First post in the journal (I should've had one Eve before the forum's name was changed lol.
The weird thing for me is how much fast progress I was making with this content coupled up with having somebody to feed off (EXTREMELY IMPORTANT IF YOU WANT TO LEARN FASTER) plus utilizing a different personality type. It was crazy and exciting.
Only problem was the same one I have right now. I wasn't getting the kinds of girls I actually wanted...
But back then it was easier. I didnt really much standard back then. I just wanted to get laid and have fun with girls. But now i have been through a few girls and i have found that everything with these kind of girls feel... empty.
Another thing that really changed my views was when i was getting close with a "love at first sight" girl i used to have when i was younger but wasn't ready for skill-wise. My time with her was better than all the other girls combined and she saw straight through me.
She told me that my personality was way different than before and that she wouldn't choose me if I was like this those years back.
I had her then list out what she actually appreciated about me and she was mostly honest about it. Didnt do anything to turn me into a bitch.
I knew these traits would be special to me because she is my type and cultivating those special traits (which is supposed to be normal for me but I think I lost it) is the key to getting girls I most want.
It's a struggle finding them though but I guess I'm just not trying hard enough though. I suspect it's my suburb (I love it in the city but it's way to expensive with everything that is against us in this country) and not I'm not from USA lol.
But yeah, trying harder and being more curious instead of down in the dumps trapped in my room just watching movies or playing games. Those things don't entertain me anyway.
I'm hardwired to constantly want success in real life things and if I don't have success for too long, those thoughts haunt me until I do. I think normal people can turn those thoughts off or ignore it. I can't.
I think it's a blessing.
The weird thing for me is how much fast progress I was making with this content coupled up with having somebody to feed off (EXTREMELY IMPORTANT IF YOU WANT TO LEARN FASTER) plus utilizing a different personality type. It was crazy and exciting.
Only problem was the same one I have right now. I wasn't getting the kinds of girls I actually wanted...
But back then it was easier. I didnt really much standard back then. I just wanted to get laid and have fun with girls. But now i have been through a few girls and i have found that everything with these kind of girls feel... empty.
Another thing that really changed my views was when i was getting close with a "love at first sight" girl i used to have when i was younger but wasn't ready for skill-wise. My time with her was better than all the other girls combined and she saw straight through me.
She told me that my personality was way different than before and that she wouldn't choose me if I was like this those years back.
I had her then list out what she actually appreciated about me and she was mostly honest about it. Didnt do anything to turn me into a bitch.
I knew these traits would be special to me because she is my type and cultivating those special traits (which is supposed to be normal for me but I think I lost it) is the key to getting girls I most want.
It's a struggle finding them though but I guess I'm just not trying hard enough though. I suspect it's my suburb (I love it in the city but it's way to expensive with everything that is against us in this country) and not I'm not from USA lol.
But yeah, trying harder and being more curious instead of down in the dumps trapped in my room just watching movies or playing games. Those things don't entertain me anyway.
I'm hardwired to constantly want success in real life things and if I don't have success for too long, those thoughts haunt me until I do. I think normal people can turn those thoughts off or ignore it. I can't.
I think it's a blessing.