The journey from a Spark to a passionate, unstoppable Inferno

[Devilicious]

The creation of a little spark is a monumental, magical thing. It didn`t exist, and then, all of a sudden, it was there.

The little spark will in most cases, with nothing to protect it from the ferocious indifference of the world, sputter out again into transcending nothingness.

However, if the conditions are right, if the spark is shielded from the elements, and given a place to grow, it will be able to sustain itself. Fragile at first, and then with growing confidence, it will grow from a spark to a roaring fire.

Add oil to the mix, or give it a dry, unprotected forest, and it will transform into a blistering inferno, and nothing will dare stand in its way.

Every spark has the potential to became that blazing inferno, yet almost none do. Why is that?

It is because of its environment. And we, too, as humans, are molded accordingly.

As children, we are like sponges. We are a little spark which is to light a fireplace, and so we are taught everything we need to know in order to fulfill that predefined purpose. The teacher, of course, is society. A society seeks stability, and so it indoctrinates its members into being stable, so it may survive.

In doing so, however, it robs us of our free will, or ability to chose what to do with our lives, and how to live them. This is not entirely true, however, for one can not rob us of that choice, but one can shove out and condemn other choices.

I am a man who wants to be free of the chains of society that hold me down. I wish to live my life to the fullest, full of beauty, love, and personal success and development. And I will stop at nothing to achieve this. The times of openly slaughtering ones enemies are over, but if they weren`t, that is exactly what I would do, if I could.

I have a fire burning inside of me, and I want to fuel it to that searing inferno, and bring it out to play.

But to do that, I have to defeat the worst of all enemies: myself.

I have been brought up as a weakling, a pushover. My early childhood was one of happiness and creativity, but moving to a harsh, foreign country whose language I didn`t even speak beat that out of me. I was a loner, albeit never a loser. My inner flame was damped, but not put out.

Still, my life is still dominated by my insecurities and my fears. I hate it, I hate my current relative inability to simply go and tell a woman I find her beautiful, and will do everything I can to rid myself of anything holding me back from living my life as I wish to live it. Above all, I want to learn the skill of seducing women, of getting in bed with them, and enjoying all their femininity has to offer.


This journal will be that journey. This will be where I will write down all my setbacks, my successes, that which I wish to learn, and that which I learnt. I will be open to tips and advice, for I know you guys have already travelled down the path I wish to go, and I appreciate anything I can learn from you.

I would like to finish off this rather lengthy introduction by profoundly thanking everyone on the Girlschase team. Chase, for introducing me to new possibilities and advancing my mindset, Hector, whose articles resonated deeply within me, and many more. A part of this team, I believe, is everyone posting their findings and lay reports on this forum as well; reading them has given me an insight on how seduction looks like, and showing me your mindset.

Since this is a progression, I shall perhaps show where I am currently at.

I am a later teenager at time of writing this, and will go to University next year. I live in small country in central Europe, and am a beginner when it comes to women. I love them, and know they love sex, yet have not fucked one yet. We`ll see how long that lasts for!
I am very ambitious, and am wary of calling myself intelligent, but others tell me so.

With that said, I look forwards to my journy from the spark that is an inexperienced seducer to the inferno that is the man I wish to become, who is, among other things, a master seducer of the beautiful creatures we call women.


See you at the other side!

 

[Hue]

Devilicious,

Hell yea man. This is inspiring shit right here. Just subscribed to the post.

Looking forward to see you progress. Remember that initial inferno brotha.


Hue

 

[Straza]

Yeah cool launch, hope to see more of you. The beginning is the hardest part man. Keep the fire and get through it

 

[Devilicious]

Thanks for the support guys, I appreciate it

I decided that if I already start writing down my progress, I can add little things as well. Today, I was extremely busy: school, projects and hitting the gym all kept my mind away from stranger women, but on my way back from the gym, I took the tram to the train station. I was running late, and I knew I`d probably have to run in order to catch my train.

So, I enter the tram, and lo behold, a dark skinned girl with hazel brown eyes behind large glasses is sitting near the entrance. I start walking towards her, and she glances at me, and looks away again. The seat next to her is hard to get to and there are plenty of free seats, so I sit down slightly behind her, diagonally. As I do so, I see her turn her head to see where I am sitting, and I know that there is at least some interest there. During the ride, I contemplate standing up and approaching her, but the stupid habit of not approaching wins out in the end. When I arrive at my stop, however, I go and simply tell her "Hi".

She takes off her headphones and looks at me, giving me a tiny smile, but then looks away again, as if she wasn`t sure if I had said anything. I, being stupidly unprepared, start walking out of the tram, and she walks behind me, this being her stop as well. I then slow down, and am furiously thinking whether or not to reopen awkwardly and most certainly missing my train.

When she overtakes me without looking, I decide to run to my train. It was the wrong decision, I knew already while taking it, for what is a missed train compared to the experience of talking to a new girl and seeing how far I can take it? Me being in a conversation and trying out new things is a win-win for me: either I win, and perhaps get to intimacy, or I get experience and reference points. I`ll try to think of that next time.

What did I learn today? I need to be more aggressive, more assertive, and more persistent and disciplined with myself. I need to get deeper into the mindset of going after what I want, and seeing how far I can take things, being genuinely curious of where this can go.

 

[Devilicious]

Sitting in the train home while writing this on my phone.

Saw a group of 3 girls today, of which one was absolutely stunning! If she were alone, my primal instincts would never have let me NOT approach her. However, she was in a group, and so my logical mind kicked in and stopped me.

I should try to approach anyway, and see what happens. I'm programming myself to become bolder and more aggressive, and that would have been a great step forwards!

On the train, I sat next to a pretty girl with a tick of wobbling her leg constantly. I catch her looking at me and comment on her leg, smiling. She responds giggling, but after two sentances we fall into silence again. I return looking out of the windowthe window, but know I'll never forgive myself if I don't push harder. I take off my jacket and ask her if she minds if I put it on the seat next to her, and doesn't. I then say something like this: (translated into English)

Me: Yeah, that's a strategy as well: spreading your stuff out in the section of seats.

Her: Haha yeah, there were 3 people here before so I couldn't do it

Me: Smiles

Then, she looks away, and I don't reopen. Gah!

LESSONS LEARNT:

If I open her with a situational opener, ASK HER ANOTHER QUESTION. Something like "Hey, you coming from school?" would have opened a lot of conversational topics.

SPEAK LOUD AND CLEAR. I came from the gym and my voice is always quieter and not as deep after the gym (I wonder why?)
Chase explained that young women like bold, aggressive men, and a bold, aggressive man speaks LOUD and CLEAR. I don't have to shout, but I will be heard when I speak!

 

[Devilicious]

Haven't posted for two weeks; I had school holidays and needed to work on a project.

Today, first Monday after holidays, I had to hand in my project, and didn't have school after that. I arrive at school at lunchtime, and on my way there I listen to K Camp, following Hector's suggestion on an article.

I meet some people I know, and sit with them for a while. I am not the dominating force there, although I wish to be. It's a girl who talks a lot, and after a while two other girls join, one of which is a classmate of mine. She's very social, but inexperienced with men, and I missed my escalation window. In fact, I missed all escalation windows of all the pretty girls in my class, a fact which has caused me great personal disappointment in myself. Nontheless, I vow to continue bettering myself.

I decided to go try cold approaching during lunch before going home. But, I quickly encounter a problem: During lunch, all girls around my age are in walking/sitting groups of at least 2 or 3, and I'm alone.. I could approach them with balls of steel, but I can't bring myself to do it.

Interesting side note: I currently struggle a lot to cold approach girls. I don't panic and clamp up, though. Instead, it's more of a great approach uncertainty, where I'm simply not used to going up to girls and saying "Hi", and a bit.. apprehensive? Actually, yes, that's approach anxiety. Hm.

If I start thinking about whether or not to approach a girl, the chances of me actually approaching her goes down drastically. The realtively few approaches I have made all came from moments where I instantly decided, "fuck this!", and went up to her.

Back to today. Soon, lunch was over, and all the girls went back to school, leaving me with few options. I decide to walk around a bit, stay warm, and hopefully see someone to approach. What I'm left with is largely girls noticably older than me, so in the 23-26 range. Should I still approach? Not sure. Maybe the practise will help, or at least destroying AA.

Aware of my 'handicap' that is approach anxiety, I consciously made small steps there. I walked up to a sitting girl to compliment her hat, and actually ended up in a funny situation.

Two girls were walking in my direction, each holding two boxes of pasta from a popular take-away. As we near, I say: "Hey! Can you eat all of that? Because I'm starving "
I didn't expect anything, but one of them stares at me (I notice she has really pretty green eyes) and says, "sure, take mine", and hands me her box xD
I then go, "are you sure?", and she says "yeah, take it. I'm done." I smile at her and say she's a dear, and she smiles, and they walk off.
I continue walking, thinking about what just happened, looking at the box in my hands. And then I start grinning, and can't help laughing aloud at my fortune.

Free lunch!

REFLECTION:

Even though I'm nowhere near where I want to be, I'm taking small steps to get there. My most important goal currently is to annihilate approach anxiety and get cold approaching whenever I want, whoever I want.
After that, I'll set myself another goal, depending on what I can improve when actually interacting.

But first things first

 

[Devilicious]

Nearly got a lay today.

There's a girl I know from school who I used to give English tutoring (lots of compliance built up there!). However, she has a boyfriend... which doesn't stop me, honestly, since even I can see how much of a pussy he is.

A school excursion was to go skiing together and somehow I ended up with her in my group, and we flirted a lot. A few days after that, she messaged me several, spaced out parts of lovey-dovey song text. At first I replied to her messages, but once I saw she was sending it no matter what (lol), I stopped responding. She sent several more texts like that before eventually stopping. A week after her last one, she texted me:

Her: Yep, song text.

We got into conversation again, and she brought up how much of a wuss her boyfriend was, and that she wished he'd take charge. I didn't attack him as well, and instead said things like:

Me: Well, maybe he's an absolute beast in bed and you don't know anything about it?

To which she laughed, knowing it wasn't true. I then told her how important it was to lead as a man, especially in sex, and she agreed. We then talked a bit about BDSM (which I totally want to, and will, try out!), and things got really sexual real quick. She provoked a challenge when I asked her how much experience she had, and she replied by saying: "why don't you find out?" I chase frame back and ask about her logistics, which are bad, since her mom is pregnant. I then try to set up a booty call at school - since wednesday afternoon is free, and there are always free rooms. My idea is to take her there, lock the door, and fuck her brains out.

She likes the idea and agrees to go to a room, but is nervous.

Two days later, I'm in the room, having everything prepared. Condoms, making sure no janitor walks in, and an area to fuck. I text her, asking her where she is, and she asks me:

Her: You're not going to tell anyone, right?

Me: Nope. Why would I do that?

Her: To brag.

Me: No, I find that shabby.

Nonetheless, she drops the ball, since, as I later find out, her boyfriend saw my texts and got inquisitive...


All in all, never been so close to sex before. My belief in female sexuality has been revitalized and strengthened, which is a good thing. I'm always getting closer to pussy, and soon, I'll arrive. Opportunity is abundant if I can only seize it, destroy any fears holding me back, and get in touch with my own, primal, sexuality.

 

[Devilicious]

Short entry today.

Was in the city running some errands, when I came to zebra crossing with a red light. On the other side there was a gorgeos girl with black hair, blue eyes, and lovely legs tucked away in tight black pants.
"No way I can resist approaching her," I think, and wait for the light to turn green. When it does, I remain standing, and when she comes close I smile at her and say:

"Hey, you're cute. What's your name?"

She has headphones on and is walking rather quickly, and she smiles somewhat surprised at me and me and tells me her name, but makes no sign of stopping. In fact, as I open her, she keeps walking right past me, and I lightly touch her arm with two fingers. This makes her turn more in my direction, but then again, she doesn't stop, and walks off.

I shrug to myself and continue with my day, feeling a short rush of adrenalin afterwards.

I found today that when I didn't approach a girl, it wasn't primarily because of nervousness, but because of INACTION. I am working on become more aggressive and a risk-taking, assertive, aggressive man, so any step in the right direction is a good step.

LESSONS LEARNED:
Next time, maybe move to stand right in front of her? Or, pivot around when she's next to me and walk with her...

Appraoch! Approach! Approach! Destroy my comfort zone, and get APPROACHING more!
Girls are lovely, silly, horny, and cute, so APPROACH these wonderfully sexual creatures!

 

[Inowtakethelead]

Wow chilling.

 

[Inowtakethelead]

Short entry today.

Was in the city running some errands, when I came to zebra crossing with a red light. On the other side there was a gorgeos girl with black hair, blue eyes, and lovely legs tucked away in tight black pants.
"No way I can resist approaching her," I think, and wait for the light to turn green. When it does, I remain standing, and when she comes close I smile at her and say:

"Hey, you're cute. What's your name?"

She has headphones on and is walking rather quickly, and she smiles somewhat surprised at me and me and tells me her name, but makes no sign of stopping. In fact, as I open her, she keeps walking right past me, and I lightly touch her arm with two fingers. This makes her turn more in my direction, but then again, she doesn't stop, and walks off.

I shrug to myself and continue with my day, feeling a short rush of adrenalin afterwards.

I found today that when I didn't approach a girl, it wasn't primarily because of nervousness, but because of INACTION. I am working on become more aggressive and a risk-taking, assertive, aggressive man, so any step in the right direction is a good step.

LESSONS LEARNED:
Next time, maybe move to stand right in front of her? Or, pivot around when she's next to me and walk with her...

Appraoch! Approach! Approach! Destroy my comfort zone, and get APPROACHING more!
Girls are lovely, silly, horny, and cute, so APPROACH these wonderfully sexual creatures!

great post i have to work on this! Thanks

 

[Devilicious]

@Inowtakethelead

Thanks brother Glad it could help you in some way. We're all in this together!

Haven't posted much recently since I have been extremely busy with school, but I've always been slowly tweaking my behavior and flirting with girls.

A question to you guys: I have a little part of my mind which continuously and unfailingly analyses everything I do and say, and immediately gives me feedback. For example, I'd say something with a more timid voice tone, and the voice will go: Too timid! Not good. Speak up, and work on your voice tonality! and then even if I couldn't immediatly fix it, it'd be in the back of my head. Or when I act too social and not dominant or masculine enough, I'll notice it every second I do so, even if I can't immediately change it (curious, I find).

Do let me know! I'm highly interested to see how others have it.


So, one thing I tried yesterday was chase framing. I started Karate a few weeks ago and there's a girl in the advanced class which really likes me, and she's very direct. In fact, the first time I was there, she went up to me and introduced herself.

Yesterday, when my group finished and hers came in, I asked her:
"How do you find my sexy new robe?" (I got the new white Gi, as it's called)
"Verry sexy," she purred.

Teacher right next to us listening in disbelief

She then starts telling the teacher why she had missed the last few times, and I walk past her and touch her in her shoulder, and say: "excuses!"

She immediately, like instantly, turns around and caresses my shoulder, and says: "Yes, verrry sexy".

I keep walking but hold intense eye contact with her.

First time I really used a chase frame, and with an interested girl, it worked amazingly. Will definitely start using it more!

LESSONS LEARNED:
-Start integrating chase framing into my arsenal!!
-Cold approach more to try it out with more girls

 

[Devilicious]

I am struggling.

Yesterday I made a stop in the city in order to go cold approaching, even though I wasn`t feeling it. I forced myself to exit the train nonetheless, and started walking around. The time was rather unconvenient, but I`m only fooling myself here: there were plenty of girls I could have approached, if just for the practise. What actually happened, however, was that I would find myself making excuses not to approach. Things that popped up in my head:

-She`s not attractive enough
-She`s too young
-She`s too old
-She`s working and older than me(perhaps the only somewhat plausible excuse of the lot)
-...
-She doesn`t seem interested
-...

BULLSHIT. Knowing that it`s bullshit helps a little, but not much.

In fact, I went to buy a banana(I find them delicious), and when walking out of the shop, I made eye contact with a very pretty blonde with blue eyes who was standing in line to pay. We stared at each other for several moments, but my body was on auto-pilot and I just kept on walking. I couldn`t believe it. I didn`t approach girls because I thought they might not be interested, which is dumber than a loaf of bread, and then I don`t approach a beautiful girl which obviously was interested.

I did what I could, however. I complimented several girls on their jackets, talked to people around me, and generally did my best to push my comfort zone and be more social with strangers. On the train ride back home, I sat next to a girl speaking a strange language on her phone, and once her phone call finished I told her I was curious what language that was. She told me, and we talked a little, with her teaching me small phrases in her language, which I can`t remember anymore, unfortunately. Very interesting.

Right now, I am changing myself to become more arrogant, more of an asshole. I read Hectors article on Arrogant Man and took it to heart, and now I`m actively analysing situations and thinking arrogantly.
For example:
-I`m the best thing to have happened to womankind, this girl will love me.
-She`s resisting, but she`s smiling while doing so, and I know she wants me. I`m amazing, after all. I`ll keep persisting and make her submit, which I knew she secretely craves. She craves to submit and she craves sex.

WHAT TO WORK ON:
-Push Pull
-Chase framing
-Voice tonality. Speak LOUD and CLEAR and CONFIDENT/ARROGANT
-PERSIST, PERSIST, PERSIST!!!

I`ll give myself a challenge for next week, where I`ll be in a skiing camp with willing, horny girls. PERSIST as much as I possibly can, no matter if I get rejected. Until I get rejected 3 times, my job as aggressor and PERSISTOR is not done!

What I expect from this: -Rejections
-Surprise at how far I can push - I`m 100% sure I can push much further than I do now!

 

[Devilicious]

Last week I was in a ski camp, organised by the school. The hotel where we slept in was the topmost station of the mountain, which is excellent for a ski camp. What this also means is that after 5pm, everyone has to be in the same house, so no going outside (unless you want to freeze your balls off!).

It started off good; there is a girl I knew from last year which I met again, who likes me. She is, however, the girl who does the most testing I have ever seen. Every second sentence of hers is a test, in the form of an insult. Quite cute, I find, but it`s not always easy to respond. What I did most of the time was either respond arrogantly, or just tease her back, or give her a playful shove or punch. After talking to a friend of hers which I knew as well, who said she liked to be punched, I did more of that, and she responded positively. In fact, one night while playing cards, I smacked her arm with a rubber band, and she just looked at me at said: "That all you can do? That didn`t even hurt!"

Challenge accepted. I then proceed to smack the entirety of her arm and hand, with her just staring defiantly at me and telling me how it doesn`t even hurt. I tried it out on myself, and it stings! I knew she was lying, and came to the conclusion that she likes pain
For the next few days, she kept showing me her arm with the rubber band marks, which were a prominent red.

The first two days she kept this barrage of insults up, but I was largely indifferent to them. Then, one night, she kind of stopped them, and got really receptive to my touch, and liked to touch me back.

Here`s where I made a fatal mistake. It was time to eat, and almost all the tables were taken. We hadn`t eaten meals before together, but this time she was sticking by my side, asking where we should sit. There was a single seat next to my friends, and so I told her I`d sit there, and that we could meet up after dinner... WRONG. With this, I sent her into auto-rejection, and I knew it the moment I sat down, mentally smacking myself. After this, her tests came back, and although the next day, which was the last day, I flirted with her and did my best to get her back, it wasn`t quite enough to get together with her during the camp.

OTHER GIRLS:
There was a younger girl called L who was very cute, who had a very flightly and somewhat haughty manner of interacting with people. She liked attention, and in the evening would often be in pyjamas or have a blanket wrapped around her. She also painted herself a bit like a slut: when a guy told a story about a girl banging her head on the bed before sex, L said:
"Yeah, that happened to me a lot of times as well!"
Or:
"I`m labeled as a slut.. that reputation sucks."

She`d also often make sex jokes or references.

Once, in a restaurant, with her in front of me, she 'unconsciously' lifted up her shirt while talking to another girl, showing me her toned stomach, which I found very sexy. I wasn`t fooled for a second though, she wanted me to see it. In fact, since I have a six pack myself, I did something similar a year ago, while training with a group which had pretty girls. I lifted up my shirt to wipe away the sweat on my brow, thereby ' accidently' showing off my abs - and I could tell that girls would look by the way they quickly moved their heads away from my direction when I put down my shirt again. Seems like girls know of the same tactic

The last evening was party night, where the top floor with panorama view was used as a dance floor. After 11pm, I joined in, and stayed there until 2:30 am. The last 2 hours I danced with L - I am told I dance very well, and I got quite a few sexy looks by other girls there, most of which were unfortunately taken. I contemplated going for them anyways, but with their boyfriends being there as well, it would be hard, so I didn`t. Perhaps I should have, just to see what would have happened No limit!

Anyways, I danced with L and her blue haired friend, Anna, who was cute as well, and liked me. Another guy I know tried to engage L, but she didn`t really even look at him, and so he left soon after.

After the dance floor closed at 2:30 am I stayed with the two girls a bit, and after we were sent away, we sneaked into a room where mutual friends were. Here, I touched both girls rather heavily, and both of them liked it. A was more receptive, however. I started planning to pull her to the top floor and grab a blanket, but before I could, I teacher heard us through the door an came in to check, since girls weren`t allowed in mens rooms during the night. We heard him open the door and since we were standing next to it, we pressed each others against the wall on the other side, with me in the middle and both girls squashed on me. He saw us, however, and so we had to part ways. I didn`t have their numbers, so I couldn`t communicate with them to meet up later, which is a real shame.

The day we went to the village went ok as well, me and my friends went to a swimming pool, where I met 4 girls from England on holidays as well, around my age. They knew little german and so I taught them a bit, and they all seemed to dig me, the prettiest one especially. I kept slowly walking backwards and the always followed suit, trying to be close to me. I flirted with all of them and built intrigue, which really hooked them, but all of a sudden they had to leave, which they did with looks of regret on their faces. Before they did I told them to give me a group hug, which they enthusiastically did, and during which I dunked them all into the water I couldn`t resist it, so sue me. Laughing, they bid their goodbyes.

I apologise to anyone reading this for the chronologically mismanaged, scrambled post of last week, I really need more exercise writing posts like these.

THINGS THAT WENT WELL:
TOUCH. I touched often, and girls always liked it. Sometimes I went a bit overboard though, so I should calibrate it a bit more.
Responding to TESTS. I`m getting better at it, and it`s fun if I manage to transform her test into a chase frame!
CHASE FRAMING. Slowly incorporating it into my conversations. Slowly but surely, I`m getting better at them!

THINGS TO WORK ON:
CONVERSATION: Nonverbally I am great, but once I open my mouth, it can happen that I lose some of the attraction that was there before, if I`m not in a good state.
AGGRESSIVENESS: Be more aggressive, be more of an ARROGANT ASSHOLE! I`m forcing myself to go after what I want, but I want to do it to an even greater extent.
CHASE FRAMING: I`m working on it, but I`m nowhere near where I want to be.
PERSISTANCE: Similar to aggressiveness, but not the same. I need to PERSIST TO THE END.

PLAY FOR THE WIN: Somehow, I`m not going for sex 100%, rather, I`m trying to build attraction, and then move her. Perhaps I need to have sex as ulterior, conscious goal in mind, more than I do now, because I`m pretty sure that if I had isolated sooner, I would have dicked up some wet young pussy this week.

The journey continues Next big thing to work on is cold approach, so I can practise all these things I want to get better at!

 

[Devilicious]

The last two days, I went on a family trip to the german city Munich.

Not much seduction-related to talk about, except small tidbits. For example, at a very popular spot there are two big lion statues, and I couldn`t resist climbing onto one so my dad could take a photo.

Once I jumped back down, and we started to leave, I was approached by a group of three nervous girls, the leader of which walked up to me and asked my shyly if I could take their photo, to which I of course agreed, flashing them a seductive smile. They giggled, and went into position to have their photo taken. Once it was done, I handed them back their camera, and they thanked me again.

I get teased for this by my family, who didn`t miss the signs the girls gave me. My mother takes my side though, and insists my dad is jealous. Later, in the hotel, she told me that the next time that happened, I should do this:

She then showed me a sexy smile, and said I should ask, once they ask me if I could take their photo, "I should do what?" And then smile sexily.

Funny how my mom wants to teach me little pieces of game.. I certainly don`t mind! And I`ll keep her advice in mind, maybe I`ll have an opportunity soon to test it

 

[Devilicious]

Been a while since I posted here. The reason was because I decided to get One Date.

Why? At first I didn`t plan to, but it got me thinking about what to spend my money on (if at all), and I came to the realization that the best thing you can invest in is yourself.

That gave me access to the Alumni Forum, on which I have posted my recent FR+. I`ll copy paste it here, for cleanliness sake

Hey guys, this is one that took an entire different course than I had anticipated. Let's see what I'm talking about:

A girl I know from school, who is a year younger than me, texted me after seeing each other after the holidays if I understood Sinus functions.

I told her yes, knowing what she was implying, and she confirmed my suspicions by asking me to help her, and inviting me to a pizza for my trouble.

Game on.

We quickly handle the logistics: her place. Her mom would have been at home, but she later tells me she phoned with her and that her mom would only come later.. meaning we'd be alone

I arrive at around 4pm, and have to phone her to open the door - she was in the garden, tending to the two rabbits they have. She's wearing some super short shorts, and a white blouse over a revealing top. Now, since we're all men reading this (probably), let me describe her to you:

She's rather small, around 160cm, and has a nice physique. She also has a feminine face framed by two stunning blue eyes, and full lips. Her hair is chocolate brown, and she has the tips dyed purple.

I greet her by first teasing her for keeping me waiting, and then give her a warm hug, pulling her into me.

I had also determined that she was an arousal seeker, and used that knowledge by touching her more heavily and keeping the focus on movement and excitement.

After I arrive and take off my jacket, she starts bombarding me with different songs she likes. I start walking to the kitchen and she follows me, where I help myself to a glass of water. We then go to her room.

I ask for small bits of compliance here and there, and she always complied. "Show me this," or, "show me that outfit again" (which she had quickly taken out and had nearly put it back in the closet.

I also touched her a lot, but she was rather reserved, and I tried different things.
She had these really fluffy houseshoes on, of which I of course stole one and pronounced mine. She said she had given her shoes a name, and that if I could find it out, I could keep the shoes.

Here's where I started touching more heavily, spinning her around and pulling her into me, all while telling her to give me a tip. I think this part got her used to being so close in my presence, but I could see how reserved she was nonetheless.

I generated indirect compliance here by swaying her body from one side to the other, with her following the motions I prompted.
Interesting side note: after this, pulling her into me worked way better. I wonder why?

What I liked to do was to pull her backwards into almost a bridge position, with me holding her back, and then pulling her back up again.

At one point she tried to tickle me, and once I found out she was ticklish, I mercilessly destroyed and dominated her in a fun tickling competition, which ended up with her lying on the floor and me on top of her, pinning her arms. She still wasn't ready for the kiss, however.

When we're back in vertical standing positions, I start pulling her into me and keeping her close this time, wrapping my arms around her and of course grabbing her nice ass, and keeping a hand there.

I then have her teach me how to say a long, nonsensical word, and I taught her the spanish version, which goes something like this:

Superfragilisticoespiralidoso

While doing this, our bodies are pressed closely against each other, and I guide us to her mirror, which I press her against. At one point, I flipped us, so that I was locked in with my back against the mirror/wall, and her still pressed against me.

During this, I sense she's resistant to the kiss, but as I let my deep, gutteral voice wash over her, with me speaking nearly directly into her ear, her resistance crumbles. Soon, our lips are close together, and I just go for it, not knowing what to expect.

According to Chase, a good kisser starts slow, and ramps up the passion.
Well, I started off slow, but this girl just attacked my mouth with her tongue, and soon our tongues are interlocked, with her arms around my neck and one of my hands at her neck, and the other grabbing her ass, as I turn her around and press her against the wall.

I make sure to break the kiss first. She seems breathless, and turns her head away.

"This is a bad idea," she said.
"This is most definitely a bad idea," I reply, and kiss her again.
The same battle for supremacy ensues.

I start pushing her towards her bed, bring her to the edge, and keep on pushing, so we fall on her bed. She breaks the kiss this time, and I start kissing her neck, and then when I go back to her mouth, I run my hands across her body and breasts, and take one out.
The nipple is erect when she says:
"I really can't."

I say nothing and keep enjoying her body.

This is when things take a turn to the unexpected.

"I.. I had a bad experience. I really can't!" she says again, but this time, something in her voice makes me stop.

"Someone... took you against your will?" I ask, slowly.

She nods, and when I say nothing, she continues.

"My dad... when I was 10... or 9, I don't know."

At this point, I know I can't proceed to sex, and I'm feeling compassion for her.

I don't say anything, but I look at her concerned in the eyes, and in that position, with me still lying on top of her, one hand stroking her face, the other wiping away tears, she told me a bit about her past.

Her dad raped her when she was 9 or 10 years old, and it ruined her life. She had a boyfriend of 5 months, but she always blocked sex, and never told him about what happened.
In fact, I'm the first person she has ever told it to...
She hates her mom as well, and loves her little sister, for whom she'll do anything. Unfortunately, that sister lives with her rich dad, and doesn't know about what happened either. Not even her mom knows it, a mom who regularly beat her until she started threatening with the police.
Her mom is forcing her to move out by summer, which is terrible for her, since she's still in school and not 18 yet, and unable to finance herself.

She also told me (very emotionally) she had several times nearly taken her life, but only had failed to commit because of the thought of her little sister.

I tried to comfort her and make her focus on the things she loved doing, such as roofing and climbing. What else could I do? I didn't like seeing a pretty girl like that in ruins because of a horrible event that happened before she could even truly know what it was.

She did ask me why I was helping her, if all I wanted was sex. I simply told her I was helping her because I wanted to.

Soon after, her mom surpisingly came home, and we put on our best nonchalant faces. Her mom has her eyes, but that's it. She openly insulted her daughter in front of me, which tells me everything I need to know about their relationship, even without knowing the story beforehand.

We then go and actually do some maths, which was easy as fuck, and I got her to comply more. The vibe was playful, and still slightly sexual - I kept touching her often.
Why? Because I like touching pretty girls, that's why.

After we finish maths, we talk and banter a bit, and she leans her head against my chest as we talk.

Before I have to go, she breaks the chair, which allow me some excellent teases. She punches my arm repeatedly and makes silly faces at me in responce.

She accompanies me to the door of the building, where I pull her into me again (I'm beginning to love this move!) and hold her close, and spank her ass.

She likes it, of course. Before I go, I give her a small peck on the lips, smile at her seductively, and pinch her ass.

I leave to her delightful yelp.

She then texts me this:

Hey, thanks for coming over ^^

Then, 15min later, this:

Please forget what we discussed. I shouldn't have said it

I reply by saying it would stay between us, and that it's nobody's business.
She then goes on and expresses some concerns about my intentions - why would a playboy like me help her? (Her words, more or less)
Basically, she wants to know if this is just a ploy for sex.

I tell her I simply wanted to help, and if I just wanted sex, I'd have continued to escalate.
Which isn't quite true - continuing to escalate would have made her block off completely, my intuition tells me.

The conversation continues, and the real concern pops up:
Other guys and girls told her I simply wanted her for sex, and that made her hesitant with me.

Which surprised me. I haven't actually fucked any girls from school (yet, I hope), but I guess I might have been a bit too touchy in ski-camp! Seems like I have a reputation now.
Also, she knows a girl I nearly banged in a classroom - she bailed out last minute though. She had a boyfriend that found out. Haha xD

I lay aside her concerns by telling her how if you want something, you should be honest about it.

She does give me one thing to think about:

She tells me she that if sex is what I'm after, she can't guarantee anything (Because of the rape).


Now I need to decide how to proceed. I like her, but she's not girlfriend material - Suicidal thoughts + hangs with petty criminals, some of which actually are in jail because they robbed a store!

What am I after? Well, sex seems pretty great. As embarrassing as it is, I haven't slept with my first girl yet. Nonetheless, thanks to guys like Chase and Hector, I'm continuously getting closer. For example, this girl said (twice) that she didn't even want to know how many girls I had been with!

Which means I must be doing something right. The entire time, I was going on instincts, with little tidbits of Chase filtering through; such as getting more compliance, etc.

I'm thinking about simply having her as a friend - I am no White Knight, but I do have compassion and empathy... thoughts?


We came to the conclusion that it was best to not continue, as she`d most likely get very attatched once we slept together. I decided to keep her as a friend, since we have a nice vibe going on, and it`ll allow me deeper insights into the female psych.

 

[Devilicious]

The girl from before invited me to pizza, and I accepted.

I arrived at her house at about 5pm, and we order our pizza. We then spend time teasing and talking before it finally arrives.
We then moved to the couch to eat, and her younger sister joined us - a cute blonde, which loves to insult people just as much as her sister.

Which made me wonder: what is the best way to react when she insults you playfully? What I normally do is either completely exaggerate it, or look at her sceptically in response. However, if she constinuously insulted me, what would be the best way to react? Probably to be direct and tell her to cut it off.

Anyway, the most exciting part comes next.

She invited me to go roofing, in this case climb a contruction crane, and I decided to accept, because why the fuck not! I have never done something of the sort, and was curious.

We waited until it was dark outside, and she then gave me gloves and a mask to wear. We then say goodbye to her sister and head out.
Unfortunately, my clothes are not very dark, with light brown pants and a blue jacket, which isn`t ideal if I don`t want to be seen.

She tells me the "rules": Wait until no one is in sight, and then climb the fence to the contruction site. Only one person at a time per ladder when climbing up, and if you`re climbing up and a car or pedestrain comes into sight, freeze, and don`t move until their gone.

In the case someone sees us anyway and calls the police or security, the solution is ancient and unchanged for millenia: run like hell! She told me the escape routes, and with them memorized, we start.

At first, we chilled around at the fence we`d need to jump, but for about 5minutes, there were too many cars coming through. Then, when everything was quite, we raised our masks, ran to the fence, and deftly climbed over it. We then ran to some cover and went on our knees, listening intently. With no one raising any alarm, we continued to the actual crane and swiftly started the climb.

I`m no slow climber, but this girl scampered up the ladders like she was born for it.

Two times I had to stop because someone came around the corner, but both times, they didn`t even bother to look up and meet my intense gaze.

Soon, we were pretty far over the ground, and when we reached the top, we were about 80metres in the air.

Since it`s dark, the city is illuminated brightly - and we have a spectacular view of the lake and the city.
The crane, I should add, is close to the centre of the city, but in an area where not many people pass.

She then asks if we should go on the arm of the crane, and I inspect it sceptically. You`d have to stand on a little metal grid the width of one-and-a-half feet, and hold on a horizontal metal rod as you make progress.

I decide, why not

She is in the lead and I cautiously follow, slowly inching my way forwards. A slight breeze plays with my hair, and I look down, and my grip on the rod gets harder. It`s an 80 metres drop directly down onto a street.

After 5 or 10 metres the metal grid to stand on ends, and I have to stand on the iron bar. I am intensly focused on the task at hand, with my life literally on the line, and it works - I don`t die.

When the metal rod ends, however, I decide I can`t go any further. It`s about halfway till the end.

We turn around, and go back to the part which has a little metal grid, and carefully sit down there, to admire the view. We stay there for 2 hours, talking and flirting, with her leaning against me.

After it got somewhat cold, we went back to the drivers cabin, which was heated, and warmed our asses up.

When we left the cabin again, I took a moment to look around. The city was beautiful from that height, and the lake reflected the lights of the houses, the water looking like a gigantic mirror. The air was fresh, and stars shone brightly above us. And then I look at her, and I couldn`t help but marvel. Here I was, in a beautiful world, with a breathtaking girl, and instincs took over.

I move over to her, grab her head, and pull her into me for a passionate kiss. She wraps her arms around me and melts into the kiss, kissing passionately back. We both know it`s nothing serious, but I still, after having tasted her lips to my satisfaction, move on to taste her delicious neck.

I haven`t tested this on many girls, but this one went absolutely crazy when I kissed her neck - I felt her entire body flush with excitement and horniness, and I loved every second of it. It`s just teasing, really, but it`s excellent practise!

Unfortunately, I had to go soon after, and we made the climb down unnoticed.

All in all, a very exciting evening and night.

 

[The Tycoon]

Great work on your journey man! It's inspiring to see another member my own age here, who's also working on improving himself. Keep that inferno burning

 

[Devilicious]

I should be more disciplined with this journal.

Not much new to report, since I'm extremely busy with school, I focused almost entirely on my mindsets and inner game.

I'm continuously working on myself as well. I started meditating regularly, and going to the gym is now showing noticable gains. Upgrading my fashion has also yielded excellent results.

I'm also battling against my insecurities.

My biggest goal right now is still to be able to cold approach more.
The problem until now was this: I'd see a girl, and think: I should approach her! Come on, approach her now! Turn auto-pilot off and chase that beautiful ass But then I'd keep on walking, and it would feel like a failure on my part.

I've changed my way of thinking, after seeing the advice of someone on the alumni forums: keep the winner effect on your side!

What that means is everytime I notice an approach invitation, it's a win! Because that means I am getting more and more perceptice. And even if I don't approach, I'll visualize how I could have made the approach, and play the scenario in my mind.

This has the danger of me falling into inactivity, though. The goal is to end up approaching women, not being proud for having not acted.

How I will combat this:
-And step forwards, no matter how small, is still a step in the right direction! Each time, the barrier against approaching is eroded more and more, and is easier to jump over. Eventually, it will be gone altogether.


I promised myself I will be great, and for that I will have to push myself. The more I push myself, the more I endure. The more I endure, the more I learn. And the more I learn, the more I suceed. (Quote from Hector)

I write this admittedly scrambled post down to motivate myself.

I have a vision, and may the gods help anyone standing in my way.

But right now, my biggest enemy is a mental barrier in my mind, that stops me from acting how I want to. And I am doing everything I can to tear it down, crush it to dust, and burn the dust to nothingness.

 

[Devilicious]

I recently noticed something.

Every time I saw a cute girl, I would think to myself: Ooh, look at that cute girl! I can go approach her! But during that thought, while thinking about approaching her, I already have a feeling in my gut that I won`t. It`s a feeling that tells me the decision is already made - namely to not do anything.

I'm not sure if this is new, or only something that has always been there and has only now surfaced because I'm closer than ever to cold approaching consistently and sponatenously. (The cold approaches so far have been split-second decisions, or moments where my feet just kept walking towards the girl).

It's a deep, sinking feeling, and I will get rid of it. This is what I will focus on for the next month.

How? Well, I hear a lot of people even from here are having success with GLL's (good looking loser) approach anxiety program. It starts off with simply asking people (preferably pretty girls) the time. Once you`re able to do that, it`s way easier to transition into approaches where you make your intentions known from the start by going direct.

I also think about the 'rewards' of approaching the girl, like imagining her in my bed and me ravaging her and fucking her senseless, which helps quite a bit. This week I have quite a lot of school work to do, but next week I`ll go out with the sole purpose of approaching girls. No going home until I at least asked 5 girls for the time (which I image will be easy). We shall see

See ya then!

 

[Devilicious]

GLL day 4: Walk up to 5 women and ask them for the time, then LEAVE.

I staying longer in the city today to do this. First girl was standing to the side of the walkway: long black hair and nice physique. I walk up to her and kinda turn around her so I can face her better, and say:

"Excuse me..."

She immediately turns around and smiles at me. I smile back, positively surprised by her face, and she has beautiful blue eyes.
I ask her for the time and she looks at her phone, which was already in her hand, and then tells it to me, again smiling.

I thank her and give her a sexy departing smile.

I didn't expect her reaction to my approach be so positive! It may have to do with me being fashionably dressed today, but it's a good sign - it means my fundamentals are in good shape.

There's a girl a bit furthur up but I don't approach, since the previous girl can still see me.

I keep walking and then see an attractive woman walking in my direction. I stop in front of her and give her a policeman stop, putting both of my hands out in front of me.

I was slightly bolder in this one.

"Excuse me... can you give me the time?" I ask.

She looks at me a bit startled, but looks at her phone and shows me the time. "It's 12:30", she says, and I again thank her warmly and leave. I think I interrupted her in auto-pilot.

I go on. I see a pretty black girl in a summer dress and decide to approach her, but she's walking so fast that I'd have to jog to catch her, and I didn't do that, would seem strange if I invested all that effort just to ask for the time, especially with other people around who I can ask more easily. Maybe I should do it anyway

I go to a group of 3 women instead, who are in a discussion. I again say "excuse me," and then ask for the time. Two of them don't speak (local language) though, and I repeat myself, after which the third woman understood me and gives me the time.

Each time, I asked her and then stood there waiting, smiling slightly, and everyone I approached reciprocated with the same vibe. In fact, I'm pretty sure the first girl was interested in me.

I did two more approaches. One in a small supermarket, a less attractive but still cute woman, and the last one when waiting for my train.

She was standing in front of me, and I wondered whether or not I should ask her for the time, since there was a clearly visible train station clock nearby, but decide to do so anyway.

I walk up to her and as I do, she immediately turns to me and takes off a headphone.
I ask her again for the time, and she looks behind me (to the huge-ass clock there) and tells me. I thank her, and leave with a smile.

I was well received each time, which is definitely embolding. I didn't have much difficulties approaching, and wasn't nervous when in the set, but I did notice that I didn't do things like jog up to someone. That'll come later

All in all, a good first step!