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Hey guys, I’m making a new journal, changed my name from definetly_not_a_gymrat to Dark Stallion, hoping to undergo a personal change, especially in the seduction space, I feel like Dark Stallion suits me more, and what I want in life, rather than the other name, which tbh wasnt a good username.
Starting a new journal, posted in a bit from definitely_not_a_gymrat’s journal, though with the new name, I figured I would make a new journal since it’s been months since I’ve updated that.
A bit of background about me, I’m 21, 5’8” Indian male with medium/heavy stubble and pushed forward, rugged hair(think Mediterranean type hairstyle), with a lean muscular build(been working out for 3 years).
Throughout most of my life, I’ve interacted with girls, not really sexually as well. Throughout the end of high school, I took a female friend to prom, she ended up hooking up with her ex at the venue, which tbh made me feel like shit. Even though we were friends, I was secretly hoping for a bit more(classic friendzone) and tbh it was very disrespectful nonetheless.
Also, throughout most of my life, had fixations with one special girl that I never really knew or met, I wrote about a very bad oneitis incident in my other journal, not going to elaborate too much because I’ve moved on from that(unfollowed her on insta, but she still follows me, extra fan).
Also, realizing how stupid oneitis, had one for a girl in hs I never talked to, one of my top girls in high school(looks wise). Funny enough, bumped into her at a bar this summer, went to chat to her, threw a light tease her way, she didn’t respond well tbh(didn’t take it as an insult, just completely bland), figured she had no personality from actually talking to her, and have no idea how the hell I crushed on her, I would’ve never entertained a relationship with someone with as little personality.
Anwyays, my body count is 2, though I’ve done stuff with other girls, just not all the way, like 10-15, never had a relationship, which I want to change, but first get my bc up(within reasonable means and actions).
That’s the summary on me, people see me as a ladies man(idk why) or someone that will not be afraid to talk to a girl(I can see this) but hoping to improve and get real results, because reactions don’t matter. Have been interacting with girls more in the way I want and need to, which is showing signs of improvement for me.
Going to post things here that shouldn’t be posted on beginners, general, or made a field report.
Starting a new journal, posted in a bit from definitely_not_a_gymrat’s journal, though with the new name, I figured I would make a new journal since it’s been months since I’ve updated that.
A bit of background about me, I’m 21, 5’8” Indian male with medium/heavy stubble and pushed forward, rugged hair(think Mediterranean type hairstyle), with a lean muscular build(been working out for 3 years).
Throughout most of my life, I’ve interacted with girls, not really sexually as well. Throughout the end of high school, I took a female friend to prom, she ended up hooking up with her ex at the venue, which tbh made me feel like shit. Even though we were friends, I was secretly hoping for a bit more(classic friendzone) and tbh it was very disrespectful nonetheless.
Also, throughout most of my life, had fixations with one special girl that I never really knew or met, I wrote about a very bad oneitis incident in my other journal, not going to elaborate too much because I’ve moved on from that(unfollowed her on insta, but she still follows me, extra fan).
Also, realizing how stupid oneitis, had one for a girl in hs I never talked to, one of my top girls in high school(looks wise). Funny enough, bumped into her at a bar this summer, went to chat to her, threw a light tease her way, she didn’t respond well tbh(didn’t take it as an insult, just completely bland), figured she had no personality from actually talking to her, and have no idea how the hell I crushed on her, I would’ve never entertained a relationship with someone with as little personality.
Anwyays, my body count is 2, though I’ve done stuff with other girls, just not all the way, like 10-15, never had a relationship, which I want to change, but first get my bc up(within reasonable means and actions).
That’s the summary on me, people see me as a ladies man(idk why) or someone that will not be afraid to talk to a girl(I can see this) but hoping to improve and get real results, because reactions don’t matter. Have been interacting with girls more in the way I want and need to, which is showing signs of improvement for me.
Going to post things here that shouldn’t be posted on beginners, general, or made a field report.