I'm asking if going to a rehab with no girls right now would be a tragic mistake.
So let's say for the sake of argument I quit tomorrow. I'm breaking my own heart too here, of course. What happens then is, I'll have to have a phone call with the people of the rehab and I'm not prepared to have that conversation, where you tell them, yeah I want to go and my parents want me to go. either that or i keep kicking the can, but I have to tell my parent's that I don't want to go anymore and want a professional therapist to talk to first.
It's a catholic thing, kids from catholic families that have trouble coping. A farm out of state. You physical labor and relgious stuff. You have to do corny stuff and it's not going to be fun. It's going to be 6 months to 3 years. You could get out sooner only if you were super determined. They really prefer it to be a long term stay.
I'm SUPER PARANOID if you guys haven't noticed. I'm paranoid about this, like I am of everything. Why do they make sure you understand it's a fraternity before you join? That's the way it's phrased. weird.
I never wanted to join a frat in college. Too paranoid and too scared of hazing. Also thought I was better than them. 'I don't need it to have friends!'
But joining a frat that doesn't have sorority girls in the equation? Sounds weird. Why do they go out of their way to say it that way.
And right now I'm gaining momentum with girls. Every time I move, it ruins me, like really bad. And that's when there is girls in the new living situation.
Now I go, and I'm gonna sober up, get my body nice and limber, that's all well and good. Chill and pray and do some male bonding. That's assuming I'm not super depressed the whole time as a result of not getting pussy.
But then, when I come back, what if everything's passed me by? What if I'm not hot shit anymore?
Remember, I'm this supposedly hot guy that comes off autistic, but I'm actually socially retarded and high all the time. In my life story, I am very resentful at my strict religious upbringing and my super religious phase in the beginning of college for keeping me deprived of pussy. So this would be more of the same. I basically already decided not to go...but I am stringing a lot of people along at this point, my parents and two people at the rehab now.