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I was going to post this at a local cafe but despite NYC being what it is, no cafes are really open that much later after 9 PM, my place has shitty wifi. I've written this out a few times until it resonated to the point that I wanted to post it. The past few days I have woken up and felt such a powerful rush that I cannot explain it, life is unreal, it is like I have seen a light that has freed me. I cried when I realized it....
Living in the past really sucks guys.....
It isn't even the bad memories, it is the helplessness you develop. Knowing that you cannot change anything about it and crying over what you cannot change, which destroys the present and messes up your future. I was depressed from the past relating to my current lack of a social life and it was a never-ending misery cycle. It was made worse by the fact that the social life I longed for, no one was really living. I had so much to be grateful for but I was miserable, not enjoying the money, nice job, and a date every week from just dating apps alone (who knows what I could do with cold approaching). Feeling as if I'll never have great social experiences with lots of cool people because I never peaked in high school or college was kind of gut-wrenching, despite all I had going for me, maybe that is why we have so many miserable rich people.
But I woke up, it was so fucking awesome, it's unreal. The day you wake up and ask yourself What's Possible? What can be? What could be? What can we do? is a powerful day compared to asking What could have been?
Adulthood they say.....
Miserable, lonely, your best days behind you, boring, bland, lame, and the way war gets declared on this stage of life.
But I realized that adulthood is not a mortgage, kids, house and a wife as you kiss the fun goodbye. Adulthood is this powerful phenomenon where whatever happens to you in life is because of you.
Maybe your high school experience was awesome because you had rich parents who got you nice shit and put you with other rich kids so you had fun, maybe it sucked because you grew up poor and had a shitty family. Maybe your college experience was awesome because your rich parents paid for you to go to school to party, study whatever you want, and fuck around. Maybe it sucked because you had overbearing parents that tried to micromanage your college days or you were just too broke to really fit in with the rich kids.
Adulthood is powerful because you can't blame your rich or poor parents, you can't blame your shitty teachers, you can only blame yourself. Adulthood is fair because it is the wild wild west where only the fittest survive and thrive. It is actually accepting that you are going to go places in life because of the risks, actions, and mindset you have and not because of your rich parents. It applies to just about anything in life whether it is dating and meeting women, making money, and having the finger things.
If you want to work a 9 to 5 in a field you like, YOU CAN. If you want to quit your 9 to 5 to work at a nightclub, YOU CAN (struggled with this dilemma at times). If you want to fuck a lot of random women, YOU CAN. If you want to say fuck it and just backpack around the world, YOU CAN. If you want to stay in all day, YOU CAN. There are no classes, annoying teachers, or having to be around people you do not want to be around. Adulthood is freedom, it is TRUE FREEDOM.
And most people SUCK at that, they suck at adulthood, hence all the longing for high school and college days.
Most people want to be spoon-fed everything, including sex and friendships. Most people want to be spoonfed what to do because they hate figuring it all out. Most people let themselves go and go down the same marriage with kids and a mortgage path, looking down on those who decided to pursue their life purpose. Most people cannot make it happen for themselves, they're drones, they need someone to play them like a puppet so they can be idle throughout it all. This is why everyone talks about high school and college in such a great light, you never needed to really work on making anything happen, you were a hamster in your cage with water and a wheel to keep you busy. It is all to cater to the masses.
Anytime you have dreams, goals, and try to compare yourself to the masses, it deflates you.
I thought of all the awesome shit that can be done in adulthood and there is a lot of awesome shit!
1. Travel to an awesome place with a cool tour company
2. Bartend at a nightclub
3. Sleep with the various kinds of hot girls out there
4. Make money creating a kickass Instagram account with cool travel photos
5. Buy shit you could never afford as a kid
6. Sleep in awesome places, like luxury awesome places
7. Go to premier parties on the planet like Thailand Full Moon
8. Appearing on a TV show
So what about that social life and friendships thing?
You know, I am still unclear on that to a degree. So much of it relies on the fact that you hope others didn't fuck up and are still on the market as friends who are cool people with cool stuff going on, that way you have a community. But I realized something, if I live some of my goals outside of social life, friendships, community, and that need to belong to something bigger than myself, even if that sense of community never happens, I would have had a really fucking awesome life.
An awesome life of awesome travels to awesome places and awesome sex with lots of hot women.
It would have been a hell of a story with hell of awesome experiences.
I could die just having that and not having the social life and sense of belonging I wanted and it would have still been an awesome life. Sure a social life and a crew of great people would make it better but the consolation prize is pretty fucking neat.
Plus I have you guys to tell it to.
It's refreshing, a hell of a way to wake up and realize that you have a lot to look forward to instead of crying about something to look back on.
Living in the past really sucks guys.....
It isn't even the bad memories, it is the helplessness you develop. Knowing that you cannot change anything about it and crying over what you cannot change, which destroys the present and messes up your future. I was depressed from the past relating to my current lack of a social life and it was a never-ending misery cycle. It was made worse by the fact that the social life I longed for, no one was really living. I had so much to be grateful for but I was miserable, not enjoying the money, nice job, and a date every week from just dating apps alone (who knows what I could do with cold approaching). Feeling as if I'll never have great social experiences with lots of cool people because I never peaked in high school or college was kind of gut-wrenching, despite all I had going for me, maybe that is why we have so many miserable rich people.
But I woke up, it was so fucking awesome, it's unreal. The day you wake up and ask yourself What's Possible? What can be? What could be? What can we do? is a powerful day compared to asking What could have been?
Adulthood they say.....
Miserable, lonely, your best days behind you, boring, bland, lame, and the way war gets declared on this stage of life.
But I realized that adulthood is not a mortgage, kids, house and a wife as you kiss the fun goodbye. Adulthood is this powerful phenomenon where whatever happens to you in life is because of you.
Maybe your high school experience was awesome because you had rich parents who got you nice shit and put you with other rich kids so you had fun, maybe it sucked because you grew up poor and had a shitty family. Maybe your college experience was awesome because your rich parents paid for you to go to school to party, study whatever you want, and fuck around. Maybe it sucked because you had overbearing parents that tried to micromanage your college days or you were just too broke to really fit in with the rich kids.
Adulthood is powerful because you can't blame your rich or poor parents, you can't blame your shitty teachers, you can only blame yourself. Adulthood is fair because it is the wild wild west where only the fittest survive and thrive. It is actually accepting that you are going to go places in life because of the risks, actions, and mindset you have and not because of your rich parents. It applies to just about anything in life whether it is dating and meeting women, making money, and having the finger things.
If you want to work a 9 to 5 in a field you like, YOU CAN. If you want to quit your 9 to 5 to work at a nightclub, YOU CAN (struggled with this dilemma at times). If you want to fuck a lot of random women, YOU CAN. If you want to say fuck it and just backpack around the world, YOU CAN. If you want to stay in all day, YOU CAN. There are no classes, annoying teachers, or having to be around people you do not want to be around. Adulthood is freedom, it is TRUE FREEDOM.
And most people SUCK at that, they suck at adulthood, hence all the longing for high school and college days.
Most people want to be spoon-fed everything, including sex and friendships. Most people want to be spoonfed what to do because they hate figuring it all out. Most people let themselves go and go down the same marriage with kids and a mortgage path, looking down on those who decided to pursue their life purpose. Most people cannot make it happen for themselves, they're drones, they need someone to play them like a puppet so they can be idle throughout it all. This is why everyone talks about high school and college in such a great light, you never needed to really work on making anything happen, you were a hamster in your cage with water and a wheel to keep you busy. It is all to cater to the masses.
Anytime you have dreams, goals, and try to compare yourself to the masses, it deflates you.
I thought of all the awesome shit that can be done in adulthood and there is a lot of awesome shit!
1. Travel to an awesome place with a cool tour company
2. Bartend at a nightclub
3. Sleep with the various kinds of hot girls out there
4. Make money creating a kickass Instagram account with cool travel photos
5. Buy shit you could never afford as a kid
6. Sleep in awesome places, like luxury awesome places
7. Go to premier parties on the planet like Thailand Full Moon
8. Appearing on a TV show
So what about that social life and friendships thing?
You know, I am still unclear on that to a degree. So much of it relies on the fact that you hope others didn't fuck up and are still on the market as friends who are cool people with cool stuff going on, that way you have a community. But I realized something, if I live some of my goals outside of social life, friendships, community, and that need to belong to something bigger than myself, even if that sense of community never happens, I would have had a really fucking awesome life.
An awesome life of awesome travels to awesome places and awesome sex with lots of hot women.
It would have been a hell of a story with hell of awesome experiences.
I could die just having that and not having the social life and sense of belonging I wanted and it would have still been an awesome life. Sure a social life and a crew of great people would make it better but the consolation prize is pretty fucking neat.
Plus I have you guys to tell it to.
It's refreshing, a hell of a way to wake up and realize that you have a lot to look forward to instead of crying about something to look back on.
