FU Rape me if you can. Maybe I'll get it then.

[Railer]

Hey it's Idiot again.

Today I chat up a young girl at the bus station for staring at concrete sucks.

Inside a big group in school uniform; A girl is looking at me. I smile, she smiles back. She doesn't know what an idiot I am. Obviously. Another one states: "What beautiful eyes!" "Thanks. Your's too!" - even idiots know some basic manners. The guy comments on her directness. "... but if he does have beautiful eyes!", she states. They get into a discussion on eye beauty. Idiot leans back onto the window.

Besides the school guys there's an old guy sitting right behind me. It's strange beeing flirted to by girls half my age with somebody double my age so close by. But hell, I've lost my wits already. What else is there to loose?

Feeling hot, I take off my sweater. "What a nice sweater!", I hear another girl scream. I look at her laughing. She's a beauty too. Hell, she gives me thumbs up after stating "You're a complete success." She actually said that. Wow. "You you may all have a piece. Luckily for you, I got two eyes." How witty idiot can be. Impressing.

I'm really starting to get curious about that group. At least I can get out at the same bus station ... it's the mall. Yeah. I pass them, but once inside the eye-girl and one of her friends cross me. Three times. She's following me.

It's obvious. I could just talk to her, hand her my number and find her message on my phone back at home, right? But I'm an idiot. Remember? Apart from that one comment I state in one instant, I cannot make myself talk to her.

Then, I am all: "next time she crosses me, I'll chat her up, I'll ask her name, and say X in order to hand her my number. Really!" Just that there is no next time, this time. She's gone. I stroll around aimlessly until I finally give up and go home. On my way I realize that through her, I could've even gotten to know the other hot girl. Another thing to beat myself up with. Cool.

I'm sure, if she had just ripped off her clothes and thrown herself at me, I would have actually realized that I'm welcome to talk to her. I guess.

Oh man, being an idiot is tough sometimes. People just like you for no reason, but you don't know how to handle it.

 

[Marcellus]

Bro, Da fuq? Your not an Idiot!
What's with all the negativity and poor self esteem?

 

[thedude]

Cut the bullshit kiddo otherwise you'e gonna go nowhere fast.

And change your name

 

[Ree]

Lol....nice
U know what i like,how it feels bad to mess up
Most men(muggles) dont feel bad when they get an invitation and dont approach
They dont even know theyv fucked up
These muggles just walk around in bliss

 

[lao che]

OP, change your name, change your language, change your thought processes. in that order.

give yourself a more proud screen-name is first. something personal, witty or cool, which fits your character. nobody asks about mine but it's a combination of a few things - first, the villain at the start of Temple of Doom (who doesn't love indiana jones!), second i used to be into Che Guevara, collected memorobilia etc, third, i live in china and i'm an old dude, Lao is old in chinese and Che is dude in argentinian spanish. so it's old dude. hahaha

then, you gotta catch yourself everytime you say something negative. change it. realize it's wrong. at first you'll be too late, but you can acknowledge it's just a bad train of thought. after time you'll catch yourself before the words leave your mouth, and in the end, with practice and mindfulness, you'll notice you don't even think that way much anymore.

believe

now. i wanna see you go back and re-write this report, from a more positive point of view. notice learning points, notice mistakes and figure out what you could have done differently and let's see you take it from there.

keep on keepin on

 

[Ree]

OP, change your name, change your language, change your thought processes. in that order.

give yourself a more proud screen-name is first. something personal, witty or cool, which fits your character. nobody asks about mine but it's a combination of a few things - first, the villain at the start of Temple of Doom (who doesn't love indiana jones!), second i used to be into Che Guevara, collected memorobilia etc, third, i live in china and i'm an old dude, Lao is old in chinese and Che is dude in argentinian spanish. so it's old dude. hahaha


keep on keepin on

Ur right about this guy...and we shd one day talk about che guevera...one of my heroes...though he did make some mistakes in bolivia...,he shud have just quit when he was ahead...

 

[Railer]

Unless it's against some forum rule, I'd rather keep my name. It allows me to be honest about my feelings and keeps me from "prestige posting". I want to get better with girls not with boys, after all.

If I do 9 things out of 10 right, but the 10th is the one that makes the difference, I don't see how focussing on the other 9 helps ... besides getting me a delusional idea of "how great I am".

Still, I appreciate your comments and suggestions!

I realize that there were times I was strongly motivated by my "cool" online identity and looking forward to post about each lay. It helped me a lot, but it just isn't the case anymore for me.

Peace, love and nuts.

 

[lao che]

It's not a rule, it's a step in the right direction.

The direction of change. Change your language, change your thought patterns.

But by keeping the name idiot, it's gonna be harder to get out of that mindset, and create a more positive influence on yourself. Because you'll always be 'idiot ' posting FRs and questions.


It's not about showing off for the boys, either. We all make mistakes. We all fuck up (I just posted a fuck up fr where I was totally in my own head)


Your screen name doesn't have to be ibangalot or mister69 or fucking crussypusher, but I am suggesting you change it to something at least neutral. Again, because it's a step in the right direction

 

[Ree]

Unless it's against some forum rule, I'd rather keep my name. It allows me to be honest about my feelings and keeps me from "prestige posting". I want to get better with girls not with boys, after all.

If I do 9 things out of 10 right, but the 10th is the one that makes the difference, I don't see how focussing on the other 9 helps ... besides getting me a delusional idea of "how great I am".

Still, I appreciate your comments and suggestions!

I realize that there were times I was strongly motivated by my "cool" online identity and looking forward to post about each lay. It helped me a lot, but it just isn't the case anymore for me.

Peace, love and nuts.

Hahah...totally feel u bro

 

[Michael]

OK, I was pretty dumbfounded by the title of this post, but I think I just figured it out: you're saying to the girl that you're so dense, the only way you'll actually realize she's attracted to you is if she rapes you. Well... I mean you actually did notice, so that's not quite true; you just didn't bite.

Guys, the negativity in this post is annoying and confusing, but it resonates with me because I've been in similar situations and felt that feeling of "if only I did X, then good thing Y would have happened." In fact, it's probably pretty common on this site: if you read about techniques and other guys' lay reports, and don't actually go meet girls and work on moving each interaction forward as far as possible, you start imagining yourself doing things and getting results, without actually doing them.

Anyway, what you're doing here now is something I do a lot too. Heck, I did it after I talked to the girl in my last field report. It's like this: you create this world in your head where you did take action, and everything magically works out because it's in your imagination. And then you tell yourself that if only you took action, all of that wonderful stuff would have happened.

This is what you imagine would have happened:

It's obvious. I could just talk to her, hand her my number and find her message on my phone back at home, right?

But there's so many things wrong with that! There's a lot of social risk that you're not acknowledging, that the part of your brain that kept you from doing it did. You could have gotten all nervous when you talked to her, and made her and her friends nervous; or she could have rejected you in front of her friends; or one of her friends could have tooled you; and I dunno, there was probably some irrational fear that the old guy would do something. And then of course, only in that magical world is it obvious that she'll actually text you, and then go out on a date with you, etc. Sure, those good things could have happened, but they also could have not happened.

Anyway, man, I recommend you change your name to something other than "Idiot", and write your future posts with a more positive attitude - it'll make people want to help you out more.

Cheers,
M

 

[Railer]

This guy is either a troll or he's jumped in the rabbit hole of Victim Mentality.

Slay, you're fucking right.

The OP should t'fuck stop whining. He appears to enjoy all the luck one can desire and is manipulating his own success for whatever fucked up reason. Get up, be a man, get out and get the girl!

He was living a half-assed identity without even noticing it. At a certain point in life he had started giving way too many fucks. He called it being "more relaxed". I call it being a sneak!

So far, his "nice and polite" mentality got him all the "nice and polite" girls. Now it's time to get to a deeper level, re-sharpen those blunt edges, display all the personality possible and live life with the passion he had simply forgotten ... step on other people's toes and enjoy how intensely those super hot 10's crave his cock, begging him to love them - over and over again.

Yes, that OP was me. And he wasn't.