care less. I wonder if she’s had experience getting caught before.
We strip fully naked again and we go at it for another few minutes until I ask her “what’s the craziest thing you’ve ever done in public?” She smiles and says “nothing really.” I ask her if she's ever doen something adventurous like having sex in public. She says no but that sounds pretty wild. Kentucky seemed intrigued at the idea, but also not like she was fully sold on the idea. I didn't want to risk a member of my family coming home and catching us in the act, plus I was irritated at having to keep on lookout and pausing during sex. I suggested that we get out of my house and head down to a park down the street from my house. We get dressed and she uses the bathroom briefly. We grab our things and I mention how I wanted to smoke a cig real quick before we go. We go downstairs and out the door to my patio.
This is the part where I believe I fucked it up. I light up my cig and she comments on how it’s a beautiful night, since she lives right on the lake and the weather is a lot colder up where she lives. We make some chit-chat but I notice she crosses her arms. I’m sitting on an old mini-fridge and she’s sitting on a chair perpendicular to me, with her legs crossed and pointed towards me, yet her arms are crossed too. There were some silences while we were out here, but she did keep reengaging and asking me some questions while I was smoking. I believe this is the point where she asked me what my plans were after college. I tell her I’m most likely getting out of my state and trying to move to the big city, but that I’m not 100% sure what my plans are and that I still have a year to figure things out. We kiss a few times in between talking and to make sure she’s still receptive to my advances. I finish my cig and we head inside to go through the front door. We have a futon downstairs and I was debating just fucking her there, but she was already up the stairs and I wanted to commit to my decision and not make myself seem indecisive.
Transition to The Park
I lock the door and we get in my car, and drive to the park down the street. We keep making chit-chat and we pull in to the park. We get out and start walking towards the trail in the woods. I know that this prob seemed sketchy but I didn't want to do it in the middle of the field and risk getting caught by a park ranger, cuz that happened to a buddy of mine before at this park a few years ago. She made a joke casually about if this is the part where I take her in the woods and kill her. I kind of expected a comment along those lines, but still didn’t like it. I kept my cool and told her “c’mon you should’ve picked up on that I’m not that type of guy by now and that this is spontaneous and adventurous.” Kentucky says “I don’t know, this may be a little too adventurous for me.” I told her what she thought about me so far and said that our friend Logan said I was the genuine deal. I asked her if she thought that was true and she said “yeah” and I told her I thought that she was down-to-earth and genuine as well.
We go into the opening of the trail and start walking the trail for 30 feet or so, and I stop her and we start making out in the middle of the trail. It was dark out and after 10 pm at this point. She stops me with a huge smile on her face and starts trying to push me backwards towards the woods. She says “just go here, just go over here.” I tell her no let's go over here and lead her to the opposite side, contrary to where she wanted us to go just so it didn't seem like I was allowing her to control and lead the interaction.
We end up against a tree and start making out. I start grabbing her ass and slip my hands under her pants and continue to grab. I gradually move my fingers around to her pubic area and start fingering her. She started getting really wet and she kept losing her balance from the pleasure. I kept telling her I got her while I kept fingering her. Meanwhile I put her hand on my cock over my pants, and she slips her hand through and starts playing with it. Eventually she tells me "your turn." I take my hand out of her pants, while she starts unzipping my shorts. She gets on her knees and starts blowing me. She’s going at it for a few minutes and I'm looking around to make sure the coast is clear. I see some lights in the distance, and it appeared what looked like a car pulling into the park. I heard what sounded like people talking way in the distance, and thought it might be a park ranger.
I tell her to stop and get up, and then we start walking. While we’re walking, I keep slapping her ass and she smiled every time. We walk like 20 feet and then we go by another tree off the trail, and slightly into the woods. She made a comment about there being snakes in the woods and how there’s trees/branches as I almost tripped over one. This was the second time she mentioned something about snakes, as if she was trying to justify why the woods aren’t a good place for us to be fooling around. I laughed it off and said nah we’re good, there's no snakes here. She said “snakes are in every woods and so are trees/branches, etc.” In hindsight, I should’ve calibrated properly and got us out of there but Idk why I didn’t. By this point I started picking up that she really wasn't ready for sex in this environment.
We start making out against another tree and I put her hand on my dick and whip it out through my pants. She starts playing with it while we're making out and I start to go for her vag, trying to pull her pants down slightly so I could stick it in aaaaand BAM! Resistance for the first time tonight, even though I already penetrated her earlier. I pull back and say stop but as soon as I got close to her face, she kept initiating kissing. I prob. shouldn't have rewarded her "bad" behavior but I don't know what I was thinking. We kept kissing and what not and I tried to go for it again and she said "uhh uhh uhh." Great. At this point I was kicking myself in disbelief at how I stubbornly got myself into this situation. I told her to whip out her tits just to get some compliance, which she did without questioning. We kept kissing some more and I started sucking on her tits to suck me off and she said she just was while we were over there previously, but I said "yeah, but we had to move."
She starts sucking me off again and I keep telling her how mouth feels really good, how she looks so sexy sucking my dick, etc. I tell her straight up I want to fuck her and she flat out says “no.” I let her blow me for another minute while I’m trying to come up with a way to lead this towards sex. She kept blowing me for a little and then I grabbed her underneath her armpits and raised her up and we somehow got into kissing. I backed off but she kept initiating kissing. I don't remember all the details but at some point I tried one last time to go for it (within reason, I started caressing her first and started grabbing her ass under her pants and tried to make my way to her vagina, but she wouldn't let me.
She kept kissing me though as soon as my face got close to hers, even though I was just trying to talk. I must admit my game started getting sloppy after all this resistance and then she says that we should get going back to my house because she has a long drive home (hour and ten minutes) and that she has a lot of stuff to do tomorrow. She was really calm about it though, not abruptly like she was in fear that something bad was gonna happen. I asked her what time and she said she has to be somewhere by noon. Okay? We started kissing again and I told her to let me know if she doesn’t feel comfortable and she tells me “I don’t feel comfortable.” My thought process was to show that I genuinely was concerned for her and wanted her to feel safe, but I'm thinking I shouldn't have verbally said anything but whatever. Better be safe than risk any slightest potential legal trouble. I must admit I was kinda fazed by her saying she feels uncomfortable and was kinda silent for a few seconds after she said it. I finally said “come on let's get out of here.”
We start walking back to the opening of the trail by the field and she starts asking me if I come to this park a lot to exercise and walk the trail, etc. I told her we used to a decent amount as kids to play football, kickball, and other active type stuff, but that I haven’t been here very often lately. On our way to the cars there’s some bathrooms up there and I tell her that I’m thirsty and I wanted to go see if there’s a drinking fountain, which was true. I also noticed that she was eyeing the bathrooms too. We keep walking and there’s a light on in the women’s bathroom. I thought maybe someone went in there and she made a comment about how those lights were on ever since we got there. I walk over to the men’s which was right next to it and see if it’s open, but it’s locked. While I was checking, I glanced over at her and she seemed like she wanted them to be unlocked by the face she made.
We made our way to my car and I turned it on and said I need to let it warm up for a minute or two. I just put my hand on her face and she leans in towards me and starts kissing me. I expose my neck and she starts kissing it while I rub her leg. I gradually make my way up and start rubbing my hand up and down her vag outside her pants for a few strokes, and I’m watching her legs gradually close together and she finally says “let’s head back.” I say “how about we get in the back and talk while the car warms up.” She says “I really ought to be going” but I attempt to persist and say “the car needs to warm up first, let’s head in the back just for a minute or two and talk while it’s warming up” and then says “okay” and we head to the backseat.
So, we get in the back and she’s leaning with her back against the door and we exchanged a few words, but I did notice her crossing her arms and read that as a bad sign. I grab her leg and put it across my lap and kind of held it there. I ask her to flex her leg and she flexes and I made some comment about how her legs feel strong or something idk the exact words. She makes a comment about how she’s always had thunder thighs and I laugh. We somehow get into kissing again and I get on top of her attempting to go for sex in the backseat and she says “ok we should get going.” We start to sit up and I tell her “the car’s still warming up it’ll just be another minute or two” when she says “just kiss me” said in a way that she didn’t want us to go beyond kissing, not that she wanted me to kiss her to restart the escalation process.
I started to tell her that she doesn’t need to worry about me judging her as a slut because I think it’s unfair society expects girls to behave all ladylike, and that everybody loves sex. She said that’s true it is unfair and she completely agrees with me, but that she’s not worried about me judging her because first off she’s not a slut (doesn’t every girl say that? haha), and second that she “just met me.” Lmao really?? We already hooked up and went a round in the sack and she’s throwing this classic shit-test at me.
It’s clear to me now that I officially fucked up somewhere along the way, but I couldn’t decipher when and what the mistake(s) made was, nor what I needed to do to correct it. I started thinking about how I had this girl in my bed and was balls deep in her, but stupidly decided to do a logistics change and how I couldn’t believe how it led to this. I was chill and told her in a playful way that “no we met at the party a month back and this is our second time seeing each other.” She said yeah but that she’s still getting to know me and she doesn’t just do that. I laughed and told her we already hooked up and started to talk about how people aren’t real with each other before sex, because they have that hanging over their heads and both sides usually hide a lot of their true selves to try and impress the opposite sex (not the exact words but something along those lines). She said that that’s true and that she absolutely agreed with me. I think at this point I told her “Come sit up closer cuz I feel like there’s an ocean between us.” She laughed and sat up next to me.
I don’t remember the dialogue exactly and how our conversation led to this part, but at one point I tried a hail-mary and attempted to use the suggestion from Ricardus’s “How to Get Laid Every Time” series about telling her we should just be friends. Except, I did it sort of clumsily and didn’t have the frame to back it up. I go “you know, maybe we should just stay friends” and she says “I never said I wanted to be more than friends.” I say “yeah, it’s just that I feel if we don’t have the kind of chemistry where we can’t keep our hands off of each other, then it’s probably better off if we stay friends. You’re a cool, genuine girl and everything and I can introduce you to some of the guys in my fraternity.” She doesn’t seem fazed and goes like “ok” then leans back against the car door. I must admit she played me pretty well here.
We started talking some more and she asked me why my friends in my fraternity call me “the narc.” I told her to give me head and I’d tell her, she says “tell me first”. I say I’ll tell her while she’s going down on me and she giggles. I tell her it’s a long story and she says “I got time” (hmmm… thought she had to go cuz she has a lot of stuff to do tomorrow starting sooo early at noon haha). I call her on it and say “oh I thought you had to go because you had a lot of stuff to do tomorrow.” She laughs and goes “I do.” I told her not to worry about it and that she’ll hear the story another time. I’m a little fuzzy on some details of the dialogue exchange but I remember we got into kissing again and I stopped and go “we shouldn’t be doing this, we just met” and she starts laughing and says “I hate you so much right now.” She goes on to say “I feel like you’re throwing shade at me.” I ask her what that means and she says she can’t get a read on me, and that I’m very mysterious.
I look at the clock and kind of zone out. She asks me why I’m zoning and I tell her I had a few things on my mind from earlier today. I started to go into telling her then decide against while she says “ok” and laughs a little. I say I’m getting pretty hungry and that I need to grab a snack when we get back to my place and I ask her if she would be down to grab a little snack to eat and she says “sure.” We get back in the front and we drive back to my place down the road. We’re driving and I believe she mentions something about how the whole time she was under the impression that we were just gonna be getting ice cream. I laugh and say “yeah it’s funny how one thing led to another.” I also say that she drove over an hour to come visit me and that she must’ve liked something about me. I ask her why she was curious and asking my buddy (Logan) questions about me. She says “I thought you were cute and I like to say yes to opportunities.” She said if she didn’t come out and visit me she would be at home staying in, watching Netflix or reading a book.
Back at My Place
We pull in and I notice that none of my family came home yet. That’s when I really kicked myself because the whole reason I suggested we leave in the first place was because I didn’t want to risk my little brother or my mom coming home. I told my dad earlier that I had a girl coming over so I wasn’t worried about him.
We get out of the car and she goes “actually, I think I’m just gonna go.” I say “are you sure? I thought we were gonna kick it and talk for a few minutes.” She says “we were just talking and hanging in the car.” I laugh and say “that doesn’t count, we were cramped in a car that’s not very comfortable conversation. Just come in for a few minutes and the you can leave whenever you want. Don’t let me hold you against your will.” She smiles and says “oh no no no, I’m a big independent girl who makes her own decisions. If I didn’t want to go inside I would just leave.” I laugh and say “okay sounds good miss independent girl.” There was some dialogue earlier in the night where she said how she's an independent, big girl and knows how to take care of herself.
We go inside and take off our shoes and head upstairs to the kitchen. I offer her a snack and point out that we have a variety of fruit on the table and if she eats fruit. She says “yeah” and whatnot, but politely declines and food or drink. I grab a pear and we start chatting about my nickname. I said I’ll finally tell her since she’s been patient. I tell her the story and ask her if she has any nicknames. She says “no, not really” but proceeds to tell me a story about how in middle school some kids would poke fun at her and this guy that liked each other but weren’t officially a couple. She said they called her “jizzabella” and “jizzy” for short. I started laughing and she did too as her face got red. I lightly teased her about it and suggested we head to the couch in the living room, but as we head out of the kitchen I make a comment on how she’s an interesting/cool girl and that she has a charming personality. She says “thank you” and we take a seat on the couch.
We talk for a few minutes while her legs are across my lap and my hands on her thigh, while the other one is clasped with her hand. I start swaying her hand/arm back and forth and it’s brought up again how she thought this whole time we were gonna get ice cream. I respond by saying “yeah, here we were hanging out supposed to get ice cream, and it’s funny how one thing led to another” and she nods in agreement. She starts closing her eyes and mentions how she feels like she’s gonna fall asleep on the couch. I prob shouldn’t have said this, but kinda tried to throw a hail-mary out there and tell she could prob spend the night if she wanted to, so she doesn’t risk falling asleep behind the wheel. She laughs a little and says that she wouldn’t be comfortable meeting my family so soon and whatnot. I tell her yeah that’s how a lot of our generation feels nowadays about that kind of stuff.
I glance at the clock and it’s slightly after 11pm and make a comment on how she has quite a drive back home. She says “yeah, I should really get going” and I say “alright let’s go.” She gets up and we go downstairs by the door and I make a comment on how I’m glad our paths crossed and how our buddy introduced us. I forget what she says exactly but I escort her outside and we kiss goodbye a few times. Our arms are around each other's’ waists and I mention how we should hang again next weekend and how she’s a pretty cool gal. She giggles and says “thanks, you’re a pretty cool girl too.” Idk what that was supposed to mean but it was sad in kind of a sarcastic/joking tone.
She starts walking to her car (parked in my street) and we say goodbye. I tell her to have a safe drive home and tell her to text me when she gets home. She makes some sort of statement but I couldn’t hear her and said a final goodbye, then turned around and went inside. I stepped out back on the patio and smoked a cg as I reflected on the night’s events. This is where my blood started to boil as I couldn’t believe that I was impulsive enough do a location change due to unnecessary paranoia that didn’t even come to fruition. We were at the park for about an hour and nobody had still come home. I start thinking about what to text her to assure her she wasn’t just some hook-up and that I wanted to see her again. Also, part of me was concerned about possible legal trouble just because it seemed sketchy that we went to a park and slightly into the woods, so I wanted to do my best to prevent sex regret. I'll admit, I am slightly neurotic about false rape accusations. I'm calibrated enough to know where to draw the line, but honestly I feel like a guy can be accused of sexual assault for the slightest escalation nowadays. This is prob. not healthy of me to think in this manner, but I am working on it.
About 50 mins after she leaves I text her the following:
Me: “Hey Bella tonight was wonderful! I’m glad we met and are getting to know each other so well…you’re a pretty great gal. Text me to know u got home safe
About 25 mins later my message says “read” and she texts me:
Not sure what to think about her not wanting me to tell anyone. I didn’t plan it to begin with and truly don’t like to reveal details about my escapades, at least not to my frat buddies since a lot of them are freshman/sophomores and have pretty big mouths, because they’re still kinda immature. Also, I don’t know if she said that because she was afraid I was gonna tell our mutual friend (Logan) who hooked us up, and whom she’s slept with before. We did talk about frat biys earlier in the night and she says how most of the ones she’s met have been immature and ignorant, but that I and my fraternity did not fit that bill. I started busting her stones when she said this earlier in the night, and turned on her saying “oh so that means I’m ignorant and what not” and she got defensive saying “no no no I don’t think that of you at all blah blah blah.” So, maybe she thought I was the type to kiss and tell and she wanted to reassurance that I wasn’t going to.
Anyways, I was really hoping to turn this girl into my first fuckbuddy but I doubt if I’ll see her again. I think I really fucked it up tonight judging by how things went. I haven’t texted her since late Saturday night and am hoping she’ll text me first this week, but we’ll see.
Regardless of how the night eventually turned out, I’m really proud of myself for this lay. I feel like I did a lot wrong, but also a decent amount right (at least in the beginning). This was my first time having a girl meet me at my place to go on a “date” and also my first official daytime and fully sober lay. Honestly, the last date I’ve been on was over 3 years ago with a girl I got fro-yo with ironically enough. The fact that I got this girl to comply in driving over an hour to come straight to my place, and then undressing her and being balls deep in her within the hour makes me realize that I have a knack for fast sex. Literally, all my lays so far have been fast sex and same day/night, even though this is only lay #3 for me. This really helped me shatter some limiting beliefs about myself and I can’t wait for the next lay
.This really did a lot for my confidence and I can sense my inner pimp starting to rise to the surface, although I still have much, much to learn.
